The joys and thrills


It's going to be a quick one, I need to be in hospital in 10 mins.


WESSEX!!!


Altar server (it was a joy, besides shaking fingers and feet and nearly tripping over robes and making a mistake and just not knowing what to do)


Joyce's with me in portsmouth, and we're cooking for Amy this week. Amy was O.O at the sheer amount of food we were bringing over, but to be honest, I think it's not enough (but I hope it is).


Surgery is tiring, but amazing. I've got a scary, but oh-my-gosh she has AMAZING SKILLS she is damn good surgeon as my consultant. And that I'm on upper GI is good, because I had never done upper GI before.


Going home in 5 days!!!! 


5 DAYS!!!

A new month


2 weeks till Christmas! I just finished paeds and I came back earlier than ever. I hope I didn't leave anything in Basingstoke. 


The temperature is dropping steadily now. It's been <2 degrees in the morning for the past week. But I still haven't been wearing my winter jacket yet. I don't-


*2.34pm


We just walked to portswood to buy kfc for lunch. We got a family feast- 6 pieces of chicken, 4 fries, 2 large sides, and 1 bottle of pepsi. And we walked home and gorged on it. It was barbaric. The sinful lunch was followed by an equally sinful dessert- Haagen Diaz cookie crunch. There's a drumstick (mine), a couple of strands of fries, and half a coleslaw left that couldnt fit in anywhere.


(Joyce is trying to distract me by showing me pictures of stuff- not really showing me pictures but just whipping it across her i[hone screen even faster than my eyes can follow so I decided not to).


And Joyce says, "Don't blog, you can blog later when I'm sleeping".


*3.28pm


And I'm still here typing, after Joyce hijacked my laptop to watch the Bones episode I downloaded for her. And Joyce's eyes are closed so I think she's sleeping, which means that I'm supposed to blog now.


We're having porridge and tombak and ikan bilis and whatever left's of lunch for dinner. 


I'm so overloaded with meat that I shall abstain for... probably a meal (I don't think I can stand going without meat for longer haha).


I got my flu jab last tuesday. My arm hurt on tuesday itself, and on wednesday, it swelled up until Amy said it was 'damn bad shape'. The swelling is still there today, but the redness had gone done. 


*6.21pm


We just got back from West Quay and without iPhone for Delia because it was out of stock. Woe. And we had a look around at phone covers but ended back with empty hands.


*6.32pm


And we were downstairs, fiddling with Alex's blender-


*8.23pm


-and so we went upstairs to watch an episode of bones, in which Amy peeked into our room halfway- love her- and then went downstairs to have dinner (change of plans, Joyce had the leftover of lunch with her milkshake and I had fish and chips- glorious, glorious fish and chips) with my all time favourite tetley tea. 


That's our day, in all bits and pieces. But it's great to be back. It's great that everyone is back.

Akathisia


Ok, so I've been craving for meat over the past three days (actually it started earlier than that but that was for siu yuk and now it's all types of meat). 


I actually feel so meat-deprived now that I can't concentrate on paeds, and because of that I sort of hate my oxford clinical handbook of paeds- I want my sunflower book now- or anything else at the moment. It's that time of the month. Woe. I need to get over it fast, so yeah. Move along, chop chop, we haven't got all month. 


It became so bad until each time I spoke to Joyce, it ended up with the topic meat and nandos and siu yuk and that Joyce is on the way to Liverpool now and daddy and mummy are probably enjoying themselves right now makes things even worse. And not being able to get to the city because of ridiculous bus times which I cannot remember- partly due to the insane craving- also doesnt make things better. Or do the fact that our kitchen lack a baking tray and non stick pan and salt and butter and everything needed to cook meat.


I feel like I can eat a whole chicken, or a lamb leg, or a cow now. Omg that sounds barbaric. 

5x12+1


I was watching one of Arashi's previous concerts, and I just happened to skim through the video until Nino's speech and these words came from him.


"Despite everything, we are doing our best, so make sure that you do your best too."


And then they sang "Be with you".


I love Arashi.

Joyce says, "Tonight will flood".

Happy 12th first single/debut anniversary Arashi!!!! (ok, I think the sentence don't really make sense, but I'm too lazy to juggle to words around).

And I shall translate an Arashi song (because I feel like it and I mentioned something about it in my previous post and I really don't have anything else to blog about and I SAW THE ARCHIVE AND I ONLY HAVE 33 POSTS THIS YEAR AND IT'S ALREADY NOVEMBER- IT'S A CALAMITY!!!)

