Thursday, November 11, 2004

hmm.....its been a long time since i last updated my blog....hmm...

hmm...heard about Arafat's death this afternoon...a bit taken aback...well...a leader like him who's been fighting for 35 yrs for the Palestinians....a very long period in fact...way before i was born...all this for the sake of his people, gaining back the people's territories....fighting even when he was sick...now dat he's gone...cant replace a leader like him...someone so determined, full of drive ...but sad he couldnt achieve his mission before he passed away....hopefully the next leader will continue the "battle"...now the people are praying...some fainted upon hearing his death....may Allah blessed his soul...

that the Palestinians are now suffering...pity those small kids...no education...not enough food...crying and grieving the loss of their loved ones...juz cant stand the sight of little children crying before their mothers' corpse....no pardon to the Israel soldiers...keep bombing ...n killing the innocents....in war ur juz supposed to kill the soldiers...not women or the children...the peace that the people hoped for...same goes to the Iraqis...till now they are still suffering...24/7 their living in fear..doubts for their future..hmm....hari raya is juz around the corner...dey juz cant celebrate the way we are...no new clothes...delicious foods...how lucky iam...

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Bergegar telefon bimbitku. Jam di dinding menunjukkan pukul 12.33 malam. Entah mengapa malam ini susah untukku melelapkan mata. Keesokan harinya aku akan kerja. Tapi mata inin tidak mahu tidur juga. Ku picit butang telefon untuk melihat siapakah pengirimnya. Nama pengirimnya tertera di depan mataku. Ku amati nama pengirimnya. berderup darahku. hatiku berhenti sebentar. aku apabila nama itu seseorang dari aku kenal. Sudah lama tidak menghubunginya. Tiba-tiba segala peristiwa mengenainya mula bermain di fikiran aku. saat-saat aku mengenalinya. terbayang wajahnya di hadapanku. kata-katanya. aku berhenti bernafas sebentar. ku gagahi untuk membaca mesej yg dihantar.
"Hai. Ini makcik. Masih kenal tak?". Ku terhenti sebentar. Apa yg aku harus katakan. Patutkah aku menjawabnya atau aku harus membiarkannya. Arggh...mengapa begini sukar untuk membuat keputusan. Peristiwa semalam sudah cukup untuk aku menghindari dirinya. Tiba -tiba ia muncul. Mengapa harus begini. Ku sudah cukup untuk melupakannya tetapi ia hadir lagi. Tidakkah ia mengerti tentang hati ini. Tetapi jari -jemari menguasai fikiran aku. Dengan lantas, jar jemari aku sudah memicit butang2 huruf.
"Hai. Cik belum tidur lagi". Aku menghela nafasku selepas habit ayat itu. Dan ku picit butang "hantar". Tanganku bergetar. Tidak lama kemudian, telefon bimbit bergegar lagi.
"Cik belum tidur lagi. Ana tengah buat ape?".
Walaupun soalan mudah, tetapi susah untukku menjawab. Apa yg aku katakan. Berpura-pura atau mengatakan yg sebenar.
"Ana tengah duduk2. Cik dah tak kerja lagi?"
Begitu jawapanku ringkas tapi padat.
"Cik dah tak kerja lagi"
"Ohh...". Begitu jawapan aku."
"Ana dah ada boifren belum". Berderup darah. Jantungku berhenti . Arghh...sudah ku agak pasti ini akan berlaku. Sesuatu yg aku duga. Tetapi masih bergetar hati apabila diajukan soalan begini. Apa yg harus kau katakan. Mengapa aku harus diburu sebegini. Aku jadi buntu. Keliru dengan keadaan. Aku bayangkan dirilku seperti dihadapan hakim. Diajukan soalan tak dapat aku jawab. Arghh...Tiba-tiba, telefon aku bergegar lagi. Tidak sempat untuk aku menjawab atau aku telah mengambil masa yg agak menjawab pertanyaan.
"Mengapa tak jawab soalan makcik tadi?" Terpaksa aku menjawabnya

hehehhe....so long nvr upload mi blog...hmm....mi fren suggest i shld...hahaha...but i dun tink so...okok...hahaha...but envy all mi blog friends whu've updated n have long lists of their blog...hahaha

