i wanna meet blink 182.
i wanna meet from autumn to ashes.
i wanna meet no use for a name.
i wanna meet the ataris.
i wanna meet comeback kid.
i wanna meet story of the year.
i wanna meet h20.
i wanna meet alkaline trio.
i wanna meet fall out boy.
i wanna meet finch.
i wanna meet the used.
i wana meet amber pacific.
i wanna meet nofx. (k, i know they were in town but i was too broke to see the show, same for the sick of it all show)




but most important of all, i wanna meet my bangla heroes!


cos they rock my world like no one else.....

im beginning to feel this current generation is being infiltrated by a disease known as emo. when cluster of patients suffering this genetically modifying disease gather i believe they are known as an X-core unit. here's an excerpt from dr. cold in his assessment as to how this disease spreads.

"This severe emo syndrome actually affects first the common sense and logical thinking of the brain. It then spreads through the appearence. The eyes have a sudden growth of blackish substance which in laymen terms is the eyeliner. I don't mind these on girls but on guys? Then the shirts are all black with sprawled words on death and bands and suicide. Morbid... Lastly the brain grows more rediculous over time. It sends off some enzymes that affects the suicide notion. This helps the organism to actually write stupid stuff on anything especially on their msn nicks to show the whole wide world that they wanna die. One side effect though, they will never act upon what they say."

That's a very distinct paradox. I need to do more research on that. Some of the prominent names having this illness are My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday and our very own Paul Twohill. Even the names are kinda freaky."

-as written in the online medical journal of all diseases weird and unusual; www.restrictedtowriting.blogspot.com. circa october 2006. trust me, these guys know more about being sick than a dying man himself.


as for those not into emo, here's a fucking good hardcore band. check out www.myspace.com/forgivehxc. hardcore at its very best. tho i know the ews gang's not really into hardcore, at least give it a try will ya? north side represent aye shan?

im not sure if you guys have seen this one but here's a video of what us kids do at work when a fellow colleague decides to work on the nite before his birthday. starring lead actor suyanto as boy kena sabo and a supporting cast of the bongo swingers (the one on the ledge is yours truly) many of whom will unveil the latest tactics and strategies in sabo-ing your friends on their birthdays. step aside birthday-bashing, here comes the singapore swing.

note: singapore swing is a cocktail of whatver liquified materials we pick up during the duration fo our working time. and trust me, working in and f&b outlet, u get lots of gross things to mix up into a swing.








oh yeah, i forgot to mention you gotta tilt your head to watch this one. shan doesnt know how to make a proper film apparently. but thnks anyway.

in loving memoriam.

among the many siblings she had, none has left a deeper impression than you. like a bridge over troubled waters you were one of the the strongest pillars that stood by us and held your fort right through the storm. your unwavering dedication to this family meant more that you could ever imagine. through the dark hours you stood firm and stayed through making sure we knew someone was always there with us no matter how deep the tunnel ventured. i may have been a young child but through the eyes of the innocent your were a leading figure, one to be held with high regards. no matter that amount of backstabbing and bickering that went on you were there. always. and now hari rayer will never be the same again. your words of encouragement will always i remember. you gave us will. you remembered us.



and now we will always remember you. thank you for the memories.

semoga allah mencucuri rahmat dan maghforahNya ke atas rohmu. amin.

define ignorance. is it merely the result of poor upbringing or simply a trait that is picked up over the years? or is it a result of improper education be it wrongful teaching or even a lack of it. the inability to fully comprehend the complexity and seriousness of a subject matter leaves many with a mentality that if they dont feel the need to, they shouldnt do it. or loosely translated; "if im too lazy, why should i ?". it is arguable that to a certain extent ignorance is bliss. but for how long can a person live without taking full considerations of the effects his current actions will do to him in the future? can this then be blamed on the fact that the future is unpredictable? if so then why are brought up within the regiments of an education system that places emphasis on planning. this issue has left an impression that some people were simply born as fillers of society, as an extra with no big part to play on this huge theatre stage going through the motions of a drama called life.

Black looks best on lungs.

You said hi you wanted to talk about
The things that you should know
I never meant to run or hide
I just didnt think it was time for you to know
I'm stuck at the crossroads i'm waiting to choose
I'm hoping it wont lead back to you
The journey is over our time is up
Just give it up

So where do we go from here or end
We were never lovers, more than friends
Please take your shirts
Your smiles aren't working, no more

Before you go I just want you to know
I burnt all the things you wrote
I never meant to let this pass
I just didn't think that this happiness will last
Come take a look at these tired eyes
Believe me i cannot even cry
If I could I would
So tell me if I should

So where do we go from here or end
We were never lovers, more than friends
Please take your shirts
Your smiles aren't working, no more
This has to go, this has to end
We were never lovers, more than friends
Please take your shirtsYour smiles aren't working, no more

You wouldn't mean a thing to me
You wouldn't mean a thing to me anymore.

-"How about enough by A Vacant Affair."

i'd do anything. anything.












just to be with you.

sometime all it takes its a bit of effort to take time off from our hectic everyday schedule to engage ourselves in some clean good kiddy fun and forget that the world we live in is plagued with insecurities and troubles. well maybe not that clean. but fun, yeah. and i've always wondered how far the 7 of us have reached in lives. we're all at major crossroads where every decision counts. we're not best friends. we're brothers. thick or thin, good or bad. we'll always have our differences. but as always its part of the equation that makes us whole. i can seriously see us moving on in our lives yet taking time off every now and then to keep in touch with our inner child, the inner child that yearns to be playful and naughty and wanting to get into trouble whenever the 7 of us meet and hang around. it'll never be the same with others. and i mean never.


sentosa was fun boys. and sandcastles are way too rad for the cool kids to handle. luge is way better than becoming mat rempits. and cute girls in traditional attires will always melt our hearts. cable car rides will always be scary for me. but being in the same cabin with you guys will always make the ride safer. bus rides will never be as short as you expect it.but hopefully this bond that we share will not be as short as it. its been an honour gentlemen.



now may the force be with you. nabeh. hahah.

god i wonder if they even gave a damn about the music that was played.

i'm sitting at the edge of my seat wondering how i'll last the next 3 months without you around. ah fuck i'm so gonna miss u. grrr.




Come home soon!!