Cravings: all the food in my restriction list :(
Mood: Sleepy and Lazy
Loves: need i say?? no? but i will haha.. ShUwEi *^^*
Listening to: Wheesung track[7]

Right, before i start posting crap, i'm going to type out the lyrics i liked from plus one's song.

So when your spirit gets too weak,
When the water seems too deep,
When you think there's just no way,
i'll be there for you night and day.

I just love that song, it's been a long time since i played the cd. Hahaha~ *pouts* everyone in my home is complaining that everytime they go into my room, first thing they'll hear is something chinese, songs or movie or dramas. Hey~ it's not always chinese... i watch n listen to Korean stuff too.. *pouts* heh... so decided to play Plus one song's.. but no one notice... aiyohh.... might as well dun bother about it... *scratches head* i'm not sure what i've just typed... me kinda half awake.. o O

what did i want to type? i can't remember now.. o0h right.. i finally bought The Rose!!! so nice so nice..... i'm up to disc 15.... disc 16 i started playing already, its on pause now.. hehe.. need a break from staring at the tv screen...

I've been to The Mall twice... i want to buy food at the food counter at the basement floor!!!! the sandwiches o0 YUMMY!!!! *snmiff* and the choccie layer cake thinge looks yummy too.... *stupid restrictions* *pouts* how silly of me to put myself under food restriction.. >_<

Honestly, i am sooo BROKE right now... aiyoh... staying at home is so unproductive... i'm so sick of eating already... worse part is.. breakfast... i've to cook for myself.. some more sometimes i've to cook lunch for the kids... aaarrrghhh not that i mind.... but i'm just getting sick of it...
me even getting sick of watching TV. Lotsa things to watch.... but my poor neck eh... got neck pain already from holding my head up to watch the screen... its more comfortable to watch in my room.... but i dont exactly wanna lay in bed all day n watch tv.. so i watch in the family living room..... i hate the sofa. sooo not comfortable.. heh.... i think i'm complaining too much, i'll shut up now.

I was sure there's something i wanted to blog about. I just can't lay my finger on it.

Things to do: May 2004.
1. Sign up for aerobics class ( they have something close to dance class, i wanna learn how to dance, looks fun.. but htey dont have any dance school around..)
2. Manicure/Pedicure (was suppose to go in April... but don't have spare money)
3. Sign up for mandarin classes ?( still thinking about it.... night classes in Soas college... i think registration close already, Hjh fatimah tutorial? is it good? haiiz)
4. Look for VCD's? hahaha that's my weekly routine... :p
5. Get the cpu fixed (no wait.. i'm suppose to do this friday) hehe..
6.....? dunno....
7. oh RIGHT!!! WATCH ENERGY'S SHOW, on MONDAY!! WOHHOhohOHOHOHOo0OO0oo0o0o0

so HiGh now.. even tho partially sleepy... aaaaaaah... weeehehehehehe....

thats about it... i've no idea what i crapped out
i watched e-news today.. Shuwei in green?? hmmm he looks shuai-er in pink!!

mwaahzz.. nite nite...

Cravings: Any Hot soup. (pref. Tom Yam)
Mood: A mixture of everything.
Loves: Shuwei.
Listening to: Plus one - When your spirit gets weak.

I didn't feel well since last night. The heat kinda got to my head, giving me headaches. This morning felt kinda better. I went to the grand opening of 'Utama Grand' :) It's quite cool actually, felt like i was in another country when i was in the store. There were lots of people there. It's too crowded for my liking. I bougt some clothes from 'Factory Outlet' at Utama. The clothes quite cheap, ranging prices below $20. There were several stores that i wanted to go into. But, its difficult when you're going around with parents, plus it was too crowded. I guess i'll just wait till i go out with my friends again. Should be somewhere beginning of May. Hopefully by then more shops will open at The Mall. =)

Mal, i don't think i can watch pops in seoul tomorrow.. *cries* I can't watch it tonight, then tomorrow morning i'm going to the bank with my mom, i can't watch the 2nd repeats in at 2pm, i've to go UBD for the newsletter meeting. *groans* sux.....

I'm kinda proud of myself, for not buying any vcd's for almost 3 weeks. *smiles* i don't think i can last much longer.... hmmm maybe i can.... depends on what's gonna be aired on tv this May. '5 degrees of Fun ' wheeeeee.... i can't wait...... thx Mally for the info on Shuangxing, hehe... gonna watch Westside story again.... :P Something to occupy my time.

i don't think i've got anything else to blog about. Maybe i should just go to sleep.

