Burnt Out

Days usually ends with more to do than when i first started and it backlogs daily... more situations/things to pre-empt and plan for... list of things to think ahead builds... anticipating and picking signs of potential issues and determining a probable solution or whom can provide/should provide the solution.. If there is no solution than need to develop a workaround or cover up plan... In addition to that other commitments that I cannot say no to... barely are there moments just to be quiet and not required to "think of what is there to do next or what is there left to do"...

Too mentally and soulfully tired to think, talk, ask or muster energy to say anything.... burnt out... falling into this mode more than I should that I think its really not healthy... feels overwhelming and defeated... contemplating whether saying "NO" to all is the solution.... and the other alternative is not as enticing as it used to be anymore...

Twitch

My eyes rarely twitch.... Only within this recent year. I used to think it was a random rarity that it twitched and thought it must have been for no relevant reason.
Now I pretty much have come to a conclusion that it is not random and that it seems to have occurred when I am in a state of great stress/greatly overwhelmed.

Maybe its a good thing as a sign that I need to do something to address it?

Bapa Yang Kekal

A lovely song to listen and reflect upon :D

by Julita Manik, sung by Lea Simanjuntak.

Kasih yang sempurna telah
Ku t’rima dariMu
Bukan kar’na kebaikkanku
Hanya oleh kasih karuniaMu
Kau pulihkan aku, layakkan ku
‘tuk dapat memanggilMu, Bapa

Kau b’ri yang kupinta
Saat ku mencari, ku mendapatkan
Ku ketuk pintuMu, dan Kau bukakan
S’bab Kau Bapaku, Bapa yang kekal
Takkan Kau biarkan
Aku melangkah hanya sendirian
Kau selalu ada bagiku
S’bab Kau Bapaku, Bapa yang kekal

Rissi Palmer

Was in a bookshop in Seattle in Jan 08 and could not help to ask what CD was being played of the upcoming black country singer that I have not heard of. Loved her voice and music and decided to get it thru "other means" when I got back home. Searched high and low through those "means" and to my dissapointment I could not find it. Even regretted for not having bought it in the first place.

But yay... 10 months later I have found it :D Lovely album! Here's one of my favourite slow number from her:

Here's another.... I prefer her rendition and her voice in singing "No Air"

Fun with Lantern or Fire

Latern Festival is really about the fun playing with fire and NOT the lantern ;D As you can see below......

Lighting Up the Mailbox

An Attempt to Light Up the House and Use All the Candles

Trying to lite the candle side ways.. and my attempt to burn the lantern by hosting multiple candles on it....... and I enjoyed wathcing it burn later ;D

Time flies so quickly and it was just last year I was playing latern where I first met hubbylee :D

4.30am

I wonder why stay up till 4.30am to complete as much as work as I can, so that things of a certain project will continue to run as smooth as possible without the company's effort being questioned. I knew when I had to be on MC on Monday it only meant I have less no of days for me to complete work by Thursday the same week. I know taking another day of MC is not an option even though I was still not feeling very well as it would leave me only 1 day of impossible work to complete.

1 day of MC, back to work next day and worked till 4.30am to complete as much work as I can = 2 days of work even though I took MC

Cardboard Testimonies

This helped me see another aspect of what beauty is too.....not just physical beauty... how beautiful it is to see how with Him lives are transformed and restored.. very touching ...

Cookie or Pizza

It was a special occassion and we had family dinner at LaFite. Have heard quite a bit about the fine dining restaurant and I was looking forward to see what its all about despite the fact that its slow and you will leave still feeling hungry. And indeed it was a memorable visit :D

It started with free flow of bread while awaiting for our soups. The soups was served 1 hour later and true enough it was little but we were all pretty full from having the bread(s) ;D

The main meal was served and sis (sis-in-law) was relieved that they had forgotten the pizza she ordered on top of her main dish. Mid the meal we informed the waiter of the forgotten pizza and he told us he had served it on our table! And we went "Where??" .... Look below...

