resilience.. ive bounced back lol.. we're in mid week 3.. time flies! assignments are catching up on me but im still lovin life cos there're just too many nice pple around =)

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results just got in and i feel like my world is crumbling down.

received my first C+ and my gpa dropped by 0.2. i know it doesnt sound that serious, but yes, it is serious.

i so want to cross over, i think if i don't i'll just commit suicide or something. i cannot imagine myself not crossing over. but with me receiving a C, and dropping my gpa, things don't look good at all.

and i realise that im living a life full of lies. i have not been 100% truthful to anyone at all.. even precious pple that God has placed in my life.. i find it so hard to be 100% truthful. there is not one person that i can be 100% truthful and real to.

that sucks doesnt it.

Nut was Cased at ; 6:41:00 PM

week 2 of sch is here.. there is so much work to do all at once, that i do not know where to start. worse still, i'll be away in week 4 during CNY for a family trip.. am so NOT looking forward to it cos i'll be neglecting my work.. oh man.. it's only 6 weeks of school this time.. but it's seriously hectic.. and no one's looking forward to practicum.

SIGH.

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i never fail to enjoy myself when im out with my nie music peeps.. really awesome bunch of ppl to go out with.. really really thank God for placing such awesome buddies at every point of my life to keep me going yea..

after we split up after pedicure and tea, 3 of us walked around and ended up at MBS where we had dinner/coffee.. then the husband sent us home..

only today did i realise that we're all growing.. maturing.. quite quickly i must add.. my buddies consist of a mother of a sec sch kid can u imagine.. and a couple of us are married already.. it's like a sudden fact-sheet thrown at ur face lol..

anwz, the past few days have been horror of horrors.. felt like death.. fell so sick.. fever went up to 40degC.. went to A&E.. drowned myself in pills.. terrible, sleepless nights.. almost didnt wanna go out today.. but glad i did.. feeling better now =)

sch's starting in a couple of days.. mixed feelings..

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ah i wanna note down my 3 wishes for this new year.. presented them to the Lord this morning at svc.. Pastor told us to note it down.. so that we can see them come to pass and give all the glory to the Lord.. but i'd rather put it here than in my notebook for various reasons.. ive definitely more than 3 wishes, and im quite sure i'll have more as the year unfolds itself.. but for now...

i) a crossover
ii) Distinction for practicum
iii) straight As and much favor with my lecturers/tutors

definitely cannot be done by my own self-effort. only with God. as this year unfolds, i cant wait to see His goodness unfold in my life.

Psalm 65:11
You crown the year with Your goodness,
And Your paths drip with abundance.

As pastor shared with us, 2011 is the year of His crowned goodness.

I am gonna incline my ears to listening the finished work of Christ, and plant myself in the house of the Lord cos the goodness of God is found in His house, and as His paths drip with abundance, im following Him.

Nut was Cased at ; 12:57:00 AM

blessed 2011. may this year bring greater breakthroughs and miracles in my life =)

oh and i really pray that there'll be less "fire" and "heat" in the household.. as lovey-dovey as they have grown, i still feel that there's just too much "heat" sometimes.. everyone shld learn how to talk using less strength.. and i dunno, just give way a lil more? oh wellz.. *shrugs.

happy new year everyone =)

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