Always

by Arashi

Kitto meguri au tame ni

Surely, so that we are able to meet again

Doredake kimi to aruitan darou　Kawatteku keshiki no naka

Just how long did I walk with you, within this ever-changing scenery

Iro wo kasanete yuku tabi ni　Sekai wa kagayaki wo shiru

When colours overlap, the world learns about brilliance

Kitto jidai ga kawattemo　Kisetsu wa meguri kuru darou　

Time will surely change, seasons will pass and come again

Irotoridori no yume wo kakaete

while we hold onto our multi-coloured dreams

Deai to wakare no naka de　Ikiteiku imi wo　

Within our meetings and departures is where we find

Bokutachi wa sagasu no darou

the meaning of us living

Kimi no te ni　Fureru toki　Kanjiteiru

When I touch your hand, I can feel 

Nukumori wa　Itami sae　Tsutsumi konda

Your warmth being enveloped by pain

Kimi to boku wa koko de deau tame ni kitto umaretekita

We are born so that you and I are able to meet here

Namida koboresou na toki wa itsudemo boku ga uketomeru

And can always face times where tears seem like they would overflow
Hoshi no matataki mo　Kaze no sasayaki mo
With the twinkling of the stars, the whisper of the wind

Kimi wo kanjiteru tomo ni ikiteyuku　My heart

You are living while feeling them


Itsukara darou　Kowakunakatta omoi wa kawaranai mama

Since when did the feelings I'm not afraid of become unchangeable
Toki ga nagarete yuku tabi ni　Tsuyoi kizuna musubareru

When time flows, we are held together by strong bonds


Hanaretemo　Itsumademo　Kanjiteru

Even if we are apart, always, I can feel you
Boku no koe　Yawaraka na　Kaze ni nosete

And my voice will be carried to you by the gentle wind


Kimi to boku wa onaji hoshi no ue de zutto kiseki wo miru

You and I are always seeing miracles on top of the same star
Tatoe chiisakutemo tashika na mono wo boku wa shinjiteru

Even if they are small, I will believe in the things I'm sure of 
Kimi ga kanashimi ni　Somaranai you ni

When you are dyed in sadness
Boku wa itsudemo soba ni iru yo　My heart

I am always by your side

Kimi to boku wa koko de deau tame ni kitto umaretekita

We were born so that you and I are able to meet here

Namida koboresou na toki wa itsudemo boku ga uketomeru

And can always face times where tears seemed like they would fall
Hoshi no matataki mo　Kaze no sasayaki mo
With the twinkling of the stars, the whisper of the wind

Kimi wo kanjiteru tomo ni ikiteyuku　My heart

You are living while feeling them

Colder

Wow, it's been nearly a month since I blogged. So just a recollection of what happened (for myself) of what had happened until now. Here's a list (because I like lists):

1. Completed the first attachment- no more medicine until Finals. Scary.

2. Must, must, must, MUST sign up for on-examination. I will sign up after this. Immediately.

3. Had a great day in London.

4. Started Frimley. I love everyone there. But the internet is a pain.

5. Obs was incredibly interesting. But I can't see myself doing that for a career.

6. Handed in my mtas application (still has mixed feelings about it)

So here I am. I completed my mtas answers after re-reading it over and over again, but I still felt I had not done enough- when I compared myself to other people. Sigh.

A big, big THANK YOU to those who helped me with my mtas. I could never have done it without all of you.

The weather had been crazy. One moment, it was too hot to be able to even live, and the next moment it was freezing cold. It's crazy. Just crazy.

We had TGIF last night. We had all three starters, mains, and dessert. The starters were amazing, and the burger was enormous and so juicy and FULL OF MEAT YES I LOVE MEAT HAHAHAHA. I ordered the mocha mud cake as a dessert, and I don't know if we dragged the meal on too long, or there was some complications somewhere in the kitchen, but our waitress- Emily- came over to our table to tell us that there were no more mud cake, and we can have any of the dessert in the menu to replace it.

Of course we picked the most expensive dessert- cookies and cream sundae or something like that- which was a mountain of cookies and cream ice cream folded with toffee and chocolate and underneath a mountain of whipped cream. It was insanely good and insanely sinful and heck, it cost even more than my main meal. It was awesome.

I finally did my obs on call, and I am astounded at how I managed to get through third year with what little I saw and knew. I can actually palpate the baby in the tummy now- I can actually feel the head. I can actually understand a CTG. I still don't know what I was doing in third year. Slacking and dreaming and feeling lazy I guess. Anyway, manual removal of the placenta, emergency c-section, normal vaginal delivery, PPH, breech deliveries, fetal blood sampling, reading the CTG, assisting in the c-section all in 2 days- I'm really glad to be doing obs in frimley. I'm really glad that I have an awesome lead cons. I'm glad for all the amazing regs and midwives and nurses and students.

There is nothing more amazing in the world than a normal vaginal delivery. No one can understand how amazing it is until they saw one- or been through one. Plus, hearing 'Angel' in the operating theatre whether for elective or emergency c-section makes me want to cry all the time. And many times the mum cried as well.

Mo texted me saying that the cons secretary was looking for me and wanted me to call back. Oops. I'll call her back on Monday. I hope it's nothing urgent.

