i realised...
as the years passed, with experience and the love of music, i have no much problem trying to find basic simple chords, tabs, to play songs on my guitar or to try out new stuffs on the drums
though for drums, normally its with much modification, as i still dont feel i'm at a level to be competent enough to imitate grooves and fills well, or to translate them by just listening (hey i'm still learning ya? :D )
but on my journey as a musician for God
i feel that i have fallen short to become the kind of worshipper He desires me to be..
started guitar at age of 14, i'm 3 years short of a decade of playing music..
for the past 7 years,
i've been thrilled and excited easily by cool songs, interesting licks,
the kind where it will excite me to jump straight to my guitar or to surf on the net in search for the tabs/chords of the songs...
or simply reach out for my sticks and try to play the grooves or fills on the set
it's normal for a music lover i guess
BUT BUT BUT
have i missed something?
how should i have used my talents?
is there a misbalance in pleasure of playing a cool song vs pleasure in worshipping God with the instruments i can play?
it's a serious thing
7 years, my goodness
how many songs have i looked carefully at the lyrics?
how many songs have i used the lyrics to worship God, rather than trying to publish the song well through my vocals as a focus?
how many songs have i tried so hard to play to rouse up an excited atmosphere rather than an atmosphere of worship?
it's such a thin, dangerous line
i admit
as much as i would like to deny, place my hand on my heart and tell God, "I've used my talents well"
really,
If we are not true worshippers, who worship God in spirit and in truth, then we are false worshippersthis year,
i want to make a new commitment to God
above the songs one can sing
beyond the lyrics, the music
i'll use the talents and gifts
Simply worship
John 4:24 "God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth