this came quickly...

today was my last day of college.
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pwwwwwwwww! (me blowing my bangs up)

my last post was on september 24 so this blog is obviously not a great representation of what's happening in my life. and so many fun things happened this semester! and in the last 4 years!...
weird.

go cougs!!?
i guess sign me up for my alumni email and that's that. i feel pretty equally excited and anxious about the future and weird/sad about my departure.
i will miss my life here. it's been FUN! i love(d) it.
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pwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhh

think of it

what if i went here....



to see this...



and get this tattoo....



with this guy....




.....wouldn't THAT be a wonderful thing?

bck2skuul

well hell's bells. it's almost that time of year again. school starts on monday and i couldn't be more delighted/anxious. at the end of every summer there's a moment when i realize that everything i planned to accomplish during the summer has only been halfway or not at all completed, and then i get sad. BUT! there are a lot of reasons to get excited for fall semester:
1. it's my last semester at BYU (not freaking out....YET)/i will be a college grad
2. elder bost returns at thanksgiving
3. madeline and kev will be my new colleagues at work - surprise reason! yay!
4. i want to learn!
5. school is easier than the real world?
6. i'm talking about leaves: red, orange, gold
7. i'm hoping to cross some things off my bucket list: stand-up routine, guest jam with up-and-coming glam rock band, and MORE
8. i will still have friends and not be looking for data entry jobs in ol' rva... YET
9. my low-key birthday party

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9 solid reasons to be excited are enough for this girl. but until then there are still SUMMERTHINGS to be excited about!!!:
1. 2nite is She & Him in salt lake for free. well, for zero dollars.
2. i do nothing but what i WANT to do when i get off work today at noon.
3. i can still blog at work for now without feeling too guilty
4. i love summer

let's make this weekend great, everybody!

did you think about that?

oh lauryn. i think we're soul sisters. and i miss you. god bless.

cradle of filth

nothing in the world is so disgusting to me as porn. it is EVERYWHERE and it's making me feel weird because i don't even think about it when i see it anymore (in ads, on tv, etc). it ruins lives. i want to be part of its DESTRUCTION! i HATE it! GAHHHAKLS;DKJFAL
i was just feeling terrible because i just watched this short film called "Sexy, Inc" about hypersexualization in media everywhere and how it is causing little kids to be pushed not only into adulthood, but into freaky-deak adulthood wayyyy too fast. it was so gross watching these 10 year old kids sing along to Akon's "smack that" and watching commercials for Bratz Babyz dolls which are exactly as gross as they sound - infant dolls wearing panties and belly shirts, heavily made-up in mascara and lip gloss, while talking on their baby cell phones - IN THEIR CARSEATS. "uh yeah... hello? yeah no i'm still a BABY"

what!i just want to know why the world is so awful. and not that i'm going to have kids anytime soon but this makes me never want to. or at least pull a Lehi and move everyone into the wilderness so they don't have to be part of that. but you can't do that! or they will get weird and you will too.

i want to reverse the obsession this planet has with sex! the movement needs a leader! anyone? oprah?

ME?

maybe me.

devo time

in the spirit of using my mind creatively and efficiently this summer/and in paying more attention to what i think about all day long, here are some good scriptures:

1. D&C 88: 124
   124 Cease to be ^aidle; cease to be ^bunclean; cease to ^cfind fault one with another; cease to ^dsleep longer than is needful; retire to thy bed early, that ye may not be weary; arise early, that your bodies and your minds may be ^einvigorated.
2. D&C 43: 34
   34 Hearken ye to these words. Behold, I am Jesus Christ, the ^aSavior of the world. ^bTreasure these things up in your hearts, and let the ^csolemnities of ^deternity ^erest upon your ^fminds.
3. Matt. 22: 37
   37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt ^alove the Lord thy God with all thy ^bheart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy ^cmind.
4. 1 Chr. 28: 9
   9 ¶ And thou, Solomon my son, know thou the God of thy father, and serve him with a ^aperfect heart and with a willing mind: for the Lord ^bsearcheth all hearts, and ^cunderstandeth all the imaginations of the thoughts: if thou ^dseek him, he will be found of thee; but if thou forsake him, he will cast thee off for ever.

some things to think about/apply:

- how do i love God with all my mind?
- how can i keep an eternal perspective every day?
- what things can i do to invigorate my mind?

also, i've been getting e-newsletters from the White House....and i think i'm going to send a BOM to President Barack Obama. has anybody thought about that? probably?! what are we waiting for?!!