I still have lots of arashi songs I want to translate and share, but I can never find the time to do anything else. I haven't watched arashi in ages. All my time seemed to be filled up in the hospital, or cramming and cramming about obs and gynae and about what I lacked severely in third year.

The prettiest word in Japanese is 'kiseki' which means miracle. I love that word. Maybe it has to do with the line from the song arashi sang 'always' when I heard it on the way back to southampton.

Kimi to boku wa onaji hoshi no ue de zutto kiseki wo miru

You and I are always seeing miracles on top of the same star

I love arashi's new album. I don't get people who don't like it. The whole album just screams 'miracle', 'hope', and 'beautiful world'. Listen to it from the point of view of a victim in the earthquake/tsunami (which I know that the whole album is dedicated to) and you will understand what I mean.

I know that Sho came first and Nino came second in the last Mannequin 5. Jun was last, which I thought was strange because I liked Jun's one the most, and I thought he would definitely win. Nino's one didn't stand out at all. Or maybe it's because I was seeing it online. I didn't get to vote because there were problems with the internet then, but if I did, I would have most probably voted for what appeared to be Ohno's (again, I voted for him the last time too). I should stop thinking that I know Nino's fashion sense because seriously, isn't it obvious now that I don't?

I've written an essay here. I think I should stop. I want to put a picture here, but I realized I don't have one. Waiting for Joyce to come back from lecture and then probably watching bones for the next few hours.

Why can't this stupid thing show up in verdana? Blogger, can't you imagine how hard is it to get used to Font after 5 years using verdana? Stupid blogger.


Oh, I've upgraded it, and yes it's back to verdana!

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

Happy 12th birthday Arashi!

It's Arashi's 12th birthday today! I wish I could put a picture of them here, but I can't, and I think may of you know why

Let's go retrospectively.

1. I was looking at the archives and I found that I had the least number of posts this year. I wonder why.

2. House got broken into. Laptop gone. Oh woe.

3. Final year started for real. I started having second thoughts about many, many things. There were many episodes which send me up and way, way down. I still can't bear to face some people

4. Amy moved into our room! Haha. I know how it feels like intruding on other people, so I can understand how she feels about everything so I tried to make her feel welcome. Maybe I overdid it a bit.

5. It's scary how much I don't know, but it's scarier how much I think or hope I know.

6. One mini-cex done (I found out today that I got the really scary one. And the next thing I found out today was that my next cex consultant has never done one on a student before. I'm a guinea pig. I hope all goes well. And the next cex will be next friday pm. Transport will be a hassle).

7. I'm sure everyone knows this by now. I love Nino.

So many things happened, some may be my fault, some may be not. But all I can think of now is that whatever goes round comes around.

I've got so many potential songs I want to translate which describes my feelings now. And I've actually posted twice about the burglary, but it failed to appear, and I really don't want to write it all up a third time.

All in all, time is running out. Need to get things done. Chop chop.

Both blogger and livejournal have been super annoying. I can't remember this is the how manyth time I edited it because it wouldnt show up in verdana.

Boku wa boku (I am myself)

Final year, and I'm getting cold feet. Really, really cold feet. So I need inspiration and motivation to allow me to hang on, to allow me to keep going.


Boku ga Boku no Subete
by Arashi

Moshi boku ga ano hi sukoshi chigau mirai wo eranda toshitara
"What if, that day, I chose a slightly different future?"
Yurete iru mado ni utsuru minareta hibi ni toikaketeru
I asked the swaying reflection of days I'm used to seeing on the windows
Hito wa dare mo akogare kizutsuki　
People get hurt when they are admiring others
Tada hitotsu eranda ima wo
But the one 'now' that I have chosen
Taisetsu ni shinagara kitto ikite iru
I will defiintely be living on treasuring it

Arinomama de mou ikkai arukidasou kanashimi koete
Just as I am, I want to walk again, overcoming all unhappiness
Dare no demonai na mo naki michi wo
On the path belonging to no one, with no name
Ashita mo sou yume ni mukatte nayande waratte waratte
Tomorrow as well, I will face my dream, worrying and laughing and laughing
Ima koko ni iru boku ga boku no subete　
The 'me' I have here now is my everything
Sore dake wa kawaranai
That, at least, will never change

Moshi boku ga ano hi kimi ni tsuyogari mo sezu sunao de iretara
"What if, that day, I was able to be honest and say those things without pretending to be tough?"
Futo mune ni ukabu omoi setsunai keredo ima wa itoshii
When I looked back, the memories that rose up in me were painful, but I still treasure the present
Hito wa dare mo deai to wakare ni
People, through meetings and departures
Sorezore no omoide kasane
With each and every one of their memories overlapping
Atarashii ashita wo zutto ikite yuku
Will always live on for a new tomorrow

