:D Shopping is therapy! HAHA. Oh & I talked to Gam today lah. For like a whole hour?! Well all I can say is, I like complaining & he's a good listener. ((: LOL.
So today after svc we stayed back & pastor Derek talked to us luh. About Faith & whats been going on the past month or so. So we're going to be n163 for one more week then we'd be called someth else. & Today so many ppl came! First time in ages luh. Oh oh the new worship song is so nice! I love CHC<3 Here's where I found You.

whatever luh seriously. i cant click with everybody but when i can, its real. but sadly i dont think youre one of them. how?

Hello. Im bored.

I need to say this out somewhere. I dont know why but everything feels so different this time round. Arguments are abundant. Maybe its the stress from Os I feel. Im committed to getting good grades, above all else. What about you? Arent you concerned about your grades too? If you arent, I am. Its just.. I dont like being interrupted when Im studying. I really wonder whats wrong. I just feel the sparks not there anymore. Maybe Ive grown too used to be alone & you cant get through this invisible wall Ive built. I dont know how long this will continue.. Or will one of us change? For better or for worse I dont know. Confusion tearing up my soul.
I need to drown out my worries/weird feelings in music. I think just plain music will do the trick. Words are not enough to describe.. I love band music to the max. Its so emotive.

The Last Goodbye?

Yay its friday. (:
As the Os are drawing nearer, we're all going nuts. Before during & after the mocks. Haha!
I both cant wait & dont want to graduate. :/ Its in a week & a half! Gosh. I'll miss all the madness in 4F, the worst class ever! HAHA.
Im not really afraid of the Os luh. Kinda excited actually! [Is this weird?] I want to just get it over & done with & no more dwindling on it. :D

I know, not everyone approves. I appreciate your concern but I'll be fine. I just wanna live in the now. [:

Movement for Rosa rocks! (8

Its Wednesday. (: & Precisely two weeks before graduation. Ha Im gonna miss school! Despite it being, y'know, chungcheng & all. :/

& Im happy cos dad gave me $50 for no reason ytd! :D Heh heh heh. Let's just hope it doesn't mysteriously disappear luh k.

I think, I should start burning my textbooks & drink em. That's what it's all about anyway. Grrr.

(: Hello, you. I need to get used to this.

Feelings ebb & flow.. Its not someth thats constant. (8

Hellohello. :D School was bad today, as expected. PLUS it's a Monday. Not a good thing combined with sneezing non-stop the whole day. F&N mock, History mock, then surprise CS mock. Perfect!

I think Im gonna flunk History mock.

Oh & Im having a nice conversation with JiaHui right now haha. (x Alright, gonna go mug for Physics mock tmr. Thank God I bought the guidebook!

'I love you' is different from 'Im in love with you'. ((:

Church-ed today & heh, n163 had fellowship like all of us together. HAHA well it's been ages luh! ((: Went Cityhall for BK & then off to Bishan's cafe cartel. Hmm I seriously wonder where do all the excess food go? Haha.

Roar there's school tmr. :/ Not only that but mocks too. Argh horrible horrible horrible! Haven't exactly been studying so how to cram for f&n plus history tmr! ): This is official- School SUCKS!

& p.s My Friendster will be left alone & outdated as I cant be bothered to go update & yadda yadda yadda. Fill in the blanks yourself luh. Byebyebye!

Hello. Im happy cos I passed math! Its like the first time since sec3 so be happy for me k. Its a C5!(: Okay fine, so its not good enough to go the first three months thang but who cares?! & I really think its about time I got the science guidebook! Our class has only 10 passers for chem lah. & Mind you, we're combined science class know. Horrible right. Haha but anyway all the tchers are telling us not to be demoralized & that we still have a month to go. I really hope its true what they say- that we buck up the most during these 3, okay fine, 2 weeks.

Ohmigod I cant wait for after Os. Band & Genting & Maybe USA & Maybe getting a job [since no first three months anyway] & Shopping & Movie marathon & The best thing- No mugging! :D

Oh & today we had some cupid show/drama kind of thang for assembly period. Me & Farah seem to have inhaled some sort of laughing gas or someth cos we kept laughing our butts off at every slightest pun! Heh. Gone nuts I think. :/

& Yay tmr is Friday. (: Im just glad this waste-of-time week is coming to an end. Next week the mocks begin. Ohmigod & Im still trying to convince myself that mocks id for my own good.

MOTIVATION((: Whee I cant wait cant wait cant wait!

Bad news: 59/100 - Physics.
22/50 - Eng & SS.
Good news: I havent gotten back Chem yet.

Yes, my grades are that depressing. ): I guess I can give up any glimmer of hope I had to go for first three months! Ha, this is what you call the Great Depression. Literally.

Im really sick & tired of mugging already luh. & Theres still mocks to go next two weeks before graduation. :/ Ohmigod. & Im failing combined humanities?! Major CRAP. God save the queen!

Im too tired to care. Byebye.

Good news: 75/100 for CS paper.
Bad news: 9/25 for History SEQ & I mugged for it! Stupid textbook lah. Give all the facts but leaves it up to us to categorise them.

On a different note, Genting trip 3-7 December! Yay & thats if Toh doesnt have any violent objections. Haha! Seriously need to practice lah. Oh & today Sab started doing 'thiry seconds with Ping & Pong'. It was hilarious lah, all the impromptu stuff they can come up with. Schooling days are like, wasting our time? We do everything but mug hardcore in class please! & Absentee teachers dont help yknow. Pfft!

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I cant find the right words to express how Im feeling now. Damn.


