memories of '09.

songs.

lovestory.

hot and cold.

insomnia.

broken strings.

pokerface.

i got a feeling.

hush hush.

use sombody.

call you tonight.

fireflies.

you make it real.

empire state of mind.

movies.

sadly. i can't remember any of it. i vaguely remember watching wolverine, transformers, the proposal (recess?)and sherlock holmes (end). i did missed alot of shows because i don't believe in watching shows in a cinema alone perhaps that will change in the new year? nah. i doubt it.

serials.

gossip girl.

how i met your mother.

so disorganised, i had to organise myself with organiser.

recently my lapses in memory had been getting from bad to worse.

as well as being so disorganised and messy this days..

so much to the extent of...

buying organisers for myself..

on seperate occasions..

and now i'm staring at 2 books on my desk in this coming year. -_-

pretty bad huh.

i think i shall convert one to a journal :)

X'mas

with friends and loved ones.

love peace and joy.

white xmas ouside

coloured lights and decos inside.

love actually (movies)

all i want for christmas is you (songs)

last christmas (songs)

trust, mirror, independence, xmas

sometimes the trust that you have in people to finally confide and show a side to them that you wouldn't show to others who aren't that close to.

can harm the same friendship that you thought could be strengthened.

because you drop your guard and become less sensitive and you thought they could understand..

distance is really beauty ya?

i am a mirror.

think about it.

you'll understand.

i want to be independent once again.

i can. i will be.

after many trips to the airport this holiday.

most of my friends in my closer circle will be far away from this island..

bless me with the strength to be strong and independent.

and the courage to overcome the odds.

i want a xmas party.

one that i can call a xmax party.

feel like inviting everybody who celebrates xmas.

nj + maggot + hall pple who went 1 rochester last year + hall medan pple + pple i enjoy talking to

what do you all think?

but everyone seems pretty occupied...

roma romama..

there's this thing on my mind right now. about hall.

i think this chapter about hall life is about to end for myself.

had a short talk with a guy after vball training. we first met in nj and i didn't felt positively about him. i carried that sentiments when we remet in foc. but he's one of the nicest and honest guy i've known since jc, and there's a lot of thoughts and emotions being sparked off after a short pep talk that lasted a mere 5 mins.

how everything had started.

the people i've met and affected me one way or other.

it's thanksgiving.

and i wanted to write a very very honest entry about this whole chapter. this 1.5 years thus far.

i thought about it and the skeletal structure formed easily in my head.

i'm afraid if i down pen it down, i will never remember all this vivid reflection again.

yet i know i can't write it now.

because it would a very long entry.

a very honest entry.

and not everybody can accept that amount of frankness.

which is why when we grow older,

we hide the obvious, mask the truth and tweak the right.

and everything that was once a clear black and white line

becomes a blurry region.

i'll touch on it again. a complete chapter. when thanksgiving is ard the corner and when time permits.