Dear God

Dear God

please let things in my life be okay right now.
please let me and my body my health be okay right now.
please let my studies be okay and I promise to work harder.

recently life is been really tough living and I need You to be here with me.Thank You for the nights when You've been patiently with me and listening to my prayers,and trying to grant me my wishes and putting my mind at ease.I know something is wrong with me these days and I hope You would be able to cure and make me at peace like how You always do.

Dear God,thank you very much for everything.
especially for a bestfriend like nikky,who notices the slightest change about my emotions and knows when something is wrong.Please take good care of him and make sure his life is filled with more ups than downs more happiness than sadness and most importantly please be also the one who is there for him like how you are always here for me.

Thank You God.
Amen.

MY DEAREST HONGYEE

dear hongyee

i don't know if you still read my blog but hey if you do here's to you.

i miss you a lot!the times we went out,had fun and just crapped.although now i never text you (yeah why i never text you ah)I still hope we can go out.Recently i feel like,i text you or msn you it's more of stone and less crapping,but f2f it's so much better and we can just walk about and talk nonstop.

i miss those days in college when you finish school early and wait for me so we can have 3 4 hours of crapping in classroom or canteen,and sometimes in the library and people would tell us to shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and put their finger to their lips and we'll just turn to look at each other and give an awfully hideous grin at each other and snicker.

It's been great fun,I swear.I miss you loads,so if you do,give me a call and when you're free let's go out sometime and you can watch me pwn your ass at drinking again okay=D

thank you baby

dear baby

thank you for coming over to take care of me when I was so ill on saturday that you were almost late to going to camp the next day.

a million thank yous to you.

dear though I don't have much to say to you when I blog,but I hope you know that the feelings I have for you are real,are true,because you're standing by me now and forever,just like how I'm going to stand by you now and forever more.

Although we may constantly have differing views about issues and not have very compatible interests,such as I like swimming but you'll drown,or you like sports and soccering about while I love shopping and more shopping,I still know I love you very much,more than anyone.

I know recently I've been a mean bitch to you,shouting and arguing and bringing up breakups,and we went through a lot,you went through a lot,and it's coming close to 6 months together already,you still love me very much and care for me,accompanying me to places I want to go,bringing me to places I like to eat,feeding me when I refuse to touch my cutlery and giving me hugs and keeping me warm with your love.

I feel all those things you do,I feel your love,your arms,when you kiss my forehead or my lips I know everytime you do that it's a breath of love,a breath of life for me.

I love you very much baby.

baby you're so funny hahah.59 is my weight not my temperature lah!I'm not dying!but yes I'm fat)=I'm 0.5kg heavier than you)=

MUST LOSE WEIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

when I saw your conversation window blink orange, my heart skipped a beat.
yeah I'm over you but I still got a little surprise.

you talked to me and I couldn't save our convos cos my hdd wasn't with me,and there was still that pain I felt when you went out of my life (and when I closed your conversation window w/ saving).Just that now,the pain is a needle prick,not that kind of pain when I stood in the middle of the canteen talking to hongyee and crying because I missed you so badly.Now,it doesn't hurt much and I got over it soon enough.

I'm still grateful for the times you woke up early to talk to me,and driving to work in 20minutes flat so you can switch on the computer and carry on our conversation.Those days of staying up at 3am to talk are now a memory.I think back and go,"that was fun,but those days are never coming back."Strangely,I don't miss those days.

Are we lovers
or only just friends?
come tomorrow
will I be lonely again?
when you see me
is it love in your eyes?
what're you feeling
deep down inside?

do you think about me
when I'm far away
do you dream about me
can I find a way
to make you want me
the way I want you
cos I love you

this song is by an artiste whose song was stuck in our heads for weeks,months,even when you left and apparated into my life and left as quickly as you came,everytime you mentioned that song,everytime you talked to me,i'll remember this artiste.
and it's even more painful whenever I hear any of his songs cos he's my favourite artiste.bleh.

I don't love you anymore,but you'll always be a part of me,because you were there for me when no one was.You had that great sense of humour that'll cheer me up in any situation,and you always seemed to know when to appear,so that I'll have someone to share my happiness with,my anger,my sadness.

It's amazing to know that the first time we met each other,we were interested in each other already?I'm not sure if it was love at first sight,but we've got each other's attention at that moment.That magical moment.

when you're bored

when you're bored you could always turn you joel's blog for entertainment

OR

you could go to bitch's blog and laugh your ass off seriously man her blog is ultimate entertainment (joel's blog is too,but not in a loser way like bitch's) she has terrible english;coming up with words is a talent but well,talent's wasted off her since her words are pretty much like QWGERY or DIQQQ etcetc.You get the point.

okay fine a little exaggeration but you get my meaning/tone;D

i think i'll write this in 2 minutes to my sister because she's letting me use the com even though she has to go for tuition in say like, 30minutes>

thank you for your kindness lololol. nights.

/end.

so glad the bitch's unhappy and still suaning us!:D
she's so sour about it it makes us warm and snuggly inside to know that we actually can make her angry (yeah we really feel like big shots AWESOME hahah no one has made us feel this AWESOME before; maybe this awesome but never this AWESOME HAHAHA)

our team's AWESOME!:D

nah it's not that my vocabulary is limited it's just that TONE can't be conveyed very well so yep,CAPS does do the trick,if not you could always STARE WITH DEATH IN YOUR EYES *winks*

we're just great!

thanks to the team for standing behind me,
our mother hen leonie for taking care of me and supporting me all the way, giving me advice on how to handle the issue.

and the daphne and the daphne and the michelle and the deli and the geri and JOEL, TIM for being the funkayyye shiz you guys are hahaha it's really nice to know that although we weren't very close to each other when we first joined bowling we actually bonded over training and eating sessions HAHA and now this issue has brought us even closer together!:D

really,thanks again you guys.

Also thanks to hongyee for giving advice and making me feel a wee bit better,which is actually a lot already since I felt very disturbed by the issue when I meant no harm.

and normykins you're safe now:D

thanks baby:D