I'm just.... spazzing. A little too tired to do it physically, but mentally... just.. OMG. LSJDF OISJERIJVSOIUJFLKSJGSHBRTJSLDJF IJFGTLSVJELKF JSODJFSOEUVROSUTOIWJSLKNAS /MAJOR KEYBOARD BASH

So anyway. For B1A4, I stood up right for 6 hours straight. Yes, you heard me. 6 hours. Not a single second of sitting or squatting in between. NO REGRETS. To be honest I wasn't even feeling tired after standing for so long.

Kay, so I left the house at 3, arrived there at about 3.30 ish, and got in 'line' (HAHAHAHAHA LINE. WHUT LINE. THERE WAS NO LINE. IT WAS A BIG BIG BIG BUNCH OF SARDINES IN AN INVISIBLE CAN) at 5. Because that's when they said we could go in. But nooooooo, I stayed in that mess of a sardine can for like an hour and some. Seriously getting squished. Like seriously. Front, back, left, right. Oh, and in the midst of that, someone up front fainted. Not supposed to be funny... but... haha. Like, wow.

So when we got inside, I literally ran to the rock zone. And my pants were falling with the camera in them. So I hooked my fingers in the belt loops to keep my shorts up, haha. I was up at the veeeeeeeery front. Just one line of people in front of me. But I was sorta like... between them? So my view wasn't obstructed at all. Oh yeaaaaaaah, me gusta alright. Ah, then I met this girl on my right. Her name's Amelia, and she's 13. She's a BANA too. And she's a CU as well. I WAS SO SHOCKED LIKE WHOAAAAA. YES SOMEONE TO SPAZZ WITH ZOMGZOMGZOMG. And she was shocked/surprised when I told her I'm 18. She said she thought I was 15, maybe 14. Ahaha. She's a bigger ELF than BANA, and she lent me a blue lightstick. I told her to not expect me to use it when B1A4's on because I'd be too busy spazzing and taking pictures and videos and such. Oh right, so as we were waiting for the concert to start, they were playing MVs on the huge screen. Needless to say I was just... insane when Beautiful Target came on. And when it was CNU's part... I just... screamed. Yeah. Normal people would've felt awkward but all I was thinking was "YEEEEES CNU ON THE SCREEN". Did I mention that when I screamed it was relatively quiet? 8D

AND THE CONCERT STARTS!

First u-

OKAY LET ME WRITE ABOUT B1A4 FIRST BECAUSE I CAN'T CONTAIN IT.

JINYOUNG WAVED TO ME OKAY. HE WAS ON STAGE AND I WAS THERE AND WAVING LIKE THE CRAZY FANGIRL I WAS AND HE WAVED BACK (probably not just to me but to everyone else too BUT LET ME BELIEVE WHAT I WANT TO OKAY. HE WAVED AT MEEEEEEEEE). I COULD'VE SWORN HE WAS LOOKING AT ME WHEN HE WAVED. HONEST! REALLY REALLY REALLY HONESTLY! GAAAAAAAH SPAZZING SO HARD, THEN AND NOW. AND THEN GONGCHAN WAS DOING AEGYO ON THE STAGE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME AND I'M JUST LIKE ASDKJG;! AND THEN CNU WAS JUST... ASKFLJG;ALKFJSDLFKJA I COULD'VE JUST DIED HAPPY. SO... CLOSE...! AND BARO... I THINK WAS KING OF FANSERVICE OR SOMETHING. KEPT POSING DURING SONGS. LMAO. SANDUEL WAS... CHARMING. O_O MAYBE THAT'S JUST ME BECAUSE EVERYTHING TO ME AT THE WAS JUST.... BATHED IN WHITE LIGHT AND IF I SWITCHED OFF MY EARS I'D HEAR THAT "OOOOOOOO" SOUND LIKE IN MOVIES WHERE LIKE, ANGELS APPEAR FROM ABOVE OR SOMETHING.

