what am i like...a question that suddenly pop in my mind...an answer that i would like to find.
an ironic person...a perfectionist who believes that no one and nothing is perfect in this world...a libra with a scale...who believes that nothing is fair but always try hard to balance it all...a person without confidence yet trying to help others with their confidence...ironically ironic.
who can tell me more...of wat a person am i...calling all the friends i know...do post it in my comments if you know...and i'll treasure them all.
12.21.2005
12.20.2005
12.07.2005
ooh...what a day!
begins with a real blue mood...and i mean it...no baby blue, sky blue or bright blue....but deep dull blue! no mood at all to think of which to wear...end up with a sloppy tee and jeans.
thought of taking a bus to work...so that i can enjoy my book (just discovered that i actually have charlie & the chocolate factory)...but the moment i got out of the house...i knock my arm against the door knob...how painful it was and now even starting to turn blueblack *sob*...follow with tripping over my own jeans (way too long) and the next moment i realised the heel on my shoe came off! so have to unlock the door and go back to change into another pair...which means, there goes my plan of taking bus...but had to travel by train instead...gosh! wat a morning to start with!! and this is just the begining...oh dear dear dear!
the moment i got to office...had to face the dreadful task of the day....doing the job that the admin should be doing...so the whole day is going to be spent on typing x'mas cards and pasting envelopes...i felt like a highly paid admin asst! though its an easy task...but i didn't get through it smoothly either...first...it was paper cut on my finger...then had to find out all the silly errors my asst had done...at that moment i wish there is supplement available for common sense! and that's not all...things just aren't going my way...run out of cards...meaning i have to get them after work! arrrggh...i have to travel to town in that sloppy outfit of mine! *faint*
just when its near to 5pm...my colleage had to call from shanghai...telling me that vendor complaining that i did not post their products in our website...so i have to update the website...but must be my lousy luck...no matter what i try...i simply can't get the product pictures uploaded...so...there's only descriptions...well...at least better than nothing.
thought that since i have to go to town...might as well go get that x'mas present for my friend. left the office thinking the day is almost over…can’t get worst…but guess what…had to miss the bus and couldn’t squeeze into the next two buses…finally got myself to the train station….and guess what lousy luck i have…the button on my shoe came off…couldn’t do much but just hope people don’t notice *malu*
finally got myself safe and sound to cityhall…had to walk a long way down citylink hoping to get that x’mas gift…but really i shouldn’t have…spent a long time in the shop finding what i want but only to find out that they run out of stock! but nevermind…told myself i just have to walk a bit further to another shop down the road…after getting the x’mas cards. so i got to marks & spencers for the cards…but guess what…the designs sucks…so i walk over to mph instead but no better luck…the cards there were worst…end up still have to go back to marks for those..haiz
after getting 10 boxes of the cards…i make my way (quite a distance) to the other side of the road…once again hoping to get that x’mas gift…at long last i found the shop i was looking for…but…not only was it not exactly what i wanted….the price was like “oh my gosh”…so end up i still didn’t get the gift *sigh*
by the time i was walking back to the train station…it was almost 8.30pm…and i yet to have my dinner *sob* and not that only…while waiting to cross over to the station…my headache start acting up…arrrrggh!! when i finally got to boon keng…hoping for a smooth journey home…i had to walk to the wrong side of the road…and by the time i got back on the right track…my bus drove right off!
oh my gosh…how bad can a day gets! cannot be any worst right? …not nightmare when i fall asleep *touchwood*…oh pls...let it be a dreamless nite!
where has my lady luck gone to? long holidays?? oooooh…how i miss her!
begins with a real blue mood...and i mean it...no baby blue, sky blue or bright blue....but deep dull blue! no mood at all to think of which to wear...end up with a sloppy tee and jeans.
thought of taking a bus to work...so that i can enjoy my book (just discovered that i actually have charlie & the chocolate factory)...but the moment i got out of the house...i knock my arm against the door knob...how painful it was and now even starting to turn blueblack *sob*...follow with tripping over my own jeans (way too long) and the next moment i realised the heel on my shoe came off! so have to unlock the door and go back to change into another pair...which means, there goes my plan of taking bus...but had to travel by train instead...gosh! wat a morning to start with!! and this is just the begining...oh dear dear dear!