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Brothers

Doa Perpisahan

Pertemuan Kita Di Suatu Hari
Menitiskan Ukhwah Yang Sejati
Bersyukurku Ke Hadrat Ilahi Di Atas Jalinan Yang Suci

Namun Kini Perpisahan Yang Terjadi
Dugaan Yang Menimpa Diri
Bersabarlah Di Atas Suratan
Ku Tetap Pergi Jua

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah Hamba Mu

Mencari Hidayah Daripada Mu
Dalam Mendidikkan Kesabaranku
Ya Allah Tabahkan Hati Hamba Mu
Di Atas Perpisahan Ini

"Teman Betapa Pilunya Hati Menghadapi Perpisahan Ini.
Pahit Manis Perjuangan Telah Kita Rasa Bersama. Semoga
Allah Meredhai Persahabatan Dan Perpisahan Ini. Teruskan
Perjuangan"

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah HambaMu

Senyuman Yang Tersirat Di Bibirmu
Menjadi Ingatan Setiap Waktu
Tanda Kemesraan Bersimpul Padu
Kenangku Di Dalam Doamu

Semoga Tuhan Berkatimu

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Damba Kasih
Inteam

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Semakin jauh ku dari-Mu
Semakin dekat pula Kau menghampiri daku
Oh, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih
Siapalah diriku di pandangan-Mu

Semakin cuba ku dekati
Semakin kuat pula Kau mendugai aku
Oh, Tuhan Yang Maha Sempurna
Kerdilnya diriku di hadapan-Mu

Bagaimanakah nantinya tika berhadapan dengan-Mu
Sudikah Kau menerima hamba-Mu yang hina ini
Ya Allah Kau Maha Pengampun

Di bayangan mentari aku kealpaan
Dusta dunia penuh kepura-puraan
Di kala dini hari aku kepasrahan
Mendamba jernih embun kasih sayang-Mu Oh Tuhan

Andainya dihitung amalanku
Belum pasti dapat ku hampiri gerbang syurga-Mu
Oh Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah
Hindari diriku dari siksa-Mu… Oh Tuhan

Kasih sayang-Mu Tuhan
Itu yang ku dambakan
Dengan rahmat-Mu ampunilah diriku..

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sampaikan kan pada ku...
apakah terpahat di dlm hatimu..
apakah sudah suratan takdir
mentari takkan bersinar lagi..
langit sudah tidak secerah semalam
sungai tidak lagi mengalirkan air...
burung berhenti berkicauan......
yakinkan padaku..........
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well..'bt bahas yest...its finally over...but one tink i dat i realli miss is werk...i dunno y...i tink i miss d scenery...d inspiration dat i get frm there...cz its been mi dream to werk in tis type of company...to get in to one of the tall buildingsin the CBD area....finally its like a dream come true....its d feeling as if im juz like one of the full- time employees there...pursuing ur career...hmmm....and especially werking wit an american based company...the bez is dat pple here are open-minded...hmm..but at the same time use a lot of the **** words lah...hahhah...kk.....d fun is there..so dat's y not going for a dae...esp during the weekends..... is like feeling i miss something soo much...*ahem*...hhehehhe

but nxt mon gonna start werk again...n dat AMERICAN guy...is joining us...wazzup man............................

hmmmm....so long i nvr update mi blog....hmmm....
but today's post will be special to me cz usually i create mi post at werk...well...cz at werk there's juz so much inspiration...yeah...d sea...i mean d misty sea....so today no werk...i had to update it at home....hmmm...a bit no inspiration to write but juz write ah...hahhahah

ok....well...yesterday was bahas ...fuuh...finally its over...well...hmmm...how do i say it...i realli wan to get over n done with...but on d other side i felt i realli miss it n wan do it again and again...