Boku wa boku no jinsei mo unmei mo dakishimete yukou
I am myself, I will walk on, embracing my life, my fate
Hitotsu hitotsu ga kagayaku tame ni
So that each and every of them will shine
Haru aki natsu fuyu wo hashiite hashiite hashiite hashiite
I will run and run and run and run through spring, autumn, summer, winter
Tashika na koto wa boku ga tsukutta michi　
Because what is certain is the path I have created
Sore dake wa kawaranai
That, at least, will never change

Sou mikansei de tachitomatta fuan wo　
That's right, the insecurity I felt when I was inferior and had to stop
Hakanaku mo sugisatta jikan mo
And all the fleeting moments I passed through
Arinomama no jibun wo uke iretara
If I accept myself just as I am
Kono chikai de mirai wo kirihiraku you ni kono omoi ga todokimasu you ni
I will be able to cut through the future with this vow, and deliver these feelings
Ima ijou ni jibun no koto shinjiru yo
So now, I can believe in nothing less than myself

Arinomama de mou ikkai arukidasou kanashimi koete
Just as I am, I want to walk again, overcoming all unhappiness
Dare no demonai na mo naki michi wo
On the path belonging to no one, with no name
Ashita mo sou　Yume ni mukatte nayande waratte waratte
Tomorrow as well, I will face my dream, worrying and laughing and laughing
Tashika na koto wa hitotsu dake
Because what is certain is just one thing

Boku wa boku no jinsei mo unmei mo dakishimete yukou
I am myself, I will walk on, embracing my life, my fate
Hitotsu hitotsu ga kagayaku tame ni
So that each and every of them will shine
Haru aki natsu fuyu wo hashiite hashiite hashiite hashiite
I will run and run and run and run through spring, autumn, summer, winter
Ima koko ni iru boku ga boku no subete　
The 'me' I have here now is my everything
Sore dake wa kawaranai
That, at least, will never change

2 more days!

I have to admit, I was quite useless ever since I had my mini cex done on Tuesday. I just could not bother clerking patients, and the SHOs I normally followed were not around.

On Wednesday, the new batch of FY1s came in, and A&E was not supposed to be affected (there were no FY1s posted in A&E), but as if the people of Salisbury could sense that there would be utter havoc in the hospital due to the handover of jobs and everything, there was not a single patient in the A&E.

It was so bad until all the doctors (including consultants) went over to the minors area (normally they are so short-staffed that they had to get a nurse to sit there) where it was just simple injuries like cuts and ?sprains and ?fractures.

Doctor: So, what do you think about this?

Me: Er, it's quite... quiet?

Doctor (laughing): which is good for me, but not so good for you.

Today was no different. But our main purpose of going into the hospital was to get signed off, which we did. Partner managed to clerk a confused lady, and because she was the only patient in the ward, and the staff (doctors, nurses, cleaners, students) have nothing else better to do, she was in the centre of attention. And she was quite entertaining. A dear old lady of around 90 years who has multi infarct dementia.

Apparently she hates men. And the nurse that triaged her, my partner and the doctor were all males.

Partner: Are you feeling unwell in any area at all?

Her: NO I FEEL FINE.

Partner: The nursing home sent you here because they found blood on the sheets. Did you pass blood?

Her: NO I DIDN'T.

Partner: Does your tummy hurt at all?

Her: NO. I AM NOT IN ANY PAIN. STOP ASKING ME THAT. I FEEL FINE.

Partner: Can I have a listen to your chest?

Her: NO YOU CAN'T! ABSOLUTELY NOT!

Doctor: (whisper) Ask, 'Can I have a listen to your heart?'

Partner: CAN I HAVE A LISTEN TO YOUR HEART?

Her: WHATEVER FOR?

Partner: Can I have a feel of your tummy?

Her: NO YOU CAN'T

It was hilarious. Bear in mind that only my partner and the doctor was inside the room, and everyone else was outside, and we could hear every single word because it was so quiet (and she was shouting, the caps used above is not for show only).

And my partner and the doctor gave up (She can't have anything very wrong with her, seeing how energetic she was) and the patient then asked to sit on a chair, which the nurses obliged. And because there was nothing else to do, everyone looked at her, and she looked back.

And then she asked for a cup of tea. The nurses ran to get one cup for her. Then she asked for some biscuits, and the nurses said 'We only have biscuits at 11.00 oclock'. And then she wanted to walk, but obviously she was too frail and she couldnt manage on her own. So a big burly male nurse walked up to her and very formally offered her his hand, and they walked arm in arm around the whole A&E.

So I guess it's true when the doctors said that 'You don't see patients like this in Portsmouth. People come to the A&E in Salisbury with very, very minor injuries because the staff here are all very nice."

But soon after that, there was a man with renal colic. The most amazing thing (okay, maybe not so amazing, but still, I feel VERY smug) was when I saw the patient saying 'I got pain in my back' when he was wheeled in, I was thinking 'Ah, renal colic' and ta-da it was! The poor man was on vacation, and he had pain since 8am (it was 11.30am when he was brought in). And he really could not sit still. One minute he was sitting up, and then lying down, and then getting up, it's exactly like what the textbooks say. And it was so painful. So very, very painful that his family were hurting as well. Three ladies, and they were all crying.

