Friends can easily turn to Lovers, but what about from Lovers to Friends?

i find it kinda difficult to be honest. it seems there's an invisible barrier or some sort. You view the person in a different light. Not to mention, things can never go back to the way it was.

This year's Christmas is totally on the dull side. Spent at Tony's place, i met more new people. Socializing, is kinda part and parcel for me. I need to have my base of contacts built up fast, at my age. Things seem to be at a much faster pace, and how i yearn to be back in Secondary School. Things were much placid and simple!

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Butterfactory

i get you guys in, help u guys cut queue, get u guys drinks. You guys take it as if its all normal, and take for granted all i do. No word of Thanks or whatsoever. Friends, i know, but things do not come free! Please fucking take note of this. Nothing is Free in this world. Sure, u need not come out a cent, but on my side, i buy drinks for the people in the club, who helped me, get you guys in. UR NOT PAYING, CAUSE I AM PAYING!

Not being calculative here, but i find it a sheer folly on my part. I get more gratitude from people i do not know~ The world is cynical and practical, so i hope you guys see, i am not your tool, or a gateway to something u want. Gota be more assertive, and choose my friends carefully from now on.

Contacts: People whom you can call a favour from

Friends: People whom you can rely on anytime

Really wana thank Tony for the talk he gave, a clearer picture of identifying people who makes use of people (: well what can i say, the greatest teacher is life! Through pain, you learn~

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www.dirpy.com

this is another link, to rip Audio off Youtube. Should the link in the previous post not work with your iTunes. Chu, i hope u read my blog :p knock urself out with this site (:

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hellooo guys (: been in uplifted spirits lately!!! minus away the lethargic-ness that i have been getting that is.

lets see, Left 4 Dead 2 with Grace. Completing the entire game twice. Till i felt motion sickness. yucks~ this game is no doubt interesting and addictive at the start, but after completing it, the feelings for it simply vanish.. so ya, lets put it that its for the company ur playing with  ((:

Butterfactory.. A night to simply chillax. I had alcohol cravings, please do not ask me why. It was just a sporadic feeling and i had to see to it, that the urge is gone. When you club, drink to ur limits, and do not go over. Puking is simply for home, not public property. Fucking public nuisance!!! and the smell -.-" I had a great dance too, but it was with Nic. lmao.. What can i say, we both just go crazy in there (: awesome! nothing beats an all guys night out~ I can unleash my BASTARD behavior..

Miranda - Vamos A La Playa (Go to the beach)

Been trying to find this song for 15 years, ever since i heard it over the radio. When i got it, which was yest, non stop listening. Party mood u could say. wheeee.

Avatar is an awesome show. 160mins running time, so i seriously suggest u get them popcorns and drinks!! glued to ur seats, and the night scene is breathe-taking. I just wished this place was real, and tt i could leave there ): carefree and happy..

Hui Min is back from Bangkok. my bitch is back and running. lol. bitch with her for an hours plus, straight up. Sometimes she can be matured, and sometimes i feel like stabbing her repeatedly. well, tts how we roll. Cleared the air and meet up soon k~!

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Ever wanted the song u hear thru Youtube? i bet u have. So you lucky guys are in for a treat. Those who read till this far. All u needa do, is just copy the link, and paste it in. Remember to change the file name, and ur done. Simple!!

http://www.listentoyoutube.com/

I strongly recommend this site!!!

Also, you have a song stuck in ur head, and u duno the title. But u know the tune and even better, the lyrics. This

site will aid you then, but u needa have microphone. yupps. tts how i found my song (:

http://www.midomi.com/

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one day when ur r/s turns sour, you will realise you have nothing to fall back on. Don't treat me like a substitute,

much less an object, smth u can return to.

Hence hold ur frens dear.. I gave u an early warning to what i see is gona happen. Should u not, i dun wana be there

telling you, 'I told you so.' Its pretty much obvious what is going on, you can go on being oblivious ;)

been cooking the past few days.. no longer them eggs or instant noodles.. Oh Oh, u mean Nelson knows how to cook? Isit edible?

The only person who tried my cooking is Yenyi & Kenneth. If Kenneth wasn't injured, no way in hell wld he be able to get tt (: Yenyi was simply lucky, she was around. hah. 