How can a four-lettered word be so complex?

PRELIMS ARE OVER!:D
Haha time for a teensyweensy bit of slacking. :/
& Argh results!

“Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.”- Mitch Albom.

Its so true isnt it? If you've truly loved someone, no matter how long the time frame, you'd find yourself never really getting over him/her. Its like a piece of your heart always holds true to that person despite all your efforts to stop loving. Love will always be there even if you are not with him/her anymore. It doesnt care.

Maybe, maybe not. I dont know. But one thing I do know; I'll be here.

Math Paper 2; I thought it wasnt too bad, considering I managed to finish all! ((: Ha but only time will tell. :/ Next week perhaps, we'd face our wonderful results. I really hope my efforts wont go down the drain lah. Argh!
Physics; Uhm, good luck to me? Haha. It wasnt hard but somehow it just doesnt seem right. Hard to explain lah! :/ Paper1 is the only hope left kay. Grrr.

F&N is up tmr. Hopefully I can remember all the stuff Im going to mug. Haha. :/ Why do Prelims seem so hopeless?! Argh whatever lah hey. & I just found the song KissTheGirl by ashley tisdale. ((: &&& Its NICE! Wheee okay no grumbles today!

IM FREE:D

Prelims Part Two: The Horror Story.
Hahaha. Ms Kat mentioned that there were only 6 passers for paper1! :/ Grrr. & I think I already know who are the six. Lol. Oh well. I did revision paper2 just now & realised I made a lot of careless mistakes causing me to lose marks for the rest of the question! Shucks. Please please please dont make any stupid mistakes tmr!
& Physics? Im still mugging for it. :/ You know, I always have some vague ideas on the various topics & only when I see the questions that I pick my brains for the details. Haha.
& Today History was alright, I hope. Good thang I studied Russia & Germany! ((: Chinese was Horrible. & I totally meant that with all my heart! When I couldnt find the answers to the compre question I actually reread the passage lah. Like how would I know why she keeps roses for her daughter? HOW I KNOW SIA. Hahaha. Anw I slept for the last 30mins of it & that felt good. (: Super tired this morning.

Sigh. You me & The Problemo, again. :/ Im sick of it. Im tired of the circle that never ends.

Why am I always hungry?

Had tuition then met up with 4Fians for the visit to Mrs Yeos house. Omg Kierans so cute lah. & Hes super small. Haha. Nothing much nothing special nothing at all.

I hate this feeling. Im confused yknow. Sheesh. & To think I didnt approve of people falling for two at once. Hah! Irony, isnt it? Karma came round & caught me where I least expected it. Sigh.
& I just feel so broken. Im at a loss of what to do. Who to tell all this to. :/ Im in need of serious help man.
& If only our hearts were like blackboards; you could simply clear off whatever you didnt like on it & it'd be new once again. But in reality, some things that were written were left like a scar; immovable & irreplacible. Nothing you do can make you leave it behind; its part of you now.

Screw it.

Okay Farah I saw your blog alright. Haha so here goes:

Ten weird habits of yours;

#1. Window shopping makes me happy. (:
#2. I enjoy being alone.
#3. I like watching shows with happy endings.
#4. I cant stand horror films. (HAHA.)
#5. Bimbo-typing drives me up & down the wall.
#6. I like looking at my reflection. :/
#7. Im a die-hard romantic. :D
#8. I would like to be organised, but I dont have the energy for it.
#9. I get irritated when I see those old hags trying too hard to dress young. (Its not a pretty sight.)
#10. I hate it when people categorise me.

Anyone who feels like doing this thang please feel free. ((:


Y'know, I just watched disc 3 of PrincessHours! Haha yes I know Im slow alright but I cant find the time to watch all at once. & Besides, I watched the last disc already so I know the ending! ((: Smart, eh. Hahaha. Yay I havent mugged today except for History. Dangs. :/ Just so bored at home can. Bbq tonight? Aiyah depends on Farah dear. Lol. & Tmr, tuition then visit Mrs Yeo! :D

A choice has to be made. To love or to be loved? That is THE question. :/ Torn between the two & it sucks. The potential ( or not ) & the easy. Gee lets see, the potential(or not!) may or may not happen. Either way it wont be in the 'now' timeframe. But if it happens, its MY picture of perfection. On the other hand is the easy which is 'now'. & I know it can happen again without a doubt. But I dont know if I'll be disappointed again. :/ Told you it wasnt easy being me!

Trust is easy to say but hard to truly achieve.

HELLO! :D

Ratatouille rocked the house. Hehe. Caught it with Farah on Monday. Awww, Pawan. ((:

Nothing much recently. Been trying to mug for Prelims Part 2. But not much work done. *Screams* I dont know why but holidays make me so restless. Especially when exams are so freaking near. Grrr!

& Yeah I know this blogskin isnt much. Its the best I can find already so bear with it. Blogskins should have a better algorithm to look for Skins Of The Days. They're all so -I dont know- weird. Haha.

Uhm MC I still cant tag at your blog. Have you unbanned me yet? Haha. Whats with the ban anyway?

I do not appreciate you scolding me for something that isnt my fault to begin with. & Claiming that you did not. Furthermore, please do not assume cause you'll make an ass out of you & me. Dont act like you know me, or whats going on in my life. Cause you seriously dont. Talk. You want me to talk. What about? If my life-issues are not to be mentioned or are censored. If you cannot accept the fact that Im no longer a child, then Im afraid Ive nothing more to say.

Life's a screwed-up double-crossing bitch.