Hold My Hands in Yours

Bury my head between my knees,
Close my eyes and begin to pray.

'Dear God, I know you hear me,
I know you listen as I pray.
You see my needs, and my every desire
even before I lift them up to You.

You know my every struggle,
You rejoice with my every breakthrough.
You catch the tears that fall,
You lift me through every obstacle.
This time is no exception, I know You're still here.

You'll give me strength when I am weak,
You'll carry me when I grow weary.
You'll light my way when darkness falls
You're my hope at the end of the tunnel.

I'm going against the current,
I'm taking the narrow way of Yours.
Uncertainty may fog out my vision,
Weariness may slow me down,
But I'm not about to lose this hope,
Instead, I'll cling on even tighter
to the Author and Finisher of my faith.

Cling on to all Your promises oh Lord,
Your faithfulness, love and goodness.

And when I feel all alone in this journey to eternity,
Lift my eyes to see Your expression of love on that boundless sky,
Orchestrate the oceans to sing a love song.
Turn my head to see Your faithful footsteps beside mine,
Remind me, You've kept my hand in Yours

You Told Me Who I Am

Last Wednesday, I met up with my secondary school dance gfs for dinner and a real good catch up over dinner. Met at Vivo, and girls being girls, were all late (except Yilei who was exceptionally early). We gave up the idea of having another steamboat after those we had from CNY, and settled for Mussel Guys instead. The food was not mouth watering, just average. But the few hours seated in there, talking about everything under the sun (more of them and their boyfriends :S) made the night enjoyable. Although we haven't met in a long while, but we talked and laughed like graduation was not too long ago. The phototaking at the playground was the highlight of the night, we laughed, played, and snapped memories for safekeeping.

I remember how we all looked silly together dressed in loud costumes and powdered in heavy makeup last time. How we screamed during stretchings and warm-ups, not forgetting how hard we all laughed when Felice accidentally threw her socks at our instructress. Haha, now I kind of miss those dance days. Yes, Chinese dance is so, cheena. But it was who you danced with that makes the difference. Plus, it wasn't all that bad okay! So another girly, 'cheena' meetup soon please:)

You Loved A People Undeserving

Yay, I haven't officially wished you yet, have I? Happy Chinese New Year:) I'm super growing fat and lazy from this festive season can! Haha, I think I fell asleep at all my relatives' place:S It's like an auto body clock that switches off during the holidays. Quick to switch off, hard to recover!

So, I'm sure CNY has been good to you, since its been extremely good to me. Heh, I had my fill of bahkwas and all the (yummy) goodies:) Thank God, I haven't fallen sick, it's only by God's grace. I always enjoy the once in a year meet-ups and treasure those times. I'm already looking forward to this season next year. Haha!

There's been a lot of work to do lately and it's been keeping me occupied. Haha, more often then not, when I'm overloaded with work, I don't really know where to start:S Often ends me up in hot soup because at the end of the day, I'll get nothing done and stress out and break out. I wished I had a personal assistant. Haha, anyone?

A thousand and one thing has been on my mind. Haha, sometimes it feels very much of a whirlpool. I have a head heavy with thoughts; don't worry it's not bad just that sometimes, I can't really straigthen them out. Then I'll get all forgetful, that's why I have a handphone calendar, desktop calendar and a physical planner.

So much has been going on, in this little mind of mine. How I wish for a getaway, on my own. Spend all my time waiting on God and sorting out the things that has been going on. That'd be perfect. I'm not asking for long, 2 days will be fine:) No work, no calls, no outside world. Just me, and my King.

Life Dance

When life's melody plays
I'll rise to take the stage
With a double spin and a leap
I'll indulge in the limelight
Swollen with pride and glory
The risen platform was mine to call

With unguided steps
These feet will take me in every direction
I could swirl and twirl as I wished
An un-choreographed dance could be
Honestly, quite a mess

Until you set foot onto this stage
Offered a gentle hand
And asked for the honour to lead me in this song
When I graced you this dance
I know I'm in better hands now

I'll follow suit Your every move
2 steps forward, 1 step back
Twirl as You lead and sway according to Your beat
Take a leap when You say so
Then fall back into Your steady arms

I know I'm quit dancing alone
Ever since You took my hand and led me through
This is no longer my stage nor song to call
My life is now for You and Your glory.

We could dance the night away,
Just me and You.
No audience, no applause,
No limelight, no stage
Just You, and I in my Life Dance

Unto You

I missed my morning lecture yet again:S This is really no good, I'll probably need 3 more alarm clock to do the job. Or the cheaper alternative, an increase dosage of discipline. It's really how a sleepy mind can deceive you into taking a mere 3 minutes nap. But of cause your right mind knows, the next thing that happens, you've already missed your lesson. Here, evidence of a evil mind.

