My last post... 30th December 2010... Today... 5th Jan 2012... Time flies... How have all my blogmates been?

Many of my friends, some went back to Malaysia, some going back soon... Most of them spending their winter break back home, some choose Winter Europe Tour like what i did...

When my friends left... I felt so homesick... then i started to think if i made the wrong decision insisting on what i had in mind since a long time ago.. :D i sure hope i did not make the wrong decision...

my 1st homesick started when Eva left... so emo... Then i thought for a second... why didn't i insist on my dream being a pilot instead? :D but well... i choose medicine so here i am...

PMS, cramps made everything worse...

My friends asked me out for ice skating tomorrow... i really hope i can make it!!! I wanted to skate since long time ago but it didn't happen... I really wish i could go tmr without obstacles... but God knows best my condition... it got cramps... it's impossible i can skate.. :(

I'm looking forward for a great winter break 2011/2012!!! Please DON'T let MYSELF down!!! :D

Happy New Year! Enjoy your holidays to the fullest, because it shouldn't be less than that!!! :D

Love,

Lynn

30th December 2010

明天就是2010年的最后一天。这个学期真的又惊又喜！

大考真的事关关难过关关过！！非常感谢上帝恩赐！！

但是偏偏在这开心的时候发现一个非常好的朋友对自己有所隐瞒。。。一个真心的好朋友会那样伤害对方吗？我只能静静恨自己，只能怪自己不够好。 不是他的错。。 是我不够大量吧。。。 对不起。。。 我无法忍受这样的 ‘背叛’。 我今天很想哭但是找不到一个让自己能哭的理由。 世上不可能事事顺利吧！我会学习独立，看开一点。。应为于事无补。。。

有些事情就是没办法， 是命中注定！

伤心的是， 既然我那么信任的人都对我有所隐瞒， 那么我还能相信我的朋友吗？所以当初我对朋友们有所保留的心态是对的吗？凡是不能太信任别人吗？

Believing is different from trust... Believe = 相信, trust = 信赖

today you've betrayed my trust... gave me the exact reason to close the door of my heart once again.... i've been so transparent to you that today i regretted what i did... congratulations... you've just turned the perfect ending of my year 2010 into a living hell!

my 2010 ending with flu, cough, sore throat plus BROKEN HEART....

God... i pray for a better year ahead in the year of 2011... Please grant my wish... all i'm asking is Your blessings oh LORD... YOUR overflowing love and blessings... :D

Love,
Lynn

Undesirable turns out to be memorable :D

Starting of 2nd yr... it was a total mess! When i refuse to listen and adhere to God's will... i get myself into troubles! time that i couldn't imagine... it happened... When u don't learn it the easy way, God had to make u adhere to Him the tough way..

However, i insisted not entering Kuzminki hostel, anyway ended up in it.. It was the best time i had in Moscow! my 2nd year degree was indeed the best yr so far! i had a bunch of great pals, great roommate, great time spent together wit the kuzminians...etc. everything was just like rainbow after that :D studies wasn't easy but we were together as 1. learning together, studying and revising together! quality time spent together! My favourite time is when i don't have to study for exams and prep for class... which is like once in a blue moon :D

looking bac towards the tough years... and the enjoyable 2nd yr... i wanna thank all my friends that had fought the great battle with me! :D our years together ahead is gonna be even better!

The moral of the story: Trust in GOD, Follow HIS will... u'll enjoy HIS fruits... Follow your way and your will... and you shall perish! :D hahaha... have a blessed time! :D

Love,
Lynn

4th Uncle - 四舅... In loving memory of LUA SENG HOCK.......

Received an sms from my sis just 20mins after i woke up tis morning, '4 gu passed away tis morning'. I was purely in shocked. No response for a few seconds. Upon recovery, i reached my hp and called my sis to ask more about what actually happened.

My uncle actually fell sick since last week but only went to see the doctor 2days ago. Diagnosed with heart failure, stablized. Doctor were to treat his diabetics, but only God knows that he was planned to leave us this morning.

My regret is that he still don't know christ. All we can do is to pray for him&his family. May peace runs in the family.

A little bit story about my uncle since this blog had been dedicated to him.......

He is a nice man. Every year during CNY when we are all back in Jertih, he would buy us breakfast... used to have like 3-4 choices. That time i was small, duno how to enjoy those food... Now... Haiz... Wait la... Few years oso don't get to eat once... Especially where my uncle is no longer around anymore...