OKAY. SO. THEY FIRST PERFORMED BEAUTIFUL TARGET. I TOTALLY FANCHANTED. A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED THOUGH, CAUSE... I ONLY HEARD MYSELF FANCHANTING, ESPECIALLY THE CHORUS BITS. LIKE WTH, MOST IMPORTANT PART! D: OH WELL. I DID MY BEST. SHOUTED TIL MY THROAT WAS SORE. AT THE END, YOU KNOW, WHEN THEY USUALLY DO THE SPROUT DANCE OR BASEBALL SCENE THING, THEY DID THE SPROUT DANCE! WHAT'S MORE, CNU WAS DOING IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME LIKE ZOMG I COULD'VE JUST DIED BUT THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE TO SEE THE REST OF THEIR PERFORMANCES SO I DIDN'T. THEN RIGHT AFTER THAT WAS MY LOVE. I WAS LIKE OMGOMGOMG IT'S MY LOVE OMGOMGOMOMGOMG! AND... I JUST TOTALLY FORGOT THE FANCHANTS AND PRACTICALLY SANG THE WHOLE SONG. BAHAHAHA.

After that, they talked. I... don't know what they said, to be honest. THOUGH I DID VIDEO-RECORD IT. It's scream-filled though. Like... really. All I can decipher from it was Jinyoung said something something Malaysia, CNU said something something Kuala Lumpur, and Sandeul said "We love Malaysia!" and proceeded to send us a giant heart using his arms. It was... very clearly and well spoken. ♥ And of course all of us started screaming. And Baro started fanning himself. Lol. I see that Gongchan said something too but... can't hear a thing. Actually.. all of them said a bunch of stuff which I couldn't hear properly. I think they were speaking in Korean too which... just made me not able to comprehend more. But whatever it was they said, all of us just kept on screaming. HAHAHAHA. OH OH BUT AT THE END OF IT I CAN HEAR CNU SAY "Next song is..." and I couldn't hear much. BUUUUT THEY PERFORMED ONLY LEARNED BAD THINGS NEXT SO THAT MUST BE WHAT HE SAID, RIGHT?

And lastly (IKR WHAT LASTLY? I WAS TOLD THEY'D PERFORM FIVE SONGS. FIVE! Unless I... blacked out or something at some time. I HOPE NOT.) they performed O.K.! Aaaaaaah I loved ALL of their performances. I'm not lying in the least. Being able to see all of them so up close... it was just... just... ASDIJSOIDFVSKJENRAPOJCW NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE. FOR REAL. THEY ALL LOOKED SO GORGEOUS AND REAL AND CLOSE AND RIGHT AND HNNNNNG. THEY SOUNDED UNREALISTICALLY GOOD TOO. LIKE. HOW CAN YOU SOUND SO PERFECT LIVE? LKSJDFOISNEFLKA.

I want to relive it all over again. Let me go cry now. I'll write the rest of it when I feel like it.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG WAIT THERE'S ONE MORE THING. AFTER THE END OF THE CONCERT. THE VAN. THEY WERE LEAVING. BUT THE ROAD WAS A LITTLE JAMMED. I MANAGED TO CATCH UP WITH THEM. I KINDA RAN ALONGSIDE THE VAN WHEN IT WAS MOVING (Well, it WAS moving kinda slow). AND WHEN IT STOPPED AT THIS ONE PLACE, THERE WERE'T MANY PEOPLE THERE AT ALL FOR SOME REASON AND I JUST WENT UP TO THE VAN AND WAVED LIKE A MADWOMAN WITH THIS HUGE GRIN ON MY FACE AND THEY WERE WAVING BACK AND STUFF AND GUESS HOW CLOSE I WAS TO THEIR GORGEOUS SELVES. NOT EVEN 2 METRES AWAY. LIKE. OH. MY. GAWD. STILL MENTALLY SPAZZING AT THE THOUGHT OF IT. LIKE OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG MOMENT. WANTED TO TAKE A PICTURE OR VIDEO BUT I WAS FUMBLING TOO MUCH AND I WAS JUST LIKE "WASTING TOO MUCH TIME. WILL JUST KEEP WAVING."

Every single moment I got to see these boys were the highlight of my day. If they came again, I will not hesitate to get the front most seats again for them.

Reminder to self: You were jumping up and down pretty much non-stop when they were performing. I'm sure in some people's fancams from behind you could see a jumping person. And you kept bumping into the person next to you because of your jumping. But, you apologised and he said it was no big deal so... it's alright. You continued to jump afterwards. NO REGRETS.


