Dear Readers...

Hey dear readers out there... if there is any.

This is a lesson learnt of being too short tempered to someone important to you. I wont mention names or status of course... because there isn't one. Anyway, it's being patient and more... understanding... not being too impulsive with words. Maybe that's why people tend to be loners...? Because they are always afraid to hurt the others unintentionally? Both parties.. be it soul mates... couples... besties... or so whatever.. please be tolerant to each other. If you care, say it, if you love, show it. This applies not only to couples but besties too. We tend to take things for granted, overseeing things and have high expectations of the other party. What if for an instance, you flare up and started cursing over a text, hoping the other party would understand how you feel. But instead.. the other party flared up too? Then you realise, it's solely your fault. Then a sharp pang comes darting through your heart and contracts your chest. Your mind is full of regrets and eyes turn teary. Do you want it that way guys or girls? Try understanding the other party... Everything comes with a price, if it's a good one, the price would be high. And.. dont pin your hopes too high, because when you dont get it, you tend to get depressed. So what for? I am now trying to live by what i have.. and not what i desire.. what i yearn.. what i want. Because someone told me this before, the higher you climb, the harder you fall. Through enough, i attempted climbing since a year ago. Now, i fall. Yeah, so i get what it means now, the climbing part it's not what you are now, it's what you desire, your HOPES for things to happen your way. Truthfully, i think that yeah, things go my way because i dont expect it to happen. Of all my desires and hopes for events to happen. Actually... majority of them, did not happen. So why? Why pin your hopes so high that when you fall, you dont fall physically but emotionally? We aren't super heroes who can fly. We aren't villians without a heart who keeps trying failures after failures. I just want things to be simple. Thats all... or is this simple being an ordinary boy? I dont know. All i know is that i am trying my very best to hold on... i cant bear to lose you. Well, this is my first time i think blogging about something which i speak through my mind.

PS 'i'm sorry'

Junshen

Whirlpool

I have made a realisation for myself a few days back. Everything which happens to us now, is part of maturing, part of growth be it physically or mentally till we age and move on. Events which occurs in our lives are called memory when you think about it now. Things which exposes you to new things be it good or bad, painful or pleasurable is called experience. Thing which relieves your burden,pain and dreadful thoughts is called remedy. Well, many people, teenagers of similar mindsets like me seek for simple live style. The basic aspects of being a 'normal' teenager; genuine friendship, faithful companion, love from parents and lastly, identity.

Well, every teenage kid wants to have a specific identity of their own. For an example, being popular in school and having to know his path to success in future. These people are often admired by others around them, of course those who aren't as academically and socially inclined as them. Often, they will be trapped in a whirlpool of where they stand, where they are heading in life and what value they hold for themselves. It is a common thinking which many teenager will think. For an instance, mutual likings for one another but one refuses to acknowledge. It's what the other party seeks, identity. Without an identity, one will experience the feel of being lost, being intertwined by this own thinking. Perhaps it's inferior complexion? Or maybe it just the teenager being a contemplative thinker? Who knows? What value, do you and i hold?

Jun Shen