A dream world fill with laughter,
A reality with a heart filled with pain,
To live in a dream where reality cannot speak,
Or to live in reality where our hearts cry in pain.
Decisions to be made,
To dream or to live?
Out of the dreams, the reality speaks,
Living in a dream won’t get you anywhere,
Come back to reality and learn…
How your heart can learn to mend.

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ok that was crap. Anyways, actually there's a lot of things i want to post, but, i don't know, i kinda lost the mood already.
one thing for sure I WANT THAT SUPER CUTE GUY TO BE MY AEROBICS INSTRUCTOR. He was very nice when i talk to him.
Too bad, i can't join the aerobics fitness zone membership thing. Coz i'm not sure whethere i will be in Brunei or not, depending on the scholarship.
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i am so dead bored...
i need entertainment...
not excited for 2004 either...
1st week of January- dreaded interview
February - University starts for those going to germany, Australia or New Zealand.
March - i'll be freakin 19, and i still won't be allow to take driver's licence. aargh
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anyway.. i just wanna cheer myself up...
listening to David Tao's song... (i dunno which one, it has i love you words in it) is only making me feel sadder. i guess it suits my mood.
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Let’s see if I can blog less crap.

Yesterday, yesterday night’s function. So tired, I got back home like almost midnight, and boy my stomach sure Was rumbling, the food at the function wasn’t nice, it used to be, but not anymore. Had to sit properly and mind
My manners.. la la la for almost 5 hours. There was like lucky draw stuff, soo many prizes mostly household items,Not that I need any of them, I didn’t even get a single prize… ok, maybe I do sound like a brat for complaining,
After all it is a lucky draw, depends on luck. Anyways, that whole night kinda spoil my mood, my cousins, lil bro n sis Were having a BBQ at my aunts =/

Lemme blog about yesterday, haiiz…. Very embarrass already, I think practically most of the vcd store in my district Knows me. All the people working at the cd store will smile at me when I come in…. *I want to hide in the closet lerr* Then at one shop.. so malu laah.. I was buying Chinese cd’s mostly, then the salesgirl ask me if I like Chinese music,I’m like yeah I do. The Chinese guy at the counter smiled. I knew he recognize me… some more.. I bought like Dvd cartoon ‘The little Polar Bear” some more he smile smile… haiiz.. some more my bro tease me about buying Cartoons.. since I’m like 18.. can’t help it… the cartoon soo cute…

Nope, no U love in Brunei, the stores didn’t even know it exist -_-“ haiiz… but luckily can pre-order at yesasia.. Lol.. my mom not too happy about it tho, she says I spend a lot of money on cd’s already. Can’t really blame her,
Coz I did spend almost $300 on cd’s when I went to kk.

Anyways, did I succeed on blogging less crap?
Bloggy: mfmfmfmmf yeah… less crap.. but still got crap…

Allo bloggy... mwaahz... miss me?
no? *nisa poUts*
bloggy: ok laa ok laa.. miss you...
nisa: Yaayy..
bloggy: so anything interesting to tell me?
nisa: yeah... internet connection was so freakin slow yesterday, and oh yeah created a new babysHuwEi on neopets... haha havent been on neopets for quite some time now.
bloggy: oO really... hahaha... why didnt create babyBlOgGy? *bloggy pouts*
nisa: uh aah...
bloggy: hmmfff...
Nisa*hugs bloggY*: ok laa. dun be angry mwaahzzz...
bloggy is happy again =)

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Got nothing interesting really, yeah had bad mood, first i went to the cd
store, yeah they don't have anything that i want...
well except for that hoobastank cd, but still i want Universal Love album.
heh, wonder if it ever comes here *sigh*
i'm gonna update /n527 later, 2 chappies hopefully before i go out at night,
got hari Raya function to attend while my cuzzies are off for a bbq.
Jay's story, waah havent updated that for a long time... i think i will only update after i finish Toro's story. Depends on my mood.

okeh bloggy i'm gonna go now: but before that,

i swear by the moon and the stars in the sky,
i swear like the shadow by ur side,

i see the questions in your eyes,
i know whats wieghing on your mind,
you can be sure i know my part,
coz i, stand besides you through the years,
you'll only cry those happy tears,
and though i make mistake i'll never break your heart.

i continue later laa.... xxx

i'm posting uh nothing...
hahaha.
coz got nothing to say..
i just wanna post something.
so can publish the new/old layout..
haha.. maybe post something more meaningful than this..
so laters..
xxx

Hello bloggy, I’ve been too lazy to post anything ehheheh. But I’m back. What can I say? Hmmm KK trip rocks!! Only wish I could stay longer, seriously 3 days wasn’t enough. I wanted to go snorkeling and I wanted the floral bath man. Too bad not enough time. Hmm I met a shuwei look-alike… hahaha… my wish at the wishing well actually came true. Not that I believe, its just coincidence. Quite cute laah… I wonder if he still will be working at parkson next yr if I go to kk again. Heheh.

I felt sad just now, I was reading about K one’s autograph thinge. I feel they’re very kasian, when I read the msg someone posted. I wanted to cry. I do admit I dislike K one with a passion in the beginning because their appearance resembles EG. When I listen to their music, I changed my mind. It’s not really like EG. The songs are actually quite nice, love ¾ of the tracks. I’m sure they work hard to make the album. So JIA YOU to them.

Ok, I wanted to post up what my desktop look like, but can’t be bothered to upload it on Angelfire. Heheh.

