mood
Monday, February 28, 2005
Monday, 28 February 2005
i may be strong on the outside..but inside im not
show me some love. i need some too.
show me that you care.
show me that im not forgotten.
prove to me that you need me.
please dont treat me as if im transparent.
please dont let me be the last to know.
please dont treat me like you do.
please be honest.
will you not talk among yourselves?
you said you will always be there.
where were you when i needed you?
do i deserve what im getting now?
please tell me if im treated fairly.
why does the problem lies with me?
i just feel like breaking down.
will there be anyone who lets me lean on
a shoulder when i need to?
will there be anyone who can give me a hug
when i feel i just needed one?
please dont make me cry a river.
will you always be there to wipe away my tears?
this is the time where i know that you
will be there and im not alone.
when everyone in this world neglects me,
i pray that you wont.
i cant seem to find the answer to whats
happening to me.
will you tell me the answer?
will you help me find out why?
where are the ones who i used to call friends?
jay chou's gui ji...
i lorve that song..
juz feel like putting the hanyupinying here...
com cant type chinese anw..
zen me yin cang wo de bei shang
shi qu ni de di fang
ni de fa xiang san de cong mang
wo yi jing gen bu shang
bi shang yan jing hai ne kan jian
ni li qu de hen ji
zai yue guang xia yi zhi zhao xun na xiang nian de shen ying
ru guo shuo fen shou shi ku tong de qi dian
na zai zhong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian
xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de ai
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
wo hui fa zhe dai
rang hou wang ji ni
jie zhe jing jing bi shang yan
xiang zhe na yi tian
hui you ren dai ti
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
wo hui fa zhe dai
rang hou wei wei siao
jie zhe jing jing bi shang yan
you xiang le yi pian
ni wen rou de lian
zai wo wang ji zhi qian
xin li de yan lei
mo hu le shi sian
wo yi kuai kan bu jian
outing wif telicia
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Sunday, 27 February 2005
yeapp...went out wif dear telicia todae..she was late lorx...but din wait long larx..but the thing is she made mi carry her pressie fer her...all the way frm my hse to orchard..the pressie so big some more...pple keep staring..so paiseh...anw..wanted to go out coz din wanna stay at hm...so went wif her lorx..went to haf lunch first coz cia was starving...and we couldnt make up our mind..we din noe wad to eat...in the end went mos burger..den went shopping...got this lady ask us fill in a lucky draw form..we din want to at first...den i oso dunno how to reject her so i juz fill the form lorx..anw wont so lucky get the ipod mini de larx...though i wished i had it long time ago..the lady so funni...tink we frm japan or sth like tat..do we look like japanese??? so hilarious..den tat lady tink i older then cia...wa laos..i may look mature but im not tat old oso larx...so malu lei..was at heeren...wanted to buy earrings den again couldnt make up my mind den had to ask cia to help decide..telicia was oso tinkin if she should go pierce her ears...ermx..u can go try u noe...who knows it may look nice..but u're already pretty larx cia...u look prefectly fine..( x i found out sth...telicia's appetite sure aint small..juz finish mos burger den she wanna eat sth already...so scary..i was like so full lorx...and she can still eat..hahas...yeapp..went back at 4plus...pei her go back coz din wanna part wif her..wait i miss her...hahas..kidding larx...went kovan meet dad aft tat..den came hm...so tired now..goin to slp already...11plus liaox..yawns...
sian
Saturday, 26 February 2005
todae veri sian...not much to blog abt..juz tat ytd de entry dunno why gone...but hu cares larx..nvm larx...im lazy to type it all over again..hahas...i was juz venting my anger abt sth ytd..at least i type out ytd den todae like okay le bahx...dunno wad i blog abt exactly ytd oso..but todae...im angry again..tat person...i last tym already dun like her..now im so angry...gotta tell cia tml when i meet her..tat bloody bitch...hypocrite..stop acting nice in front of mi...humphx..anw...went out fer awhile aft church todae and somebody is already complaining..say i everytime go out...where got?? i was at hm frm mondae to fridae okay...im juz trying to destress..sick and tired of sch work already...fed up..so mani things im fed up abt...probably no one knows it..sighs...hopefully can destress abit when i go out tml..poor cia gotta be my listening ear tml...but tink she dun mind..am i right telicia??? hahas..