Just recently... Last summer holiday when i went back to Malaysia. My parent went to Spain, I was left guarding my bro at home... sad case.... My uncle came to visit. He striked lotery... Came to Kuantan to collect his winnings. He asked me to buy him a blood glucose measurement device. Know what he brought?

20kgs of mangosteen & 5kgs of buah salak. his car was practically full of fruits only for me... Cos he knew that i love mangosteen! Hahahaha.... He is a marvellous man! So nice to his niece! HEhe...

Unfortunately, this uncle of mine don't like to take care of himself... I'm sad for him... We nagged him all the time, but never worked.

I just pray that he now rests in peace with God's blessings in him & His family.

God bless. Take care.

In loving memory of LUA SENG HOCK.......

Love,
Lynn

Love's Moments

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Love,
Lynn

Friends... 朋友。。。

How people in our generation value friends?

朋友。。。 这两个字其实很有价值。但是在这个世界上，这个年代，有多少认真真珍惜朋友呢？

在这个现实的世界上，有利用价值就是朋友，不然就当着不认识你。太令人失望了！我问心不利用朋友，但是时常被误会。真让人无可奈何。。。

利用朋友的‘朋友’，就是说谓的猪朋狗友！为什么做朋友做到那么失败的？

有时只好关一边眼睛。。。为‘朋友’尽心尽力，虽然他们未必会感恩但是我问心已经尽我所能。

value friends as FRIENDS... Not as tools. They are someone very important, very valuable, not someone very useful! Don't wait till you lose them to start appreciate them!

Stay blessed!

Love,
Lynn

Testimony

I started learning 4guitar chords from a church guitarist Uncle David. He is an experienced player. All these while, i knew just these 4chords and nothing else more. Just before i went on mission program, i was told that i'm the only musician in the team, so i asked a friend of mine to teach me a few more chords so that at least our team prayer session won't be too dull.

When i was in XiAn, China, i was asked by Ps David Ryan to lead 15members in worship and prayer session, i was shocked. I tried to reject, but he successfully convinced me. I've learned 1 important lesson here. We don't have to be very good in something we were planned to do. All we need is FAITH & TRUST in the Lord. If it is His plan for us to do something, there's no way we can run away from it. However, if it is His plan for us to do it, we just try our best, and He'll do the rest.
Matthew 6:33-34 'But seek first the Kingdom of God & His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own'.

Although i wasn't very good and there were 2 other guitarist which are much better than i am but i was selected to play. I still remember 1 thing Ps David told me, 'You are a talented musician, don't be affraid, be encouraged to Praise& worship His Name with your gifted talant. Do not doubt the Gift of God'. This just strucked me right down. I felt the presence of God when Ps David talked to me personally during our prayer time. I felt the burden to do my part, or rather i would call it my duty. God has His very own plans. We ought to follow, respect&adhere. Everything happens for a reason. No matter is it good or bad, just trust in the Lord and move on. We Shall be blessed!

Now, i will try to serve our Lord Almighty with the talant that He had blessed me with. If we don't maximize His blessings, we will one day lose them! Just bare in mind that our God is a Great God! He won't give us something we can't manage! It's either that we refuse to try, or we didn't try hard enough.

I used to think that i can play piano and that's all. Now, i'm proud to say that i can lead in both piano and guitar. This is not to show off or anything alike. I'm just trying to tell everyone that don't hide the gifts of God in your life. If you hide it long enough, God will take it back. Till then, you'll regret and complaint. Think back... What have you done for God? He had died on the cross for our sins and our disobedience! There's no way to repay Him! The only thing we should do now is to adhere to His calling, obey His words.

Pray and trust the Lord for everything!

I had financial issues before i went to China. I couldn't come out such a huge amount of money. I can't do anything practically. I just leave the problems to God. He had a way if He wants me in China. I just went by faith. Here i am now, completed the mission prog successfully! All problems had been solved! Praise the Lord for His Mercy & Blessings!

May God bless you all!

Love,
Lynn

China Mission Trip 2009

JOY Team joins China Heart for Mission in XiAn, China. Team Name : Mercy Team.