Nite nite everyone.
Niz xxx

Cravings: KFC! i'm dying to try the new Tomyam chicken
Mood: Happy *^^*
Loves: Shuwei
Song: Missing you - Energy


I'm HyPeR today!! Feeling very happy. Though i do feel bored but then still happy. I watched the repeats of E-news at 11.30am this morning. Shuwei so shuai!! like really really shuai... *melts* Then Kunda and Niunai swing dancing and i think the other dance was salsa.. woaah they both can dance man.. their shirt was unbuttoned at the top... so they look pretty HOT! Looks like Energy going to be hosting '5 degrees Fun' YAY Their own TV Show i think? Correct me if i'm wrong, coz you know.. i don't understand mandarin.. -_-" i'm pretty sure its their own tv show lah, coz the advert shows all 4 of them. =) I can't wait, i think its aired already in Taiwan TVBS-G club i think. But its going to be aired on TVBS too!! Wo0o0oo.... but next month! *pouts* *Nizzy can wait. Nizzy can wait.* Nooo!! I CAN'T!! It's airing on the 3rd of May.. Wo0o0o0.... now i don't mind staying at home at all... Coz there are nice stuff on Tv. E-news rocks!! E.N.E.R.G.Y ROCKZ!!!

What i'm watching daily:
-100% Senorita (but finish up till episode 20 only, i think only next month continued)
-Ups & Down in the sea of love (Hongkong Tv series)
-Entertainment news ( DEFINITELY!! Coz got Shuwei, NiuNai and Kunda!!)
-Fight Club (Only aired once a week, =( but still VERy FuNnY, laugh till get stomachache)
-Holland V ( AAaah that Richard better come back soon!! Jingjing needs help orh..)
-The Oprah Winfrey Show (Interesting discussions everyday. Can learn a lot of stuff about life)
-E-news @ asia (normally only watch repeats if i feel like it)
-Godfather in Pink!! (soo nice soo nice.... but dun have subtitle... still very ver nice~!)

Hmm... i think that's about it. If i didn't leave out anything that is. i'm a Couch Potato wo0ho0ho0ho0ho0...

What else? i'm currently typing a chapter for my Energy fic. But no inspiration at the moment. I can't wait till i complete all of them.

i'm kinda getting used to staying at home. *smiles* i complain less now on how boring my life is... Yayy an accomplishment for me. *skips merrily*

Cowwy... waaah poor pigeons, no more feather left is it? coo coo <-- bunyi pigeons tuu.... coo coo (means cool cool means sajuk sajuk. ) hekekekekeke...

Listening to Energy- Yong Yuan Bu Shou Zhi jian (dun think i spelt that right)

night night..
love Nisa

Yeaah..
soo much FUN last night. I went out with Natalie (YAY She's back from Uk.) Crysteen, Mai and Ihsan. We met at The Mall, didn't spend much time there, we wanted to go eat dinner at Tinis, but umm the place was very small to be called a restaurant, i mean seriously just 2 tables?? Huh? Since we didn't find anything interesting at the food court either we went to Coffeezone instead. Never been there before, my first time lor. We sat outside, i don't want to smell like cigarette smoke, coz that's what you'll smell like if you sit indoors. People were watching Man U vs Portsmouth outside. There were these 2 white males sitting one table from the tv. We sat right infront of the TV!! Hahaha... we were kinda planning to change our seats coz we didn't want to block the guy's view. But then the guy's just told us to sit there coz it wasn't blocking their view and as long as we don't move about i guess.

I had Mango Scream!!! WAAAh so yummy... mango blended with ice with a hint of lemon. I ate chicken sandwich while Nat had Steak sandwich (so difficult to eat, coz no bun on top just on the bottom, didnt think it look like a sandwich hehe) Ihsan had a cheer up, Crysteen had Chocolate Milkshake and a hotdog.

Mai? well... this girl.. she only came at 9.05pm LOL... Crysteen went home already. lol

Anyway, it was fun night. Talking and gossiping. It's been a long time :)

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i had a fun day today. I was the first customer at the new jewellery shop at The Mall!! wo0oho0oooo got to meet the managers and owner of the shop.. Yeaaah!! I got discounts for buying the silver necklaces. I got 2, my sis bought 1. =) Then there was another shop not far from this shop, called cmf. haha die.. my poor wallet... i saw a bag that i like, so i bought it. i don't care.. i think its worth it =) its a change from spending too much money on CD's and Vcd's :)

Bought Female magazine and also LIME!!! Wo0o0 got Toro... very very shuai inside... ;)

anyways.. nothings gonna spoil my mood today.
I even manage to do the Aspartame article's beginning paragraph.
i even manage to write a chapter for Renfu's fic.
YAAAAYayAYAYAYAY
i'm off to watch Fight Club.
5566 soo kaaawaaaiii
Jason n Renfu as bunnie..
eeeww kawaiii
okie dokie..
gtg now...