I was supposed to clerk him, but I told the doc I would rather observe because I don't think he can stand a very meticulous medical student taking a >30 minute history when he was in so much pain. The doc I observed gave him diclofenac suppository and did history and examination in less 10 minutes, and he popped in a cannula and took bloods as well.

I'm going home in Sunday! *dance**dance* I'm in the middle of packing now. I have to fit everything into two bags (or three the most) because housemate giving me a lift has lots and lots of stuff.

Oh, and apparently Alex had a very memorable surprise birthday party at midnight last night/this morning. The smoke from the candles activated the smoke detector and the fire alarm went off. The whole hostel building evacuated, and four fire trucks came. It was EPIC.

Livejornal is STILL down. How am I going to get my Himitsu and VS arashi this week?



The meaning of awesome.

4 more days!

6 weeks went past like a bullet (okay, maybe not this week but definitely the first 5 weeks) and when I was thinking backwards, I realized I can't really remember what I ate before Joyce came over after her exams.

I'm craving for squid. And I got this really cute emoticon of an octopus in my whatsapp which is driving me crazy. Because I want to eat it.

I love my MIP attachment in Salisbury. I'm really sorry to leave (okay, maybe not because it means that summer break is coming and I'm going home!), I mean, I wouldn't mind coming back here for attachments. Because it's such a small district hospital, everything and everyone is closely-knitted, and everyone is nice and willing to teach, and if it makes things better, nearly everyone is a Southampton graduate who understands what it's like as a final student and what you need to do and what you need to get signed off, and what you need to know at this stage. That last part is the most important.

I will never ever forget the grilling we got for cardio (splenomegaly, urine dip!), respi (thyroid, axillary and clavicular lymph nodes!) and gi examination (no respiratory rate!). Thanks Zee. And I will never forget the grilling for how to write in an A&E notes. Thanks Dan.

It's quite sad, seeing all the palliative cases and MIs, but I guess the good thing is that I haven't actually seen anyone dying on the spot. Sure I've seen a few dead bodies, but nothing so acute that I haven't prepared for.

Livejournal's down again. It's pissing me off. But if I can't access the site, I guess a million others can't as well. But for some reason, it works fine when I try access it on my phone. Hmm, very strange.

Arashi's Concerts have started already, and next it would be at Kokuritsu. I so badly want Arashi's king-head charm. 40 bucks. Should I? Can I?


It's so cute! I waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant!!!



I actually wanted the hair tie too. But I prefer the scrunchie type instead of the rubberband type. And it's limited edition (Osaka only) so I decided to give up on this one.

But I still want the charm.

I WANT THE CHARM!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm marathoning a jdramas like crazy now, which, I know is bad. I know that no matter what production or which actors and actresses were casted, everyone tried hard and a lot of effort went into the production, but I can't help fast forwarding some parts (which I could not stand the suspense, which I already know what was going to happen, when the actress was driving me NUTS with her unparallel eyebrows, and when the storyline is too damn complex for my poor exhausted brain that I actually skipped to the last episode). Okay, a note for that last series mentioned: I WILL get around watching the whole series one day.

One fine day. Some day. Hopefully.

Notable mention: Watashitachi no kyokasho. The maIn actress was brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. The young actors and actresses did an amazing job. Well, at least to me they shone more than the main actor. Especially Shida Mirai. She's amazing. Full stop.

I love Nino.

I AM GOING HOME TOMORROW!!!

9 hours before my journey to heathrow starts (7.55am bus). and i still cant believe i'm going home. it's almost surreal. i've packed as much as i remember, hopefully it wont be overweight. but hey, i can still lift it, so shouldn't be too bad.

:) :) :) i think the best thing to have happened this year academically is passing Intermediates. okay i know that's everybody's aim (orelse why bother mugging at all), but there is this sense of extreme satisfaction when Overall: Pass appears in the email in my inbox. kakaka.

okay i know also that i'm supposed to sleep soon but my jeans is still in the dryer and the towel is still in the washing machine. talk about last minute. but the house is always full of hustle and bustle so it's really not my fault for this unexpected delay.

i scared Delia today. well, for some reason i always scare her. heehee. she says i'm very smiley. last week when stressing from osce i was still smiling widely at her before she left. well, now i'm all alone at home....

and listening to Pia rebecca-ing <3 <3 i loooooove hehe. should i bring the disc back? today it dropped down from the 'precious belongings' shelf. broke half my heart.

anyway i'm downloading mummy's show which takes about forever because there are 5 parts to an episode and 20 episodes all together. 100 clicks, here i come.

piaaa <3

A new start

I can't even remember when was the last time I posted something (and I can't be bothered to find out) but I guess it's before I came back for final year I guess. So the things that happened since then:

1. Had a blast in Kuching, there's really no place like home. Home is where the heart is. Can't wait to go back for summer!
2. Reunited with Joyce (sounds so romantic when it's really not)
3. Nino's birthday! <3
4. Packing, packing, packing
5. Moving, moving, moving (new housemates are all retarded but how I LOVE them!)
6. A new start in Salisbury (awesome place!)
7. Completed GP (starting to feel my arms and legs again -> don't think that made any sense, but that's what I felt)
8. Started lower GI

Alex's place is never quiet. There's always so many things, so many people, and the atmosphere is like a meeting place, a rendesvous, a hotel for everyone. People (seniors, juniors, friends, landlord, stray toy) come and go, but the main few are the nicest man on earth, the queen, the 'so powerful/crazy shit', the 'awesome/doodie', the youngest-at-heart girl I have ever met, and last but not least my Joyce. It's an awesome place where everyone talk, laugh, have meals together, help each other, and just have fun everyday.

Salisbury is beautiful. The city is small but lovely. I can just walk and walk and walk and not get tired. The people are all so very nice, and everyone seems to know each other. Salisbury cathedral is breath-taking. I don't even need to mention Stonehenge. The accomodation is awesome. The GP is AWESOME (bonus for the amazing receptionists, GPs (*cough**cough*), and Mr Gori). I've never enjoyed GP (or learnt so much, or was praised) so much before. It was a great way to start final year.

I started lower GI today, and I still dislike it with a passion. Three hours into ward rounds, my back started killing me. I was wondering if I was the only one having back pain, and asked my groupmate (he said his back was killing him as well) and then the FY2 (who said the pain will always be there, probably in the background somewhere). Really not looking forward to that. The FY1 we followed was so busy, his bleep rang every few seconds. But I guess we learnt some things here and there (I'n the only female in the team and everyone else is just so tall that when the consultant talked to us, instead of looking side to side, he looked up and down if you can get what I mean =( well, it's not that bad, it is actually quite hilarious) but all in all, my back was killing me so I couldn't pay attention to anything else.

PENTOXIFYLLINE. SODIUM VALPROATE. ETHOSUXIMIDE. For some reason, the name of these drugs have been eluding me all day, and I just need to put these here so that it can stay in my memory for two more seconds before I forget about them again.

Arashi's new album is out! I'm liking all the songs in there (Nino's solo is the highlight) but all the songs are decent, and I like Morning Light very, very much. Listening to it keeps me going. Joyce says I'm on dregs when I'm listening to it. I think I am xD.

For some reason, I'm dying for a bbq. Will definitely have one before Joyce goes back for summer, even if it means only both of us bbq-ing yay.

Oh it's so hot. So damn hot.




mek loves gori. i dont know why. he got old man mouth.

invasion! :D

i have decided to invade your blog! muahahaha

My doodie sequence of pictures!! okay it was meant to be the last three pictures but i decided to get the whole sequence down now. aaaaah i love piaaaaaa

Hilf mir, Franz-Joseph, sieh wir deine Mutter - mich quält! (help me franz joseph, see how your mother tortures me!)

Hilf mir, laß mich nicht allein! (Help me, dont leave me alone!)

oh franz joseph you just cant leave your wife can you?? look at her pleading face!!! :(

okay fine he did leave her >< stupid!!!

rawr... you are so going to regret what you do now... :(

Also, läßt du mich im Stich... (那么，连你也背弃了我。。。) <-- cant remember the english translation heehee

i adore her little doodie sad face!! makes me go AWWWWW....

come, i sayang sayang you. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.....

then comes the epic song with the even more epic screamy voice at the end!!! :D :D :D

Ich will nicht gehorsam, gezähmt und gezogen sein..... (i cant even write out the chinese/english lines for this one hahaha fail max) this is the ultimate cutie pie picture!!! no other elisabeth ever had this 'look' before... (okay i only saw 2 others of which one is just not cute/pretty in my eyes and the other one looks like a little girl... literally!) this one is a mixture of cutie pie and QUEEEEEEN kekeke

SO CUTEEE!!!! look at the little doodie when she's 28! it's like a mini Pia... i loveeeee looveeeee :D :D :D

HAPPY 28TH BIRTHDAY NINO!!!!

smitten look

sorry for spamming your blog. I'M VERY ANGRY!!!!!! i think renal will take half my life away. it will come true in my life because it gives me hypertension and diabetes and diabetic nephropathy and (wth someone just threw in some letters... AGAIN) because i'm asthmatic and have eczema i will get minimal change glomerulopathy as well.

so i'm better off either wholly protecting myself from these complications by not touching this whole topic at all

or

i die of something else e.g. a heart attack so that i dont need to live what i hate studying.

i HATE WORDS. maybe i hate my brain even more. WHY IS IT THAT YOU CANT GET IT STORED IN YOUR MEMORY??????

i belong to me, not to kidneys.

:(


........................^ MEK.................................. ^JOYCE <3 PIA

Happy Mother's Day!