Comes Christmas... The plan, Nicholas house.. I'd be cooking Italian & Western. What's the special occasion? I am leaving for work in the USA early next year, so just wana do a little something for you guys ((: White wine, Turkey, Log Cake!! A white Xmas peepz!

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You look fantastic

You look fabulous

You look awesome

You look gorgeous

You look amazing

You're simply breathe-taking~

Before you utter any of these phrases above, make sure you put 'Wow' before it. This should make a good impression outta urself. Any compliment to a girl, is an additional point to yourself. 

Now boys, let the 'Mind-Games' begin. and the #1 rule: Never let ur emotions take control (:

aww, Nel ur such an asshole. Takes one to recognize one ((: 

Zoukout 2009

All i did was to post 'ZOUK OUT 2009!!!! TOnight!!! RAWR~~!@', on my facebook status, and people instantly presumed that i was going!! 

What can you tell from this? It's human nature to simply presume, assume, and jump into conclusions. the truth, dear all, is never as it seems (:

12 December 2009

this was what i did instead of Clubing & Zoukout.

Had dinner over at Ashtons with Nic, Prime Sirloin (Medium Rare).. I simply love tt little rawness and bloody taste. hah. 

Afterwhich Min called, claiming she was bored at her friend's party. hah, and requested L4D. I was alright, and so we went to pick them up at Seletar Camp -.-" i know....

We headed back to gardens, and as much as i expected, the Lan Shop was full, which thus ended up at Denise, Wine Shop. A chillax session. White Wine, always seem to appeal to me, and this lifestyle has gotta stop!!! Min had to depart for home, so fetched her back. And all tt was left, Nic, Grace & I.

We headed to RiverValley, which failed, Plaza Singapura, which failed too.. Alas, Paradiz Centre. Being poorly air-conditioned, we soaked ourselves in the heat, admist the game!!! Screaming, Cursing.. Lol.. 

Eh Grace, why u so lousy..

Nic wtf, stop dying!!! 

Wah Lao, why i kena Boomer/Jockey/Spitter/Charger/Tanker/Smoker/Hunter again!!!

It was a simple night, which concluded with a weary mind, and soulless body!!

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And the random thought of many out there;

Have you ever wonder, what it would be like, if we got together? 

Paradise, Hell, Better than the previous/current... Be brave and try my friend, ur soul mate is all about trial & error, before stumbling upon the one!! Don't wait till ur 28 and start thinking... FUck, i only got 2 gf/bf this entire time. Sheesh~

i want my fucking pay to be banked into my account NOW!!! seriously -.-" how long are they gona take mann~ 

haven't been exactly in the zest to update this blog. Desperate attempts made to study, but my attention span seem to be short, and wand off into a land far far away. Bah~

The addiction to 'Supernaturals' seemingly awesome. woots~!

Clarifications [harsh content]

Standing at an age of 22 years old, time ain't slowing down thats for sure! Comes next year, the battle of success & hardship will settle in. Am being a professional, in the area of my job.

When i talk about being a professional, its jobs such as Lawyers, Doctors, Teachers. And as for me, a Navigation Officer on board Oil Tankers. High paying careers comes with stress, which is much expected of.

Thus finding a partner is about time, and selection is stringent! A good wife and a mother of cause, not those teenage love affair. Darren, Guang Hao, Nicholas, Kelvin Chu, are all having the same ideology as me, which means I am not the only weird one. The game of love now is simple. 

Being straightforward; I am interested in you, are you interested in me? And want to make things between us work out. If your not, then move along.. Don't waste both our time, beating & hopping around the bush that leads to nowhere.

Now, i am sick of all these bullshit, of how people think I'm a party animal. First of all, I'd like to say, you're too quick to judge me! Of cause i party, and i party hard. Maybe twice a month or more, but you do not even know me well, and you judge me on that? FCUK OFF~! you haven't heard of me, staying at home for days on end, simply studying nor have you heard me working my ass off? so pleaseee, before you make any ridiculous statement, that would make an ass outta urself, think again. period.

Secondly, if you want to bullshit me about any stuff, thinking i am simply ignorant, and can't read ur mind, go ahead. I have worked with too many diverse people, to understand, more or less, what they want in the statement they make. What you're telling me, is simply a Joke. To which, i reply with a nonchalant face.