ok...back to d bahas yest...hahaha...i was in d team...can't believe it...hahaha..d 3rd speaker.....nerves was all over me...d feeling was like taking an exam...a bit unprepared...hahah...but quite confident to go on...to win hopefully but the most important tink is not to shame ourselves infront of the audience and the judges especially...not to repeat the history ...[like wat happened in pesta pantun]...

hmmm...it went well...but hahaha...me n mi blur..blur state..dunno wat dey toking about...hahaha...dats y i din "celah" much although we had d chance though....n wat mi 2nd speaker told me during the debate ...dat i could be siding wit them....oh mi wat is Bariah doin in debate man...hahaha...n another tink i was juz too dumbstrucked by their statement dat i dun even noe what to re-but back....hahahha..u noe y....cz i seemed to be agreeing most of the things dat dey say...so dats notink to be not to agree with...so no need to re-but...oh mi...oh...mi....wat am i doin...wen u shld actually try all d very bez to side with ur stand...eventhough wit their...in another be a hypocrite for a dae...hahahha...

wOnder iAm doin during the debate man.....arghh!!!!!

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Aiyoyo..

u juz can't believe it....
she's juz shrieking on d phone....can her yelling and laughing her heads off....*erk...i tink pple here r weird....wen they tok to each other n d on d phone dey tok real loud....u can even hear watever dey sae lor....funni company huh!!...well but tis french accentlady is special...cz she is realli very loud....n gets realli excited....but d one tink bez about her is dat her accent is nice...

haha..n another one tis phillipino guy....he tok like he tok to d hol office....he walk one round the office..but speaking to one person....i guess tis is d way dey get their stressed out...n pple here dn care man....u can do wat u want...can on d speaker wen u tok on d phone...n dey juz dun bother u...u can be screaming n no one would scold u...aiyoh...haf nvr seen tis kind of company....so if d office is quiet...den sometink is wrong...

Stanley MI INSPIRATION!!!!

~kegagalan yg ditempuh menjadi penguat semangatku~

hai...pagi2 ni dah tkde mood....

hmmm....

yap..i love d scenery....its so nice....menenangkan hati yg gundah gulana....menceriakan pagi sesorang....mehilangkan stress pada kerja....

hmmm....

hembusan angin sunnguh nyaman sekali...
ketenangan menyelubungi diriku
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tangisan....
airmata...
pagi sepatutnya penuh dgn keceriaan
jgn musnahkan pagi ini!!!
cerialah....
bangkitlah......

mengapa..........
mengapa......
mengapa...

aku tak tahu.................................................

aku dah musnahkan harapan smua...........................

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

such an nice environment....
16th floor...overlooking d sea....(hmm...but today the view seems misty so i called t a misty sea)
here..pple juz came from all part of the world(or so i tot)...from a diverse culture...n all sorts of behaviour...
well....i felt like im touring around the world...
u can hear..frm one corner...pple speaking french...yeah dat lady...whom i juz found out her name today...n she's actually mi RO's boss!!..n she's sitting across me..(btw..she laughed realli loud...i mean it...u could her laughter even from the thick glass door...n sometimes it can be scary cz without warning she can juz burst into laughter....lucky its not nite time...if not i'll be running away...hehehhe

n...another corner u could pple speaking tagalog...arghhh....k dats mi RO....speaking wit his phillipines frens...actually its gd huh...speaking d language that ur other colleaguse dun understand....u can gossip(issh...mengumpat...dosa...)...
n....another corner someone speaking korean language(i guess)...wit the heavily accent..
but one tink is common...wen all of 'em speaks eng....whoah...its like im in a USA..(well...its an american based company anw...)

hmm...despite all those i tink its fun...cz everdae in school i heard the same kind of pple speaking...so boring...

well...no inspiration to type more...ltr after lunch if i got d mood i write...so cya!

apa dah...nari pon takda keje nak buat....haiz....
so hari ni satu hari slacking abes....
hmm....
kalu bleh klua kan bez....
tak ler boring sesangat...

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

hai bariah...kena marah dgn boss...pass tu nak jiwang....tak gerek seh.....