ive got so much to thank Daddy God for today.. :D

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feeling quite pissed off with my mum..

i wanna buy PSP.. found a place that sells it in quite a good deal.. $358 for 4G and all games.. but mum refuses to let me buy.. i even asked her if she will kill me if i buy it on my own.. she said YES.. zzz...

den just a while ago, i asked her if i can buy another pair of nike sneakers.. again she said NO.. den she started nagging like how i am spending on my own needs rather than giving my parents more than what im giving them now..

seriously.. since im the one working.. when im not even a fully-grown adult at 21 yet, shouldnt i be able to enjoy at the very least? the impression im getting is like i shld work my ass off for the rest of my life and forgo my youth.. i dun feel like they're showing a genuine interest in whether i go back to school or not.. feel as if they'd prefer if i just work work and work somemore..

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im currently feeling very sad and anxious.. msn wouldnt sign me in and im kinda desperate to chat with someone.. anyone.. argh..

Nut was Cased at ; 11:36:00 PM

i dunno if i mentioned this before.. but Coach shared this during CG last friday..

God's number is triple 3!! as in 333!!

why??

Jeremiah 33:3
"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."

I have been sharing this with almost everyone i see these days.. lol..

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today's message touched my heart in many areas.. im sad that i didnt bring my notebook to take down notes.. i think ive forgotten most of the quoted verses..

feel as if today's message is just right for me.. like it was all planned.. amen!

anw.. i was playing 'psychiatrist' to a sec 3 student today.. hmm.. haha.. suddenly feel all so 'grown-up' huh.. lol.. super long story.. but i'll just pray for him and im sure all will go well..

oh and i must thank all those pple who attended 4th service today with me.. yingling and part of taurus's cg.. im sure most of them all wanted or normally attends 3rd.. so yea.. abit paiseh that u all wanna join me.. thank you loads!! even though u wun read this.. but i just thank you peeps in my heart:)

and i forgot to add, i saw mstan walked in with her friend during praise and worship!! haha..

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just came home from dinner with taurus's cg at clarke quay's manhatten fish market..

on the way there rite.. at dhoby ghaut waiting for NEL, guess who i bumped into? MICHELLE YEOH!! haha.. felt so great meeting her!! well she made me miss my train to clarke quay.. so we chatted while waitin for the next train.. haha.. and she gives the 'cosiest' hugs ever.. makes u feel so warm and fuzzy inside.. :)

so.. met jianwei at clarke quay station.. walked a redundant walk to find the place.. lol.. long story.. haha.. then finally when everyone arrived we had dinner! we had very farnie conversations.. haha.. cant really recollect my thoughts now..

anws.. after dinner, we had some jap ice cream.. then walked around.. ended up at the Gmax there.. the bungee thingy.. haha.. jianwei and taurus took!!! i was quite tempted to take actually.. haha.. but nah.. some other time lar hor.. haha..

so was quite late already.. taurus sent me and yangkai (whom i just got to noe today.. yea!) to city hall mrt then we went our separate ways lor..

hmm.. actually felt a lil paiseh at one pt when they were discussing which service to attend tml.. most of them cld make it for both 3rd and 4th.. but since i cld only attend 4th, they all decided to attend 4th too.. but i noe that jianwei really wants to attend 3rd so that he can go home early for dinner with his family..

argh.. oh no.. how? sigheth..

Nut was Cased at ; 11:54:00 PM

just came home from my 1st official cg!!!! i come home feeling all refreshed and rejuvenated!! took the train home with sam and yingling..

coach maddy was leading cg.. i love cg!! i like how it's so cosy.. cos it's a small grp.. like around 10 or less.. then there's so much sharing.. so much learning about God's words and what He can do..

took in quite alot.. gotta have some quiet time later with God to collect my thoughts and perhaps pen them down in my notebook.. yep im starting to keep a notebook like what yingling suggested i shld!! lol..

tml's another half day of teaching.. then im gonna head down to clarke quay to meet up with taurus's cg for dinner!! ooo.. another exciting day ahead!

