Thank You.

As the year draws to an end, I seat here with gratitude overflowing as my fingers tap upon the keyboard. It is almost unbelievable how this year has gone by so quickly.

It has been a bitter-sweet 2009, but every bit of it makes me stronger as I embrace the coming of a new year. I am truly anticipating what this new year has to offer. Are you feeling the same too? :)

There's truly so much to be thankful for; as our God is good and His love endureth forever. The best decision that I have ever made and still am making in this 19 years of my delicate life is to take up my cross and follow Him. Because I have tasted His goodness, experienced His reality and felt His embrace. Just as He said in His Word, that He will never leave us nor forsake us; its in times of great trouble, I find Him near. Many can vouch what I say is true since we all serve the same good God.

Stepping across the finish line of 2009, sure leaves one gasping for large volume of air. What a journey, what an adventure. Wiping the sweat from my brow, give myself a pat on the back, "I made it through!"

Was I saying I have a lot to be thankful for?

Recollecting the events over this one year, both the good and bad, its inevitable that a silly smile widens across my face:

• In January - Got busy trying to work out my New Year's resolution where half remain unaccomplished to date


• In February - February?


• In March - I struggled a lot trying to fit into my 'new shoes' in ministry. Sobbing umpteen times in my leader's presence; but at the end of the day, God still came through


• In April - Started year 3 of my exciting poly-life. It was hard to get by initially without my usual awesome classmates


• In May - Clueless how I got brought into the games comm of youth camp. Survived through countless meetings in Marina Sq Mac and all the preparation work in TPY Church Office


• In June - Made it to and through the very awesome Youth Camp 09' Elevate! And had a joy-full time in KL after everyone else came home to their SG nests


• In July - Saw all the youths back in the 80s and 90s at TheEdge's Retro Fever. I really enjoyed that :)


• In August - I turned 19. Had 17 cakes, received my pretty purple turtleneck and took a photo with a (married) Bakerzin Chef. Thanks friends ♥ Haha!


• In September - Went back to secondary school for a nostalgic tour around the class rooms. Then, internship begins. Hardworking Carmen slogs her guts out for the company full of nice colleagues, worth it!


• In October - Sudden realisation that the year was drawing to an end. Probably lived in a state of shock, I can't recall anything for that month. Goldfish memory syndrome acting up again.


• In November - Was part of the very amazing Adam&Eve. It was not the moves that counts, it was the hearts of the dancers and their determination that kept me fighting


• In December - I'm giving thanks. To friends who were there to put a smile on my face. To leaders who were always readily there when I needed encouragement and a shoulder to bury my head in. To Dad who treats me like a precious little girl and loves me in his silent way. To Mum & Family who also treats me as family. To Aunties, Uncles and Cousins who always make me feel like an important part in this Tham Family. Finally to God for being so good to me blessing me with these people in my life.

Blessed Christmas

A season of joy,
Blessed festive of giving and sharing.
Thank you for your words & love so dear,
Thank God for His Son so precious.

Nothing Has the Power to Save, but Your Name

Big Boo! I'm down with a really bad cold. This evil flu bug is making my head spin like a merry-go-round and my nose run like its on a marathon; determined to win.

With that, I gave work a miss today. Really praying for a speedy recovery because there's surely a lot to do this Christmas week. With a body condition like that I need lots of grace and strength to pull through.

Just yesterday, I was suppose to bring my net out for carolling. Unfortunately, this flu bug caught me faster than I could see it coming. So the girls actually went carolling at Natalie's block without me. Now, how awesome is that? They manage to carol without me, and I'm sure they did really well:) Proud of you ladies! I can't tell you how encouraging these young ladies are. I got lots of fruits and some medicine from Chew Min, faith-filled prayers by the net and heartwarming 'get well soon' texts from all of them :) Totally made me melt under my cold.

Today is our Net Outreach #1 - led by Natalie :) And I can't wait to be at the outreach and see her lead the outreach together with Chew Min. In fact, I need to get ready to go now. So wait for my good updates on how it went! :)

100 Net Outreaches for this Christmas!

Others.

Give me a heart for them, I pray.
Give me the courage to believe again.
The strength to stand once more, I ask.
With the love that overcomes too, Lord.

He bore the cross upon his back,
and the humiliation upon himself.
Transgressed for the sins He did not commit,
He loved us, loved the undeserving.
& We love them because He first loved us.

The cost of indifference and passiveness,
The price of giving up out of weariness & discouragement
Is too much for us to bear,
The expense of their eternity is too much for us to bear.

No Not One Define Your Worth

We have raised a thousand voices
Just to lift Your holy name
And we will raise thousands more
To sing of Your beauty in this place
Well none can even fathom
No not one define Your worth
As we marvel in Your presence
To the ends of the earth.