Thirdly, if you are thinking I'm like those other guys who would pay for you, curry flavour you, chauffeur you around.. Please, I am not. Unless you mean something to me, I do not give a flying *** to that. It's simple, ur taking advantage of me? Why not, you pay for me then. Cause ur girl, a guy should be a gentlemen and do all these? Come on, stop your wishful thinking about these. Ur not Jessica Alba nor Angelina Jolie~ Neither am i Bill Gates nor Donald Trumph~

These are few clarifications, i want to be made known. Goodness.. What are people thinking lately -.-"

i might lose a few guy friends or girl friends for this post, but it's alright.. I just need the true ones, who would listen & understand.

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You just opened up my eyes, how you think and react to situation. You're obviously in two worlds, trying to making it one. Lol, me a screw up? Oh please.. I so beg to differ.. 

Time to get down to my books.. Yawnzzz

Maksim

as you can all see, i just involved with Maksim.. Backstage and Production~ Behind the scenes, yeaa thats me.. Bringing you peepz, behind the scenes, where few could go!! Maksim went to Zouk too, and even wanted to go Butterfactory.. lol~ let the pictures do the talking!!

This is the layout of his stage!

And his piano, which has a Master Tuner, to do his tuning after every practice and performance!!

The posters we did for him, did it few hours before. A mad rush to get all these done and delivered.. gosh~

Esplande Concert Hall, where phones have no reception (: lovely~

A Wallpaper for Maksim fans.. i love his work ((: too bad, theres few, who know of him, in Singapore

His signed poster, which we will auction.. I THINK.. his signature, is stupidly easy to forge...

Maksim's face doesn't seem to change in all the pictures taken. Yet he remains suave!!

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Clubing at Butterfactory on Friday Night. First Supperclub to grace the event. The club was full, as the bouncer told the guys infront of us. I was like wtf, and we proceeded making our way up. Then the people made noise, saying why we could go up, when the club is full. The bouncer told them, here, different people have different status. Woots. Know your role bitches~ this is how we roll ((: 

Then being bored, we hoped to Butterfactory. Tony had to socialise, so i went get my chop first, and went in to look for my colleagues (: 7 girls 1 guy. Amazing... Cam Whore like crazy.... Which is normal i suppose. heh. Went to the VIP to socialise abit, before joining my colleagues. Simple and easy night. My wallet retained the same amount of cash, as it is, when i left home ((: loves~

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Saturday, Sushi with Tony. Extemporaneous call from Hui Min to play L4D.. hahah, just go, since i had nothing to do~ Grace, Min & Nic.. yupps. Completed 2 stages before calling it a night.  

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICHOLAS ((: 24TH NOVEMBER 2009... 

ass whopping.. Kelvin Chu, Darren, Guang Hao, Li Bing and guest appearance by Shalene ((: woots. insane. 

Consolidation Of Events (2 weeks)

I have been talking to many Grown-Ups these couple of days, and i apologise for my absence! Many would find it a bore to chat with them, perhaps the age gap, and the lack of understanding from them. Well, i must agree to some of it, but the wisdom that they have acquired throughout the years, still stand irrevocably righteous and sensible.

Thought i could share with you some of their thoughts, which etched into me!
My favourite topic here is 'Love'. Something which I, myself, think I have lost the ability to. Not the love for a child, or a puppy, but the love for someone, your soulmate. Like how Jacyn puts it, perhaps the one for me ain't here yet?

Everyone loves a happy ending to their lives. Someone to call their own, children and home! But how are we going to determine, IF that person is the right one? I do not want a partner who shares with me what I achieve in the pinnacle of my life, but the process of it. The one who would change my diapers when i am old. The one who wld put up with my bad habits, and calling my imperfections, perfections!
Girls are getting more and more practical these days! the talk of Cars, good food, money, brands and luxury! Money Talks, Bullshit Walks.

Of late, I organised an event for Secondary Schools, which many took part. Girls with 20yr old bodies, but only 15yrs old. I was baffled by the development of not only their bodies, but also their thinking. Secondary 2, carrying Gucci wallets, with iPhone. When i was their age, i was using a Velcro Billabong Wallet, and Nokia 3210, which could be dropped from 2 Storeys high and still be able to sms & call. lol.
I am 22yrs old, with a stable income, can cook and be romantic IF i want to. But let's be honest here, which girl wants that, now? I do not possess a car, not much of a looks to brag about and I love staying home!!! hahaha. Like what they say, that is not what a girl this age wants. They want good-lookers, fun and popularity! True True.