Nut was Cased at ; 11:56:00 PM

today is the last day of CNY! just finished my reunion dinner with my immediate family.. dinner started late, cos everyone was waiting for me to come home from teaching.. had steamboat as usual.. and wine (15%).. to tell u the truth.. im kinda drunk now.. LOL..

this morning i had bible study session with bridget, and with karen joining us for the first time at tampines.. was fruitful.. topic was on temptations..

reflecting back, i had many temptations in my past which led to sin, cos I didnt have God in my life back then, even though He was always with me. But im assured now, that by accepting Christ into my life, i will be able to overcome ALL temptations. God will not remove temptations, but He will HELP me to overcome, to conquer them. amen!

There's an extremely important issue in my life right now, and i place it in God's hands to make it a success. In a few months' time, i will get the result of His Grace for me.

kk enough of those serious stuff.. recently i was surfing crunchyroll and i chanced upon this jdrama.. Gosuken! very nice!! please go watch:)

Nut was Cased at ; 11:59:00 PM

just finished a game of mahjong with family.. was kinda blabbering throughout.. so wasnt really concentrating in the game and thus losing.. zzz..

currently ive got loads on my mind.. tonnes of stuff to remember.. it's all in a mess.. gotta tidy up my thoughts a bit.. seriously zzz..

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arh.. got pissed off by some students today.. arhhhh... but chatting with yingling cheers me up..

and i just heard some news.. which again made me like depressed all over again.. zzz..

the only good thing is.. my parents are coming home tonight:)

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there was a blackout today at ossia!! which lasted about 30mins!! im so glad that it happened during the time when my student couldnt come for lesson cos of competition auditions!! if not i'd have to find time to make up like all the other teachers.. praise God! haha..

after teaching, i went home to take a bath and slacked around, then took a cab down to suntec for church. my thing came!!

YUAN, YUYAN, MICH, NAD im so so so so so so so so sorry i didnt go for the concert.. from the bottom of my heart.. i apologise!! plllleeeeeeaaaaaaaasssssseeeee forgive me!! lol..

anw.. service was good.. when i met yingling after service, she asked me how was service. as usual, i answered "good!" haha.. seriously arh.. pple always ask me the same thing and i always answer the same thing.. seriously is there something wrong with me or wad..

anw.. somehow when i meet yingling face to face.. i get this sense of.. dunno what to call it.. i'll like get tongue-tied and stuff.. everybody says she has this very motherly character.. which i totally agree.. budden.. dunno why lei..

God i pray that you will help me to open up more when im with yingling:)

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arhhh.. feel damn guilty-strickened.. i missed arrow service today.. not because i was busy.. but cos i was conquered by laziness.. like seriously.. really felt so so down when it was 430pm and im still at home.. and missed yingling's call and everything.. arh.. why why am i doing this.. arh..

but seriously the whole of today i felt like my lips were being glued together.. didnt even feel like talking to anyone.. zzzz.. missed a whole lot of calls today..

oh the only call i picked up was this private number.. it was my parents from macau!! haha.. luckily i had this feeling i had to pick this up :)

feeling dammit lazy again.. shit i shld stop using the word 'damn'.. it's not a good word to use.. chatting with online now.. hahaz.. tata.

Nut was Cased at ; 11:13:00 PM

wow time passes so quickly.. the week is almost coming to an end.. somehow for me, the week starts on saturday and ends on a friday.. weird huh.. haha.. i guess it's all cos of my teaching schedule..

started teaching on tuesday.. so it's been 3 days back at work.. thank God, it was quite a breeze :) i was dreading going back to work after cny.. cos of the impending theory exams, music competition finals and practical exams which many many of my students are preparing for.. i shall depend on Him for the strength yea.. amen!

parents are going off to macau and hongkong tml morning.. bro and i are sending them off.. thus im PONNING piano.. lol.. after that gotta come home for the accompaniment session with violin student.. then karen shld be coming over to watch Passion of The Christ.. finally we'll head down to Bridget's cg.. haha..

btw, i have been meeting up with karen regularly recently.. attempting to translate the book of Matthew for her.. LOL.. imagine how hilarious that is.. haha..