I LoVe ShuWei..
=)

Hmmm.....
La La La La La....
feeling more calm now...
woke up with a bad headache...
Definitely not enough sleep coz went to sleep at 12.30.
I managed to watch e-news repeats, barely awake...
i dun care... i just wanted to see their faces...
they all so cute.. hosting on their own..
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Today, i went to UBD, it was quite okay actually, managed to go ask a few more UBD students for our Exercise survey, so in total we got 125 people.. wo0o0... Now, we just have to sort all the survey results.. *groans* i hate doing Tallies. Anyways, we just hanged out at J oanna's office.. and do our work there. We manage to catch Dr. Zul despite his busy schedule... he ask us if we can give him a week to answer the questions.. we're like Hah... so he said ok he'll try to answer them asap hehe ^^ Cool, monday is the dateline? I'm not planning to come. i am TOO LAZY! Maybe we'll just e-mail the articles to Zaim. So we just have to go to the meeting on the 24th... waaah another meeting.... i wonder whats it all about..

I feel like going out tonight. Saturday night! don't feel like staying at home alone again with my pc and the tv. Hahaha.. so sad... 'no life'

Lalalalalalalalalala........ bored..... there's nothing to watch tv. I don't feel like watching any of the repeats. hmm...... i just wanna say I LOVE 100% SENORITA, i think it rocks... the storyline is cool. plus the actors are shuai.. hahaha.... but still very nice nice..

what else to post? Can't think....
la la la la la la la la lala la la la la la la la

i'm listening to nothing at the moment, just the sound of my air-con...
My cats.. hmm... dunno where they are anymore....

i want to fall asleep... but can't...
i don't sleep in the afternoon....
i wish i had something to do that i like....
i don't feel like reading articles anymore...
Eyes hurt liao...
MSG and ASPARTAME <----- both not good for health... -_-"

ok la... i go now...
buhbyeeeee~~~~

Writing essays have never been one of my strengths. I'm better at explaining things using my mouth than by hand. I'm stuck into being a member of the IM's newsletter. It's suppose to be a volunteer kinda thing. But, somehow the e-mail we were sent kinda told us we have to join. I'm bad at writing especially articles. I was a freelance for MASA newsletter, but then i didn't wrote any articles, me and Dee just look up for movie reviews and releases. That was about it. I say this again, i don't like writing articles. I only do them coz i have to. If only i can get out of it. But i can't. There are just things you can't say out because you'll feel bad about it after.

Ok, forget the crap i wrote above. *sigh* Me, mai and Crysteen got articles, 3 IN FACT!! due on Monday 19th, The article on Exercise should be fine coz we've done the survey. But there are problems with the other two. Firstly on Bizarre medical facts. They expect us to write an article. But what i really meant when i say write about the facts is just like a 2 line thing, or just maybe a 50 word thing on it. Not a 2 page article. Another article is the one we have to go and interview Dr. Zul, on Allergic Rhinitis. We tried to call him up, but no answers. We e-mailed him the questions already and ask to set an appoinment date. But he hasn't reply. I heard from my cousin is that Dr. Zul is always busy. So basically... chances of us getting the interview done by Monday is slim. Unless by some miracle he would be free tomorrow morning when the 3 of us are heading towards the UBD's library to finalise the other 2 articles.

Ok, i'll shut up now. Actually i'm in a bad mood. Firstly i WANTED TO GO TO THE BANK TO WITHDRAW MONEY. but then... they just had to close at 11.30pm. I totally forgot that they close early on Friday and only re-opens in the afternoon. But thats besides the point. I needed the money. I wanted to go to kadai blakang, i havent been there for over like 3 weeks? i'm dying to go there.... i was in Gadong, but i was pennyless. LITERALLY! if i did go to that big vcd shop with no money, i'll come out of the shop an angry moody grouch.

ARrgghh whatever.... i'm really not in the mood right now. I wanted to watch e-news, coz Energy is hosting today again. But no i can't.. dad took over the remote... *sigh* what a sucky day.... there is repeats but its at 11pm tonight! but thats late... i can't go to sleep at 1.30am, i've to wake up early tomorrow, need to go UBD. *sigh* i can't watch the 2nd repeats tomorrow either.. coz its at 11.30am. ARggHHHH f*c*n sHiT.

i'm probably gonna blabber on and on about how messed up i feel at the moment. even Hotmail is against me today.. *glares* i can't even open my fckn e-mail, SINCE YESTERDAY!! i swear its due to BRUNET!! if not.. then something must be wrong with the freaking server... aaargghhhh.......