Well, that's not how it works. Marriage is now a partnership with equal parts give and take, and it isn’t necessarily the man’s prerogative to expect things like automatic steak dinners, nor is it a given that the wife’s working days are over. Rather, these days couples generally expect to first discuss and then agree on the details of married life

When you have money and flaunt it, most girls are attracted to it. Now, do they really love you, or is it your money, or is it your lavish lifestyle? Kenneth's mum said, appear poor, when you tie the knots, then u reveal how much you have in ur Bank a/c. Makes much sense to me! Love can be versatile, WHEN you are young.

How much you believe in these words of wisdom, is yet another story for you guys to decide ((: i decide to heed their advices on these matters!

MARRIAGE FACT

Every 10 to 13 seconds, someone gets divorced. Keep that in mind before you try to codify love with your 20-year-old girlfriend.

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Clean & Green Singapore 2009

Being fined $800 in total by NEA, i worked for NEA in this event. Unbelievable!!

Young girls, doll faced, hot bodies. Age: 15 years old
I could go to jail for attempting sucha stun like that. Not to mention be called a pedophile!
15yrs old & 22yrs old, ain't gona see a click to it. But 10 years down the road, when it becomes 25yrs old & 32yrs old, it all becomes normal. the irony of it all.
So, call my part as an investment (: hah. Filled with girls, i guess it was a 'See, but don't try anything funny' kind of affair.

Take a look at this pre-school kid. Her name is Crystal. Cutest kid that i ever know, apart from myself that is :p

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Being admired by girls, she calls it flattery. I am not barged but such admiration. But at this age, i am flattered when people fight, to want me, to work for them.

After the Clean & Green Event, i thought that i might have to look for another job. But i was offered another job, a day before the event saw its closing (: Not only that, a shipping company called me, to work for them. Woots~ Things have certainly gotten better after the Court Case. yay~!

Check Out the Pink Card, which is rightfully mine, taken away from me 1yr 10mths ago (:

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Marlboro Ice Blast

To further boost it's already Millionaire Liquidated Assets, it has introduce a new type of Ciggie into the Market. And apparently, it is very well received.
Basically, this Menthol Ciggie, has a liquid gel ball in its filter. By squeezing it, the ciggie becomes even cooler, and has a Chewing Gum taste to it.

Simply Imagine having a piece of Halts in your mouth while smoking. The after taste is very mild, and smooth. It comes with a $11.80 tagged onto it however. yikes~

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Dj Eklips @ Butterfactory

7th Nov' 2009
Official ORD. Entering into the Non-Police Mode, we went to party. It was 23yrs old age limit that night. And Syafeeq & I had our chops. But however, 5 others, were only 19-20yrs old. Luckily i knew the bouncer, talked abit, and there we go, VIPs ((:
Transcend from Flash to Bum, here and there! it was an awesome night, whereby a bottle of Jack Daniels was gone in 15mins. Rocks. Music & Dance, was all that mattered that night.
No desperados in this clique, Thank God for this. Guys, who try to get girls in clubs, Seriously? Check this guy out, squeezed ALL THE WAY just to get a chic, but failed miserably. He was dancing, just standing like a fucking tree. GET OUT!!~
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Original Media
Working sideline, in the events side, i did production for awhile. Opened my eyes to quite abit of stuff. D&T sure came in handy.
Working from 9am to 4am. No joke, but the money was good. yummy~!

My Birthday, My Career!!

First of all, I wana wish all those who celebrated my Birthday on the 31st October (: also to those who sent me their well wishes!!

Went to night safari with Miss, since i owe her this. It was a Halloween Event, where the staff were dressed up as ghouls, ghost, spirits and funky stuff. For a guy, i do not think it would be much of a scare, but for the girls.... you should just observe :p Its hilarious to have them screaming, yelling profanities and clinging onto you.

Man fear what they do not know. I know, so why should i fear right? lol. Dinner there, and a mere catching up! I prefer the zoo, at least i can see them, and take pictures!!! Repeated warnings were given by the staff, the prohibition of flash usage. DUhz~ you wana get eaten by the animals?

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Alot of things happened within this span of 1mth. The paradox of multiple situations.