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as u can guess, i fell asleep and didnt wake up last night when i was supposed to just take a nap and wake for dinner.. LOL.. so in total, i slept for more than 12 hrs.. from 9+ pm to 10am this morning.. haha..

very refreshed this morning.. woke up, took a bath.. then waited for mum to get ready.. went out to deposit all my angpao $$.. walked around shop shop, then fetched jeryl.. then had a drink and chilled at suntec starbucks.. after that came home le..

recently im very into hot mocha at starbucks.. haha.. just love sitting there, be it alone or with friend/family.. and reading a book, or chatting.. feels so relaxing.. yep..

gonna meet karen tonight.. she just came back from msia.. shop shop walk walk chat chat.. then watch ah long at century square.. haha..

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just came home.. not very late.. but im damn tired.. zzz..

played mahjong till 3/4am last night.. then woke at 7am.. dad fetched us for breakfast at kallang macs.. then dropped me off at the indoor stadium for New Creation Church CNY service..

Pastor Mark preached in English today.. he's the chinese/hokkien pastor.. so naturally it's hilarious when he preached in english.. haha.. felt very at home.. could feel the presence of God in our midst today during praise and worship.. especially the part when Pastor Prince went on stage, i couldnt help but feel so ____.. dunno what word to use..

if u havent heard of Pastor Prince or his preaching, you've missed alot mans.. he is our senior pastor and he usually is the one who preaches every sunday.. he is the one that made my life change.. he is just so so very very anointed.. yep.. :)

oh and today they played my favourite song during praise and worship!! and yuyan taught me the dance that goes with it.. so happy!! haha..

and im so glad.. each day i meet up with my cg, i get closer and closer to them.. learn more about them each day.. and get more comfortable.. praise God for bringing these wonderful soulmates to me :)

anw.. im damn tired now.. wanna go take a nap then maybe wake for dinner.. that is if i wake lar.. haha..

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btw i forgot to mention..

this CNY ive been dressing very ladylike ok.. heels and all.. no skirt la.. but still.. haha.. and i carried a freaking handbag my mum bought for me a few days back OKAY!! haha..

and dad said my 'walking' improved.. and asked is it cos of the heels.. that forced me to walk more like a LADY.. L-O-L..

hilarious i know.. :)

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third day of CNY today.. not supposed to have any visitings today.. according to grandma's superstitions.. haha..

have been having extremely late nights last few days.. like 3/4am in the morning.. lol.. all shagged.. so we all woke up like around noon today.. then parents and grandma went to uncle's house to chit chat..

im all alone at home now.. wanted to go watch a movie.. but decided not to lar.. just slack around at home better.. wait for parents to come bring me out for dinner later.. just watched Passion of the Christ on vcd just now.. sucha great show that never fails to bring me close to tears..

shall spend some time with Him now.. havent been doing that like what the others all say i should.. hmmm.. anw.. CNY combined service at indoor stadium tml morning.. cant wait! haha..

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wow it's already 220am.. finally im free to settle down in front of the laptop to blog.. haha.. had a really busy day.. woke up bright and early at 6am to have breakfast and then visit my late granddads..

came home.. slept a while.. then prepared for reunion dinner.. after midnight, we went down to the temple as part of tradition.. supposed to go to kallang macs after that for coffee, like we do every year.. but this year i guess all the aunties are getting older and they're tired.. haha..

anw.. gonna be a busy day ahead.. with visitings and all.. zzz.. im not the kind of 'crowd person'.. and dad's gonna let me drive the whole day.. lol..

GOOD NIGHT pple.. and HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!

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nothing much happened today.. maid came to do housework.. then mum and i went to fetch jeryl, then we went to changi airport t2 for swensens.. then t3 for some shopping.. bought earrings and Pastor Prince's Destined to Reign.. like finally!! haha..

by the time we reached home, was about 5 plus.. and something bad happened.. shant elaborate here.. just discussing with yuyan about it.. hmm..

aniways.. parents and i just came back from ikea and dinner.. and im feeling real bored.. nothing to do.. tml is cny eve.. gonna be another busy day.. lala..

