Friday, January 28, 2011
1:00 AM
Something I pondered about :)
Wow...it has really been that long :p I suddenly had the urge to write something to remind myself and I diden want to put it on facebook coz everyone will see it and I dont wish to attract too much attention. I was watching the latest edition of American Idol and honestly, I think its more fun with the new judges (although it seems dat pple get thru to hollywood more easily, but I doubt that is too much of a problem).
They featured a story about this 28 year old guy who was engaged and sang really well. He was happily engaged to a really pretty girl and was about to be married in two months time when she got into an accident and fell into a coma. She came out of the coma but suffered multiple disorders...she couldnt walk, lost her ability to control her facial features and even had some form of Alzheimer...u noe ur limbs juz keep shaking all the time. It was so so sad...and the guy continued to care for her and they had to postpone the wedding. But what made me tear was wen he said: "What kind of guy am I if I leave her at a time when she needs me the most?" And he smiled very nonchantly...like this is my duty and I accept it.
And I realized that if I am unable to reach that form of unconditional love (or even close to it), then I am not ready at all...Time will heal and time will tell, yes indeed.
Just to add a lil bit more, on the way to sch this morning my sis asked me what kind of girl I liked. you know...long hair or short hair...and so on. Then she asked: "would you walk in front of ur partner or side by side". Straight away, I said side by side although not convincingly and she was saying..."but u shd be leading her!"And then it struck me...in the past, when I walked with my partner, for some reason I always ended up behind her and many a times she would look back and ask why I walk so slow? You know, when u walk behind someone, you would see dat person...now it strangely appears that I'm "checking her out". But it cant be, there muz be something sub-conscious too. And I realized this...which I told my sis:
"I walk behind her because I don't want to leave her behind." :) I learnt something about me today :)
.sincera fazzy.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
10:10 PM
9 DaysIt was the first in a long long while I fell sick. And it has been a terrible 9 days (at least for 6 days) - non stop coughing and fever that never seemed to go below 37.6. Having gone to the doctor thrice, he diagnosed suspected H1N1 and 'advised' me not to go around spreading the bug. In some ways, its a good thing its the hols coz i was totally unproductive for the most of the days...but it wasnt really good timing as well. Its like right smack in the middle of dzaki and syikin's wedding! The first kambingzzz to get married! I couldnt make it to the nikah and only attended just syikin's side (at least I managed to fulfil the bride's request to grace her wedding wif silat...she booked me like dunno from super long ago to come and do silat pengantin haha). And since we needed more pple, hakim and fazli came to 'blajar' under my blk at 12 midnite b4 the big day! hahaa muk, naz ngan azmeer dtg sibuk2 comment2 tapi action malu tk nak buat.
I think i really got depressed on sunday when I couldnt get myself out of bed to grace the ocassion. So...even without managing to go...you guys know my heartiest blessings and congratulations to the two of you! :D
And the rest of the week just passed by with me doing absolutely nothing apart from chatting, sleeping, eating medicine, coughing, watching tv, sleeping again....annd i missed the silat trip to batam. Another sigh. But a silver lining in the horizon....im finally back up and walking (not running yet :p) my mum warned me not to overwork myself, so did KJ and everybody else hehehe so lastly thank you you...for tolerating my noncessant coughing and being the caring and sweet you :)
.sincera fazzy.
Monday, September 14, 2009
12:46 AM
Random MusingsI think as we grow older, blogging seems less significant haha :p (budden maybe its juz me). Anyhow, its pretty tiring doing this masters programme...constantly thinking and worrying abt thesis la abt tutoring la abt modules la...sometimes you just feel like you wanna let go. And I tink my proposed thesis supervisor is literally throwing me into the water and making me swim, but at least he still throws me a buoy, not b4 i almost drown...but sufficiently enuff to see me struggle and try to be resourceful by finding a plank to hold on 2 or make a float from my pajamas pants (last time wen i learn to swim, making floats from pajamas pants was part of survival tests!) in a way..im learning to be resourceful
I had a K2P iftar last week and it was great to see everyone's lives going smoothly (albeit government jobs ahahahaha) and as usual we HAD to have a crazy video :p and before that was the kambingz iftar...dat one....everyone's getting married! hahaa im happy for dem...we are all getting old! but the strangest part of it.....pple are talking abt BTOs, CPFs, cars, mas kahwin, hantaran, the quirks of teaching.....erm all i can offer is im still schooling :p
for now, at least im doing wad i like :) but its a sad weekend...arsenal lost!