Yesterday was a really long day out. Took photo at Raffles in the morning with Clement and Marcus for our project. Seriously it was really difficult to be discreet taking a photo. You'll just keep thinking that you got exposed. Honestly I was really bad at it lah.

After which me and marc headed for town to meet the rest, Shar, Silas, Sam Heng:) I was an uninvited guest. But since I was waiting for Michelle to knock off from work, mind as well, haha! Haven't really gone shopping with these before and I must say, it was, to be honest, quite fun:) Okay, so after Michelle got to town, I left the rest and acompanied her to shop! She spent almost all her pay just upon receiving it. But it was quite a lot of stuff she got there, so it was still a good buy.

To Mich; Although I was complaining about how tiring it was to shop with you, having carry all your barangs and all the endless waits while you modelled in the fitting room, nonetheless I still enjoyed myself. I really valued the few hours spent together and how we could just be ourselves. After 8 years of being under one roof, I guess there's really no more emotions left to hide. So yes, though my back and legs were breaking (so were yours) after that shopping spree, I would still love the honour of going out with you again! :) Love you.

Did You Rise The Sun For Me, Paint a Million Stars That I May Know Your Majesty?

For once, school has been pretty merciful to me:) Most of my modules are drawing to an end so I don't have to go to school for some lessons. Yay, more time for me:) On the other hand, it means that exams are drawing near. On the other, other hand, I'm going to start attachments soon. Oh man, there goes my 2 months break:( And say hello to sniffing the far west Boon Lay's (aka Malaysia) air. Ah, where's my well-deserved holidays!

Eee, okay I sound like a lemonade, time to change the tone. Not very edifying uh.

We had our very first all girls leaders meeting yesterday at the well-loved Jo Wong's house:D I love it, where high pitches hit the ceiling and the sound of giggles are heard once in a while. Yay, girls rule, totally! I believe through this whole new structure and system, God is going to move in a whole new dimension. Excited, I am:) New things will no doubt excite everyone. But let's move beyond that and cling tight to God's promises not just in the good/high times, but even when it gets rough. Tenacity, JL calls it.

Oh oh, Happy birthday to 3 real man:D
Happy Birthday Johnson, turned 18 on the 19th
Happy Bithday Ron, turned his BIG 21 on the 20th
And Happy Birthday Koo Zhiwei, turned 18 on the 21st
:) May the good Lord bless you above and beyond all you can ask for or imagine!

Okay, then I lunched with Clarene today before Marketing class. Haha, she's really super duper funny uh. Have you seen those that don't have to try to be funny but they naturally are? Yeah, she's like that. I'm sure the class girls will agree with me! And so I had a happy lunch with her and Joeline that joined us for bubble tea.
Sidenote: Joe, the almond taste is seriously super strong. I can still smell it here. Haha, okay, maybe not. :S

And since I'm here talking about the class girls. A side sidenote: Kimmy, you haven't tell me, what you wanted to say! Haha.

Wah, I meant for it to be a short post. Aunty Naggy Carmen just got too carried away:S Boo, I need to wake up early to take pictures of image makers and breakers in Raffles tomorrow. Christian friends, please pray that God's favour be with my team:S Don't want to get caught especially by Image Breakers :S

http://crosscards.com/v/efe87fb5-7aa5-4719.aspx; Thanks Christina, you're really a sweetheart:)

Pour Afresh on Me

I window-shopped with Yihong today. After a really long time, I've finally met up with this recess gf. It was really fun, just the 2 of us, hopping into shops, browsing through and walk out empty handed. That's just what I do best:D Although I only bought 1 cardi', it feels like I bought a lot, and Carmen is satisfied. It was the time spent that counts. So thanks girl, I had an enjoyable night:)

This wasn't my first sec school meet-up. Just last week I met up with Huiling, for what else, but dinner! Haha, yay, the 3 of us makes recess extraordinary special:D Eh, I miss those days; school bell rings, students scream while the 3 of us stroll downstairs and laugh at all the kiasu sec1s chiong to the canteen. Yay, I love those days, love the 3 of us being together:D

Amidst the busy schedule, I really thank God for expanding my time, to have a little catch up with the both of them:) Yay, more chill-out sessions, this time with all 3 on a table yeah? :D Perhaps we could sneak into FTP for some chicken noodles!