Team members consists of:
David Ryan(Australian)
Bev (Aus)
Vivieane(Aus)
Glen (Aus)
Bunny (UK)
Aaron (UK)
Lois (UK)
Ros (UK)
John (UK)
Nichola (Wales)
Susan (Germany)
Isaac Siow (Msia)
Valynne (Msia)
Charmaine Gan (Msia)
Soo Ying (Msia)
Chin Ling (Msia)
Calviny (Msia)

1st weekend in XiAn, Shaanxi Province, China.
We spent some time getting acquainted with all the team members, worship session...etc. Bev house was a blessing to us. We are all able to gather&have some fun. Local foods were really different. Sour cold noodles seemed famous... We tried but i'm still not used to it till today... I still prefer our curry noodles... HAhaha... But just try everything for once... Just for the experience.

We also visited the Drum Tower right at the center of XiAn City.

Monday (27th July 2009)
Off we went to a village in Fu Ping. It's quite far away... almost 3-4hrs away from XiAn City. We settled in a local hotel, quite big but i was a lil shocked to find out my room don't have an attached bathroom. Toilet located 1 floor above, and bathroom 1 floor below... Oh My... Not nice ok...! I've got Susan from Germany as my roommate.... Well... She sleeps fairly early and all i do is disturb her sleep cos i sleep late... Kesian her...

Tuesday (28th July 2009)
woke up at 6am s usual, 7am-breakfast, 8am-hopped on our mini bus and went to get some paint. 9am- Off we go to Dr School. Dr School is a project founded by China Heart in 博士学院. We were there to wash, scrap and paint the school. Focused mainly to beautify the school compound.

Thursday (30th July 2009)
Team 1 had the opportunity to play&spend time with the school kids. While team 2 continue painting & finish up our job.

Friday (31 July 2009)
Team 2 had the chance to spend some time with the kids. Due to the well done task completed by team 1 the day before, we had kids from other school in the afternoon. Most of us were all wet except the kids and Calviny. Lucky but no fun lo! Thanks to Aaron and Isaac that we were wet!
Had foot massage complementary of Glen our 'Lao ban'. It was really a fun lifetime experience! Amazingly lovely!

I was given the opportunity to lead worship with Guitar by Ps David. My pleasure... so nervous... Tension! Joker... I know so little bout guitar but was given such great honour! Thank God for His guidance and wisdom, i managed to pull it through. Thanks for the great opportunity!

Well, i guess i broke the record of being the cleanest painter in the whole team. ;D

Saturday (1st Aug 2009)
We left around 11am back to XiAn. Felt reluctant to leave that place. Kids actually asked us when were we leaving and will we come back again. I personally would love to go back to visit them in XiAn. They are really lovely kids... Miss them! Reached Si Rong Sang Ye Jiu Dian around evening. Can't really remember wat time but not so important. So Worn out... Didn't wanna go for dinner but was dragged by Princess Charmaine... Haiz... Wat to do rite... ahahaha... Btw, my toilet in 802 can't lock eh... Thank God My roomie was Charmaine. Hahaha... At least she won't peep! Hahaha....

Sunday (2nd Aug 2009)
We had our very own short worship session in Bev's apartment. Then lunch, then we went to Terra Cotta Warriors '兵马俑'. Weather was so so hot! I was in a rather moody mood. Plus certain external factors.. Would prefer not to comment further...

Monday (3rd Aug 2009)
Mercy team was split into 2. 4 of them went to visit the children which are supported by China Heart in a rural area. The rest of us went to visit a 阳虎boarding school on a mountain. That place was magnificent! Eye-capturing scenery caught me stunned. The 'rapid' in the river was so beautiful! I love that place so much except for the school's toilet. The principal of the school Mr Tiger actually arranged a team of cameramans to record our trip there, and he also bought great lunch for us. This is the 1st time i enjoyed lunch so much in China with great scenery and great food!

Tuesday (4th Aug 2009)
It's the 2nd day we spent time with the school kids here. They had some great games which i failed to join cos i had diarrhea, bad diarrhea which started after lunch. My nightmare! The worst experience one could get in a toilet full of maggots... Ewh... Disgusting! Thank God for my beautiful toilet at home and in hotel!

We were given great honour and respect before we left&while we exit the school compound. The whole school marched and saluted us. 3 of their trainers marched, saluted us accompanied by National Anthem of China. We were asked to sign their flag of honour. Mr Tiger gave each of us a pen holder which is very beautiful, a Terra Cotta Warrior pen, and a DVD which was recorded on the 1st day of our visit here. Later at the end of the day, we were escorted into the van provided. All of the students&teachers of the school lined up by the gate to send us off. I personally was thrilled, it was the greatest honour one school could give to a group of foreigners that came just to visit and didn't do much at all. We were not worthy of their great honour at all.... God's blessings was overpouring...