.sincera fazzy.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
11:54 PM
Two Month Hiatus
I just diden feel like blogging hehe but much has happened since....highly significant no doubt :) from IVP to results to graduation to birthdays to visions to camps and performances teas and dinners. A whole lot that happened and a whole lot of pictures full with memories with friends and loved ones...No matter whether I achieved what I wanted or I missed out, I truly can never ask for more :)
Two months hiatus but Im always around....always thinking...always reflecting...always trying. :)
.sincera fazzy.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
10:44 PM
The 'Silly' Adventures of Mag-Wan-To, Laughin' Buda', Pak 'Aji, Sinseyyyy and Dagu-boy (11-16 May 09)
After many many months of painstaking planning, LTTA (a new travel agency) has made our trip worthy of remembrance (ni seme just dramatic effect haha) So it was a good 6 days in Jogjakarta and Bandung with lots of eventful happenings e.g. rushing for planes, seeing a student protest LIVE, getting up close and personal (almost) with SBY's convoy in Bandung, video commentaries in Tangkuban Perahu, Gunung Merapi, Borobudur and a political discussion at the back seat of the car about indonesian elections :p
Day 1
We checked into Hotel Phoenix, a lavish 5-star hotel that has a colonial feel to it :) And had our 1st Indonesian meal....something like ayam penyet but much much cheaper and sedaap! We dapat naik kuda and beca too! The beca was scary hahaha coz me naz and wan squeeze into a seat for two...and we almost went headon with a motor!!! Haha a 2-hr wayang kulit performance and a pizza supper!
Day 2
We were bosses for the day! We hired a driver to drive us around and he was a very very nice guy...very accomodating and friendly. We went into the depths of the Sultan's palace grounds (Kraton), his water castle and then Borobudur! Ahhh byk camwhore! haha but we learnt lots of its history from our guide and tried unsuccessfully many jump shots :p and the long trip to gunung merapi was worth it......we reached exactly in time for sunset :)
Day 3
A transit day....flight from Jogja to Jakarta and a frantic search for the most convenient transportation to Bandung. We finally enlisted the help of the customer service who liaised for us a minivan Primajasa to take us there for a rather affordable price. 3 hrs later and aching butts, we reached our 4-star hotel, much to our disappointment hahahaha coz the room was so ordinary :p BUT the good news......the weather was awesome!
Day 4
Up and early.....but was raining! And rained all the way to Tangkuban Perahu....it was super cold and wet and windy and we tried making a video...action kite kat himalayas coz of the conditions and the surrounding area....alas we were deprived of doing so coz the locals there refused to let us shiok sendiri! hahahaha the rest of the day was spent shopping, going to Daarut Tauhid which had a lovely mosque and eating hehehe
Day 5
Shopping Day part 2! But b4 dat, azmeer me and naz went for a swim and played ninja warrior! Me n azmeer cleared stage 1 but nazri failed on his 1st attempt. Tkpe lah...there is always nez year! And at the factory outlet....perempuan pon kalah ahhaha as we tried many2 baju and spent 3 hrs there! den coz of dat we had to cut short some of our later plans :p
Day 6
Batik Day....and Home Sweet Home (of coz there was a mad rush in the morn coz we woke up late!)
.sincera fazzy.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
11:31 PM
One PaperYou know, everywhere I go these days....the 1st question that pple ask is....When is your next paper? And 2nd question...When you finish? So normally I would say I start and end on the 8th
of May. Now the next question would be...What are YOU doing in school? :p
Well apart from being a nerd, I think I have done my fair share of catching up....I think i spend more time in school walking ard, talking to pple (or to them, im disturbing haha coz i only got 1 paper) having long breakfasts and lunches and having tea with the soci peeps. So yes I tink its been a fruitful week...well of coz wad is fruitful is subjective (recall Mannheim).
With Visions, silat coming up.....sigh im gonna continue being bz during the hols. I might want to take up relief teaching as well hahaha just as a form of 'practice' come August insya Allah :) Well i just completed the 2 Alatas's and Orientalism...superb reads although i keep dozing off :p the motivation for this last paper is horrendous. I tink thesis has sapped so much energy from me that I dun feel the urge to want to do well. Maybe it will come next week hehe nearing the sole exam. For now, i shall try to 'keep fit' jogging :p and yes definitely looking forward to that 6 day trip to indonesia!
Some pics from our 1st ever family bowling among the cousins! haha i guess my family isnt as close-knit as some. But yea this was indeed an enjoyable experience :)
the girl cousins..........and below, the guys :p
.sincera fazzy.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
3:57 PM
6th April Hangover :)I think this will be a short one...but symptomatic of the pleasant surprises on my birthday hehe thank you all for the 1/2 u spent waiting for me to come and singing me a birthday song and cutting the delicious oreo cheesecake...i noe i noe you all purposely nvr wish me the whole day so yep a very2 nice celebration and surprise :) and to YOU for making it all possible. A memorable 25th indeed. And to my sis, i shall TRY acting and looking my age haha but cant promise!
YAY!!!
.sincera fazzy.