Also last week, Version (ol school's dance clique) went shopping for Huixuan's present. Although only Celine, Eileen, Yilei and I turned up for the gift shopping, it was all-smiles:D They laugh at the slightest thing, remember all the silly things that happened in the past and then, laugh again! Haha, definitely a bunch of people you need to be around on a bad day:) I'm alr looking forward to the next full Version date.

Surely, all the ol sch meetups have been making my day. In fact, I love all the chill out sessions with the gfs. And surely God has been good, I see how He's expanded my time. Yes there's still piles of unfinished assignment, but yay, I still find time for myself. He's just so, so good:)

Guard Your Heart Abv All Else

Chinese New Year is just one more week away, which means I'm going to have a good 2 days break. Looking forward to oily and yummy food accompanied by mindless chats with relatives you pretty much only see once a year. But nonetheless, I love these gatherings:) How I also wish, besides CNY, there'd be many other opportunities to buy new clothes, yay!

I've done my CNY shopping, but I'm craving for more:D Girls just never get enough huh. I didn't exactly got all that I need, like bottoms and shoes are still lacking. Let's hope money will fall from the sky and then (haha!) all the pretty apparels are mine to call!

Eh, I'm totally not what you think okay, I'm so not a shopaholic, nor a spendthrift. I need 1001 excuses to convince myself before I actually get down to buying something. I need reasons to shop, or else, I'l only bring home the dust from Orchard road when I do my window shopping. In fact, I think I need shopping classes, of how to be ruthless in buying. Like women does it; buy first, worry later. Okay fine, it'll probably take me another millenia to get there.

It's a whole new season and time facing the youth ministry, the region and even for me personally. I foresee how this is going to be a real challenging and busy year, but nonetheless, a real wonderful one. Riding on God is always an adventure, seeing things you've never seen, experiencing things like no other:) Although a bumpy road lies ahead, a greater God walks beside you and I, Amen?

I'm really challenged to push out into the deep, to take a bigger step of faith. And you should too; to begin believing God for the impossible. And I guess we'll be amazed how our faith can really move mountains. Let's fight the good fight of faith and when year end comes, with the same zeal and spirit we hold today, proclaim that we've finished it well and accomplished much, and all Glory is His to claim;)

As Gold, and Precious Silver.

I've been happy ever since my IEF project's over:D No more staying up feeling frustrated over problematic Russia and her assertiveness. Yay, be gone Russia and reap my group good results!

Beautiful year 2 is drawing to an end, and I really can't bear to part with it:( This semester past almost as swiftly as the wind! Unbelievable but true, we're all growing up quicker than we think. And well as I always say it, I have no regrets being placed in a class of awesome friends:D Seriously, don't argue, TB22 rocks your socks! Evidence; good times always fly by quickly.

Just today, we celebrated Marcus' belated birthday.
Happy 19th Birthday (Old) dude! Haha, I can't really laugh at you since I'll get there really soon:S I've pretty much watched you grow, from Salvation to who you are today; a young man touched by God. It's seriously, an amazing process, and there's no doubt, we serve a great God, amen? I'm sure He's going to see you through great things, as you avail and humble yourself to be used. Remember, if God coulod use anyone, He could use you! Keep your fire burning for Him, and keep your eyes on Him, not based on emotions/feelings, but based solely on faith! Keep serving Him, man of God:)

Not forgetting Ces' Birthday too, who turned 18 on the 11th:) I won't forget you dear, because you started the 'Aunty Tham' thing! See your influence Ces, half the world calls me Aunty now (the other half, don't try!) Haha. Nonetheless dearest Ces, you know Aunty Tham loves you very very much! I've always looked upon your enthusiasm in pioneering YCK net and in the things of God. You have such a sweet spirit that draws people to you. Thank you for all your encouragement and edification, it went a long way:) Hope you had fun this birthday! Love.

Aside the birthdays, something even more exciting happened last Saturday. Edge attendance saw a breakthrough; we broke through the 300 barrier and attedance was at 321. Praise God! I believe, we all believe that this is but the beginning of what God is going to do in the midst of this Youth Ministry. Pretty soon, attendance will go as high as 500 and even more, following the rising up of 300 youth leaders. Indeed, this is an exciting year for the youths. Glory to God for its not us, but Him who enables:)

I give, I give this life into Your Hands
Clothe me in purity, righteousness, and with all that is Yours
I'll run, I'll run and kneel before Your Throne
Where grace flows like an unending rushing river
I lift, I lift my hands in surrender
Confessing I'm nothing, nothing without You
I'll sing, I'll sing unto You, a new song of praise
For Your love, for Your faithfulness, for Your grace.