Nicest/Clearest picture I've taken of them. >_>
Still, my favourite would have to be the one of CNU sprout-dancing in front of me. 8DDDDDDDD

Oh my beautiful target,
You're my love.
Because of you, I didn't only learn bad things.
When I think of you, I know everything's going to be O.K.

Note to self: Nothing's better than looking at things yourself. Cameras, why you always make things look like they're so far away when they're practically RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU in real life? I will go sob now.

Labels: B1A4, MOA

Ah yeah, so I haven't even attempted to write a new blogpost in a really long time. I have thought about it, but... I couldn't bring myself to stay on this page for very long to actually publish anything. But, here I am!

And tonight, I'm going to be talking about what I've been up to recently.

I've become re-addicted to Korean pop. For real. It seems that my life revolves around it right now. Most of the friends I interact with are from the kpop fandom, and a whole lot of them don't even live in the country I'm in! So, can you deduce what I've been doing with a lot of my time?

Besides dancing to kpop at college when there's no class, it's sitting in front of the computer screen at home. Yup. Physically I may not be doing much, but boy oh boy, is my mind going on overdrive. I think about so much, and I flip through so many tabs. And when my browser lags or freezes for a bit, I panic. Okay, not really panic, but my thoughts would be something along the lines of, "Ugh, stop wasting my time! I have stuff to doooo!"

I have been bordering on (maybe even crossed the border of) obsession for this rookie kpop group, B1A4. They just debuted this April, and I've only found out about them about a month ago. But... I feel as if I've known them practically my whole life. Seriously! I don't even remember my life from before I knew about them. They're the reason I've made so many new friends, and they give me a reason to look forward to tomorrow. No kidding. Want an explanation? Alright, I'll give you one. But you better prepare yourself for the BANA (B1A4 fan) fangirl that is me you're about to face.

THEY'RE COMING TO MALAYSIA. AND I'M GOING TO SEE THEM. IN DECEMBER. AND I MIGHT BE ABLE TO MEET THEM... IN PERSON. LIKE... FACE-TO-FACE. LIKE, EYE-TO-EYE. OKAY MAYBE NOT EYE-TO-EYE BECAUSE I'M SHORT AND THEY'RE TALL BUT LIKE.... GAH. THEM IN FRONT OF ME. A MINI FANMEET. OMG. NOT SURE IF I'M MAKING ANY SENSE. I DON'T MEAN ME IN A CROWD WHILE THEY'RE ON STAGE. OF COURSE THEY'LL BE ON STAGE, AND I'LL BE IN A CROWD, BUT BUT... ZOMG. DO YOU GET WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAAAAAAY?!

...*inhale, exhale*...

There, better. Not all better, but better. I got myself a drink. :)

It's best for me to not continue talking about B1A4 right now. But you're VERY welcome to go check those adorable dorks out. ♥

Ah, I'm actually in the midst of my major examinations right now. Cambridge A Levels' AS exam. I think I have nine papers in total, and I think I've sat for five papers? I'm not sure. All I know is that I only have four more left! Yippee! In case you haven't realised, I'm not being particularly stressed by the exam. Actually, barely so. A group's songs *coughB1A4cough* have really been relieving my stress level. They're either happy and upbeat, or just plain inspirational. I love all of their songs so much. And I mean all. ALL. Don't question me.

Ah, my real life (i.e. not virtual or through the net) friends have been really great to me too. I love each and every one of them. ♥ And... there's this one girl whom I've known for a few years now, through the net. We chat a lot, and I guess you could sorta call us penpals? But I feel that we're so close, I can call her my 'real life' friend :) THIS IS FOR YOU MEL!

So... thank you everyone who's been around. Even those of you who think you aren't close to me, you probably still helped in some way; you just don't know it. Even people I know who don't know me have helped me get through the day, so why is it so far fetched that you didn't? :) Thank you!

"You zoom zoom my heart
Like a rocket"
- Beautiful Target, B1A4

Oh yeah, and I've been really active on Tumblr lately. All I do is reblogging though :D Link to the left!

College studies will begin tomorrow. Some of my friends are already starting to feel the stress, because just looking at the timetable gives you a very good idea of how much you'll be studying each day. Which is quite a whole lot.

