Happy Puasa!

Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan! Here I would like to menyusun jari jari comelku ini memohon maaf kepada sume rakan rakan yang mengenali diri ini... If ada salah silap or terkasar bahasa or pape je la, maaf ye...

And Happy Puasa to Encik Tunang! This is our last puasa as orang bujang ye B... Lets enjoy our single life while we can! Less then 1 year to go! ^_~


p/s: and yeah, I guess memang nak kurangkan blogging after I get married... maybe even terus stop...

Soklan Pada Mereka yang Sudah Berkawen...

How's life after marriage?

Is it like a box of chocolate?

Is it as easy as A B C?

Is it hard?

Is it fun?

Is it stressful?

Is it wonderful?

Is it everything I mentioned above and more?

Teringin nak tau to prepare myself for the future :)

Kawan....

I know this happened quite some time ago and I did not write about it but still sangat terasa. OK, takde kaitan dengan Encik Tunang yang sangat saya sayang tapi tentang kawan. I seriously won't do anything to hurt my friends and if I did, memang secara tidak sengaja. Before I got engaged, they were the most important people in my life besides my family. Still, they are the most important people in my life but bila dah tunang, some things change but that doesn't change the fact that I love them with all my heart.

Talking about terasa, I donno if I should write it. I told Encik Tunang I'm over it but I'm not exactly over it. Actually I dunno how this thing happened. All I know all of a sudden something has changed between me and her. I think it's about a guy. I don't wanna jump to conclusions but seriously I'm engaged and surely won't try to woo another guy. Being friends, yes but more then that, it's jut not me. OK, yes, I texted the guy she liked but when he texted me about a business me and my fiance are doing. Kena la balas kan? But then biasa la, kawan jadi melalut la. Suh cari awek la bagai kan and me kononnya nak be a good friend mentioned my friends name nie. Basically tu je la and he also texted a few times again but because Encik Tunang knew about this and he didn't like it, I stopped. But the day I stopped, was the same day I got an uneasy feeling about my friend. I thought it was not important to tell her coz the way I texted this guy pun bukan nak ngorat kan. I actually can say she is my best friend. I dunno what she thinks of me but I can say that she is one of my bestest friends coz she's been there for me thru think and thin and I tell her almost everything.

Nak cite semua apa yang jadi memang panjang la but basically this happened and boleh la rasa jurang tu. When I asked her about her FB status, she did not say 'No' or 'Bukan ko lah' but she said it was another person but not denying that it was me. Paham tak? Hahahaha... Ayat cam haram kan? I mean I know her too well. If it wasn't me, she'd terus jawab 'Bukan ko lah' or 'Mengarut la hang nie' or stuff like that. And the best part which made me feel it was definitely me was when I told her that I forwarded the guys texts to my Encik Tunang and she text me back saying 'alang2 tu anta la kt aku skali'............................ I don't know what went wrong. Seriously. I have no idea. Should I call or ask her face to face about this or just let it be? Coz I know my niat was nothing but just being friends. How could something like this happen? Or is it just me dok terasa? But I seriously have a strong feeling the person she was talking about in her FB status was me. Orang cakap kalau takde angin, masakan pokok bergoyang kan? Yes, maybe it was my fault layan text mamat tersebut. Yes, that I am guilty TAPI the contents of the messages were strictly just friends messages and I also stated everytime he text me that I am someone's fiance and I love my fiance so much. Seriously I don't know what happened....

OK, dah2 la tu buat luahan perasaan kat blog. I don't get bothered with stuff easily but this thing has been bothering me since it happened. Seriously I love my friends and I would never ever hurt them dengan sengaja. But yes, aku agak terkilan. Terkilan sebab she should know me better.... Tapi pape pun, if tuan badan baca blog aku nie.... Seriously I'm so sorry for whatever thing that I did yang mungkin aku tak perasan yang melukakan ko. Takde niat di hati aku untuk merampas atau mengorat atau mengutuk atau mengata atau menggatal dengan mamat tu..... Sebab nie jugak dan sebab Azlan tak suka, aku memang dah tak balas message mamat tu... Kalau nak tau cite sebenar, you can come and ask me. I can explain every single text that i sent to him. Aku taknak just because of this, our 6 years friendship goes down the drain. You know how much you mean to me kan?