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Thursday, 24 February 2005
+yawns+ its like 0030 now...and im still awake..actually i juz woke up larx...i've been sleeping since 7plus in the evening..yeapp...so im awake now..wondering how im gonna go to bed again...i cant possibly be awake till 6am..todae...well..i finally went to choir todae...its like the first tym i went choir this month..its been so long since i last went fer choir...and choir is still the same..boring...yeapp..alrite...im a little tired already..gonna try to go to bed real soon...
trust
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Tuesday, 22 February 2005
+cheers+ todae is my dear "small sista" de bdae...yeapp..happi birthday cia!!! +hugs+ okok..i still owe you a pressie...i'll get it soon okay?? but u muz tell mi wad u wan alrite??? dont tell mi a card will do horx..im not getting u a card oni kays...
now...wad im gonna blog abt todae is..abt frens and trust...argh..pissed wif some pple...some pple juz cannot keep secrets..i really mean they cant...i've decided..im not gonna tell anybody anithing already...mayb except fer one or two pple..if u tink u're one of them...tink again..do i tell u EVERYTHING abt my stuff??? do i show u attitube before?? are you someone hu i will wanna hang out wif on weekends??? go and tink carefully okay..i oni ask pple if they are free on weekends if i wanna hang out and mayb go shopping wif them...i dont ask pple hu i dont really like out..and im keeping lots of stuff frm close frens...they are the ones that sae im changing to become a worse person..or my character like ermx...bad in a sense..i juz dun feel like telling u guys anithing already...you betta noe hu you are..dun cum ask mi why oso...im not telling anithing already..so...means..we're gonna tok less...i guess u will slowly see larx..i'll mayb isolate myself frm you pple...you pple will noe i show attitube before..three of u all haf seen it...mayb tat one person haven yet..but slowly...i probably will..im juz starting to tink everyone is juz not one bit reliable...
avril lavigne~!!!
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Sunday, 20 February 2005
oh my gosh!!! avril lavigne is coming to s'pore fer a concert!! +screams+ i lorve her man...she rocks!! all tat attitude...shes damn cool..she juz rocks larx...omg..i wanna go her concert...but..if i haf to choose between clothes and avril's concert...i'll most probably choose clothes larx..i still wanna go shopping...though i wanna go her concert oso larx..go avril lavigne's concert can enjoy and destress...but shopping oso can..aiyo...how larx..i wanna go concert...but oso wanna use my money go shopping de..sighs...i probably haf to forget abt goin avril lavigne's concert already bahx..sighs...
bored..
Sunday, 20 February 2005
alrite...im bored now..yea...wished there was somebody hu can accompany mi go shopping..i wanna go out...i wanna go shopping..i juz nid to get out of the hse...im stuck at hm now..i've done my homework but haven study fer test yet...gonna do it later..but i still feel like goin out...no mood study bahx..sian...im totally bored..argh...nobody is free to go out shopping wif mi..sighs...i wanna go shopping..i really do...sian larx..but...i oso nid more cash..i'll probably be broke aft a few more trips to town...
flag selling..
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Saturday, 19 February 2005
yea...todae gotta go sell flag fer the spore heart foundation..sian lorx...was suppose to meet chicky and cow at compass first but in the end they disappear dunno where den i went alone..waited dere fer like half an hour lorx...tot i was the oni one hu might be late..but im not the oni one...lots of pple were..so...hu cares larx..den go dere muz register...take the cans and stickers..haiz...miko and lalang not dere..if not should be quite fun de bahx...it was so sian can..boring lorx...din wanna sell the flags oso can..yea...so went watch hide and seek..the show was okay larx...not sae veri scary..okok oni bahx...near the ending dere like quite thrilling..hahas...yeapp..aft tat came hm already...den now online..goin offline soon...tired already..yawns...
went out again..
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Wednesday, 16 February 2005
wa...todae aft sch went out again..went hougang mall wif miko and liling fer lunch...aft lunch still gotta go dental wif miko den can go bugis wif liling..was so bored at the dental dere...read magazines to pass time..aft tat den took train down to bugis...again..talked to liling abt some stuff...shhh..im telling you pple wad we said...hahas..yeapp...went bugis fer awhile..went window shopping oso...hahas..yea...left the place ard 6pm bahx..wa...the train so crowded..no place sit as usual...den sat on the floor again..tok tok tok tok tok...until kovan den stop..coz liling go off liaox...was kinda bored in the train..wanted to like go hm and rest??? sth like tat larx..went hm oni den kena scolded...everytime like tat de lorx..go out come back den will get scolding...sian can..argh...father is like complaining im goin out too much..den like scold mum fer allowing mi go out...siao de..sometimes is i go out nv tell pple oni...parents are like tryin to forbid mi frm goin out..aft sch muz go hm...go out eat lunch mayb still can..but not go shoppin...den go out muz sae go out wif hu and where den for go out fer wad oso muz ask..dotx...they are tryin to control mi again..liling will noe why...mum asked a damn stupid and bo liao question during dinner..hate to be asked tat question...yea..stupid parents...dumb parents..use ur brains abit more can??? argh..sickening...im starting to hate my hm already..my father is crazy man...tryin to control wad i wear oso..sick...im old enuff to decide stuff fer myself..humphx...