My buddy, Kenneth, got warded into hospital for injuring his knee. Went to pay him a visit, which i intended to leave by 2pm. Yenyi, demanded i stay till she arrive, which was 5pm, so you can imagine how bored i was. Not to complain, but i waited for her. For the fact, i miss her dearly, and that she went MIA! 

Caught up with her, and told her my plans. I wanted to buy a car, and with the pay that i am gona get, i was thinking of a BMW 3 Series. so u can roughly imagine how much i am gona earn la~ not to brag about it or anything, but i want my dad to enjoy what he couldn't. She scolded me, slapped me.. Normally i wouldn't take any of these nonsense from any girl. But there's seemingly alot of things, that i make do for Yenyi ((: well, she made sense of it all, which changed my mind. she understands me well or rather better than most people do. oh wells! HAPPY the entire day!!!! ((:

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My birthday was a simple celebration, just dinner. Steamboat to be exact. With Gman, Nic, Chu, Darren & LiBing (: Darren was so very sweet to hand-make a present for me. I cherish such stuff dearly, and knowing him since Primary 1!!! 

Thanks Guys. I really do appreciate it!!

And to her: If i can't even receive a simple sms from you to wish me, i do not see a point having myself keep you as a friend. For something such as a friendship with you, that u have not given a substantial reason to not having. If that is the case, I simply wish you the best for ur future. U will always hold something special in me. Good luck (:

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ORD OH!!!!

After 1yr 10mths, the day finally arrives (: it marks the next chapter of my life!!! Working career (: i finally decided not to continue studying, for the fact that the Certificate of Competency is a Degree itself. Starting pay is ridiculously high, which will only see a soar in few years to come. My Classmate who just went to sailing is getting a payroll of USD6000 a month. yupps. 

An idea of what I will do ((:

Singapore is becoming a Maritime Headquarter, and the world demand for Officers, is at an all time high. By the time it hits 2011, the Maritime Industry has declared its shortage for officers worldwide. Captains of Oil Tankers, are getting salary more than that of Pilots. Hope it gives you, a rough sketch of why I choose the path, I've chosen. Which i will explain in my next entry. 

31st October

Normally, i'd await excitedly, anticipating what i'd be getting as my Bday Present. It doesn't matter if its handmade or bought, cause its from someone you hold dear. This year seems mundane, nothing to look forward to, nor expect. Just another day of Halloween ((: Trick or Treat! It's when your 'True Friends' that you've held so dear come out for you.

No more clubbing on my Bday. It's enough!! I mean, whats the difference? I go there, VIP, have one table to myself, 2 or 3 Bottles, get high, dance and end the night as a hardly sober, drunk mudafaka~ i do that every now and then, any difference then? A simple dinner with my mudabitches is what i seldom do, and its simple stuff that plants a smile on me! heh

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okie, alot of people tells me that the girl with armpit hair is a damn turn-off when they visit my blog... First i am sorry, secondly, the next time when u come across another chic with armpit hair, you'd think of my blog :D lol. I know right!!!!!

If I told you, that your Boyfriend is cheating on you, would you believe me?

If I told you, that your Girlfriend is cheating on you, would you believe me?

Fools in love are blinded of coz, giving a stipulated answer of, 'No way, Impossible, Don't lie.' For those who have those quarrels, would tend to ask who is it, when. A more logical thinking to it all. Well yet again, unless you've been in several relationships to tell for urself, it'd be best for a 3rd party to see it for you. 

Now to this particular girl, who reads my blog, I'm telling you that your Boyfriend is cheating on you. I hope you can see the tell-tale signs. and don't be sucha fool. Your probably a spare he has on standby, so if he can't get the one he wants, he still has you to fall back on. Which he has done. Think my love, think (:

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Get another boyfriend - Backstreet Boys

check it Let's talk about one,
baby You gotta hear me out
Do you really want to be the last to know
what it's all about
Let's talk about who you say
Is the essence of your life
But he'll eat you up from inside slow
And then he doesn't wanna know
I'm tellin you he'll eat you up from inside
And then he doesn't wanna know

Listen, I mean it
There's nothing that he's worthy of
He's just another playa',
Playin in the name of love
I've seen enough, now this must come to an end
Get another Boyfriend

Let's talk about what, 
He's done to become your number one
Or was it all the promises of diamonds,
pearls and party dresses that turned you on
I've seen it before (Don't take!)
Anymore, free too,
You're through for sure
Just go get on with your life STOP!
Acting like you're giving up
I'm telling you, go get on with your life
Stop acting like you're givin up

