Love, Me

We had cold war today over the way we discipline our children. I was upset when you want to put him outside the house just because he was crying. And you were upset with me for chiding you the way you discipline. Not the first time. We didn't talk for the rest of the day. We were fine just before we came home. Then I hear this song.

Reminded me why I chose to marry you.
Can we stop being upset with each other?

 

"Love, Me" ~ Collin Raye

 

 

 

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

Here I am again after 5 years....

Hi there...

I'm back after 5 years of hiatus. Happened to think about my blog today and remembered I have a blog sometime back. It has been so long since my last post.

Many things have happened and changed.

I've moved on 3 jobs since my last post.

Given birth to my third child... Nate is now coming 3!

Nat is now 11 and Matt is turning 10 this year.

I'm now coming to my 13th year of marriage.

WOW.

Hoping to start blogging more often again. It's great to have an outlet to pen down your thoughts at times because it can be difficult to voice your thoughts or maybe people are just not interested to listen to what you want to say.
 

Pepsico "把乐带回家" "Bringing Happiness Home"

An excellent commercial by Pepsi on home and family love. As we grow older, get busier with our live, such reminders are timely at times.

Who am I?

Today, i was asked a series of thought provoking questions that forced me to examine who I really am.
Who am I?
What kind of person are you?
Who do you seek approval from? God? People around me?

Interesting. Self actualization questions indeed. I think it's time to understand myself better. I always thought I do but somehow, my perception of myself is different from what an outsider sees of me.

Why do I constantly want to create an impression on people whom I meet? Instead of being someone whom I think people want me to be, why not be myself? But who am I, really? Who do I want to be?

I want to learn more about myself. Maybe I should start a journey on self discovery.

Do you know who you are?

Comforting

Placing my hands on his chest, I hope to give him comfort amidst his state of panic and fear.
Placing my hands on his head, I pray for his headache to go away.
Stroking his arm, I give him the reassurance that he will be fine soon.

Don't say you are unlucky all your life, pa. You have lots of people who care about you. You have ma, me and peilan. You have your grandchildren. You have have nothing much to worry in your life right now if you want to leave. Just know that we want to care for you like how you care for us when we were young.

CNY 2011

This is a very much delayed post.. but like what they said... better late than never. This was our annual CNY 2011 activities.. the kids are much older this year and are able to appreciate and learn about the rules of CNY. As usual, paying respect to their elders are a must on the 1st day...

You are 6, Nat!

Happy 6th Birthday Nat!

Went to Ascension Kindercare to celebrate Nat's birthday this afternoon. She invited Matthias over to her class and he gladly obliged. In fact, she has waited for this day for the entire week. You can see her elated expression on her face when i arrived.. and she kept hugging me with that big grin on her face. She is so proud of her cake too. Matthias was surprisingly co-operative today too, helping Nat to give out cake, presents and stickers to her classmates.

You grow fast, Nat Nat.. soon, you will be 10 yrs old, and after that you will be 16 yrs old.. and growing into teenager.. Mummy will miss you then cos by then you would prefer to celebrate your birthday with your friends than me... ;)