2ndly, i'm so excited for my first 4th of july in provo, the heart of america. summer has been real good so far.

U-S-A! U-S-A!

develop a negative into a positive picture

some questions i have been asking myself just now, in order:

1. Why don't I write more? I have a blog...I say I like writing...
   
2. What if I am not a passionate person?
3. What does that even mean? I like things!
4. Why do I want to be that? Or care if other people think I'm passionate?
5. Who am I?

awful. i'm going to read.

blerg!

the title of my last post is reminding me of my poetry class this past winter when we got our first assignment - to write an original poem following specific guidelines - and i thought mine was so great but my teacher tore it apart (rightly) and picked out all the weird metaphors that made no sense and had a billion and one cliches. for someone that purports to love words and language, i use cliches sooooo much. not just in writing but in my everyday speech. i think it's because if i find a ready-made phrase that i think is funny, it becomes easy to pull from my brain at any moment, and it usually works to make me smile pretty easily. here are some examples of how i am stuck in word ruts: and not all of these are necessarily ready-made phrases to everyone, but even still:
i'll say things like: "nutso", "freaky friday", "bummerwolf", "goodnight nurse", "oh, hell", "poop" as an exclamation, "whatthup" and "yeth" - always with the lisp. and i put R's into words a lot, for example: my roommate Whitney becomes Whiterney, hello > herro, etc....

in retrospect, it's funny that i thought some of those were cliches. also funny that those are the words i realize i say most often after claiming to love language. BUT STILL - i overuse words. i should be more creative.
it's weird how the sayings/vocab we use everyday comes together. my past and future roommate madeline was ALWAYS quoting movies. we would laugh all the time at borrowed/ appropriated phrases - "farging bastiches!" - "speak engrish!" - "go away, read some books".

living in close quarters with people almost makes you the same person because you develop inside jokes, or you just listen to them and pick up on their idiosyncracies and adopt them. it's fun! and creepy.
i am at work and my friend jacob just came by and i told him what i was writing about and he said one of the exclamations he always uses is: "H. Peterson!"

???!!!

soaring on to new horizons

the rate that i update this blog is making it seem like i have a boring life. but i submit that it is only sometimes boring for me, but mostly busy and pleasant. and i really do feel a lot of urgency to be doing great and worthwhile things - specifically becoming the person i always wanted to be - because it seems like my life is hurdling toward a climax in the form of me being done with college (in august or december?) and getting a job and moving away from provo and dating william again and so on and so forth. who knows how any of it will work out but i will say that i am more excited than worried, which is unusual since i am normally queen of worry city, usa. i feel real optimistic and very grateful.



and now i want to be done, but even this post was boring! only god can judge me!
some nice/funny things that happened today at least:
- darci drove me and chelsey, whitney, jasie, whitney, and ma'ila home from church today. chelsey and i sat in the very back and made faces out the window.
- still feeling kind of sick/congested but sang with choir "lead kindly light" to much rejoicing
- watched "mansfield park" with whiterney and ma'ila. i loved it.
- tea time at 9 we saw: tb, garrett porter, greg c, katy, ma'ila's brother jon and wife corinna. a good crowd and a good time.

GOOD NIGHT

best of 2009

- road trip to san fran and seeing maderin
- women's studies 222
- 1st summer in p'twon -iron and wine, gelato, long bike ride, mt timp, reading, my own room
- grandma's 90th bday bash
- eng 373
- wilderness writing and my first stitches
- stained glass
- poly dance
- reading poetry with roomies. a little billy collins before bed.
- one year mark
- floating provo river on my birthday
- more that i forget now

a good year.

feeling blah

blah blah blah