started the day off really lazy.. cos of all the self-condemnation going on all through the night.. couldnt sleep well..

but.. im so glad that ive all these kingdom friends, who urged me to get out and go to church.. yep.. so we decided to go for 4th.. give me more time to slack more.. haha.. met up with them at macs, hanged out.. den went up for svc.. guess what.. im so glad i went!!

Guest speaker today.. Pastor Charles Nieman.. what is Faith? believing and speaking.. and how patience will encourage Faith to keep moving, keep going, so that mountains can be moved..

that's like a really basic summary of what was taught today.. ive got so much so much to read and feed on tonight before i sleep.. so exciting!!

met up with my parents after svc, and bought my shoes!! Asics shoes.. not sport shoes.. those 'walking' shoes.. if u get wad i mean.. haha..

alrighteys.. gonna play some guitar and feed now.. tata!

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argh.. i hate it when self-condemnation kicks in.

sigh.

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it's 1240am on a saturday EARLY morning...

gonna have a steamboat with my caregroup at my place later this evening.. how cool is that!!

preparations are almost done.. going to the market later in the morning with mum and dad to buy more stuff..

was spending time this whole week to pack my room.. the last time i packed was before my birthday celeb.. haha.. seems like i only pack when im inviting pple over.. lolz..

gonna do some reading den sleep sleep :)

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i am feeling so, so, so loved, by my sisters in Christ.

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juz came back from leaders/servers meeting at church.. Pastor Henry is way cool manx.. a walking bible indeed.. his msg today was about the Holy Spirit and praying in tongues..

even though ive been in this church for almost a year now (dec), i still find this a very "scary" topic.. not scary scary.. but.. i dunno how to describe.. haha..

but it was good yep.. alot of things to take home and chew on.. i loved it.. and am totally looking forward to the next meeting next week :)

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i'll be attending my first ever leaders/servers meeting at church tml night!!

when i first got the news, i was like.. HUH? me? correct person not.. no way am i a leader.. and i dun see myself as a server too.. so i clarified with gracia, who said that it was Coach's orders.. den clarified with Ying Ling too..

ok.. so im going tomorrow night, and im so gonna get blessed!!

anw.. the msg preached yesterday by Jesus through Pastor Prince totally blew me away.. Jesus, Your presence was so.. WOAH.. You were there alright.. i feel as if the msg was tailor-made specially for me..

after my sharing with Ying Ling on the train saturday night, and late into the night on msn.. what was shared, You shared with me again during yesterday's service!

When we saw that sign of Your face shining and blinking LITERALLY on that screen.. i was overwhelmed with emotions.. i felt You telling me personally that all is gonna be alright.. You have everything taken care of.. and once again at the end of the service when Pastor was praying over the congregation, You touched every one of our hearts.

im so in love with You. thank You for loving me.

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Arrow yesterday.. Pastor Lian.. was cool.. celebrated Jofid's bdae after.. didnt join them for dinner.. huili and i left for Haji lane to do something..

today service was Pastor Peter Youngren.. cos Pastor Prince is at Israel.. was good.. but i fell asleep a while.. hangover from last night.. headache.. lolz..

went to buy another guitar.. folk guitar this time.. at peninsular shopping centre.. with jialing.. so now ive got 3 guitars at home.. classical, baby, folk.. well done..

heard from Ying Ling that Coach Joanne will be taking CareGroup this friday cos Coach Maddy will not be back from her mission trip at Chiangrai on time.. still gonna lead worship.. scared lei.. havent even decide on my songs.. sigheth..

Daddy God, work through me!!

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i broke down during a song at P&W today.. totally hope everybody was busy worshipping and didnt notice.. was so paiseh k.. especially with yl beside me..

but self-consciousness aside, the lyrics of that song.. somehow.. when they were repeating this line over and over again, i felt His presence right with me.. assuring me that all will be fine.. nothing's too small for Him to handle.. i felt so loved.. the tears couldnt stop flowing.. i was busy wiping.. HAHA.

thank You, Jesus.

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i committed a terrible sin yesterday.. spent about 2 hrs doing it.. unthinkable..

didnt mention to anyone.. but Coach knew.. even before i confessed to her after cg at nus..

the songs Coach made us sing impromptu after the 'prepared' P&W before cg.. it was all for me.. God knew what i did.. and He acted through Coach..

still cant believe i did what i did.. oops..

Jesus loves me this i know
for the Bible tells me so
little ones to Him belong
we are blessed cos He is strong

yes Jesus loves me
yes Jesus loves me
yes Jesus loves me
for the Bible tells me so
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what can wash away my sins
nothing but the blood of Jesus
what can make me whole again
nothing but the blood of Jesus

oh precious is the flow
that makes me white as snow
no other fount i know
nothing but the blood of Jesus

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if anyone has been reading my blog regularly..

did u realised that every single entry i blog about.. it's always about church stuff?

oh my.. it's quite scary..

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