Dedicated to Mummy!

Gift
by Arashi

Dore dake toki ga sugita darou
Just how much time had passed I wonder
Yasashiku boku no te wo nigiru anata
Since you gently held my hand in yours
Sonna keshiki ga nazeka ima ni natte
That scene, for some reason
Mune no fukai toko atsuku suru
Still burns deep within my heart

Itsukara daiji na kotoba hodo
Since when was I unable to say
Sunao ni ienaku nattan darou
Those important words honestly I wonder
Futo mitsumeta
When I glanced back
Sono senaka wa sukoshi dake chiisaku omoeta
I thought your back seemed a little smaller

Jibun no yawasa wo shiru tabi ni
The moment I realized my own weakness
Anata no nukumori wo shirimashita
I came to know your warmth

Kono uta ga hibiku you ni to, todoku you ni to
So that this song will echo, will reach you
Kazaranai sono mama no omoi wo
Unchanging, with my feelings just as they are
Boku ga itsuka dareka wo mamoru toki ga kureba　
Someday, when the time comes for me to protect someone
Anata no te wo omoidasu darou
I’ll definitely remember your hands

Anata wa itami ya kanashimi wo
You, with all the pain and sadness
kesshite hito ni misetari shinai no ni
which you would never show to anyone else
Boku no yowasa wo jibun no itami ka no you ni
When my weakness was similar to your pain
Chiisaku waratta
You gave a little laugh

Tabidachi boku ni nando mo nando mo
When I set off on my journey, over and over again
Ikiru yuuki wo kuremashita
You gave me strength to live on

Tooi machi kara nagameteru yo donna toki demo　
I’m watching from a far off city, no matter when
Tashika na hitosuji no omoi wo
With feelings which are definite and sure
Yume ni tsudzuku kono michi tachidomatta toki wa
When I happen to stop on this path leading to my dreams
Anata no koe ga kikoete kuru yo
At that moment I will remember your voice

Kono uta ga hibiku you ni to, todoku you ni to....
So that this song will echo, will reach you...

Sore wa marude dokoka natsukashii nioi ga suru you na
That is like a nostalgic scent drifting from somewhere
Ichirin no hana
One flower
Boku ga itsuka dareka wo mamoru toki ga kureba　
Someday, when the time comes for me to protect someone
Anata no te wo omoidasu darou
I’ll definitely remember your hands

Tick tock

No more time (so why am I still doing this?)

Furusato (Hometown)
by Arashi

Yuugure semaru sora ni
In the sky smeared by twilight
Kumo no kisha mitsuketa
I see a train of clouds
Natsukashii nioi no machi ni
The nostalgic scent of that city
Kaeritaku naru
Makes me want to go back

Hitamuki ni toki wo kasane
All the people who earnestly pile up their time
Omoi wo tsumugu hito tachi
To weave their memories with mine
Hitori hitori no egao ga ima
With smiles on each of their faces
Boku no soba ni
They are now right beside me

Meguriaitai hito ga soko ni iru
There are people who I want to meet over there
Yasashisa hirogete matte iru
With their gentleness spreading, they are there waiting
Yama mo kaze mo umi no iro mo
From the moutains, to the wind, to the colour of sea
Ichiban sunao ni nareru basho 　
It's the place I can be the most honest

Wasurerarenai uta ga soko ni aru
There is a unforgettable song over there
Te to te wo tsunaide kuchizusamu
Holding hands together, we hum
Yama mo kaze mo umi no iro mo
From the mountains, to the wind, to the colour of the sea
Koko wa furusato
Here is my hometown

Meguriaitai hito ga soko ni iru
There are people who I want to meet over there
Yasashisa hirogete matte iru
With their gentleness spreading, they are there waiting
Yama mo kaze mo umi no iro mo
From the moutains, to the wind, to the colour of sea
(Koko wa furusato)
(Here is my hometown)

Kimi no furusato
Your hometown
Boku no furusato
My hometown

600th post and dedicated to my daddy!



HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!!!




<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

LOVE YOU LOTS

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

One ends, another begins

Today is the last day of the last attachment I have for this year!

We had a presentation and an exam to round up orthopaedics today. Throughout the presentation, I just stood there and smiled while my group presented. I didn't present, I didn't answer any questions either. Then the exam after that was difficult. I don't think there was osteoarthritis as answers for three of the questions, or rheumatoid arthritis for another three questions lol.

There was one question where it was a picture of an ankle, well at least I think it was an ankle, it looked like a white stick in the clouds, and I answered pyrophosphate disease. And I still have no idea what it was.

Kor's all graduated! Joyce showed me the convocation pictures online. They were gorgeous! I could not feel prouder. Daddy and mummy must be even prouder. Oh, now I miss everyone.

I can't wait to go home! But I still have the final paper to write (after messing up the abstract, TWICE, I think I have a phobia of abstracts, and my supervisor has a phobia of me, whenever I meet him it's never good news) but only four weekends (including this one) left. Daddy, mummy, are you reading this? Four more weekends here, and I'll be home on the fifth weekend!