Listen, I mean it
There's nothing that he's worthy of
He's just another playa',
Playin in the name of love
I've seen enough, now this must come to an end
(must come to an end)
Get another Boyfriend

STOP

Hey Yeah ah
Hear me out, you must know what it's all about
he's just a playa in love this must come to and end 
Get, another boyfriend

Listen, I mean it (I mean it)
There's nothing that he's worthy of
(ain't nothing that he's worthy of)
He's just another playa' ,
Playin in the name of love
I've seen enough, now this must come to an end
Get another , Get another, Get another Boyfriend

Listen, I mean it(hear me now)
There's nothing that he's worthy of
(you must know, what it's all about)
He's just another playa' ,
Playin in the name of love
(he's just a playa in love)
I've seen enough, now this must come to an end
(this must come to an end)
Get another Boyfriend, Get.....another boyfriend

As my date to ORD draws nearer. The sudden spikes of panic strikes me. As to what i am gona do, should i further my studies or should i start working straight away, and climb my way up the ladder.

The thing about the Maritime Industry, is that it does not require them papers, but experience. 

Take for example, if i chose to be a Pilot, training would be 10mths long, and i'd be paid $5000/mth.

Take for example, if i chose to be a Steersman for a Supply boat, i'd be paid $4000-$5000/mth.

Take for example, if i chose to be an Officer onboard Tankers, i'd be paid $5000-$6000/mth.

What delights me, are the digits. But dilemma attacks as to what i reli want. My friends, family & love  OR  Money. It's the harsh fact abt the maritime industry, that i have been bothered by, long time! 

No money, No honey. Thats how fucking practical girls are these days! You got no car, they tell u, 'Oh sorry, i got sth on', you got the car, they ask u, 'dude wana chill in town?' wtf -.-" back when u were in secondary, u'd go town via public transport, now if no one picks you up, you declare urself home-bound. Helloooo, get a hold of urself muthafucka! 

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Sorry abt the stray from the main topic. But guess i shall concentrate on taking my Class 6 & Class 3. Study time (:

Nel Outside~

Take Some Time Off To Read This

Combined In-Service was a waste of time, especially for me, whose gona ORD in like 2 weeks time. 

was on my way home, and walking towards my home, through the NEL underpass, when i saw this China student. She had this alluring look, and was carrying this box of papers under her arm. Then i saw something, SOOO FUCKING REPULSIVE to the eye! 

she doesn't shave her underarms!!! and her hair was longer than mine, like wtf mann. A girl who doesn't shave, just tells me how 'Well-Groomed' you are in every other department. I understand that after one shaves, it takes only few days before the hair grows out again.. BUT still, it takes less than 5mins to get rid of it. Don't tell me you do not have tt?

When i am rich, i am going to sponsor my gf/wife for perm hair removal (: for the sake of cleanliness and the comfort to the eyes!

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You Forgot, What You Were Before

Tony & I had a talk at Liquid Kitchen in Gardens yest, he had his beer, and i had my Frolick Yoghurt. Free Toppings, since i know the girls there. 

Everytime, when a couple quarrel, or break up, we tend to brood over all the negative points and neglect the good he/she had done for us. Its only human nature for us to do so perhaps? Tony & I have been buddies since Pri 3, and we fought together till this date. We mature over the years, and basically our thinking are the same, which hence explains why he is near my 'brother' status.

In every relationship, we want the best for our partners. I want my gf to be successful, independent, have a good family tie, mix with the right group of friends, and of cause be happy in the things she do. For all these, I would gladly give my all to see she makes it through. BUT what if, it requires you to hurt her, so she can learn from it, and grow stronger? Would you then do it? Harsh as it sounds, I would ):

After all of these, she becomes the person u want her to be. You know urself, you have given her all that u have to offer. Now, u fear, for you have nothing to give no more. When people become successful, they change, thinking that they can get even better. Do not come and tell me 'No, i will still remain loyal to my partner', are u successful? No, so stfu. i am talking abt a real event here, so do not tell me it doesn't happen, or not to stereotype pls.

Tony and I have been in contact with many people. Rich, Successful, Not well to do, average, you name it, we probably had. It opened our eyes, and minds to see how despicable one can get. You may see ur group of friends as practically Flawless, but honestly, it takes another to tell. We keep our partners away from them, but end up being accused of being too protective & sensitive. When shit happens, we will end up being there for them. Have they actually forgotten what we have done for them, clouded by all these faults tt we as human easily err?

