rain rain go away

come again another day



little zhongfa's cold like mad



:P

sigh

my brain needs a break

overloaded...

haha...



:)

dun worry...

i'll be fine

time to zzz...

n visit dreamland... :P

can't tell you



i feel a surge of emotions rising

but i look at it with a smile



to try to hide this heart from showing

What’s deep inside within



i can't tell u what's on my mind

to speak the words from deep inside

i'm afraid my heart will lose sight

of your eyes



yet i noe you are on my mind

i know the reasons i know why

maybe u will never know it

how u once captured my heart...





>>been a long time since i write any secular song cos juz now strum abit n got this tune... abit secular eh...hahaha

wad

who

where

m

i

thinking?





...

...



i

dunno

i m super duper tired....

i can juz pop down on my keyboard now

nitez



thanx to everyone involved in the outreach for yr great response today at the meeting! :)

"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:11-13).

wad do we understand?

or wad do we realli dont?



wad do we feel?

or wad do we display out of emotions?



wad is right in the eyes of man?

wad is wrong in the eyes of God?



i've been thinking.... quite a fair bit i can say... even though this is one of my most relax sem..doesnt mean tat my mind is on a holiday...

i realli wonder...

many a times... wad we do? are we juz run by our emotions? subconsciously?



to seek God... yes... definitely...

i believe and i'm sure it's thru seeking Him where our eyes are realli opened...



it's so dangerous to close the eyes of our heart....

...

we can't see God

...

we fall into the pit of sin

...



see the seriousness?



i'm a little bothered with issues regarding churches.... i think this is something which sooner or later i will have to deal with it...

i'm glad at least i took the step to try... :)



i went to see pastor wen today... i tried to approach the incident with my own understanding...



take an analogy... seeing a dentist...

seeing a dentist alone..

...

or seeing a dentist with yr mama or papa beside...



i prayed...

"dear Lord... pls do help me to be able to converse well with pastor wen to get the message across as well as receive it at my end"

it's realli not easy...

when i knocked on pastor wen's door... he was on the phone...

i stepped in n sat down...

there's this weird feeling.... but i'm glad God is there as my comforter n strength...

He's like the father there coaxing me.... "hey.. there's nothing to fear... now there's a problem..we juz have to extract or rectify it"



i'm glad the talk went ok...

yepz...



it's not easy...

with a mind telling me...."it will be so much easier if i can let go of bpgc"

BUT....

I dun wan the devil to have the last laugh looking at me being unbalanced and shaken by ministry



do you want tat?

i believe none of us wans tat...



is ministry simply something tat we enjoy?

it's extremely dangerous.. especially in the worship ministry...



music?

or God?



and this is my answer...

music to worship God



right now i m ok...

in fact i felt so much better...

i'm not a person who likes things to drag on...

problems which come to me.. i dun like to run from it



this is reality...

this is our world...

it is ugly...



but..



ok.. before i say this...

i want u to think carefully on wad i m going to type...



God makes things beautiful...



dun juz take this as a catch phrase..

dun juz think "orh.. beautiful... ya"

think in depth



again....



God makes things beautiful...

he wans to make u n me beautiful...

will u?

let him?



closure

problems... we realli can't avoid...

it doesnt mean tat being a fervent christian means we can avoid them all..

trials n temptations will definitely come our way

stay in yr own comfort zone?

r u?

stay in yr own comfort zone?

r u?



church? a time of fellowship... yes

but juz enjoying the fellowship? fullstop?



or should we realli turn back to the Father...

get to know Him.. juz as much He wans to love u...



take time to think...

take time to meditate...

take this time...

to ask for His forgiveness

n again..



ask Him to be the controller of our lives..

the lover of our souls



dear Lord... i cry out to you

yawnz~

boring

nothing in mind

pale?

not...



ruffling fingers thru my hair

i wonder

i pray

i give thanx

i.....



sigh...



bored...

thinking?...

maybe...

but still...

shrugs...

tilts head a little...

:)

smile

Your love sets me free



Your love makes me glad

Your word gives me strength

You are the one I need

I’ll bring you praise, my king!



Your love sets me free

Your word is bread to me

You are the one I need

I’ll bring you praise, my king!



*

I’ll lift my hands and voice to you

And sing to you my king

who cleanses me from all my sins

Your love sets me free



I want to thank you for the times

Where you led me through

Now every moment of all my days

I want to give you praise!

hur hur

i think many might be wondering wad i haf been up to recently hor?

hahaa.... :P



aiya.. realli din blog much... although i do come in check my tags n comments... :P

yea.. maybe as i said earlier lor... lazy..haha :P



yepz... today went for music prac for the outreach again...

things are ok... 2 pracs so far... 2 songs ok so far...

dunno eh... i realli like the songs from the previous outreach... n i believe the songs can reach out to ppl... well well.. will see how the "mixture" goes... hopes everything goes well... yepz.. muz haf faith it will go well! :) Amen? hur hur



3 week into sch... still like majiam slacker like tat..hahaa... maybe becos this sem my workload is realli light... minimal programming too... alot of logic n theory but well... so far ok... not tat bad... yepz... need to study still... i dun wan to fall back.. :)



recently felt veri tired eh... phsically... maybe me ole liao... tired but yet i dun slp early... so dumb..haha :P

later gonna play donkey kong again.. i pretty like this stupid old game..hahaaa..



hmm hmm...

hows everyone?

blogger's screwed up recently...

so some ppl can't realli see my updated stuff...

i read from the home page that they haf more than 1 million users... no wonder so slow...hahaha :P

but well... still i think their server is working...ermm.. *grin slightly with a frown*...ok lahz... considering tat it's free... hahaa :P



okok... think tats all for today bahz... how u all like this layout?

enuff of the blue... time for some citrus..hhahaz..