Nut was Cased at ; 11:34:00 PM

well today is my last day of teaching before i break for cny..

was woken very early in the morning by mum.. we actually planned to go for pedicure.. but decided against it.. went shopping instead.. haha.. i spent close to a hundred bucks.. zzz.. haha..

came home.. then went to teach.. was in high spirits.. after that i came home put my stuff, then went out again with karen to starbucks at tm.. helped her with translating, explaining the word of God..

just reached home.. got thrashed by mum.. saying that she doesnt like this and this wld be my last time coming home so late.. hmm..

anw.. i was feeling very emo last night.. was telling yuyan some stuff.. thanks yuyan for lending a listening ear to my crap:) though i dun tink she'll be reading this.. haha.. and im feeling very guilty about how i felt last night.. feeling guilty about having doubts.. sigheth.. anw.. shant tok about it here..

cny is coming!! im having a 1 week break as of now!! haha..

Nut was Cased at ; 11:59:00 PM

another great day has passed!

started the day off with teaching as usual.. then met my cousin at pasir ris mrt and we went down to suntec together.. service was good.. pastor mark hankins preached today cos pastor prince is out of town.. damn farnie guy he is.. all his jokes.. lol..

but i was a lil stunned when i heard pastor mark's wife, pastor trina (i think) worshipped in tongues.. i need some getting used to.. hmm..

anw, after service, went to join yingling's cg for dessert and just hanged around.. then walked with them a while and they went home while me and cousin went to walk somemore and have dinner.. lol..

back home now.. gonna join mum for pedicure tml morning.. vain huh! haha.. then gotta teach.. one last day of teaching before breaking for cny.. yea! after teaching, prob will be hanging out with karen over coffee to help her study the bible a lil.. not that i can help much.. but just translating a lil.. cos she's malaysian and her english's not really there..

my days are so bright and colourful these days!! now with God by my side.. yea!

Nut was Cased at ; 11:34:00 PM

started the day off with breakfast with mum.. then went to teach.. time passed very fast today.. like whoosh.. all of a sudden it's 3pm already.. thanks to Daddy God, all my students remembered the change in timing today!!

rushed home put my stuff down then went out again for Arrow service.. woah.. im seriously stunned lar.. the atmosphere was so high.. everyone was just giving in their all to praise and worship God.. then there was this movie screening about God's love for us.. quite arty farty and chimanology.. luckily the pastor explained after it..

then the closing was all high again.. everyone was like jumping.. and the dances to go with the worship songs.. WOAH.. im too shy lar.. everyone was like telling me to join in the dancing/jumping.. but i just cant bring myself to lar.. zzz..

towards the end, mum kept calling me.. there's our maternal side reunion dinner today.. so i quickly took a cab down.. cost me a bomb lar.. peak hr.. arhh.. and guess wad.. there's this maternal side family who got into quarrels with my grandma a few yrs back.. so these few cny they havent been visiting us.. today they reconciled!! so attendance at maternal family was complete today!! i cld see grandma was very happy.

so happy.. cos last time when i was still very young, i was very close to those cousins.. especially the girl.. she's 16 already!! last time i saw her, she was still like around 7yrs old!! so we caught up a lil.. and im inviting her for service and cg reunion dinner tml!!

i love bringing pple closer to God. afterall, He did great things for us. and all we can do is to give thanks and praise Him.

"Christianity is not a religion. It's a relationship with God."
How coincidental that i was commenting on this phrase on Cheryl's blog late last night, and Pastor mentioned this again in service today:)

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ok.. end of hectic but fulfilling day..

as mentioned, i started the day with piano lesson.. which dragged on forever.. partly cos i was waiting for the boss and wife and daughter to come so that i could settle admin stuff with them..

by the time i was done, it was raining dinosaurs.. rushed home and was drenched.. gobbled down lunch then waited for the violin student to come.. session was quite good.. after that headed down to tampines mall to meet karen..

showed karen yamaha.. she signed up for member and bought her book.. then we went to the christian bookstore to look at bibles.. she couldnt decide which to buy.. cos it was quite pricey.. so we went for dinner.. after much coaxing, we went back to the bookstore to buy her bible!! haha..

den walked around.. i wanted to buy more adidas clothes.. lol.. but couldnt find any nice ones.. so we went to starbucks and sit and chat.. i taught her how to read the bible and stuff.. but couldnt tell her much cos i was inadequate.. yep.. but still managed to tell her a bit about Jesus and how He died for our sins..

great day ahead tml too.. teaching 9-3 full.. then my first ever Arrow service!! then gotta rush for reunion dinner with maternal family.. lala!!

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