Before I go on about college, friends, life and whatnot, I'd like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest father ♥ It is a day too late by the time I type this out though, cause it's past midnight. Still, it's the thought that counts. Happy birthday Daddy, on this joyous date, 11.1.11!

So, about college, life and the whatnot I mentioned before. The past two days were us freshies' orientation days. We were talked to about... just about everything to do with the campus. Which is a whole lot, I'll tell you that.

Right now... I still haven't- what do you call it- settled down(?) yet. There are still problems with transportation. I have trouble finding a way to go there, and I have trouble finding a way to get back too. Sigh. Why aren't teleportation devices used widely yet?

And... to be honest, I'm not liking some of my friends very much right now. I might be a hypocrite sometimes, but then again, most people are, whether they like it or not, and whether they know it or not. What I'm going to say will probably make me a hypocrite as well, but... this is where I get to say it all right? I think sometimes, my friends can be a bit insensitive. I know I've been insensitive too in the past, but if you knew, you'd try to reduce your level of insensitivity to a minimum, right? Insensitivity hurts, whether you are aware of it or not.

I talked to Yu Jin, who has currently become my confidante, and I do say I feel much better. I hope I didn't talk bad, but just stated the situations as they were. I do try to point things out and look at things objectively because I know that I can't always be right and I could very well be the one in the wrong.

I think that's enough for now. Tomorrow (or today, whichever way you wanna see it), on my first day of classes, I will be having Math, Economics and Further Maths, in that order! And the day after that, I'll be leaving for Japan, to return on Monday and resume classes on Tuesday.

Do leave a comment in my c-box or comment on the post, I'd love to hear from whoever it is that reads my posts. x3 Thank you, have a nice day!

It's just that
I get hurt too,
no matter if I show it or not
and no matter if you know it or not.

I'm talking about the desktop buddies shimeji! :D Heehee. Right now, I have two Naruto climbing the sides of my screen. They're so adorableeeee. They can run, climb, sit and split to form another. xD You can also pick them up to fling them around. Totally cute.

Hey wait. Now they're both walking along the top of my screen :D I will take a screenshot to show you guys just how cute they are.

Click on the image to view the full-size image :] I picked one Naruto up and let him fall for the screenshot. For show. And 'cause it's so cute. 83

I have quite a few types of shimeji, actually- not just Naruto. Here, I'll show you.



So many, right?! Hahaha. What do you think of this shimeji thing? :D

I am contemplating how much I should reveal here :O Ooooh, secrecy.

I arrived back home from prom 'bout an hour and a half ago. I've only attended one prom my whole life, but as far as an event goes, it was awesome. I had a great time. Seriously. It's not not that great because I didn't capitalize the great. I just don't feel like capitalizing stuff right now.

What played a really big part in me having such a great time was Bryan Wong. My friend-date. :D Oh my gosh, he is like, the ultimate gentleman. Well, to me anyway. If I'm not going to marry him and have his babies I need to find, date and marry someone like him. Seriously. I have my standards up SO high right now. Hahaha, call me lovestruck if you want to. I even told my mom about my little crush on him o_o She had better not tell any of her friends about this! She spreads stuff like... fire on base of an oil-covered dehydrated tree!

Mhmm yeah. Let me get straight to the points. Car arrives. Mom opens gate. He walks to the door I exit from to escort me to the car. He opens the door. I get in. He closes door. He gets in from other side. At the table, he pulls out my seat for me. He gets a plate of frutis for... me. And my friends. And himself. I dunno any more.

It may not sound much when I type it all out like this, but if you're a girl like me, and experienced all of that done for you by a guy, you will be, like, overwhelmed. And feel oh so flattered. And feel like 'How on Earth am I gonna find another guy like this?!' Yup. That is what went/is going through my brain.

Besides my lovely friend-date, my friends! Noy much to say here. They're all such awesome people. At my table was, clockwise, Grace, Wei Lin, Ying Ying, Lay Shang, Sangeetha, Alif, Leanna, Bryan and I. I might've mixed up the order a little, but it's no big deal. Of course, my friends who contributed to the great time I had were not limited to just those siting with me at the table. There are simply too many to name, probably because... it was just about everyone who made the time I spent so great.

