too much to many things happened.. i really ACCEPTED...

i tired with everything.. i'm seriously speechless for wad i had done.. still.. i feel bad.. i feel guilty.. all towards *you.. i noe i've to bear these consequences..

UNFAIR.. cos i bear those consequences alone.. though i noe u were dissapointed towards her also.. but i have my reasons to say UNFAIR to *you.. u see i'm just nobody to u now.. transparent.. not in ur life anymore.. whereas someone still living in ur world.. someone could let u stay.. i CAN'T.. just because she don wan to lose u.. but not me.. someone u still cares and bother.. though in different positions.. though different weightage stands in ur heart.. i cannot be compare at all.. no matter how much time is going to past, things will not be e same.. laughter,joy,trust,bounds between us had GONE.. probably forever.. for now it just gone.. i cant do anything.. even though i faced my mistakes.. i was wrong.. apologies don helped anything.. cos wad is done cannot be undone.. probably u are laughing at me now.. but still.. i'm sincerely sorry..

worked at a law firm since starting of february... exactly 1 month stopped.. thought i could give my best shot in a new environment.. trying to do my best.. but it just gone just because i'm SLOW and some BIATCH stabbed me.. everybody doing the same thing but i'm e one who kena.. i learnt not to blame anyone but myself.. told myself its ok.. jiayou on the next job.. trying to think positive.. really trying..

had a VERY big quarrelled with my parents recently.. everything was brought out eventually.. had a harshed decison.. wanted to moved out at tt point of time.. almost got hit by dad.. he flared up.. mum flared up.. i was lost at tt time.. couldn't think of anything to do.. i ran away from problems.. i avoid calls.. avoid everything.. it helps.. but only for awhile.. still have to face it in e end.. HARSHED.. went to confront my mum.. though end up she was e one talking all e way, i'm e one standin there listening.. i got to noe wad they are thinking.. just hope things will get better at home.. trying to do wad they wan if possible to get back peace at home...

i'm in mixed feelings nowadays.. ups and downs.. just hope all quarrels will stopped.. if i could do anything to change all the situations, i'm willing to give a try....

对不起...

好累啊！



哈哈！我刚起床！睡得好饱喔！



生活好闷。

快点来爱我

离开这个星球
换一个时空
或许有人懂得欣赏我

小时候妈妈说
美男子不多
哄的我搞的我
跌的更重

浪漫爱情故事中
主角不是我
戏剧情节无厘头
嘲笑的是我
情歌唱的再温柔
只有麦陪我
怎么做怎么做
谁能救我

快点说爱我
爱我
快点来爱我
爱我
快点说爱我
爱我
来爱我
爱我

sleeping so long
so many lonely lands
this is my heart
listen

坏结局还不够
冷风打的我发抖
寂寞不断提醒我
你不知苦的时候愁
荒漠里的自由
在梦里都找寻我
命运有多幽默
被捉弄的人才懂

浪漫爱情故事中
主角不是我
戏剧情节无厘头
嘲笑的是我
情歌唱的再温柔
只有麦陪我
怎么做怎么做
谁能救我

快点说爱我
爱我
快点来爱我
爱我
快点说爱我
爱我
来爱我
爱我

相信终有一天
爱情来临之前
必先苦其一切
尝到才更甘甜
希望到那一天爱我的人出现
世界变得完美
我爱你
你爱我

快点说爱我
爱我
快点来爱我
爱我
快点说爱我
爱我
来爱我
爱我

today finally finish exams le! it was like.. FINALLY! -phew-

didnt went out to enjoy.. homely mood.. staying home to blog.. will i get through this O level? i wonder.. tts my last chance of studying.. finding jobs soon.. i hope i can find a 5days work week job jiu hao le.. it'll be better if like from monday to friday.. jobless jobless jobless.. wad job should i find? sigh... have to start fliping NEWSPAPER! ah!!! SIAN...

sometimes i really dono wad happened to myself.. if only i noe den i wont quarrel with you.. sometimes i really dono wad i talking or thinking.. u also dono bah.. we cared for each other but jiu shi dono why end up quarrel.. sigh.. i'm so sorry..

if only..... if only i..... SIGH!

back to blogging.. hee! so lazy to blog nowadays.. yawns.. exams haven finish.. SIANS... left 2 more paper jiu finish le! hehehe!

imagine i'm like rushing for revisions on all my papers.. so damn fuck up and tired.. after exams have to go find work le.. although abit lazy but this is wad i should do.. need to earn my own money.. just for someone.. just to see the smile on the face.. cos i long time never see that smile for long period.. i love that smile.. smile that brighten up my days...

even though i showed that i dont care,dont bother,but deep down in my heart i really do care abt everything.. that someone taught me things.. although lots of quarrels kept going on and on.. but deep down in our heart,we noe tt we cared for each other.. sometimes i really dono wad happened to us.. i feel so damn stoopid for wad i am doing.. if only.... if only i never attitude... if only i never think so much... if only i care more.. perhaps things wont get so worse.. maybe things wont be like now.. i miss... i miss those times... i miss those happy days.. but it seems like its getting so far from us.. pulling the gap closer is wad i wanna do.. i don't wan things to change from bad to worse.. i enjoyed those moments.. moments that reminds me of you.. moments that pull us tgt.. moments that make us happy and smile..

our sweet moments....... do u still remember?

there's always so much thing in my heart wanted to tell you.. but... things really didnt go well.. if only u will understand how i feel,i'll be contented.... but why u choose not to come back...........

GOD is so damn UNFAIR! why do this to me?!

i really miss those moments.. miss those moments with you and only you!

i miss every single moments with you.......... do i have the chance to get back? :(

时间能改变所有事情吗？

if only we could turn back time..
if only we can be happy again..
if only i wont make mistakes..
if only i treat u gd..
if only i...

i regretted! damn regretted!

i hate myself being so fuck up..

真的好想你！好想念以前的我们。我们还能再开心吗？我不想每天和你吵。只想开开心心陪你度过每一天。我脾气虽然很不好，但我也是关心你啊！怕你被欺负。对不起。 以后我尽量对你不发脾气。因为你真的对我很重要。我放不开！一直等待着你戴回我们的戒指。不能丢下我一个人好吗？

真的好爱你，林素汾！

：（

back to blogging..

today dear came my house and wake me up! pull my pants down somemore! grr! den went for my driving lesson.. today i drove until more den 80km/h.. hee.. den dear go see doctor at hougang.. went to bishan buy mooncake.. den went back my house put mooncake.. den alex come fetch us.. we go drink! haha.. stupid lah.. wanted to go geylang watch 'chicken'.. but end up nv.. end up went home..

now doing nth.. :) haha!