the farm rox!!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Tuesday, 15 February 2005
yeah!! todae was like the first tym the farm went out together...yea..all five of us were present...rejoice!! hahas...yeapp..all of us went fer lunch...dunno wad happen to rach..she todae keep calling mi roxy...lols..den i call her ripcurl...hahas..yea... me- roxy.. rach-ripcurl.. nicow-billabong... liling-brandless?? hahas..hers she sae no brand...lols.. den yuanlin-was it divided or sth like tat??? aiyox..forget already...hahas..yea...ate lunch den went cd-rama..rach, lalang, nicow wanted to buy mi the boa best of soul cd...im listening to it now..boa is so cool...cd rama
was playing jay's concert vcd..omg...hes so shuai..i lorve jay!!! hes so cute!! +faint+ hahas...jay is awesome..damn talented...like hu dunno lorx..he can play the piano, cello, drums and he just mastered the flute!!! so damn cool..jay rox...hahas..yeapp...tml takin back my first ever bio test..a little scared...dunno got do well anot..hahas...yea..but i'll still like bio larx...
happy valentine day!!
Monday, February 14, 2005
Monday, 14 February 2005
love is in the air...lols..yeapp...todae is valentines day..14 february already...went to sch den started giving out gifts already..received gifts frm peien, liling, yuanlin...ermx..i tink oni like tat...gave sweets n chocolates oni..yea...tat lalang..dunno wad to sae...where got pple gif lollipop gif one oni de..so weird lorx...if wanna gif muz gif like three mahx..wa laos ehs...at least she got gif lollipop..miko arhx...tat ger arhx..sae wanna buy kisses the chocolate de...den in the end..she receive gifts oni...nv gif pple de..dotx...den gif excuses sae no tym to go buy..craps larx...near her hse got econ lorx..no tym go buy...humphx..anw...tml still got test..yea...so sian..geog lorx...i dun even understand wad maria goh teaching..im probably half asleep...hahas..gonna go study aft dinner...dan if got tym dan do homework..todae de hwk all chinese de...and the compo i dunno wan write wad..the damn topic is : u helped ur fren(s) dan u got into trouble instead..dan muz describe wad happen...yea..dunno wad to write lorx...mayb somebody can gif mi some ideas larx..seriously dunno wad to write...
i wanna learn to play the guitar!!!
i wanna learn to play guitar
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Sunday, 13 February 2005
ermx...dere's sth i wanna learn how to play..its a musical instrument...yea..i suddenly feel like learning how to play the guitar...how cool..how cool will it be if i can play like avril lavigne...cool xia..hahas...dreaming larx mi..but oso dunno why got the sudden urge tat i wanna play the guitar...hahas..yeapp...really feel like goin to learn how to play the guitar..mayb somebody can teach mi how to play the guitar...definitely not my mum larx..lols...yea..i wanna learn to play the guitar!!!
went out again
Saturday, 12 February 2005
went out again aft church todae...yeapp..went town wif peien...was suppose to accompany her to watch the movie screening at the orchard youth park but in the end we went to shop..hahas...yea..went cineleisure fer dinner once we reached coz our dear peien was hungry...aft tat went hmv dan they were playing jay's concert vcd..omg...i wanna watch it..we were like dere goin " omg...jay's so cute!!" hahas...yea..peien gonna lend mi the vcd...yayys..went paragon to buy sweets and chocolates den went back to heeren...met a few pple hu were frm ccps..yea...karen!! waved at her...saw her sis and ermx..her sista's somebody...peien will noe larx..got a little shock when saw them but recovered frm it awhile later...went wisma den most of the shops are like closed..was wondering why den looked at the time and it was like 9plus already...the shops were probably closed larx..yeapp...so came hm aft tat..wrapped my stuffs den online...ermx..goin to bed soon...past one already..yawns...
attitude man..