Then there were the performances. Surprise, surprise! Never thought that Anthea, May Gee and Hui Jing would dance on stage! They danced to the Korean girl group Wonder Girl's Nobody. The song choice wasn't a surprise though, as they're devoted k-pop fans. Then there was Ming Keat and his Michael Jackson impersonation dance. Gosh, it was good! Like, really good! Never knew he could do stuff like that. There were other performances as well, like Clement singing and guitar-playing, Victor and Jeremy... with more music, Hui Jing (yes, again) on the piano with one of her favourite songs River Flows With You or something like that, Choon Weng and Yee Ing on the piano with... this really popular piece which I do not remember the name of, and the traditional Chinese yo-yo performance. I hope I didn't leave anything out.

Aaaand games! Hahaha, this'll be great fun to tell. So! I can proudly say I participated in the first competition held. Woo, yeah! Girls vs Guys. 2 on 2. 2 1.5L bottles of 100Plus. Girls with a 5 second head start. I was first to drink, but the moment the MC called out "1 Mississippi, 2, Mississippi..." I kinda burst out and sprayed... someone/some people. I'm not sure. It was funny, okay! My friend/partner didn't think so, but I did! The competition was still on, so we chugged down the gassy drink. Lost to the boys by like what, 30ml? Okay, people who do not want to read about gross-ish stuff, please jump to the next paragraph. So after the winners were declared, I immediately felt.. something trying to get outta my stomach through the northern exit. Thought it was just wind, y'know. Apparently it was barf. But... it didn't like, taste bad. So I went to the washroom to dispose of what was in my mouth right. But the moment I opened my mouth, everything that was in my stomach all got lurched out. I felt completely fine. Felt like I was never sick at all. But my breath stunk. Went back to the table with some fruits, the natural... breath fresheners.

At the end of the event, there was a dance off. As with most... events like this. Haha. Had a fun time swinging my head back and forth and back and forth. And swinging my hips back and forth and back and forth. It was just fuuuun. Put your hands in the aaaaair and waaaave and... anything you wanna do. Got a little dizzy, cause the lights were uber dim, but I didn't fall over in my super high heels so everything's all right! ...My heels aren't that high and dangerous when compared to other girls'. Still, the tallest heels I've ever worn. Mainly danced with Grace and Petunlia. Somewhere, some time on the dance floor we danced with Farrah, Amalia, Leanna, Hui Jing and Chay Lee. And a few other people here and there.

If you are not interested in a fairly girlish account full of squeals and OMGs and nonsense, the post ends here. If you are, for some reason, interested, read on.

Aaaaaaand the slow dance! Wooooooo! Who else would I have slow danced to with other than my friend-date, Bryan? That's a rhetorical question. Don't have to answer that. So. We slow danced. For the second time in... two years! Okay, that doesn't sound like much. BUT LOOK AT IT THIS WAY. I've only ever slow danced twice in my life. And both with him. IS THAT NOT LIKE, FATE? ...Lol kidding. I'm just a schemer. Then again, that's not it either. First was like, coincidence, second was like... accidentally on purpose? Didn't know there was gonna be slow dancing. But it's a prom. I don't know what I was thinking, okay.

SO YEAH WE SLOW DANCED. Teeheehee. It was a little... awkward? But just ever so slightly. Because I am short/average. And he is tall/average. Mhmm. Had to stretch to put my hands 'round the back of his neck. Figured that if I moved closer, we wouldn't be comfortable. Personal space, man. So in the end I just sorta left my hands behind his shoulders. You probably don't care about that, anyway. And we talked. The talking was okay. Didn't think it was awkward. I think we were right in front of the speakers though. So we had to lean forward to talk most of the time. Have I mentioned it was uber dim? Rings a bell? Yeah. So when I try to look at him while I talk... or something, it's like 'Can barely see. Is he looking here? OH I THINK HE IS. WHAT NOW.' Hahaha, yuuup. It was just lots of fun.

♥ Prom
♥ Being a girl
♥ Gentlemen

P.S.
1. Based on the way practically cling on to him (AND ALMOST LITERALLY CLING, IN ONE PICTURE), I am surprised that he still... sorta hangs with me. Not that we do much hanging in the first place. I mean, has he not caught on about my crush infatuation? Or has he, but is too kind to do anything? A truly kind person then. :o

2. Infatuation: An inside joke with reference to this post.

3. Pictures coming soon! Gotta steal get them from my friends first.