OK lah, I'm done.... Sila jangan rasa saya seperti lesbo pulak ye. Ye, saya sayang sume kawan saya. Saya sayang mereka sampai saya mati. Mereka la penyinar hidup saya suatu ketika dahulu dan saya tidak akan pernah melupakan mereka... *ok,lebih dituju kepada kawan2 arau*

Can I Have This Dance?

OK, you guys can say whatever you guys want but I love this High School Musical 3 song! The song is nice and the lyric is so sweet! Tujuan post ini? To tujukan lagu ini kepada Encik Tunang tersayang la hehehe...

Kepada Mohd Kamarul Azlan bin Ainuddin, let's keep dancing throughout our relationship tak kira susah dan senang. I'll always be by your side no matter what happens. And never forget that I love you so much!

Can I Have This Dance

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

p/s: I miss you, Azlan Ainuddin <3

Just a Little Something...

Hey...

Actually aku tak tau nak type ape dalam post kali nie. Nak cite what is happening in my life macam takde bende je. Work? I think I may have the best job ever. Yela, maybe just keje under UiTM's student service scheme but I think the pay is good and the hours are flexible and I can take days off sesuka hati but the only thing I need to make sure is that I complete my 24 hours a month. Kalau boleh, more. And make sure tak dapat gaji buta. Well, coz tak banyak keje sekarang, agak macam buta jugak la but my lecturer said just datang and cukupkan jam so dah lecturer yg paling best cakap cmtu. Ikut aje lah hehehe... But seriously, I am lucky for working under Dr. Mariah coz she is the best! ^_^

Life? Macam takde life je kat Shah Alam nie. Not much friends. Macam kera sumbang lak kan? Hehehe... Well, I prefer to be like this. Some people say less is more. But sometimes having time alone is kinda soothing. But having some company is fun too. But in Shah Alam, all I have here is Fiza Amin and Adib. Adib balik kampung memandangkan tengah cuti PANJANG kan and Fiza is damn busy working. Kesian pun ada jugak kat minah tu. Working too hard huhuhu... And at times memang nak balik Tanjong Malim but the expenses nak pegi balik memang mahal and coz nak kawen, I have to jimat sebanyak mungkin. So going back pun fkr banyak kali. Pegi balik dh rm50+ and that rm50 can last me more then 1 week in Shah Alam and kalau balik lama memang berbaloi but just balik over the weekends, memang not worth it...

World? Hmm... Malas boleh nak masuk bab dunia? Too much negativity in the world today. Boleh tak kita semua have world peace? Macam Miss World beauty pageant lak hahaha... But honestly that's the only thing I want for the world. No fighting, no suffering and everybody helping everybody without wanting anything in return. Wouldn't that be a perfect world? But I guess that would be impossible kan?...

Family? I love them! And surely missing them. And surely gonna miss them more once I get married..... But when I do get married, I'll have more family members and also a family of my own! That would be fun. Fun and full with responsibility. I can't wait to have a baby of my own. I wanted a baby way before I wanted to get married! Hahaha... They are just so adorable! OK, takmo get carried away talking about babies hehehe...

Fiance? Love life? Never been better. I guess this is what they call fate. I never knew the man of my dreams was someone I knew all along. I have nothing to complain about coz there is nothing to complain about. Pujian? He's everything. He's everything sweet with sugar on top. He's the only person that ever made me feel special. (ok, nak nangis type ayat nie T_T). And the best thing, he knows me. He knows what I'm thinking, what I wanna do, what I'm gonna do. He really knows me well. Meaning he pays attention to me, to what I do and also to my thoughts. He never gets tired of entertaining me. Segala kerenah aku semua dia layankan. He never skips a day telling me I'm cute and a ton more I can't possibly type down... But about him, he has the sweetest smile, the funniest laugh, the cutest personality, and the hottest face without his glasses (sorry b but pls keep the glasses on, nanti semua orang terpikat hihihi). But most of all, he is a gentleman and unique in his own way. I love him for him being him and I never want him to change....

