today's a great day!! it's my day off.. actually this whole week supposed to be off.. cos it's 5th week from tues-friday.. but i had to make up lessons on tues and wed cos i took leave last saturday for NUS Shining Lights..

but ANW.. mum woke me up LOVINGLY (haha) this morning.. took me another half hr to really get out of my bed.. haha.. took a bath.. and we headed to whitesands.. had breakfast, borrowed dvds, returned library books, mum had manicure, i had my eyebrows trimmed..

then headed to downtown east.. lunched at the hong kong restaurant, and watched Money No Enough 2.. was a good show yep.. very down to earth.. very real life.. bits of comedy.. and really very touching scenes.. many in the theatre cried.. haha.. good show good show..

i totally love today :) thank God for this really cool day out with MUM!!

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this is the video yingling shared with me a few days back.. about this protein Laminin that holds all our body cells together.. check it out..


this video is about a father's love for his son..


and this video is about parents' love for their son.. super touching..


enjoy these videos!! and bask in Daddy God's love for you!

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hmm.. i shall share that good news ive been mentioning for quite a while now.. haha.. ive been attending interview and audition at the MOE and NIE for the past month or so.. and last friday, ive been given the offer!! to study at NIE then teach at secondary schools.. all paid for, and i'll be paid too.. lolz.. yep..

BUT... ive been worrying since then about whether to accept that offer or not..

i was telling yingling how ironic it is.. how when i didnt have it, i wanted it.. now that i have it, im hanging in between..

cos i feel as if this decision really determines my life.. the ladder that i'll be climbing for the rest of my life.. like what deacon anthony shared at Shining Lights.. you can change ladder when u're not near the top.. but u cant change ladder if u already are..

is this what i really want? yl asked me to ask God, involve Him in my decision making.. i think He has already given me the answer.. but im just avoiding it..

do i have the determination and willpower to see it through? i havent had any of those in the past.. always quitting halfway.. but im a New Creation now rite?! all the old things have passed away!! isnt it? hmmm..

quoting michelle, have faith jasmine, have faith!

hmmm...

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just came home from service.. today's message was cool!! the fragrance of God.. wow.. just excellent..

after svc, me and huili went to the food court for dinner.. and bumped into sam, yuyan and xiaohan there.. so we joined them and had some fellowshipped.. was cool.. yep.. so far ive shared with about 5 pple about my experience receiving my first ministering.. all of them were so excited to hear about it!! hA.. im very happy to share it too!!

nO words can really, truly describe how much i love Daddy God and how much He first loved me..

im so looking forward to our first ever youth concert this saturday!!

right now.. im feeling lonely again.. house too quiet and empty.. lol..

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im feeling quite tired now.. so i shall TRY to keep this short..

im back from NUS Cluster Shining Lights 2008!! the day started off with games.. everyone got really wet.. haha.. after lunch, Deacon Anthony shared on time management and prioritising.. really beneficial.. yep.. Selene shared on tithing.. reminds me of what Yingling shared with me last time.. The Investment That Heaven Endorses.. den Coach Maddy shared on how to develop People Skills.. yep.. this was really good too..

there were many other stuff that took place.. like writing on post-its and sticking on the 'tree', and picking up someone else's post-it, FINDING that someone, making a new friend, and then praying for him/her.. it was beautiful chaos.. haha..

but the highlight was the Praise and Worship session!! oh before that.. there was a dance item followed by a song item.. remember elaine asked me to help play the violin for the song item and i kinda rejected? i felt so so so sad/guilty during the item today.. felt like i shld have been standing there with the keyboardist and singers making music.. instead of just watching.. sigheth..

BUT this is where the highlight was.. during the p&w, Coach asked for various grps of people to go up to be prayed for, with oil and be anointed.. such as freshies, graduates, pple with problems that seem too big to be solved etc..

Coach also called for people who see themselves making music, wanting to lead pple in worshipping the Lord, or just to lead oneself to psalm to the Lord.. quite a few pple went up.. i was standing with the audience.. super self-conscious.. then i closed my eyes for a moment.. and i really felt the Holy Spirit just led me to the front to get prayed for!

one of the leaders, Joe came to me and laid hands on me.. ministered to me.. i tell you.. i was seriously overwhelmed.. last time at Arrow i remember seeing pple collapse after being ministered to, and i couldnt understand why..

but now i totally do.. i seriously felt the power flow in me.. but cos of this certain bit of self-consciousness still left in me, (awaiting God's removal, amen!) i kinda 'controlled' myself.. but not before i actually 'jerked' a little.. dunno how to describe this lar.. but u really have to experience it to know it.. yep..