Many guys/girls perceive the both of us as party-goers, fun loving, do not give 2 hoots abt what happens tmr. Clubing in the VIPs, free alcohol, money ain't a problem, cars. But honestly, how long have u known us for? And why wld we show u our true colours? But ask our gfs/ex if we are like that when with them! tt my friend, wld be the real us. Hypocrites, you might say. Are you not one urself then?

Some of you might have the thought. WTF is Nelson talking, as if he is some love-guru teaching me stuff. I am attached, Nelson is not, what right does he have to say all these. Yupp true, i'm no love guru, neither am i attached, but see now, what i say, is just for a reference. It might help you, it might not. I'm just stating all these through experiences. Hard as love can be, i believe in learning from others' mistakes so we do not falter them.

i am not always right, so if u beg to differ, comment ((: yet again, for those Low EQ people, everybody is different. and i do not stereotype nor am i guarding my own sex. thanks!

Bought 2 tix for Night Safari Halloween Themed Event

but something happened... so.... am wondering if....

Anyone wana go with me ((:

Friday ((:

i love spontaneity , thats for sure! 

Went to work with a heavy feet, knowing that i have to go out to sea. Simply putting 'sian' to another level. The only thing that i looked forward to, was Soccer at East Coast. It was a tough match against PH 50. I ain't use to playing on carpet grass, so basically ball control went down to a ZERO. change my game play, and finally won the game with a big bang (:

So i was packing up, having a smoke and chilling with my ship crew, then 'Left 4 Dead' came into the picture!! yea, i was ardy sleeping on the ride home. but i figured out its a Friday Night, why not mann! Got Nic and drove down to pick the girls up. Min gave the wrong direction, and ended up being lost in Sengkang/Punggol. Hate tt darn place!!

Sorry if i am gona be a MCP here, but girls can't give directions, not to mention drive -.- for nic, he said the only girl he knows who can drive well is Libing, and for me, its Yenyi ((: of coz its gona be Yenyi for me, like Obviously? who the heck can drive one hand hugging her pillow, leg crossed, talking to you, speeding. omg. 

It was a Hair-Pulling event at Rivervally Lanshop, since Min was playing L4D for the first time -.-" we didn't manage to complete the game, and was freezing inside. 

Grace was good, can still vividly rmb the scene whereby, A smoker attacked me, followed by a boomer, then a hunter!! she fucking jumped down the building, killed all off them (including the zombies) and saved me. I was like WOW and looked at her, with her silly glasses on! then i looked at nic and said, 'did u fucking see that!' lmao. Nice One babe!

Wanted to spend the night playing, but Min's dog was being pesky, and had to head home early. Bah~ Grace & I being night kinda people, gloomed. so i suggested drinking. Off we went to Nic's place. My vodka, remaining Hazelnut that Avia bought for me and Chivas. I was happy drinking, i have no idea why, perhaps i thought a girl i could drink with.

45mins playing i never, she suddenly stoned, then gone. lol, i was happier than before. the rest shall stay in nic's room. the cutest thing ever, in my 22years of age though. 

Hoes Before Bros

I was had a heart to heart talk with Della recently, and we came to this conclusion, that i like to share with you guys.

Well, as we all know, there're some guys when chanced upon girls, metamorph into a different person. This leads in their change in behaviour. The way they talk and carry themselves becomes totally different from what they truly are. This is too the same for girls, according to Della.

I mean, this change if subtle is normal. I mean first impression counts to the opposite gender and well, we try to make it a good one. However, there are times, where this may go overboard. The stand, 'Hoe Before Bros' steps in! I personally know of guys, who go missing or places girls as their top priority. Hokkien, they call this act, 'Chee Hong'. 

I am no exception to that, since i used to come from an all boys school, where girls are rare as diamonds. But as time goes by, and i get to know more, this slowly fades away. Perhaps this is one of the main reasons why. Exposure to the fairer kind (:

Now, Della explains this;

"You know Nelson, if a guy knows of many girls, he tends to be open about stuff, and normally wouldn't pay much attention to them. To him, it's just another girl, being a friend, nothing more. I as his gf, having nothing much to fear or worry. But if a guy who doesn't have much girlfriends, he tends to have this thought, that things might work out between them. Because his selection is a few, every new girl that he meets becomes important. If i am the gf for this case, every girl he meets, i tend to be more cautious."