OK, look at the time. Esok nak kne g keje. Damn. Ok. Bye!

Baju Nikah...

OK, this will be my first entry about baju nikah! Selama nie i just rambled about bila tarikh and so and so but this will be my official entry of starting out my mission to my wedding day! ^_^

I have a few designs of baju nikah that I like. Sebelum2 nie I just bincang with my parents and fiance on which looked nice. And tetiba I talked to Rina about this and she said, 'ko wt la blog bride to be tuh'... Aku ada dah kot blog so I'll be just talking about my wedding preps kat sini aje lah ye hehehe.... So Rina Hamid, sila lihat what I have in plan for my baju nikah designs hihihi...

First of all, memang in my mind and my moms mind nak buat baju kurung moden je. I had a few ideas in mind but mainly I heart so much baju kurung moden yg kain dia ada ropol2 tu. I have no idea what tukang2 jahit luar sana call it but here is one design that I like...

Pic taken from a B2B blog tp lupa sape -_-'
Tapi tengok la kain dia! I am so into this kinda design!
Tapi my mom kurang suka tapi my dad suka...
So coz of that, lets see another design ^_^

Cantek kannnn?!
This design mak suka, abah suka, encik tunang pun suka! ^_^
So I guess I'm gonna do this kinda design for my baju nikah...
Tak nampak macam kurung moden kan? I also dunno baju nie apa namanya...
But yang penting, gambar contoh dah ada, kain dah ada n nak kne cari tailor je...
Agak2 sume tailor leh ke jahit baju cmnie?
Hmm...

So design dah tau, just kne cari tailor! So Rina Hamid, ko rasa tailor cina yang ko cakap tuh boleh ke buat baju cmnie? Hope she can! Aku dah dapat green light dari parents and Lan untuk design nie hehehe....

Tak Suka...

I was thinking whether to teruskan or stop blogging once I get married... Or I'd just continue writing but not stuff about my rumahtangga... Still pondering.... No one really reads my blog so pape aje lah... But one thing I do know now is that aku tak suka perempuan itu... Apa tujuan dia pun aku tak tau... I just hate when things like this happen... Makes me worried and scared... I know I shouldn't but I do and there is nothing I can do about that... Haish...

Persiapan...

Hola mi blog!

So... What I wanted to ask sudah ditanya... So 99% my uncle will sponsor baju, pelamin, gubah hantaran and also be my pak andam. The only thing to do now is ask him when will be the right time to try all the baju2 sanding and stuff... I also need to tell him that I want to prepare everything a bit early... Just the fitting last minute pun takpe but not really last minute ye...

And another good news is Rina Hamid pun akan kawen! Yeay! Mulut aku masin! Aku dah cakap tak semestinya aku tunang dulu, aku kawen dulu. Nah, tengok! Rina kawen dulu! Yeay! Hahaha.. OK, I'm not cheering coz she's going first or what but I'm cheering coz one of my best friend is getting married and dekat pulak tarikh dengan aku, meaning we can both talk about persiapan perkahwinan! Yeay!!! Hahahaha... OK Rina Hamid! Lets get this going! ^_^

Next, Fiza Amin! Lets see when her time comes! OK, now I can see most of my friends are getting married! Yang tak disangka2 pulak tuh! Hehehe... Hope that Fiza Amin will also be getting married by next year too. Lizi pun will be getting married early next year! So 4 down and a lot more to go... Can't wait for the other Araunians to get married too. I really wanna see them happy :)

By the way, it is true about what they say dugaan bertunang... It's just a good thing that Kamarul Azlan is my fiance... Maybe others won't do the same thing as he did and I appreciate his honesty... He even makes me love him more!... But at the same time I get worried. I dunno if I should be worried or not but I do feel worried a bit... No, not worried but scared... I guess that's the right word for it.... I just wouldn't know what to do if it gets overboard. I never thought this would happen so I'm leaving it all to him to handle. I just hope he can handle it well. I don't want him to slip. He can't....