Friday, February 11, 2005
Friday, 11 February 2005
sighs...im like giving attitude todae..yea...some pple will noe wad i mean bahx..yeap...dunno why oso larx..my todae de attitude...ermx..how to sae...veri weird lorx..awhile like okay den awhile later jiu gif attitude liaox...yeapp..aiya...is miko sae de larx..i told her dan she sae i gif attitude...sighs..wadeva...yea..dis few daes de attitude and mood...ermx..aiya...how to sae..both oso like no gd...yea..anw...dere's not much goin on todae..expect pe lesson bahx...tat mrs khoo..argh...irritating..yea...ran 3 rounds ard the field already den coz of some tupid reason all the gers gotta run another 6 rounds..so altogether ran 9 rounds todae...was so exhausted..yeapp...aft skool went town fer awhile to get sth dan went hm to slp..damn tired...im damn bored now..feel like goin out tml...sian..dis sucks larx...i hate my life!! is there anione hu can cheer mi up??? sighs..
second day of cny..
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Thursday, 10 February 2005
sian...todae second dae of cny..im stuck at home now...not gonna go visiting till later in the evening..a little sleepy now...mayb will go fer nap first before getting ready to go out..todae weather like veri hot...i nth better to blog dan blog abt the weather..im bo liao man...i wanna go shopping..i everytime oso wanna go shoppin de...i wanna rent vcds to watch oso..but i would rather go shopping if i can...yeap..shop till i drop...veri long nv haf tat kind of feeling already..damn shiok...but leg will pain larx..watched finding neverland ytd...quite boring larx tat show..lucky din watch in the cinema if not waste money...lucky cousin becca got the dvd..played blackjack oso ytd...i lost..juz now play mahjong i oso lost...tink later i better not gamble already..its juz not my day...hahas..i feel like watching movie and go shopping...i wanna watch hide and seek and white noise..mayb hitch oso...the first two movies are horror..wonder who will wanna watch wif mi...definitely not the farm bahx..they wont wanna watch horror movies...mayb can find cia..hahas...i nid a nap..tc pple...
cny is here!!
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Tuesday, 8 February 2005
hurray!! cny is here...i mean its tml..yeap...abit excited coz can wear new clothes liao..but oso will sian larx...not much pple to tok to..oni cousins n aunties bahx...will damn sian de lorx..but nvm...mi and miko sae already..if shes sian tml dan she call mi...if i sian tml dan i call her..at least still got miko to tok to...if not..i'll be stone-ing dere...yea..todae cny eve...had to go sch todae..din wan to at first but went anw...aft skool went town wif huimin..went shoppin...starting to hunt fer white clothes fer confirmation..and confirmation is gonna be oni in november...yea..was tinkin to wear jacket and skirt...but muz go find larx..went pacific plaza to see those jackets...wanted those no zips de..min sae nicer...dunno larx..see how first...now abit broke liao..see how much i get during cny...stussy got this skirt not bad..but its $85...yeap..dan the jacket $105...sighs..i will go bust man...nvm..still haf long way till november...can still slowly shop fer my white clothes..kekex...anw..reached hm at ard 5plus...was damn tired..walk whole dae...went to slp dan got up fer dinner lo..was damn full juz now...im gonna grow fatter!! sobx...sighs..still haf homework to do...wa laos ehs..cny still cant enjoy...sighs..im goin to do homework liaox...happy new year pple!! ( x
went out wif haoyee chye n darren
Sunday, February 06, 2005
sian...todae veri sian lorx..aft church went out wif haoyee, howchye and darren...went dhoby ghaut to meet them..was late fer half hour...felt kinda bad to make them wait but cant blame mi oso larx..tat guy at the hello! shop was wasting my tym dere dan i late...ask yee if they waited veri long dan he was like no larx half an hour oni...tsk..half an hour not long mehx...nvm..yea...dan went orchard wif them..chye n darren wan buy clothes...went pacific plaza dan went far east dan shaw hse..dere were like stores outside shaw hse selling some kind of games thingy...dan they all went to play..they played the table tennis one...haoyee looked so stupid playing the two-player game alone..haf to hold two rackets in his hand dan play...dumb can..but he muz practice playin table tennis...if not wait cant play wif *a-hem*..hahas...wanted to watch movie but chye sae dun wan..still scold mi crazy...8.45pm already dan still wan go watch movie..aft tat jiu go hm liao...chye sat the train back himself without waiting fer mi n haoyee..wa laos ehs...dan left mi wif yee..pestered yee to pei mi till punggol station...if not will veri sian..yea...shared some secrets wif him..dan luffed at him abt his childhood daes...oh ya..haoyee is damn scared of ghosts...dunno why oso..hahas...
shopping n more shopping
Saturday, February 05, 2005
yayys!!! finally i got to go shopping aft skool..yeap...went bugis wif liling to find clothes..walked till my legs so pain can...ouch..its hurts...went compass fer lunch dan went bugis..on the way dere mi n liling were like bitching abt other pple...not gonna sae hu..but is pple jiu correct liao...yea..i wan tat billabong skirt...but its either $59.90 or $79.90..lalang scold mi siao...so damn ex..sighs...if oni godma ros will buy mi tat..din buy anithing...oni lalang did..yea...i wanna buy clothes..argh...nvm..
yee's bdae..
