Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction
'Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are






And it's a beautiful mess, yes it is.


[nice song! (:]

bio bio bio!

盼望有一天能找到这么一个人

让我毫不保留地向他倾诉生活的种种
让我不厌其烦地聆听他的心声
无聊时，我们随时都可以出去喝杯咖啡(虽然我不喝咖啡)
伤心无助时，总是有彼此的陪伴
偶尔分享着生活的点点滴滴，一起寻找人生的乐趣
结伴去旅游，享受着不被生活压力束缚着的自由

这不是爱情. 不需多花什么心思营造什么气氛
这也不是普通朋友的社交，不需保留一点隐私，前顾后盼的，深怕多泄漏了一些不为人知的秘密

是真挚的友情，不管是同性好友或是异性好友。
只要能静静坐在你身旁，一句话都不多说就能从你的心跳，感觉到你心里在想什么。

一个人生旅途中求之不得的人物
一个知己. 一个知心的好朋友




你在那里？

飘着.




飞不进你梦中 偷一点感受
飞不回原来我 冰冷的躯壳
就这样漂浮着
悲伤的穿梭
感觉掏空 灵魂不在了
爱情突然失重


在飘着.

please don't take my sunshine away.

figured out the song list!

hope i don't screw the recordings.
but anw its after exams so. gaaaahhh.

bye.

fading into the background.

HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW













i'm just not strong enough.

the night's long.


and cold.
and dark.
and....







sometimes i hear the stars sigh.


bullshit. haha

ulcers = pain!



i'm dreading it whenever i hear my clock ticking..
or just checking my watch.
every single moment, time is lost.
and CT'S ARE COMING AHHHHHHHHHHH!
haha siao. :P


read a few blogs.
hmm.

i'm glad everyone's leading good life! (:

and everything changed.
everyone.
every moment...

forgotten.

i'm glad? i'm glad.

Ouch.


my teeth hurts /:
must be the ice cream i tried to finish in a hurry just now..

anyway I HATE MATH!
hai its not much of a new thing anw look up there at my url..
oh well. one week left.

just. DO DO DO DO DOOOOOOOOO haha.
i'm rly a slacker most of the time.
lets see what i can make out of this week..

been trying to ..... in e toilet.
hahaha. nevermind i shan't tell you (:
[just dont think too much -.-]


whoooooosh i def wanna go kbox after CTs.
anw JIAYOU to the singaporean still in xing guang comp!
though i don't know you, jiayou haha.
wow....so cool to be on that stage..
oh well tts abit too far i guess.
now just. be happy and sing for fun hahaha.
(:


is this blogskin rly v girly?
i really didn't realise.
maybe i just don't really care much about it anyway
i just like things to be simple haha.


我們都沒說那遙遠的曾經
我們也沒提故事的原因
青春的復刻回憶像一片云
沒法子抓在手里


我們的眼淚在復習著過去
我們的微笑是彼此的氧氣
復刻的回憶是封掛信號
多遠都可以找到你

...多遠都可以找到你

i think.
i've learnt so much from one person today.

the kind of...inert fighting spirit.
the "never say die" kind of feeling you look into those eyes.
that optimistic but focused and forward-looking attitude.

makes me really wanna fight for something.
feel so hyped up right now. haha.

even if you may not read this.
i'd like to dedicate this thanks to you.



(:

give me strength and courage.
move on.

And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me....


But I never said I would
I guess I’m gonna miss my chance again.



i wish i could write a song like that.
or even sing it that well. haha.
oh well. bye.

故事發生了便住下了　不管好的壞的
你讓我成長了　就算是痛得值得.


i'm back from yltc! (:
don't think i grew tanner...sian.
at least i don't have a "glove tan" or a "thigh tan" anymore haha.
saw some ppl going home with watch tans and shirt tans and tiger striped tans! hahaha eee.

"it's not about how good you are. it's about how good you wanna be"

wouldn't say yltc stretched my limits.
afterall, i went through far worse things at OBML.
but still the activities were fun i guess. i love our APOLLO THIRTEEN(: [i named our raft after building it. HAHA]
kayaking was a disappointment cos it rained and we were hesitating how far we should go...but i'm happy we still went in despite the downpour(: partnered gim siang(sp?) who hit my head with the paddle THREE TIMES. LOL. and his legs were stretched out so long it was kicking my butt ): hahahaha i really wanted to partner a girl cos it'll be so much easier to squeeeeeze. still....hai. haha it was the first time i'm actually sitting in the front of the kayak. cool. but it was harder to paddle because gim siang kept steering! and i kept paddling forward...so i wasted so much energy paddling for nth -.-" and our "mo4 qi3" totally sucks hahaha oh well. ITS OVER. haha i liked our weirdly shaped "SOS" in the middle of the river haha. it was really tough while we went through all the communication but still we did it. short and sweet(:
the paddling and scooping up of waterbombs thrown in the river by the instructors and the motor boat was absolutely TERRIBLE!!! /:
had to keep paddling and paddling to follow their trail and chase after them to grab waterbombs floating about in the water. haha it felt like catching. only harder to control and taking a much longer time -.-"


apollo apollo apollo!
our design was simple. but it proved itself to be equally strong and durable haha.
it not only brought our grp across the river..it also helped the other grp across!! cos their design was abit screwed so...haha its okay we're all in the same grp anyway! it was pretty funny when we first started with 5 ppl hahaha keith had to hold the raft down if not it'll flip and the ppl on it will fall off. haha decided on 3 ppl in the end and 2 will paddle and the back person do the steering. Myline's grp was the funniest cos she was steering and screaming and the same time it was amusing hahaha! she's THAT funny. lol and noisy. i was with haoqing and keith and walao they decided to capsize when we were almost reaching the shore! ): hahaha but oh well i like the feeling in the water anyway hahaha.

OH! and keith did something to myline which i shall not blog about. HAHA. i think after the incident, keith wanted to make up for it so he was like helping myline through the hike haha tsk. and they chose to "marry" each other. hoho! too much information!! ok i shall stop here (:



Night walk!
paired with chenchel. she's pretty brave i guess i saw alot of girls grabbing the arms of their guy partners haha but chenchel was simply...cool and calm. hahaha it wasn't really v bad la at least we could still see our hands haha. we were supposed to be walking in separate pairs but me and chenchel caught up with the pair in front which was keith and dilshaad. it was really funny listening to them crapping abt each other and i saw keith grabbing dilshaad's arm instead HAHA it was really v funny hahaha.


many other activities done la but i'm tired to elaborate already..............
in conclusion, 4 days were...ups and downs but i'm proud to be a berjayian and proud of my group berjaya! even though other groups or certain people may put us down but we're proud of what we have achieved and we worked united as one!

"it's the greatest gift after all the hardship. Friends. "

came back and bathed and rushed out again for the qm rehearsal.
i sang super shitty! i think i ruined my voice after all the cheering and shouting..
the semi's is two days later. i still have time and i'll try my best. JIAYOU! (:

"the one that touches the heart...is another heart."

i think i've lost my gan3 dong4 for songs quite abit this year because...i also don't know. but i'm determined to find it back!

anyway if you're wondering why i put lyrics on top...it's the part of the lyrics of this song i like most. there are two albums i really want to buy right now. Jason Mraz and Lin You Jia Yoga. maybe i should persuade my mum once she's back from taiwan or something..oh well haha.

k i'm feeling abit tired. shall go slp again. HAHA. bye(:


離開時別忘了　看看眼前的人
流淚記住了　







還是微笑祝福著...