the moment i got to office...had to face the dreadful task of the day....doing the job that the admin should be doing...so the whole day is going to be spent on typing x'mas cards and pasting envelopes...i felt like a highly paid admin asst! though its an easy task...but i didn't get through it smoothly either...first...it was paper cut on my finger...then had to find out all the silly errors my asst had done...at that moment i wish there is supplement available for common sense! and that's not all...things just aren't going my way...run out of cards...meaning i have to get them after work! arrrggh...i have to travel to town in that sloppy outfit of mine! *faint*
just when its near to 5pm...my colleage had to call from shanghai...telling me that vendor complaining that i did not post their products in our website...so i have to update the website...but must be my lousy luck...no matter what i try...i simply can't get the product pictures uploaded...so...there's only descriptions...well...at least better than nothing.
thought that since i have to go to town...might as well go get that x'mas present for my friend. left the office thinking the day is almost over…can’t get worst…but guess what…had to miss the bus and couldn’t squeeze into the next two buses…finally got myself to the train station….and guess what lousy luck i have…the button on my shoe came off…couldn’t do much but just hope people don’t notice *malu*
finally got myself safe and sound to cityhall…had to walk a long way down citylink hoping to get that x’mas gift…but really i shouldn’t have…spent a long time in the shop finding what i want but only to find out that they run out of stock! but nevermind…told myself i just have to walk a bit further to another shop down the road…after getting the x’mas cards. so i got to marks & spencers for the cards…but guess what…the designs sucks…so i walk over to mph instead but no better luck…the cards there were worst…end up still have to go back to marks for those..haiz
after getting 10 boxes of the cards…i make my way (quite a distance) to the other side of the road…once again hoping to get that x’mas gift…at long last i found the shop i was looking for…but…not only was it not exactly what i wanted….the price was like “oh my gosh”…so end up i still didn’t get the gift *sigh*
by the time i was walking back to the train station…it was almost 8.30pm…and i yet to have my dinner *sob* and not that only…while waiting to cross over to the station…my headache start acting up…arrrrggh!! when i finally got to boon keng…hoping for a smooth journey home…i had to walk to the wrong side of the road…and by the time i got back on the right track…my bus drove right off!
oh my gosh…how bad can a day gets! cannot be any worst right? …not nightmare when i fall asleep *touchwood*…oh pls...let it be a dreamless nite!
where has my lady luck gone to? long holidays?? oooooh…how i miss her!
11.30.2005
逃避
人往往在面对困惑，不知如何抉择、如何取舍时，选择逃避。这是无可避免的，因为人的本性就如此。
逃避并非不可，但要清楚知道的是，逃避却绝非解决问题的方法之一。在逃避的背后仍有醒觉于面对现实的一天。因为不管逃的多久、逃得多远，问题始终存在。长久的逃避反而只会让问题在时间于距离的介入变得更深、更重！
可 笑的是，逃避也可算是在选择面对问题时所踏出的第一步。它，是人在发掘问题的存在后，努力尝试解决，确又无法做到时选择的一条路。因为逃避能让人在困惑中 拥有一个可休息的角落，暂时放下、暂时离开。但人往往在逃避中迷失了、忘时了！忘了回到现实、忘了时间不会为他们而暂停！
逃避是人的嗜好，是每一个人都避免不了的，是让人不想爱、但却又不能恨的！
人往往在面对困惑，不知如何抉择、如何取舍时，选择逃避。这是无可避免的，因为人的本性就如此。
逃避并非不可，但要清楚知道的是，逃避却绝非解决问题的方法之一。在逃避的背后仍有醒觉于面对现实的一天。因为不管逃的多久、逃得多远，问题始终存在。长久的逃避反而只会让问题在时间于距离的介入变得更深、更重！
可 笑的是，逃避也可算是在选择面对问题时所踏出的第一步。它，是人在发掘问题的存在后，努力尝试解决，确又无法做到时选择的一条路。因为逃避能让人在困惑中 拥有一个可休息的角落，暂时放下、暂时离开。但人往往在逃避中迷失了、忘时了！忘了回到现实、忘了时间不会为他们而暂停！
逃避是人的嗜好，是每一个人都避免不了的，是让人不想爱、但却又不能恨的！
11.16.2005
Love Personality Test
That means you are more Introverted than Extroverted, Sensing than Intuitive, Feeling than Thinking, and more Perceiving than Judging.