after that Coach came to pray for me too.. felt so loved u noe.. firstly by Daddy God.. and how He places all these people in my life.. Coach, leaders, to minister, preach, talk, share, care (and the list goes on) for me..

i want to give back.

ok the funniest thing i felt after all these was.. the whole LT was super fragrant.. haha.. with all the olive oil.. and everyone was so oily.. haha..

oh oh!! to end off, coach taught all of us how to anoint ourselves everyday with oil.. just to note it down here so that i can refer to and remember.. head, ears, eyes, nose, mouth, hands, body, heart, legs.. i tink that's all..

alrighty.. i shall go grab some dinner.. quite hungry.. quite late already.. no one's home.. parents are on holiday did i mention? yep.. feeling quite lost and lonely now.. dunno why.. but nvm.. i shall just bask in God's love.. tata!

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ive got so much to praise Daddy God for!! He's awesome!! He's great!!

Got a piece of excellent news!! come ask me!! haha!!

Shining Lights at NUS tml.. it's gonna be fun, they say.. hA..

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yingling shared with me a video on Godtube last nite.. i watched it and was totally blown away..

the speaker was Louie Giglio.. and he was talking about this protein in our human body called Laminin. Laminin is a protein that holds all our body molecules together.. binds all the molecules.. below is the molecular shape of Laminin.


Are you blown away?!

How great is our God!!

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im feeling so, so loved.. no particular reason why i shld feel that way.. so that's why i know that it's just Daddy God's love manifesting in me.. God is Good! just great. just awesome!

feeling His love for you, in you, makes you feel.. so good!

haha.. this post is quite crappy i noe.. haha.. nothing else to post about marh.. but really, im feeling really, really loved.. haha!

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great service again today!! attended with yingling and huili.. reached early.. collected tickets for 4th.. den slacked.. met yingling at the arrow counter and chat.. cos she's serving..

the message today by pastor prince was a continuation from his message 2 weeks ago before he left for hillsong conference.. about Food.. yea.. too lazy to collect my thoughts and summarise the message here now.. haha..

after the service, i think pastor was so filled with the holy spirit, he just went on and on worshipping and singing.. it was cool yep..

had dinner after that.. den came home with yingling and huili.. that's about it.. asking yingling's advice on a few topics now.. haha..

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im so glad i settled the new arrangements of timings with all my students.. was quite burdened by it for the past few nites.. kept worrying and worrying.. tried to rest in the Lord and let Him take over.. yep..

praise God, it's all settled!! no arguments/quarrels/dissatisfaction with parents.. all praise be to Daddy God!!

brought Huili for Arrow service today.. she loved it!! im glad!! hA.. bringing her to sunday service with pastor prince tml.. looking forward!! it feels good bringing pple to the house of God yea..

though she's actually been born again when she was just in primary school, but she doesnt practise her faith that much.. so im hoping and praying and trusting that Daddy God will lead her and guide her.. bring her to a church where she feels comfortable with.. and of course to a church that will inspire her to practise her faith..

had dinner and fellowship with caregroup after service.. was really fun!! hA.. somehow.. i feel that ive got a "personality disorder".. sucha long and private story.. so i shant share it here.. hA.. well.. some select few know i think.. and of course Daddy God.. He knows me inside out!! and im trusting Him to change me!! amen! haha!!

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was just telling yingling about my burdens.. and she sent me this song.. made me tear k.. look at the lyrics..

Corrinne May - Five Loaves and Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look

Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears my inhibitions
All my burdens my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All that You need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears my inhibitions
All my burdens my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears my inhibitions
All my burdens my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

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attended 4th service with yl today.. pastor prince just came back from hillsong conference last nite.. so pastor joshua preached today..

the message was short and sweet and powerful.. yep.. some parts really spoke to me.. and is totally relevant to what im going through rite now.. so it's cooL!

right now i gotta practise.. in the flesh, im practising.. but im not trusting on my own works yea.. it's all Daddy God working through me, amen! :)

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just came home from fellowship with the caregroup.. we had dinner at FoodForThought just opposite the national library.. sandwiches, mushroom soup.. super nice and healthy!!

