wah my spirit-man really got lifted just talking to yingling online.. what's written in my previous entry is from her too btw.. lifted lifted.. wow..

instead of resuming my lesson plans, i hunger for the Word now.. thank You Daddy God for such awesome sisters i have in You.. wouldnt know where i'd be without You.

=)

Nut was Cased at ; 10:30:00 PM

spirit of excellence is not about doing our best, it is about the spirit of dependence on God.

whatever gifts i have, they are from Him. no matter how excellent we want to do something well, the ability, willingness, performance and results still come from Him.

Metanoia! Let go of oneself, let Him rule with grace. and i will find ease and flow with which things are done. there is a difference when we are not holding it all sooooo tight tt it seems everything depends on us, but somehow knowing tt God is there n He will bring me through, den that's when e willingness to wan to do things well come very naturally and it is not stressful.


i just had to note this down somewhere so that i can read it as and when i need to. words of wisdom from a beloved sister-in-Christ. awesome =)

Nut was Cased at ; 9:33:00 PM

Lord,

pls forgive me. I just snapped big time at my parents.

my day started at 630 and I've just finished teaching piano.. it's more than 12hrs and I'm tired. I'm all stressed up about sch and lesson plans and whatnots.. I'm so tired having to wash after my mum.. I'm juz so dead tired mentally. when my dad asked me to do something after my piano, (I haven even had dinner), I juz snapped. mum scolded me for snapping, and I snapped somemore.

I feel unappreciated and misunderstood. I love doing what I'm doing. but I'm really tired physically n mentally.

I'm sorry.

Nut was Cased at ; 10:01:00 PM

Dear Lord, im so tired.

I have just finished doing up my reflections for week 2. I have 14 lesson plans due on monday which i havent started on. i have piano teaching on countless days, eating up on my preparation time. i have to teach from 830am tml, or shld i say later, in about 7hrs time. there is arrow svc in the evening. and there is nus o&i programmes team meeting on sunday. i love to serve in the team. durh. that's why i agreed when i was asked. but there is this part of me that regrets the decision. cos time is an issue for me now. on top of everything, i have to help my mum shower, dress up, settle meals, and the list goes on. i am worried about her recovery process and how successful it will be. will her arm be 100% functional soon?

do not be mistaken, i love what i am doing now. i love teaching. i love teaching in my primary school, i love teaching piano. it's all these preparation work that is killing me. i love church, i love arrow, i love having the opportunity to serve in the programmes team with awesome people.

i dunno how im gonna finish my work and still stay alive. but Lord, i know You will be right there beside me every step of the way.

thank You, Lord, for listening to me rant. good night.

Nut was Cased at ; 1:38:00 AM

day 8 of practicum.. it's tiring.. but im loving it at the same time.. my CT's form class which makes it my form class is awesome.. p6 classes are a tad more challenging.. but cos ive done teaching in sec sch, i find it easier now than compared to my friends.. PTL!

been praying for favour every night and God has never failed me.. relationships with colleagues/CT/friends even my kids are so good without me putting much effort.. i have kids giving me portraits of me, and some random things and i feel so touched with every small gesture.. there was even a girl who stayed back and thanked me for teaching her fractions and she understood the topic better now.. i really have no one but God to thank.

His favour surrounds me like a shield and i can do nothing but to just receive. =)

workload is getting heavier and heavier by the day.. i am thankful that i can do everything through Christ who strengthens me.. =)

mum's going for her op this afternoon.. dad's going down with her this morning to 'check in' to the ward.. bro and i will meet and head down after school.. thank You Jesus that the operation is in Your hands and her recovery process is going to be an accelerated one. amen =)

Nut was Cased at ; 9:10:00 AM

day 1 of practicum ended fairly fast!

i <3 the school, <3 my SCM, <3 my CTs, even the p and vp are awesome.. everything seems good.. am looking forward to working together with my CTs, learning from them and getting to know them better =)

Nut was Cased at ; 3:42:00 PM

it's 115am on a sunday night/monday morning. i should totally sleep and get my body clock readjusted to 'normal' status. lol.

loved every bit of my weekend.

saturday i attended arrow.. and my very first genrev svc! felt a totally different kind of anointing at genrev mmhmm..

and though it was very late already, i still went ahead to meet my friend and her friends for clubbing at Play.. was really fun! oh man.. so much action! and being on the dance floor was.. haha.. funny thing happened with this two guys who came to us.. lol..

oh man i sound like "someone".. eew..

totally know inside me that it's so wrong and stuff.. but i really couldnt help it.. hmm.. is there even a way out of it? how is it even possible?

ANW.. sunday was youth day for the zone! love love.. the msg was timely.. loving children and feeling what they feel etc.. awesome.. and it's youth day holiday tml! which means i start my practicum on tuesday!

took out all my working clothes for re-ironing.. (last time i wore them was last year when i did my contract teaching at Greendale!).. time pass so fast!

dozens of butterflies in my stomach.. but but.. by God's grace, this 5 weeks of practicum is gonna be SOooo GOOOOOOD!! God has gone ahead of me and He says that it is good! favour favour favour with CTs, colleagues and students! amen! =D

Nut was Cased at ; 1:13:00 AM