Being an ISFP means that you're the kind of person who can usually be counted on. More than most people, your integrity seems to be of central importance to you. This fact bodes well for those around you. It means you tend to say what you mean, keep your promises, and walk your talk. There's very little empty chatter when you're around. Another way you show you can be counted on is by being sensitive to others. You usually know just the right thing to do to make someone feel valued in your life. Although you're not the kind who's big on intense emotional confessions or displays, your feelings run deep. One way you're able to show your true emotions is by being faithful.
In relationships, you'll usually try hard to make things work. Unlike some, you're not likely to freak out when there's a bump in the road. This is probably just another aspect of your patience and ability to stay on task. But be careful of taking your loyalties too far. Perseverance will usually pay off for you. However, sometimes you may try too hard and stay in situations that aren't necessarily the best for you. Leading a harmonious life can be vital to people of your type. As a result, most times you'd rather find a way to compromise than rock the boat. You'll even take on others' responsibilities if you feel it's necessary. Know that the right person will not take advantage of this generous spirit. You can use your highly empathic nature to help spot the one who's right for you. You seem to have a talent for knowing how others really feel without having them spell everything out for you. This intuition can be a great gift in relationships and in other aspects of life.
That means you are more Introverted than Extroverted, Sensing than Intuitive, Feeling than Thinking, and more Perceiving than Judging.
Being an ISFP means that you're the kind of person who can usually be counted on. More than most people, your integrity seems to be of central importance to you. This fact bodes well for those around you. It means you tend to say what you mean, keep your promises, and walk your talk. There's very little empty chatter when you're around. Another way you show you can be counted on is by being sensitive to others. You usually know just the right thing to do to make someone feel valued in your life. Although you're not the kind who's big on intense emotional confessions or displays, your feelings run deep. One way you're able to show your true emotions is by being faithful.
In relationships, you'll usually try hard to make things work. Unlike some, you're not likely to freak out when there's a bump in the road. This is probably just another aspect of your patience and ability to stay on task. But be careful of taking your loyalties too far. Perseverance will usually pay off for you. However, sometimes you may try too hard and stay in situations that aren't necessarily the best for you. Leading a harmonious life can be vital to people of your type. As a result, most times you'd rather find a way to compromise than rock the boat. You'll even take on others' responsibilities if you feel it's necessary. Know that the right person will not take advantage of this generous spirit. You can use your highly empathic nature to help spot the one who's right for you. You seem to have a talent for knowing how others really feel without having them spell everything out for you. This intuition can be a great gift in relationships and in other aspects of life.
11.05.2005
爱无涯。。
一个似简单又难的题目。。但猪头近可在瞬间就写出了一篇感人非常的短文！ http://jasonchng.blogspot.com/
爱是无边无际的。。是让人生死相许的。。是庸人之扰的！
爱。没有时会让人渴望。。拥有后则让人烦恼。。这是我的好友常对我说的！ 是与否；对或错。。你认为呢?
爱。是一种很奇妙的感觉。。一种任何人都不能缺少的!
爱。无论是对朋友,家人,或情人。。都是美好的!
所谓爱无涯。它就是不分国籍；种族；性别。。。就是无边无际!
一个似简单又难的题目。。但猪头近可在瞬间就写出了一篇感人非常的短文！ http://jasonchng.blogspot.com/
爱是无边无际的。。是让人生死相许的。。是庸人之扰的！
爱。没有时会让人渴望。。拥有后则让人烦恼。。这是我的好友常对我说的！ 是与否；对或错。。你认为呢?
爱。是一种很奇妙的感觉。。一种任何人都不能缺少的!
爱。无论是对朋友,家人,或情人。。都是美好的!
所谓爱无涯。它就是不分国籍；种族；性别。。。就是无边无际!
10.08.2005
9.15.2005
TAGGED!?
i've been tagged by UNIQUE MOMENTS OF OUR LIVES
ok...here goes:
1. HATE ants!!!
2. fear butterflies...
3. never ever go for horror shows!
so...who should i tag...hmm...taggingggg......jarene..jason (mr chng)...and......
the one who tagged me (you know who)!!!
so...wat you have to do!? (first you have to give 3 facts about yourself, then invite or "arrow" 3 other people to do the same). got it!?....good...keep the tag going!
ok...here goes:
1. HATE ants!!!
2. fear butterflies...
3. never ever go for horror shows!
so...who should i tag...hmm...taggingggg......jarene..jason (mr chng)...and......
the one who tagged me (you know who)!!!
so...wat you have to do!? (first you have to give 3 facts about yourself, then invite or "arrow" 3 other people to do the same). got it!?....good...keep the tag going!