And we thought it was a complimentary cookie for the kids! :D We laughed sooooo much over this.... so much so that sis dropped the pizza onto the floor!...hhehhehee.... and we had a bite each anyway ;D

We had complimentary dessert and I've never been served a candy floss tree :D

A Day on Tuesday

• greet hubbylee with a morning smooch


• a quick bite of a toast for breakfast and its off to work with hubbylee waving goodbye


• prepare previous week's update meeting slides [Project S]


• roped into a meeting of [project S's] growing sticky situation.. over a concall [Project S]


• tried work on current phase of Project S whicle concurrently on the concall


• after the con call talked to the guys about restartegizing the test lab phase a bit [Project S]


• customer E called me about a 3 years old exchange project of how to update web SSL cert [Old Project E]


• tapo'ed lunch and headed to office


• Trying to understand a new situation why the customer calls MS Sales person to check whether we are doing a certain part of a project documentation, when they could just ask the project team. Check and followup. [Project C]


• trying to eat lunch and work on [Project S]


• Customer E finally replied and registered customer E for Ops manager training that they have postponed 1-2 months ago - [Newer Project E]


• registered ppl for quest training - sent relevant emails, update my excel file of trainings the team attended/attending, set schedule in my calendar so i wont forget to check whether there is any last minute change of attendees of the training [Internal]


• email training center for the list of MS training syllabus selected [Internal]


• discussion with boss about [Project S] of the unchanging situation. Its 2.50 and i have yet to get to start work on [Project S]


• spend a brief momemnt to plan meeting schedules for the test lab findings [Project S]


• discuss witht the girls on [Project A] signoff/completion


• discuss with the girls on new [project M] coming up on the scope, milestone, resourcing


• discuss with the girls on [new project E] preventive maintenance in preparation of a backup person


• discuss doc delivereables for [Project C] to see if it reduces instances cust C calling MS


• email to get to help on the [New Project E] email group problem


• check [Old Project E] documents/articles to SSL enable OWA and also on ISA to email to customer E


• send congratulatory email for achieving MCSE


• 5.00pm and time to continue on [Project S]


• 7.10pm and its still jammed getting to parent place for dinner with dad


• Had dinner at the usual place and caught with dad, family friend and bro


• Had a serious family talk


• 10.15pm Headed home to hubbylee


• Hubbylee sleepily waited up for me and he had icecream after some mooncake


• smooched hubbylee goodnight as he goes off to sleep


• begin bit of blogging and off to bed soon

Old Look

This is to remember how it used to look like :D

4th Monthly-Niversary

On the 26th August 2008.....

Facelift in Progress

Been meaning to give the blog a facelift for some time now. And boy it takes quite a bit of figuring out the template.
So its still work in progress and am still figuring out how to get some out of place formatting in place....

Sbread

Test tasted it and I just had to buy it! The best and really yummylicious'est Yam Kaya I've ever eaten... so good that I shall not buy it again coz its 2/3 finished in just one sitting and that's with self-control ;D
The picture may not do it justice but the SBREAD is just "heavenly".... food-atively speaking ;D

....just sharing the kaya "joy", go check it out at http://www.sbread.com/

Ladder

Have been weighed down lately.... thinking about "corporate laddering"... how far would i want to climb the ladder... or if its worth considering different kind of ladders to hop on... or if hopping on another ladder is going to end up the same.. then maybe stepping down the ladder... after climbing the same ladder for sometime now one becomes familiar and it's easy to see where the ladder is heading to and sometimes it looks as though maybe its not for me.... just thoughts to think about for now... and carrying out what needs to be done still have to go on....

Downhere - How Many Kings

Heard this song online and can't get enough of it. Meaningful lyrics and unique tune to it. A pretty interesting songs this band has.

