it's 445am on a wednesday morning. i know i should sleep. but tot i shld pen this down first..

i tink i kinda passed on my germs to my mum. who took it worser than me. considering she has other ailments. She totally conked out during dinner time. slept, shivering on her bed. until i decided to take her temperature. it was super high at around 38.5degC. dad finished dinner and checked on her. temperature shot up to 39degC. and she started vomitting.

so dad called the ambulance. who took super long. and the ambulance called back to say they were caught in a jam. so dad decided to drive down to changi hospital instead. zzz.. so it was the start of a long wait. basically mum was put under drip and kept for observation while waiting for test results.

so we, dad, bro and i.. we were only allowed to hang around this waiting area.. luckily there was a 7/11 and a cubible toilet.. yar.. that's about it. so we could get snacks/drinks.. praise God i had the sense to pack my bible, Judah Smith's Dating Delilah book and my ipod.. spent my 6hrs reading and listening to sermons. finished the Dating Delilah book. gained an insight into purity.. hmm..

during these few hrs, im really glad that God was there. i realised that if u keep Him in the centre, all worries seem to fade away. i didnt feel as worried as when we were travelling to the hospital. at the start, i was so self-condemning.. thinking that i passed the germs on to my mum.. and how she is the last person i wanna see sick.. cos she by herself is already quite weak and all.. and she'll probably take a longer time to heal than the rest of us 'normal' pple..

but yea.. worries all fade away.. in fact i was quite enjoying the peace at the hospital.. in the middle of the night.. with occasional patients/staff walking up and down.. spending time reading/listening to what God has to say.. didnt even feel tired.. just the discomfort of that chair which i was stuck on.. haha.. and i was so confident that all will be well with mum and she'll be allowed to go home at the end of it all..

and not forgetting the prayers from Coach and sisters.. thank you all.. God has heard them and He is moving! praise God it's not H1N1!!

Mum is definitely on the road to recovery and her other ailments will not affect the speed of her recovery in Jesus' name! her follow-up at the polyclinic cos of red/white blood cells found in her urine will test negative for any illness/disease in Jesus' name too!

right now i need to rest too.. my 2nd day of mc.. such a waste.. :/ 5am.

Nut was Cased at ; 4:46:00 AM

so much has happened this past week.. the weekend was awesome..

Friday: packing of goodie bags @ expo.. followed by dinner/shopping @ tampines1.. then Clinic @ CLarke Quay with Huili..

Saturday: ZOne Conference with Hillsong United and Pastor Judah Smith in the morning and the Hillsong Concert at night..

Sunday: svc at church with Pastor Judah Smith..

im totally in love with Pastor Judah Smith and his sermons!! they're awesome..

im on 2 days mc from today.. had high fever.. but when i went to see the doc my fever went down to 37.4.. thus only 2 days.. but it's 37.9 now! the highest was 38.1 this evening.. knocked out the whole afternn today.. from 1plus to 7plus.. was a good rest i must say.. the moment i woke up.. heavy head again.. zzz..

oh wells.. healed in Jesus' name :D

Nut was Cased at ; 9:15:00 PM

this is when/where loneliness sets in.

didnt go to school yesterday. didnt go today. what do i have in store tomorrow?

no idea.

Nut was Cased at ; 10:01:00 PM

yes if u havent already heard, MOE emailed me yesterday to say that NIE is not going to conduct any music classes this year cos of insufficient class size. I need to wait for at least one more year cos there's only one intake a year for music class. well, with no guarantee that there will be music class next year either.

Irritated. Pissed. Helpless. Lost. Devastated. Disappointed. Sad.

the first few emotions are cos i have done all the procedures. contract signing for nie, guarantors signing etc. i believe moe should have known the numbers even before sending out the package to me. so why did they even bother sending it out? and to inform me of this news only 2weeks before sch starts? wad's with the delay?

the back few emotions. kinda obvious aint it. i had my whole mind set on going back to school. looking forward to that. thinking that, hey, God has paved a way for me to resume my studies, my future's decided! but look at what happened. everything crashed with that email.

one year wait is no joke. ive waited 1 year for this. one more year to wait? with no guarantee? im not getting any younger. and i dunno if i have the stamina to go on in this school for another year.

i really dunno wad to think. i thank God for the sisters i have in Christ. and Coach too. appreciate all ur love. but i dun feel like being with people now. well i dunno wad to say anw.

God opened the door to this job for me right at the start. even before i had the interview with moe. He led the interviewers at nafa to refer me to moe. but if God is for me, how did this happen?

Nut was Cased at ; 5:35:00 PM

here i am in school.. at around 640am..

feeling super tired this morning cos i slept at 1 plus last night..had to drag and force myself outta bed.. sigh.. totally hate this feeling.. haha..

gotta go down for visual screening of the students at the front gate later.. but wanna blog about my weekend first..

we had Varsity Cluster Orientation & Integration(O&I) on saturday.. started off at suntec with the varsity cluster.. ice-breakers.. and Coach Jo-ann shared about fellowship.. then we had a short games briefing afterwhich we broke into our CGs and started The Amazing G'race!

our new CG consist of 3 guy freshies and 1 gal newcomer going into 3rd year.. and this brought to mind that if i were to move to the nie CG, i would be a freshie too.. haha! but i chose to stay lei.. still need some time to think about it lar.. mmhmmm..

so the Amazing G'race was.. tiring? haha.. stairs, stairs and more stairs.. lol.. was fun though.. had lots of time to fellowship and get to know the new pple.. after the race, we had MORE fellowship at some benches.. haha.. about 3hrs of that actually.. then we headed to Fong Seng(?) for dinner and to Daniel's place for Wii and lame fun.. all the way to midnight..

sunday was service as usual.. Pastor Mark.. his message was awesome man.. brought tears to many.. after svc.. appointment with Coach and Nancy to go shopping! dragged Huili along.. THANX HUILI! haha.. if nt i wld have died lar.. lol..

so the night ended around 10pm.. met my parents to fetch us home.. and went online till late..

arhh.. kk.. so that was my weekend.. gtg for that dumb visual screening now.. zzzz...

Nut was Cased at ; 6:41:00 AM

Because I am saved, because I am a child of God, He will watch over me AND my HOUSEHOLD, and bless us all with long life. Amen.

Nut was Cased at ; 9:03:00 PM