Coach shared further about what pastor shared at last arrow.. and each of us shared wad qualities we want to see ourselves having as we are married with our own family.. den wad qualities we wish for in our spouse.. was quite difficult for me.. cos the thought of having a boyfriend, much less a spouse, a family, has never ever crossed my mind.. i guess im just not ready.. hmmz..

and oso updated them with what's going on in my life.. the continuation of the blessing that Daddy has blessed upon me a few weeks back that has manifested into yet another blessing yesterday.. Coach and the cg laid hands on me and anointed me with oil! i felt super duper blessed yep..

Daddy, I will not trust my arm of flesh. I will rely totally on Your strength, Your Grace, Your favour. May You speak through me. Make music through me. Bless me with my desires. Thank You, Daddy. for all You have done for me. and all that You WILL do for me. In Jesus wonderful name i pray, amen!

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ive just received some excellent news again.. in continuation to the undeserved, unmerited, unearned favour i received from Daddy a few weeks ago.. however this time im given very very short notice..

Daddy God, i am totally helpless and dependant on you.. i will not rely on my own flesh and works.. instead, on Your favour and grace for me.. may you anoint me and fulfil my desires..

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

lala.. gonna attend bridget's cg tonite.. though bridget's on her honeymoon at europe now! haha.. gotta go take a shower and get ready.. tata!!

oh before i go, mstan anointed me and my hands with oil during piano this morning.. haha!!

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how amazing God's love is! remember i mentioned i was sharing with yingling some really really sensitive and personal issue of mine 2 nites ago (sunday nite-mon morn).. and she shared about how right believing produces right living..

guess what.. it's on the daily devotional today!! There're really no coincidence, it's how God always has His way in doing things.. im really really amazed..

this is an extract ive taken from the devotional from church:

"Many people want to live right. Their concern with right living makes them focus on themselves and the things they struggle with. But it is right believing that produces right living. If you are trying to break free from an addiction that has bound you for many years, believe that Jesus loves you so much that at the cross, He paid the price for you to be completely free from any addiction. Believe that by His stripes, you are healed and delivered."

Almost exactly what yingling told me.. i really thank God for sending such a shepherd for me.. whatever He wants to tell me, He tells me through yingling.. like what is mentioned in the bible.. God uses man to help Him do things.. not the exact words.. but something like that.. haha.. im still learning.. lolz.

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i chatted with yingling till the wee hrs of the morning last nite.. hmmz.. shared on a super sensitive topic.. hmmz.. post more when i come back home tonite.. gotta rush go teach now..

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well im really tired now so i shall just give a short entry..

attended arrow service today.. partly cos i just wanted to get closer and know more about Daddy God and also cos of friend's encouragements.. cos i was kinda lazy to go.. lolz.. and i missed the last arrow service cos i fell asleep at home too.. haha..

glad that i went.. today's message was about Love Affair.. how do we know what is true love? by experiencing God's love for you! something like that.. i tink.. lolz.. though it isnt really applicable to me lar.. cos im nt looking for a relationship.. dun ask me why.. i oso dunno.. haha..

had dinner and fellowship after that with the cg.. everybody was like laughing how i seem to be scared of coach maddy.. lolz.. i oso dunno why.. actually i dun think im scared.. im just SHY.. lolz.. she has got those piercing eyes that seem to be able to read ur thoughts and see through you.. lolz..

yea.. anw.. know why im so tired? i spent the whole of thursday nite at downtown east.. watched The Strangers mn movie.. (thurs mn, which is friday early morning).. followed by hanging out at the 24hr macs.. then we took the earliest bus at 515am home.. couldnt sleep much.. had to wake up at 10plus for piano lesson.. then went out to meet mum..

friday nite.. had cg with bridget's cg.. was good.. topic was Discerning God's Will.. was a lil deep.. but good nonetheless..

reached home 11plus almost mn after that.. felt like having a walk.. so i walked lor.. came home around 2plus.. conked out after that.. then had to wake up to teach le.. which is today la..

so after teaching, i was so tempted to just stay home and sleep.. but but.. Daddy God gave me the strength to stay awake and leave the house for arrow service.. haha..

alritey.. it's getting late.. im really really tired.. gotta wake early for teaching again tml.. then sunday service.. i tot this was supposed to be a short entry.. seems long.. haha..

God give me strength and enthusiasm for the next day and infinite days ahead!!

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im done with the piano accompaniment for my violin students!! their exams were today.. at choa chu kang.. my ass totally rot on the way there.. on the train.. coming back journey wasnt as bad.. cos i was rejoicing.. haha..

it's quite stressful.. as ive prob mentioned before in my earlier posts.. haha.. to accompany so many students at one period.. quite zzz.. but im glad i took up the challenge and am done with it!! haha..

rejoice rejoice!!

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