Earth hour

Enclosed in the darkness
There is nothing to show
Nothing to prove
Nothing to do

Do you feel a tinge of sadness or
A sense of relief

Unburden and rest

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Your eyes

Sometimes you are at a loss. You wish you could find the words to describe the spectacular sight in front of you. You wish you could find a simple sentence to describe the war within you. You wish you could sum up all the thoughts that lead to this conclusion. You wish you could express what you are feeling at this moment.

You wish that you have the moment back now that you have found the words.

For the rest of us, the silence means that it is to be forgotten for we will never find the words. The tug in our hearts will be soon gone.

For now, we ache.

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Sleep talk

I might have a sleeping disorder. That is, my brother caught me sleep-walking last November! Apparantly I walked out of my room with closed eyes, threw my bolster at the sofa, barked three letters "A, T, P" and went back to my room!

My poor bewildered brother, who was sitting at the foot of the sofa, had to retrieve my bolster to my room and poked me gingerly, calling me repetitively before I answered huffly in my sleep that the three letters represent a coin container!

I was already half-awake when I was replying him, but I could not get out of my sleep. I felt slightly amused at my answer then! It was so ridiculous!

I wonder if my more vivid dreams might have actually happened. Though I have forgetten most of them now. This episode stands out because my brother witnessed it.

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Goodbyes in real

I'm having difficulty penning down my thoughts recently. It must be due to lack of practice! Hah!

It's my day off today and I finally put my foot down - to tidy one of my closets! =)
I threw away some things that were growing fungus, including two of my barbie dolls that had been with me since pre-school! Oh. I always thought that barbies are made entirely of plastic! At least the barbie clothes and accessories look fine.

I also read some of the cards friends gave me and a correspondence and my writings.

In this short time of reading, I was delighted, then reminiscing, sometimes wistful and then sad. I laughed and I reflected. The person receiving all these cards sounded sweet and thoughtful. She seemed to have went the extra mile for friends. In one or two cards, she sounded sad. In her writings, she was angry but the reason was not specifically stated, which is good, for I have no use for past grievances. I read her attempt in writing a story and laughed. The story was never completed.

I can safely attest that I'm not her anymore. She was young and full of dreams. She spent her time better than my attempts. I seem to only sleep and eat these days. LOL.
My conclusion of the day? I should try to take a leaf out of her book of friends.

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Half-awake

Floating. Love. Dreams. Snow in the dark. Memories. Serenity.

A smile.

Hope.

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music link:

王菲 - 雪中蓮

The east wind blew me

I had a great time with my poly friends last evening, joking and updating each other of the current and past events.

On my way home later that night, under the bright round moon, it striked me that I have been rushing through my twenties. I have been rushing to finish my education, rushing to find a balance lifestyle, rushing to fix all my worries.

It's like what my colleauges are discussing. Their favourite topic is the various phases of their children and how they are hoping that the current naughty phase will be over soon! Then an older colleauge remarked that in a few years time, they will be wishing that their children are younger so they can enjoy this time when the children are adorable and dependent on them!

So how can I use such wisdom in my life? Enjoy the phase of being in the twenties with all its ups and downs. Being young, travelling, managing work-life balance, no kids, a boyfriend, deciding what to do with my life, learning new skills, loving each minute with my family and laughing with friends.

Let's make the twenties the best part of our lives! No regrets! Then we are are thirty, we will strive to make our thirties the most fabulous part of our lives!


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I will remember to savour every moment

Was in a bad patch a couple of weeks ago where I started off (well, almost) each day disheartened. Now how depressing is that? Well, I had let myself get into that kind of mindset and I jolly well should be able to get out of it myself! Thankfully, I got out of it and have made the commitment to make things better. As each day of my life pass, procrastination looks less and less appealing.

"A miracle? Remember: "If you have faith as a grain of mustard seed you can say to your mountain, 'Move' and nothing will be impossible.""

I have always believed in miracles. Perhaps it's a by-product of being an optimist. My workplace is certainly filled with miracles or I would have probably expired there and then! God has bless me with lots of nice people as colleauges.

This is my birthday week. (Now I do not have birthdays but birthday weeks! Extend the gladness!) I do not dread passing years, only years unfulfilled.

My lovely friends has decided a fun pressie for me! Woowee! My brother would be happy. Haha. So excited. Feel like a kid all over again.


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The nonbeliever

Angel

There are only two ways that you can live.
One is as if nothing is a miracle. The other is as if everything is a miracle.
I believe in the later.

- Albert Einstein


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