All my friends say that if anything goes wrong, it'll be my fault. Well, even my parents say the same thing. Not exactly in that way but they already gave me a warning to not do any stupid things coz I'm engaged. OK, that statement came from my dad! Which I never thought I'd hear from him... It's just that I'm hooked. Totally head over heels for my fiance. And saham aku pun has dropped like way down below negative! So what else is there to be worried of from me right? Certainly I won't fall for my stupid ex again for what he did sangat melampau and also he is married. I will also certainly won't fall for the 2nd ex even if he is the last person on earth!... I'd definitely ignore Hugh Jackman's proposal if he wants to marry me... So who on earth could beat that?! Hugh kot! Hahahahaha... So obviously I won't do anything stupid. If I do, I am stupid...

OK, dah melalut... But actually I got a point there. Sape leh faham isi tersirat, anda memang terer! But maybe no one could guess. Maybe only Mr. Fiance je faham. Maybe he will, maybe he won't but I guess maybe he will... Ntah lah... Sebab now dah nak kawen kan, I am gonna have to learn to keep to myself. Yes, I do keep things to myself but if tak tahan I'll eventually talk to someone... This someone should be my fiance which then will be my husband... I just hope everything will be OK... But I have a good feeling that everything will be OK :)

p/s: Thank you Fiance! Thank you for everything! Thank you for what u have done, are doing and will be doing! You are the best! Love you with all my heart ♥♥♥

Dates...

Hi Blog!

OK, perselisihan faham antara saya dengan tunang dimana I think it's my fault coz i overreacted but you also can't blame a girl when she is having her PMS right? I'm sorry Encik Tunang for overreacting.... But at least it shows that I love you right? Coz I do with all my heart!...

Another thing I wanna write about is concerning my wedding preparations. My solemnization date if I'm not mistaken will be during my final exams! So maybe there will be a bit of changes in the date. Or maybe not. I gotta talk to my dad about this. And if there is no problem, the date will not be changed. So lets just see about that. I'm gonna see my parents today and talk about it ASAP or maybe in Bandung. Oh, yeah, I'm going to Bandung tonight! Well, I ain't that excited coz I'm surely gonna miss my fiance like hell when I'm there huhuhu...

OK, because of the solemnization date has a bit of a problem, I think it wont be postponed. It may be carried forward. I dunno, lets just see but coz of that, I'm worried about the reception, bertandang, door gifts and hantaran preparation and all. All that must be prepared by Next February. I don't want thing to go outta hands and will effect my studies. I don't really think it will but I'm afraid it will coz we only get married once so I wanna make sure that everything goes OK on my wedding day...

Some things I gotta talk about with my dad is on the wedding outfits and pelamin and makeup and stuff. I can't forget that one coz I don't want my Uncle to have last minute calls to makeup for a drama or movie or what not. So in order for this not to happen, I gotta talk to my dad about this coz he wants his brother to take charge of these outfits and makeup stuff. I just can't handle the stress if he has to work on my wedding day. It'll be a DISASTER!

OK, so just to take note, today or while in Bandung, talk to dad about these stuff!:
Ask about kaler tema! (I want silver or goldish yellow coz pakai songket kn?)
Tarikh nikah!
Baju sanding, makeup, pelamin!
Hantaran sape gubah!
Door gifts! (say to get the stuff ready by Feb)
Catering!
Dewan!
Card!

What else eh? Hmmm.....

p/s: saje letak kaler biru sbb tema encik tunang katanya mau biru2 cmnie kot hehehe... Or cmnie... I'm not sure hahahaha...