or say it in the hokkien ah beng way "oh-leng"...

orange...

chen (chinese for orange)

hahaz



i m going nutz... :)

nitez

hahahz

wad a quiz man...hahahahaha :P

quiz created by Tsukitty

tmr doing "shout of the king"

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hahaha... important lesson to depend on God... thanx tina n marcus for constant reminder... :)

pretty lazy to type things here recently...



k lah.. my fault ya? haha



hm hmm...

pretty uptight abt quite a few things..

but realli .... juz haf to see wad will happen ya... :)

praying too... :)

ok.. this shall be an exlusive blog to all



how are you?



hahah :P

Broken



You can hear

My heart

More than heartbeats

You can hear

My soul

Weeping badly



You chose to listen

To me

Even though I'm filled with sin

You still love me





*

You're the God I know

And there's nothing else that I want more

You're the key I know

To tune my broken song



You're the God i noe

And there's nothing else that I want more

Than you alone

*



You can hear

The sorrows

Of my living

You can hear

I need

someone to guide me



You can guide

You did

When I turned to you and said

I need you everyday





Lives were once in the shadows

Brought from darkness into light

You paid for all of my sins

And died on the cross for me





*

You're the God I know

And there's nothing else that I want more

You're the key I know

To tune my broken song



You're the God i noe

And there's nothing else that I want more

Than you alone



Who mends my broken song

*



Now You hear

This song

A life tat You mended

No longer broken

No longer broken

quick

guess whether i go sch today



3...

2...

1...



*flashes MC



muaaahahahahah *winks*



hehez... yup.. feeling better... been quite some time since i sick till i go see doc... yeayea.. see wad happens when u drag a small illness... :P

juz woke up from resting... watched so much tv tat my head hurts... hahahaz

thanx for the concern of ppl who asked... :)

zhong's alive n kicking... (p.s. yes... kicking yr b***...hahahaz..) juz kiddingz :P



obviously something burned my brain

feel so crazy now... :P

hahahaa



been a long time since i blog some wordy things..

rite? hur hur... :P

yeap... hope sch's ok for everyone so far...



okok.. think i better go eat dinner n those disgusting *yuck* medicine... :P

hehez .... buai buaiz... =)

questions

i ask before

little

did i know there's so much more



wonder

who made up all the air i breathe

thinking

but nothing seems to ryhme with me





and i slowly see

but these questions seems

too much for me to understand

but You held my hand

with love and said

it's all been taken care





You're the one who's love always shines forever

You're the one who lights up the moon and the stars

You're the one who painted the skys

who brings love into my life

feeling...

numb and dumb

cold nite

red sky

r u

asleep



soon

Which Angel would you be? By Angel

hear my little voice

hear my cries to you

hear me sing rejoice

hear me praising you





lift me up

lift me higher

lift me up into your arms



lift me up

lift me higher

lift me up into your presence

how's the pic? hehez.. marcus send me then i edit it into grayscale.. :P

yepz yepz... i going watch soccer match liaoz... marathon siaz... *ran out of chips... arggg... :P

nitez to all... :)

it's been a long time since i realli sit down n pen my thots down in this blog...



shall i? haha... it's 0210hrs now... cant realli slp... still thinking whether to watch the soccer match later...



new year.. 2003

gotto practice on my lecture notes to write dates with 03 instead of 02...i think many ppl haf this problem rite? hahaz.. juz when u gotten use to it... the year is over.. how fast rite?



well well..

looking at my past year.. yeps.. it's been one of the highlights in my life..

the first half of it was juz around the same.. the 2nd half was filled with more than i ask for..

sch term was nice... ya.. nice... veri veri bz... to the extend the course manager apologised to us... it was tat bad during the exam n assignment week..

but i guess i realli learnt alot during tat bz period...though it wasnt realli pleasant..

i learnt to cope with emotions.. priorities.. commitments and responsibilities..

of cos... with the help from good frenz... frenz whom i will never forget in my whole life.. tina.. vincent..shuhei.. n more..

well... indeed... God has been veri merciful as in these are periods where i could juz give God up n juz leave Him... thinking why he could haf done all these to me..

yepz.. at the end of the day... i was reminded by wad i always believe... tat in every failure... God is teaching us a lesson.. n most of the time.. such lessons learnt thru the hard way are those we will never ever forget... how true... :)



come to hols now...

learnt the power of prayer... it's tat powerful lor... forget the nuclear warheads.. forget osama... forget m-16s.... prayer is a weapon we haf from God...

the camp... learnt quite alot abt being a history maker for God...

during the camp... we prayed alot for the outreach...

God's presence was so strong... praying in faith.. n believing tat when we ask... God has his plans for wad we ask... n in Him we trust..

seriously.. u juz look back... normally all this kind of rallies are organised by big shot pastors n elders or deacons.. involving a large group of people... why in the world will God bother to make use of a small team of 7 youths to fulfil His great plans....

realli.. without His blessings n guidiance.... the thing wouldnt haf happened...

yepz.. again... thru all these... God teaches us lessons we will not forget too...

:)



i'm glad it's a new year...

something to look forward... uncertainties which lies ahead... but i noe He has orledi taken care of them..

looking back can be a good thing some times... cos we look back n remember the wonderful things God has blessed us with... n give thanx! :)

love u Lord...



yup yup... tats quite alot i've blogged today..

there's so much running thru my mind...

playing the guitar now.. :)



new year resolution?

hmm... to draw closer to God (side track : ...Lord draw me close.. draw me closer.. :P ) hehez..

yepz.. to seek Him more n His will be done than mine...

ya.. oso to know my frenz n siblings in christ better

to serve the Lord well in the music ministry... to improve for Him.. not personal glory :)

n other ministries? been praying abt it too... :) listen to God's calling :)