Thursday, February 03, 2005
erm...yea..todae haoyee's bdae...err..happi bdae haoyee...yeap..enjoy urself...
argh...im so frustrated at alot of things..i hate sch!!! sch sucks big time..i hate everybody!!! juz go away..dun care abt mi...get lost..shoo...dun bother abt mi..juz leave mi alone for all i care!!! humphx..damn irritated already...im not in a gd mood..so pls dun cum and irritate mi...nobody cares..where's the love??? i tink i oni haf cia as my fren and small sista..the rest...hrm..mayb juz classmates n schoolmates...sighs..wad has happened to everybody...everyone is changing..and i mean every single one of you out dere...i may haf changed..but wad abt u pple??? haven u guys changed oso..im getting real irritated wif some pple...they're getting on my nerves..humphx...yea..everyone is having fun while im gonna be stuck at hm wif all the homework...wad the hell..i nid to breathe...i nid a break frm all these..oni cia will understan...yeap..sighs...
shopping!!!!
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
argh...i wanna go shopping..i wanna go out...sian..no tym to go out again this wk...gonna be damn busy studying..im like studying 7 daes a wk...tiring xia..im sick of studying...argh..busy the whole wk...i nid to breathe..sch has like juz started not so long ago and i cant wait fer the holidaes...but probably gonna be busy during the holidaes too bahx..sighs...cny coming..but cant enjoy...got lotsa work to do..hopefully i can finish it real fast...but i the rate im goin..dun tink so...the phyics assignment..argh...due on the third dae of cny..sian larx...i dun care arhx..i die die oso wan finish all my work by 8 feb...at most i slp later oni..nvm larx...slp later but can dun nid worry and tink abt sch stuff..relax abit...yea..goin out to study wif miko again dis weekend...saturdae im really free before 5.45pm..why miko wan go study on saturdae??? argh..oni haf like 1 hour to spare before i go to church...dan aft 5.30pm got lotsa tym le..but means i haf to go back to studying...im goin crazy..help...the workload..argh...i dun understan physics at all..julia ee like dunno how to teach de...dun understan wad she saying oso..so damn chim...i dun understan lorx..she arhx...haven teach finish the chapter dan wan us do workbook..ehs...how will pple noe how to do larx..nv even teach can...geog oso..wadeva mrs goh sae dun seem to go into my brain...like dun remember a single thing..sian...lotsa reading to do already..gotta read the textbk myself and try to understan...but physics i cant..read already juz now...haiz..tink i'll probably fail physics...sighs..hrm...feel like goin out on fridae..wondering hu's free...
money!!!
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
sighs...cny is round the corner..i wanna buy more clothes lei...i wanna go shopping..haiz...but the weekends sure no tym de..got a maths n bio test on mondae...nid to study lor..yea...i hate sch man..argh...i nid money..hopefully will get lotsa hong baos during cny...yea..first...i'll probably return pple money..dan i'll save the rest fer myself...see how i wanna use it..hopefully wisely lah...yeap..i tink im gonna save money fer my education...not really in spore larx but overseas..i wanna go overseas to study...was tinkin to study in england..miko too...was saying we muz go england study together..its betta to go wif someone you noe dan to go alone...you will like be alone..you'll nid someone to look out fer you...a fren will be veri gd..yea...i really wanna go study overseas..but its not cheap larx...the sch fees..the allowance all that...not cheap larx..i wanna go to a gd poly or jc dan aft tat go on to uni...im like starting to plan my future now..tink its not considered veri early bahx...o levels is next yr le lorx..damn fast...3rd yr in sec sch liaox..time flies...sighs..soon...we'll be leaving our frens again..now wad we can do is to cherish them...anw..i really wanna go overseas to study...but then again..dere will be like so mani things i wont be able to bring wif mi...family..frens...bla bla bla..yea...sighs..i'll definitely miss all those peeps if i were to go overseas...sighs..
