In all honesty, humanly speaking, it's been very tough. Strings of situations coming on like waves, before you could breathe you come under another. I think I have never had it any tougher than this - from home, to school to ministry. It would be so easy to just hide under this mass of junk and wallow in all my tiredness and emotions and let it eat me up on the inside.
But somehow, something in me doesn't allow me to do so. In all the small situations that God has carried me through, He has been shaping and strengthening the core of my being. I know I'm stronger than I used to be, stronger than I ever thought I could be.
I'm no iron woman, neither is my heart made of stone. I hurt and cry, but pick myself up knowing God will not give me more than I can bear. As much as the thought of these situations can be overwhelming, when I'm put through it His strength overtakes and carries me through.
Just when it seems like a situation will swallow you up like a tidal wave, He comes and hide you under His wings. It's such a beautiful picture isn't it? Yet a lot of times, we run away when we see the incoming waves and go under even before we really encounter it. We allow the mere thought of it to inject fear into our hearts that paralyze us; we wallow in all that emotions that doesn't move you ahead.
We need to learn to trust in the promises of God and just who He has proven Himself to be - faithful, loving, Abba Father. That should give the courage and strength to come head-on with not just a wave, even a tsunami - what's that to our big God?
When you walk through deep waters you will not drown, that's what He promised. You will be surfing above those waves, having a whale of a time! He will never give you more than you can bear, even if it looks like more than what you can bear.
Trust.
