Candles - Hey Monday
Design :
chinhwee
Coding :
Slippedaway
Brushes and font from :
Juvenile Casualty
Sunday, August 02, 2009
Hey blog, sorry if i need to keep posting all the upsetting things that i have now. I seriously don't know who i'm suppose to share this with. I know i have someone who is concern about me, but i don't think they're able to help what i'm facing now. Maybe it's too personal or too difficult to find a solution to it. Seriously, i'm at the brink of frustration. Nah, i think i'm already frustrated the way it is. Always telling me the twisted side of story. I don't know whether i'm suppose to be angry, sad or happy about all this things that had happened. Do you really care about me? Do you only want to gain advantage to yourself? Do you want people to always pity you? What do you gain from doing this? I need answers to all this riddles and questions before it's too late. Or, it is already too late to find those. I don't think there's turning back. We must face it do we.I guess it's true that the person who are really close to you will get affected very badly. Sigh, and here i got affected while my final exams drawing close, with the piling work for PW. In addition my cca takes a lot of time. Should i really quit canoeing? I wonder, should i spend more time with you? try to figure how to settle this thing? I don't know.. I really don't know. I'm desperate to find the answers.
6:50 PM
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Hey blog, sorry for leaving you so dead. It has been a while since i last blogged. I really wonder why i did not blog this long. I guess, i'm just lazy or dont have time to even blog about myself.
Anyway, Reason for me blogging now is that, i don't know who i'm suppose to speak now to tell the trouble i'm facing now. Everything seems clear to me after i heard from the person. I was dumbstruck to realise that i just have been listening to one-sided story and not the real one. I'm sorry for all the bad thing that i thought of you. I just don't get it why you tell me all this kind of thing now. Am I not matured enough last time. I thought wrongly of you all this while.. WHY?WHY?WHY? Ever since all this one-sided story came into my life, i thought badly of you. Before this, i really respect you. Now, you're going far away from me. My heart sank when i heard this. Tell me what i'm suppose to do. Now i know that you always have us in mind. You dont want us to be affected by this. Why you always played the bad one. Seriously, i'm baffled. I'm awfully guilty for what i did to you recently. I feel like crying now, but no shoulder to lean on. Why it must be this way. Why can't you tell me abt this sooner so that i can help out. I feel like i'm useless. Every word that comes out from your mouth is agonising. My mind is in a whirl. I don't know how to salvage this anymore. WHY! HOW! WHAT i'm suppose to do now? WHEN is this going to stop or settled? I'm sorry...
11:43 PM