I hate my life right now. A couch potato, lazing about all day at home. Watching tv all day? i'm getting sick of it. I NEED TO GET OUT!! No, not out of my house! BUT OUT OF BRUNEI!!! i'm sick of everything here.... there's NOTHING!!! The shops sux, big time.... can't stand it any longer.. i really need a life... if only uni starts soon.. i'll be soo glad... I wish i was in school.. at least i would have an aim in life... but no... i'm at home.... DRIVING MYSELF CRAZY!!

i don't get it.. whats wrong with me liking music that i don't understand? don't just simply think i would like an artist for their looks. Puh-lease.. MuSic comes first their looks are just bonuses to make you like them even more...

aah whatever> can't stand myself anymore..

i'm out...

mood: pissed off.
There's only one thing that can calm me down right now.

*prays this works*
does Taggy board works?
*prays it works*
aiyoh... html codes *faints*
dun wan to play anymore...
like the captured pics?
From E-news..

Mally- MWAAAAHHHZZ THANX FOR HELPING ME CAPTURE THE PICS.. :)
Colly- Thank you for the eclairs YUMMY!! and thank you for the html code ;) the birds egg.. y dun u simpan arah the shop yg next door.. hehehe biar hatch di sana..

what to post... aah.. *goes blank* nothing at the mo' maybe later.. gonna update Renfu's and Niunai's fics.. so dun forget to check. :)

I UPDATED RenFu's and NiuNai's soo Go Go gO =)

I love this song, by The Calling.

-:Unstoppable:-

Come and lay right on my bed, sit and drink some wine
I'll try not to make you cry
And if you get inside my head, then you'd understand
Then you'd understand me
Why i've felt so alone, why i kept myself from love
And you became my favourite drug
So let me take you right now and swallow you down,
...i need you inside

Chorus
If we had this night together
If we had a moment to ourselves
If we had this night together, we'd be unstoppable

Do you think that this is right, or is it really wrong
I know that this is what we've been wanting
And all this burning in my soul, it fills up to my throat
It fills up 'till my heart is breaking

Chorus

Now, we can both learn
Somehow, you'll see it's all we have
Love, it keeps us together
And i need love

When i wake up without you, knowing you're not there
I'm only feeling half as good
Well i'm gonna find a way
To wrap you in my arms, you make me feel alive

Chorus

Hellloooo~~~
Like my new layout?
COWWyyy BEAAAR - MWAAAAHZZZZ Thanx for the iFrame codes.. *smiles*

i'm feeling very hyper at the moment. I had a writing marathon last night.
I managed to type 5 chapters for NIunai's fic.. wo0o0o0.... Today i manged to type out 3 chapters... so in total 8 chapters... But i haven't post it up yet. I'm waiting till i finish typing till the end. =) All my fics are coming to its end except for Jay's hehehe and the collaboration fics.

I spent my day as usual lazing about. I'm seriously gaining weight >_< so bad. I eat, sleep, watch tv, go online. All that doesn't require much burning of food. I had to cut sweet food from my diet, waaaa~~~ to prevent me from gaining weight too much... I NEED EXERCISE!!! I want to go play badminton, but who to play with? Everyone is busy. Hmm... i should remember to txt Dee again about it.

Finally i got my fingers typing an e-mail to Dr. Zul for the IM's newsletter. I wasn't too sure about the questions to ask about Allergic Rhinitis, so i passed it to Crysteen to check. =)

Oh man, i almost forgot to blog about. FIGHT CLUB!!! I SWEAR its the FUNNIEST TV SHOW i've EVER WATCH after SHOWBIZ(wqyl) I was laughinig infront of the tv for 1hr 30 mins straight. People will think i've gone mad or something. It was funny!! Got to see Renfu in his boxers.. hahaha its nice blueish colour one. Then got Shaowei soo funny... he wanted to avoid the camera when he changed his pants, so he hid behind this wall, The funny thing was when he bended down to put on his pants, You can see his butt jutting out from the side. Of course he was wearing boxers also.. black colour orh... Wo0o0..... Renfu n Jason in Bunny costumes.. aahhh So0o KAWAIIIII. Then got one part in the show. Jason - wearing a short spaghetti strap dress, he had a blonde wig on. then Renfu - wear black skin-tight umm i dunno what its called. Shaowei- wears some gypsy style clothes, with long curly hair down his left ear... Tony- hahahha sexy NURSE orhh.. so very very KAWAIII.. he sit somemore like a girl... I can't stop laughing man... I can't wait till next Sunday.. aaaahhh.. so excited..