I just wanna put up my list again.

CD’s & VCD’s updates:

1. Energy come on (waah finally found the 1st album =)
2. K One’s 1st Album (didn’t mean to buy, got curious lerr, but when I listen the songs are nice ler)
3. MACHI (yeaaah its out its out wo0o0.. got vcd also )
4. JTL 1st album (haaizz.. dun have the song I like… must be in the 2nd album -_-“”)
5. Arashi 1st album (I very slow only found the cd this yr)
6. Britney Spears (In the zone, cool cd)
7. JJ Lin Jun Jie CD (Yeaaaah finally got the original one =p)
8. 1st love in my life VCD (Korean movie.. err.. haven’t watch yet hehehe)
9. Vanness’s movie –Star Runner vcd!!! (I wanna watch… still queing coz I’m currently watching anuther story)
10. Astro talent Quest 2003 vcd (yeah I bought it… I like the voice of the winner…. Plus got Tension performing She’s having my baby, love that song man)
11. All in (Korean tv series, the story rocks, I’m only up to the 7th vcd 23 more to go)

What else.. hmm… cannot remember. I think that’s all… very broke now waaaa~~ no more $$$ =/

~*ShUwEi My K|nG*~

hey everyone,

Just dropping a message, yeah i'm going on hols today, but only for 3 days.. =) so i'll be back on friday, i will be online on friday night if i'm not tired that is. hehe... I'm Going to KK Sabah. YEAH.. VCD/CD Hunting!!! weeeee......

Oh, i updated one more chappie on Energy's fic.. =) drop me a comment k..

elene: i know, it sux no USA, its not foreign exchange, its government scholarship =)
xxx

My head hurts...
my head hurts....
my head hurts...
headache.....
so STRESSED OUT >_<
who would've thought filling in forms would be difficult.....
my head hurts....
i have to hand in my form tomorrow...
but i cant find the second choice course that i want to do..
i am TORN...
i was thinking of putting Computer science & communications Engineering as my second choice...... but...... on the scholarship list, it just says computer aided engineering..
so are they the same????
*sigh*
how to choose a course?given only 3 choice of country..
New Zeland - Medicine
Australia - sports science
Germany - according to list...
ArrrggHHHhhhhhhhhh
my head hurts......
xxx

i think i'm so sad leh...
i'm like watching Sky Of Love.....
but i don't understand a sentence they were saying....
can only see Ken's shuai face.... *sigh*
i updated /n527 already...

ooh i wanted to say..
my bro got a new kitten...
i named it weiwei..
hehehehe.....

xxx

i have absolutely no mood.
*sigh*
got no feeling also...
cannot find negative for my passport photo..
i dont want to go take picture again...
aaargghh...
no mood
no mood
no mood.... x 100..
got idea to update chappie...
but my mind dont want to work..
on strike already..
maybe later.
xxx

ello bloggy.

Just felt like posting, got myself a new layout.. well not really new... i just change the picture on top... This time layout featuring Fly To The Sky, my fav. Korean duo. Kinda got addicted to them when i first chat wif fanny... haha.. i was so blur i didnt even know... he didnt tell me he was from fly to the sky, he just told me he was a performer and a model. so i just ask him for his pic... he send me.. i was like ooh quite shuai.. then i left the netzone n went around to bookshop to look for magazines. To my suprise, i saw someone familiar on the cover of the magazine. Him, fanny.. haha.. then i knew he was in fly to the sky. So dlwd one song, very very nice.. then bought the album.. EXTREMELY go0d... i rate 10/10.

Anyways, thats just about them.

I went out for lunch today with my family. I've got one question in my head. How does one expect to concentrate on eating lunch when there's a very shuai guy on the next table infront of you. Seriously so shuai man, he has niunai's hair then somemore he look like ahdi. How to concentrate on lunch? is it even possible?? He's single.. o0ps.... he was there with another girl, but they're not a couple.... haha... they talk to so loud can hear some of the things they were talking about. Mos of the time its the girl talking, the guy just say a few words. so0o much like ahdi.. quiet quiet, not talk a lot...

Anyway, the first thing i see in a guy would be HIS HAIR. hahaha.... i think i will fall for almost any guys with nice hair... nice as in got style n stuff... hehe...

i better stop talking..... i think i say a lot of things about guys in this post. Need to post something more umm.. productive? hahaha...

Nite nite
*sHuWei mY k|nG*

My Vision of you remains the same,
No matter what people say,
No matter what is portrayed ,
the truth, the lies, the reality of fame,
i would close my eyes,
and wish it would vanish in space.

In my mind,
Perfect is the word to describe you,
in my heart,
love is the word that exist for you.

All i'm asking from you is this,
Don't show me things that i don't want to see,
Don't tell me things that i don't want to hear,
Let me stay in this world of darkness,
where my vision of you have always been perfection.

bloggggyyy....
*runs and hugs bloggy*

hehe... i havent blog for quite some time now, can't get my ass to sit down and type. First and foremost. i'm working on 2 new fics, one is Jay's fic and one is the Cursed Samurais, collaboration with weiwen & chingz =) I'm still working on Toro's fic and also Energy's fic.. so0 many to update lol..

Anyways, to elene: i know i'm suppose to post on what RAVE is about, the vcd box not with me, my cousin borrowed it. i'm bad at describing. i'll try post it as soon as possible k.

=)
xxx
sHuWei mY k|nG