Children At Risk

In the midst of our day to day living to meet our needs of living and personal needs.. through our work responsibilities, family, loved ones.... remembering to get our workout, finding opportunities of time to indulge in our hobbies, planning for an eventful/relaxing weekend...  
At BLC I am reminded of the other side of what day to day life is like in the lives of Children at Risk.... and how I should actively make it a point to see even if its little, as to how I can contribute to make a difference...

Do take time to see these as a reminder/as an eye opener that there are more that are happening not just in the world around us.

Radiohead - All I Need (Official MTV Video) - To End Exploitation and Trafficking



Child Trafficking and Women in Poverty



In Conjunction of World Weekend of Prayer for Children at Risk (7th - 8th June 2008) - http://www.viva.org/

Update

Its has been a while now and time indeed for updates. Its our real 2nd week with real routine and a rest from getting ready for the last 2 weekends away. Managed to finally work on some photos a bit. Have been longing to work on at least some since the wedding preparation:

Company Trip to Phuket - more at http://www.flickr.com/photos/noreese/sets/72157605249750605/)


Ian and Mei's Wedding @ Bali - Just right after ours ;D
(http://www.flickr.com/photos/noreese/sets/72157605054013904/)

Trip to San Fran & Redmond(http://www.flickr.com/photos/noreese/sets/72157603888398560/)

Event-Full

Its the first day of a long leave for the wedding. Woke up early as there are still so many things to do. Pretty good progress today - final draft of the church program, got some ideas and things for the pews deco, called the caterer, the bed and the floor of the room is finally ready to make the room a room. Got somethings for the wedding before joining the CS group for dinner.

Event I
Just about on my way to Pavillion [AL] sms'ed news that [A]'s hubby [D] met with a bad accident last night with critical head injury - and according to the doctor he is brain dead :( Finally met [A]'s hubby some months back for CNY dinner at their home with the cell. [D] is a great cook have been cooking his yummy dishes for us for years. He cooked dinner for all us that CNY and it was excellent. He's hospitable, bubbly, full of life and entertaining, [A] a very humble and sincere person.. they both complement each other very much I thought to myself that evening. [A] is still in shock from the news. And I am still in shock having heard that :( So much so that when walking to Kampachi I was bit zombie like and all my thoughts and prayers was just about what had happened. Took me sometime to settle with the group when I got there as I was just so sad with for [A] of what she is going thru. It also reminded how me trying to decide what ribbons to put on the church pew is insignificant in comparison to what has happened and just having your loved one's safe.

Event II
I was very touched indeed by my fellow collegues who surprised me with a wedding gift. It was sooo thoughtful of them even though they cannot make it for the wedding. Am touched from the effort on the card and having chosen a lovely figurine for the occassion.
Thanks muchly LH,CH and PC :D I really, really appreciate what you girls and guy(s) did for Larry and I :D

Here's pics of what they have given :D

Event III
Through out dinner my thoughts were still for [A] and [D]. Dinner ended and my thoughts was still filled with the news and also colleagues wonderful gesture of the wedding gift. So much so that the police stopped me for forgetting to turn on my car lights. Policeman make me nervous even though I know I have not done something seriously wrong. The policeman gestured to write a summon and kept asking me "apa nak buat?" / "so what do you want do?" over and over again. I didnt really understand what he wanted to from me and I really wanted to believe that he was NOT asking me for money. And I actually thought maybe he wanted a remorseful apology to let me off the hook(I know I am a naive adult) - I apologized and he still asked me the same question again. Anyway I would rather pay the fine than to give him kopi money. After sometime trying to understand what he wanted from me he let me off the hook. After assessing the what happened again he must be asking me for money even though I really want to believe that he wasn't. Sigh... pls stop doing this policemen, and everyone else don't support this by giving kopi money.

As It Happens Complaints Choir

Sivin was sharing this video today in sharing Exodus 17:1-7. Was amusingly surprised that there is really a Complaints Choir Worldwide... really... its not a grim choir but quite entertaining and amusing considering its just complaints ;D