9.12.2005
9.10.2005
心。脑。爱。的三角关系
好友曾对我说过“人是用脑去爱，不是用心去爱”。。我一直都不相信这一点。。应为爱是那么的感性，让人失去理智于不顾一切。 但，也许是那不如意的过去或是那不知觉的成长，让如今的我却十分同意这个原理。。。
心。她让你拥有感觉，对或错的感觉。。感觉对了就是甜丝丝的。。而真正操纵爱与不爱的是那神秘的脑！
脑。是他源源不断的在对心说“我爱他，我不爱他”。。是他的一再催眠让心。投降了！
爱。她是被动的，是不由自主的，是被脑和心所支配的！
今天的你是让脑对心说了“我爱他”或是“我不爱他”呢？
心。她让你拥有感觉，对或错的感觉。。感觉对了就是甜丝丝的。。而真正操纵爱与不爱的是那神秘的脑！
脑。是他源源不断的在对心说“我爱他，我不爱他”。。是他的一再催眠让心。投降了！
爱。她是被动的，是不由自主的，是被脑和心所支配的！
今天的你是让脑对心说了“我爱他”或是“我不爱他”呢？
9.09.2005
沉静的夜里
对他的感情已没有。。所有的爱以消失。。是我放下了。。还是太疲惫了？
回想起过去的他。。再看着眼前的他。。是他变了吗？还是不断在改变的人是我？那温柔体贴的他去了哪里。。那不求回报不断付出的我又在哪儿？这一切一切真让人感到心酸。。。
爱真的很奇妙。。就像一把双峰的刀。。它能让人拥有坚持到底的力气。。也能让人鼓起结束生命的勇气。
爱。是天使也是魔鬼。。是美好也是痛苦。。是酸甜苦辣的！
爱。是那么的遥不可及。。是可遇不可求的！
在这沉静的夜里，你是否也有所感受呢？
回想起过去的他。。再看着眼前的他。。是他变了吗？还是不断在改变的人是我？那温柔体贴的他去了哪里。。那不求回报不断付出的我又在哪儿？这一切一切真让人感到心酸。。。
爱真的很奇妙。。就像一把双峰的刀。。它能让人拥有坚持到底的力气。。也能让人鼓起结束生命的勇气。
爱。是天使也是魔鬼。。是美好也是痛苦。。是酸甜苦辣的！
爱。是那么的遥不可及。。是可遇不可求的！
在这沉静的夜里，你是否也有所感受呢？
感触。。。
有一首歌是这么唱的“被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦，我已经选择爱你这条路。。”
近日来我和两位好友聊了很多，令我感触很深。 她们俩，一位是被他人深深所爱，一位则毫无保留的付出感情。 但，在她们俩人身上我却同样看到了。。矛盾。挣扎。不知所措。
所谓被爱是幸福的。。真的如此吗？ 我不以为然。。。若爱你的人不是你所爱的，那幸福何在呢？
今天收到一封邮件。。里头的一篇短文正好证实了这一点。
朋友。。付出所有并非坏事。。但有所保留也是必须。。
近日来我和两位好友聊了很多，令我感触很深。 她们俩，一位是被他人深深所爱，一位则毫无保留的付出感情。 但，在她们俩人身上我却同样看到了。。矛盾。挣扎。不知所措。
所谓被爱是幸福的。。真的如此吗？ 我不以为然。。。若爱你的人不是你所爱的，那幸福何在呢？
今天收到一封邮件。。里头的一篇短文正好证实了这一点。
叶子
高中时，喜欢收集叶子，why? 因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树，好勇敢！
高中三年，我和一个男子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，我学会了一种不应该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行。他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还得掩饰自己心中强烈的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起。
我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总是不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？
每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一厢情愿吗？不爱我，为什么要对我这么好？他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚地知道他的喜好，他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？
尽管如此，我还是想在他身边，关心他，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我，就像每天晚上他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会播出一些时间给我。这样的等待，陪了我三年，等待是煎熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一刹那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的煎熬，这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。
直到了三年级下学期，高二一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片遥遥与坠的叶子，到最后，我发觉我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带给我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。
于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。
（叶子的离开，是应为风的追求，还是树得不挽留。）
朋友。。付出所有并非坏事。。但有所保留也是必须。。
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