OHOKU IS OUT. I HAVE IT. YES.

THE ONE RIGHT AT THE TOP IS MY DOODIE :D



Ichiban Kirei na Watashi o
by Mika Nakashima

Moshimo ano haru ni anata to deawanakereba
If at that spring I did not happen to meet you
Maichiru hanabira wa tada shiroku miete ita deshou ka?
Will I see the dancing petals merely as white?

Moshimo ano natsu o futari de sugosanakereba
If at that summer, we did not walk past each other
Hanabi no kagayaki mo nokorazu-ni kiete ita deshou ka?
Will the brilliance of the fireworks disappear without leaving any traces?

Ichiban kirei na watashi o daita no wa anata deshou
You were the one who held me when I was most beautiful, right?
Itoshii kisetsu wa nagarete unmei to ima wa omou dake
As the beloved seasons continue to pass, it's what I think as fate

Moshimo ano aki ni watashi ga modoreru no nara
If at that autumn, you returned to me
Kakushi tooshita ano namida sae misete shimau deshou
You would see those tears I've tried to hide, right?

Moshimo ano fuyu ni anata o shinjite itara
If at that winter, I believed in you
Ima mo futari de yorisoinagara ikite ita deshou ka?
Will we be living, snuggling with each other now?

Ichiban kirei na watashi o daita no wa anata deshou
You were the one who held me when I was most beautiful, right?
Kienai namida no kioku o unmei to hito wa yobu no deshou
The memories of tears that cannot disappear is what people call as destiny

Aa anata mo watashi o omou no deshou ka?
Aa, are you also thinking of me?
Nido to modoru koto no nai kakenuketa toki o
And the times we can no longer run back to?

Ichiban kirei na watashi o daita no wa anata deshou
You were the one who held me when I was most beautiful, right?
Ano hi kokoro wa furueteta dakedo ima afuredasu
That day, my heart was wavering, now it's overflowing
Ichiban kirei na watashi o daita no wa anata deshou
You were the one who held me when I was most beautiful, right?
Toki o koeru kono omoi wa ai no hoka nani ga aru deshou
These feelings that can even traverse through time must have something more than love, right?

Ichiban kirei na watashi o…
The most beautiful me...


I don't know how much longer can I hold up. Help me.

Akanishi's going Hollywood! Starring opposite Keanu Reeves.



Crazy Love
by Kat-Tun

It's called Crazy Love, but I call it a love that does not exist in this world as it is too good to be true.


Tada kimi dake wo kowashisou datta
It's just that you seem like you are about to break
Nani mo　nakute　aishisugita
It's nothing, it's just that I love you too much
Maybe we're fallin' in the crazy love
Maybe we're fallin' in the crazy love

Moshi　ano toki ni　oikaketetara
Maybe, at that time, if I chased after you
Donna　mirai de　hanikanda
What kind of future will we have?　
Egao mireta no darou
Will we be smiling, I wonder?

Kimi no subete wo yurushite
I forgave your everything
Dakishime nureta ano yoru
That night where we held each other, damp
Namida no omosa sae mo hagarezu
We could not even measure the weight of our tears
Futari yureta
We just swayed together

Kimi no namae yobu dake de
Just by calling your name
Sekai ga mitasareteita
The world becomes complete
Donna kako　kimi no kizu wo
No matter what past, what hurt you bore
Subete ore no naka de mamoritakatta
I'll hold everything in me, I just want to protect you

Moshimo koe ga todoitara
If my voice happen to reach you
Ore wa koko de matteru yo
I'll be waiting here
Hitori ja kieso na ai dakara
Because it's a love that seem to disappear if I'm alone
Nido to nai kono Crazy Love
A crazy love that will never happen again

Hitogomi ni magire aruiteta
Walking in the midst of waves of people
Tsumetai michi de mayotteta
I got lost on the cold streets
Onaji me wo shiteita kimi to
You, who had the same eyes as me
Nani mo nakatta keredo
Even if we had nothing
Sono kokoro no kakera wo
But those fragments of our hearts
Futari de mochi yori
If both of us were to hold it
Atatameta　sore dake de
It will become warm, just simply with that

Kimi to onaji yume wo mite
I was seeing the same dream as you
Ima ga tsuzuku omotteta
I thought that it will continue until now
Donna uso　kimi no himitsu
No matter what lies, the secrets you hide
Subete shinjite tada mamoritakatta
I'll believe in everything, I just want to protect you

Moshimo toki ga tomaru nara
If time happen to stop
Ore wa zutto matteiru yo
I'll be waiting forever
Futari no kieso na yakusoku wa
The promise that seem to disappear when we're together
Omoide no naka Crazy Love
It's a crazy love in my memories

Nido to nai kono　Crazy Love
This crazy love that will never happen again