Wednesday (5th Aug 2009)
I had horrible diarrhea. All i could do is stay in the room and bed rest. I missed all the opportunity to visit XiAn. They all went to the City Wall, Walked around.. I really don't know wat they did there. I had Kang Si Fu instant noodles for lunch, just a few bites and had worst diarrhea condition after that. Could eat at all. Skipped all 3 meals. Ate all kinds of medicine but non worked.

Thursday (6th Aug 2009)
Our last day in XiAn. Early morning, Charmaine, Soo Ying and me went out to a nearby shopping mall to get some souvenirs. Can't find any so we split. Charmaine went on alone to look out some clothings for her family while Soo Ying and me went to another shopping mall by cab. I was having low glucose i suppose cos i was a lil dizzy. I just persevere through, get some walnuts, peaches while Soo Ying got some stamps. We met halfway and went back to hotel by cab. 11am, we set off to Airport as our flight is 12.40pm.

We went on 2 cabs, my cab reached early for check-in but the other cab wasn't there. We made a few calls and found out that they reached 30mins earlier but was left in another different terminal. Gosh... Thank God for His blessings. We were just in time to check-in, but unfortunately, our luggage didn't manage. We had to rush to the gate. When we were at the plane, some of us had our luggage placed in the luggage compartment at the underpart of the plane. Mine was too small so they suggested that i keep it with me. Thank God i have my teammates to carry it for me.

I was still suffering from Diarrhea all the way back. Eat just a lil and i'm in trouble. Took more medicine but yet non worked.

Landed in KLIA a lil later than scheduled. Parted from each other around 11pm. Chin Ling, Soo Ying, Charmaine followed me back. We had supper and went back home to rest. I ate something, went home having diarrhea, took new medicine and went to sleep. Recovered the next day! Miracle of God! Thank God for recovery after so many days of suffering!

That's the shortest summary i could come out with out of my 2weeks Mission Trip in China. I wish that this will bless your life!

God bless.

Love,
Lynn

Summer Holiday 2009...

It's been 1 and a half months since i was back in Malaysia. Went to China for mission trip which i'll talk more in details in my next blog.

1 and a half months seemed so short... 1 week after i came back to Kuantan, my parents left for Barcelona, Spain. They went off for 3weeks and a week after they were back i went to China for mission trip. That's 2 weeks and then i came bac on the 6th. Reached KL at night then went for some supper then back home. Saturday, shopping day after dropping off Charmaine at Pudu Bus Station after marvelous breakfast at Petalling Street.

Shopping in Sungai Wang is a waste of time. Spent a whole day gaining nothing but tiredness. Came back empty handed and full of disappointments. Sunday, Shopping day again after amazing breakfast by Mummy... We went to 1Utama. Oh my... 1st 5mins in the mall and we are already testing out clothings in the fitting room! Gosh! Love that!

Around 6pm, we are almost done shopping... So happy! Cos i've bought a lot! Wahahaha.... Well, call me a shopaholic by all means!

Came back to Kuantan, went for Dental check up. The doctor did a horrible job replacing my old filling! So disappointed! He is a specialist! Oh my... Horrible! Going for a 2nd consult soon cos it's giving me some prob and it actually hurts... The worst part is... I can see the horrible job with my bare eyes! How much worst could that be? Hmph!

A lot of things more to be done, but i'm really so reluctant to get them done. That just means that i'm busy but i'm bored.... Why reluctant you may ask... Cos i don't wanna go back Moscow so soon eventhough i miss all my frens back there... haiz.... hard to be grateful all the time... but... really... my life is so blessed! Looking back at those who are suffering from poverty back in China, pity them... our life is like so luxurious compared to them...

Love,
Lynn

完全被误会！

3个礼拜了，完全花在照顾弟弟。说他是为他好，但是我又被误会。。。好难受！ 之间的误会太深了，不可能一天一夜解释。。。 别人可能不明白我的苦心但是他们是我的父母，为什么重来不理解？ 为什么永远都维护弟弟？3个礼拜。。。我无奈。。。无能。。。我失败了。。。我放弃了。。。

我讨厌自己为什么不能闭上嘴，关上眼睛。。。当着什么都看不见，不管弟弟不就好了吗？为什么终是为了他而上了我与父母的感情呢？代价不会太大吗？

眼泪不停的流。。。心很痛！没人能理解我的痛苦，我的无奈。。。

真的很后悔。。。错了。。。 我不应该着样。。。 改变吧！可能应该改的是我！

心情糟透了！