Hahaha... i'm getting so hIgH right now...
*listening to Energy*
*smiles*
*waves*
*nite nite*
mwaahzz

alllloooo~~~
I'm feeling kinda dizzy, took one panadol already.. so should feel better in 1 hr right? well i hope so. I don't exactly have anything to blog here. i can't exactly say the past few days were hectic. i can just say intense.

Thursday:

Morning~
Those who got the Scholarship to NZ flew. I went to send my cousin off and also Yati. Congrats to both of them for getting it =) She deserves it. Lucky her. It was kinda sad being at the airport Firstly not being the one being sent off. Second to be the one who's sending them off. Its difficult to part with someone you always see right? To do a course in Medicine, 6 years? 7 years? That's a long period of time. I'm sure they will come back, probably during the 2nd year? That's a long time, i will miss seeing my cousin during family functions and gatherings. Anyways, at the airport, when they were about to enter the departure hall, family members were all teary eyed, not wanting to part with their loved ones. I wanted to cry too when i hug my cousin. i can't help it.. i cry easily when i see other people cry... hehe.. :) Anyways, good luck to her in NewZealand. i heard they have to catch up 1 semester's work. o O good luck to them. May Allah bless them along the way.

Afternoon~
Me and Mai went to Crysteen's house to discuss the articles for the IM's newsletter. Dateline: 19th April. o O We were discussing what questions to ask Dr. Zul about Allergic Rhinitis. We managed to come up with ideas on how we wanted the article to be. We got 10 questions for him.. hehe... we tried to contact him, but nobody answered the phone. So i've to e-mail him the questions and remind either mai or crysteen to contact him about it. We have 3 articles to write, one is that one, Allergic Rhinitis, another one is on Exercise-for health or others? i'm suppose to look up for bizarre health facts.. but stuff i found are not bizarre enough so i'm doing an article on Aspartame - the sweetener that can be found in fizzy drinks. After we cleared out the business with articles, we chatted around, eat and drink. Heart to hearts... cheering each other up, giving each other support. Sometimes when you're alone at home, you tend to think of negative things... and no one is there to tell you to be positive.. but when you're with a friend, when u think negatively your friend will always be there to support you and give you words of encouragement. =)

Today: Friday?
Nothing much really today. Quite an unproductive day for me. i went out shopping, went to The Mall also. But didn't buy anything. How silly of me! >_< I saw some cute stuff that i like, like bracelets-very cute, nice ear rings also. i can't remember what else... oh right... there's a white skirt that i like.. it cost $79 my mom offered to buy for me but i said No. i don't know why.... i guess now... i tend to think about money... it sux to be broke... i'm pretty much broke right now... wanted to withdraw money... but didnt... if i did.. i knew i would spend it right away... i need to train myself to manage my spending.

I'm writing a new fic on my pc only, i don't intend to post it at winglin. i doubt anyone will read coz its on Shuwei haha.. =P i've only started it. if i did decide to post it, i think it would be after i completed at least 3 of my fics... >_< i'm dead beat... hahaha... i think i have about 6 fics? 4 of my own 2 co-written ones. hehe...

Shuwei Shuwei Shuwei Shuwei
so kaaawaaaaiiii
today he wore blue...
so kawaaiiiiiii

*hugs bloggy*
I guess you're the only one i can talk to right now.
bloggy: what's wrong?
I try hard to convince myself.... but it seems like no matter how hard i convince, it still chases after me.
bloggy: same problem again huh?
Uhuh...
bloggy: cheer up... look ahead... its just a tough time. With no school and no part time job, you tend to think about it too much.
Everytime i cheer up and convince myself that its for the best. It only lasts for a while. Sooner or later it'll haunt me back down again.
bloggy: You should never give up, no matter how it haunts you. One day it'll get sick of chasing after you. Then when you have won over it. You will agree with me that its worth the try.
Uhuh... i will try.... bloggy....
bloggy: yeah?
You know i'm the happiest after i cry?
bloggy:Crying is good. Its a sign that you have reached your tolerance limit towards something.
Uhuh, thanx for talking to me bloggy. I love you.
bloggy: love you too. Night night. Sweet dreams.
Night bloggy. *hugs*