Well i agree to it actually. Not to stereotype down to all guys, but i am thinking YEA, some of my friends really are like this. Though some of you may like to rebuke against it that, guys who know alot of girls tend to be players, while those who know of few tend to be more faithful. I did think of it, and Hey, the guy who know more girls, will know how best his gf is, compared to the other who only knows a few. The idea of, 'maybe this girl is better than my gf?' I hope you guys are feeling me on this!

Yet again, every guy/girl is different, this is just some of the topics Della & I talked about (: cheerios~

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i'm accused of being a stalker for listening to 'Break Your Heart' on repeats, and a Grandpa for not understanding her lingo. lol interesting with a dash of cuteness~ :p

can anyone pls tell me what is; 

1.) ikr

2.) bth

when to her hse and Chanel's bro said i am burnt like Bhangla! a kid's words they say, should not be taken to heart. How to, when kids speak only of the truth!!! omg~ 

Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz

What started off as a game, slowly changed. Warnings were well given in advance.. 

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You know I'm just gonna hurt you.

You know I'm only gonna break your heart

You wana bet?

Bring it on!

Woah Woah 

Now listen to me baby 

Before i love and leave you 

They call me heart breaker 

I don't wanna decieve you 

If you fall for me 

I'm not easy to please 

I'mma tear you apart 

Told you from the start, baby from the start. 

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4) 

Now listen to me baby 

Before i love and leave you 

They call me heart breaker 

I don't wanna decieve you 

If you fall for me 

I'm not easy to please 

I'mma tear you apart 

Told you from the start, baby from the start. 

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4) 

Woah woah 

Theres not point trying to hide it 

No point trying to erase me 

I know i got a problem 

By doing this behavour 

If you fall for me 

I'm not easy to please 

I'mma tear you apart 

Told you from the start, baby from the start. 

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4) 

And I know karma's gonna get me back for being so cold 

Like a big bad wolf I'm born to be bad and bad to the bone 

If you fall for me I'm only gonna tear you apart 

Told ya from the start. 

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. [x4] 

Woah woah woah [x4]

with a sick body, and Chee Wee leaving for Aussie in 15th Oct, going out is inevitable.

Zirca to club the night away. It's amazing what the girls talked about. WAXING -.- i was there to give my listening ear. they were high and i have no idea what on earth they were doing. all i heard was, 'Oi Brazilian Wax here k. Baby skin! Baby Skin!' i was cracking up like crazy. According to them, it's simply bare-skin. Loves~ At least now i got friends who do Brazilian Wax!!! yay~
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and unexpected phonecall. camp.. Notified, 'Nelson, ur pay increase by 70 bucks again.' I was like, 'gona ORD then increase for fcuk! 1 month for me to enjoy only -.-' better than nothing!!

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What was suppose to be a clubing night at St James Powerhouse, was turned into a mahjong session. but before that a BBQ with Chee Wee's friends from Monash University. Made more friends (: as usual. then to Chee Wee's place for mahjong.

Lost 8bucks. super unlucky i must say. but depending on the fact tt it has been half a year since i last played, i think i was doing alright!! hah. Thanks alot ah Calista!!! urgg.. you ought to treat breakfast or sth!

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enlistment for Desmond. ORD for me ((:

worked for a straight 30+ hours, only to find my body is fatigue, and down with Flu, Cough, Sorethroat. 

Irritating. And the fact that i have a 4day off, doesn't seem to entice me, NO, not in this state!

Its certainly amusing how life turns out, for us. For you and for me (: Like how some feelings can be gone, and some feelings always remain deep-down, just undiscovered. yupp yupp, i agree with it. We're more matured and it made total sense to me. this, i am glad for. 

While others are so free, as their ORD date approaches, i'm piled with work and all. This month of October is a hell hole for me!

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Next week, work is gona be crazy again. Placed under high security, with super important people coming, i'm activated. bah~ Girls who do not have to endure through NS, should simply shut the fuck up. Guys who 'cao-geng' from NS, should too be like girls, and shut the fuck up.

Put urself in my shoes, if you can. The hours i train, the hours i work. The mental stigma. Nah, you'll never understand~

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