Annoyed

It is funny how life likes to f*** around with you. One moment you think you are in love and the next you are at loggerheads with your "love".

First, it started with the minion incident. Itchy-backside me decided to draw a banana into a minion hoping to ease some tension as she prepares for her practical. 

Sweet right? 

So I would never expect her to actually deny me giving her this present! She said she didn't want to see me with her "black face" but she rather practice for MS with our classmates. I was not even able to "just pass her something" even though I insist that I will go find her instead of her having to meet me. Her excuse that she was too stressed and read my message as wanting to have a long chat with her is just rubbish. YES, I SAY THAT'S BULLSHIT! How do you expect me to buy that? It's as if you are telling me, "I don't want to see you but I can't find a good excuse to tell you!" Honestly, other than disappointment, I was really infuriated.

Then you said you want to "make up" for it(even though you think it's not your fault but just miscommunication) but when we went out, you only succeeded in making me more angry. Constantly hogging on your iPhone, not listening to what I have to say and just changing topics before I could even give you my opinions. I really wonder, is this still a dialogue with you or just you having a monologue. I'm still holding on to the hope that you will change this habit cause it is just a case of disrespect. I do not feel valued at all and this is something I absolutely cannot accept no matter how "nice" you are. You said you want to talk to me to find out "why I'm like that suddenly". But I'm actually thinking to myself, "did I do something that caused the change in you?" Is this really just me being over-sensitive? I find it hard to believe. If you think that this is just how you are, I won't change you. It will only change our relationship.

P.S.: Still hoping for the silver lining behind every cloud

Freaking Stressed

freaking stressed the moment I reached home, don't think it has anything to do with biomech test tomorrow but I'm like experiencing panic attack now! Just went to the fridge and got a tub of ice-cream. Some asshole smoking making it worse. Hope tomorrow will be fine.

P.S.: Something is missing in my life

Birthday!!!

Did SCM massage today, quite an enjoyable experience(got to massage for a cute girl at the end!) Jew-ed a hell lot of Paypal towels. Grgg can't stand those girls, 明明 own self very Jew but still kpkb and judge me. Got my table lamp from Groupon and they are really efficient, queue looks long but I never had to wait long.

Back on Friday, I almost became Superman. Rode onto the inner lane of a stationary car and out came the door. Lucky my brake was working and saved my life. Kind lady did care for me and it was partly my fault too.

Anyway, my birthday is coming and I have some wishlist!
1. MONEY!!! - most practical
2. An in-ear headphone(UE/Klipsch) - those that comes with a 3 button control is a major plus
3. Hard disk - 1TB will be sufficient
4. Handmade cards & gifts!!! - my favourite
5. A wish sent to me @ 04/12/2012 04:12:12

That's it for now, ciao.

Change

OS today, suffering from sleep deficiency of the 2 boring draws on Sunday night. On the way to school, this kind uncle kept apologising to me cause we almost clashed but honestly I was the one at fault for going so fast and switching to his lane to avoid the hump. Thanks nice uncle for showing me there are still nice Singaporeans and the elderly definitely deserves more respect!!!

Ah Yong continues to build up my interest for Physiology with his exciting lectures(today's joke on the crate that looks like OHP LOL). Good day @ school as I got my first A in poly. The test wasn't that difficult with many people getting A as well but I'm glad I wasn't one of those disappointed not to get A. Next up would be bio-mechanic and physiology, both killer papers even if it is MCQ. Physiology is going to adopt the medical school style, with wrong answer -1 and there questions with multiple or no answers!!!

Starting to discover the good in people. Need to slow down my pace of life and be more of a reflector. Not easy to see the good in people but then what is so good about ourselves? Judge less and talk less, listen more and learn more. Just like the guy who is doing his rejection therapy, I will do my sarcasm therapy, no sarcasm for 100 days! Woohoo here we go!!!

Self Quarantine

Hungry, pissed off with game, headache, my mum niam niam niam about how she cooked the hei bee hiam rice(like fried rice except you replace egg w HBH) then me and my dad never eat. Freaking hell cooked such big plate then keep telling me I never eat I never eat. I still leave the bloody spoon to let her see I ate!!! Still say 1 plate only she can finish, talk so much, finish it la. End up also never eat, leave in wok. I just don't like to be accused, I indeed ate and it is not just 1/2 spoon hor, freaking obvious got eat can. But you cooked 1 bloody big plate of rice with HBH how I finish it. You know very well I like to eat meat then you think those fucking shrimps look appetizing to me??? You eat lor you eat lor! Furthermore, this is don't know the consecutive how many days you cooked the bloody fried rice. No wonder I getting lighter, see the food also no appetite. Pissed in tar.


P.S.: Better stay away from me if you wanna live, that goes to everyone in this world. I'm just gonna isolate myself for a couple of days till CNY, if not CNY black face go visiting sure get fornication under consent of the king!