(Chorus)
We give You glory,
Lifting up our hands and singing holy,
You alone are worthy
We just want to touch Your heart, Lord, touch Your heart
Glory, lifting up our voice and singing holy,
You alone are worthy
We just want to touch Your heart, Lord, touch Your heart

As we fall down before You
With our willing hearts we seek
In the greatness of Your glory
It's so hard to even speak
There is nothing we can offer
No nothing can repay
So we give You all our praises
And lift our voice to sing

(Bridge)
Our hope is drenched in You
Our faith has been renewed
We trust in Your every word
Nothing else can even measure up to You.

- Give You Glory; Jeremy Camp

The Hands that Holds the Heavens, Are Holding Your ♥

To the one who's dreams are falling all apart
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
but you're not all alone

Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong and never let you go
oh you're not alone

(Chorus)
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms

Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you to rise
So hear Him now He's calling you home
You will never be alone

(Bridge)
These are the hands that built the mountains
the hands that calm the seas
These are the arms that hold the heavens
they are holding you and me

These are hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
to break our chains and set us free

- 'Safe' by Phil Wickham

I Know that You are with Me

Season's Greetings!

I don't know about you, but I'm already soaking and drenching in the festive mood. It is truly, the most wonderful time of the year! :) In every shopping mall you hear familiar Christmas melodies, loud decors shouting 'Merry Christmas' in your face, even a stranger's smile seem brighter than it would be at any other time of the year. Or maybe, it's just me?

Of course, Christmas isn't the only reason why this is a joyous season. It's an extremely-packed-but-fun time for all the youths! We had 180, our annual dance competition just last week and then our super awesome Edge Conference that happened just last week!

The 3 short-weeks of dance choreography and practice leading up to 180 was a thrilling learning journey for me. I wouldn't deny it being a struggle but it was at the same time enjoyable when I knew so sure that God was with us. And I have to thank God for the most awesome team, for the support that was displayed throughout the practices. Each time when I feel like throwing in the towel, they'd be there to encourage:) Just seeing them work so hard at each practice is an encouragement itself.

Surely as the song sings "I know that you are with me, always", God taught His faithfulness to me and to the dance team. Every single practice, God has been so good. From inspiring the choreography to helping the team coordinate, He was with us. Surely there was nothing we desired more than to see the smile of God upon us, knowing that God is pleased with the offering we bring to Him.

So yes, we pulled through the 3 weeks of intensive dance practice with a generous outpouring of God's grace. And I'm so proud of each and everyone of you dancers - Gordon, Jired, Ron, Jacinth, Rane, Yihui - you guys (and girls) did so well! I'll never forget:
How we sulked at the not-so-pretty pants initially,
How we unintentionally laugh whenever worship had Samuel Heng around,
How we kept pressing soundtrack 9 on that huge powerful Radio,
How we enjoyed each others company together with our faithful cheerleaders that dropped by so often
And how each of you committed yourself so much to this dance, I don't remember hearing a word of complain from you! :)

Now, I'm kind of missing those crazy dance practices!

Media Slow, Media Fast

(Swap, Sweep, Swap, Smack. Cough, Cough.)

Just came by to do bit of house keeping on the blog because it sure has been a decade since I updated. Haha, it's not wonder this place smells of cold, motionless air. Perhaps the time has come to bid goodbye to this blog forever?

Anyway, Media Fast is starting in one and the half more hours and I'm pretty excited to go. To know we're all going to be able to survive without media and entertainment - I'm sure that will blow some minds! To me, media fast is like a siren warning us that we have become too dependent on the media today. At the mention of media fast you could hear all the gasp and chattering going on in the background. But I'm sure as we pull through this one month of total dependability on God; and not only on what the rest of the world depends on, what a sense of victory we will experience!

I don't know if this is going to be easy for me. I believe every single one participating in this fast will struggle in an aspect or the other. Be it secular music, youtubing, facebooking, potato couch-ing etc. Yet, as we do this together and learn as one body to lay down all other distractions and focus on God, I believe we'll see a great great breakthrough not only in our youth ministry but also for our personal lives. Afterall, all we're doing right now if putting God back on His rightful place in our lives!

Just the thought of that excites me. Well if you're tempted to give in, remember you're not alone. Encourage and support one another, we're all be able to overcome :)

Carmen's ready to embark on this exciting journey in discovering God in a deeper, more intimate way. Ready? Set, GO!

Who wrote the book on our Salvation, who covers me in Grace
Kari Jobe - I'm Singing

Hoho, it's really been a month since I updated this blog. Perhaps laziness and a bit of revision has slapped a 'dead' tag on my blog. But guess who's here to rescue neverleftbehind.bs from the grave?

I just finished my second paper (the second LAST paper) an hour ago. Well, last Saturday I probably sat for the toughest paper I have ever taken in NP. Okay, maybe it was difficult because I wasn't very prepared for it. Today's paper was less of a terror. I could attempt most of the questions except one. I hope Ms Ho will never figure that that script was mine, else, I wouldn't imagine. Aiyah, staffing strategy, why didn't it cross my mind! Haha. Okay, minus how the paper went, I'm happy cause Friday will be the last. Just have to soak in like a sponge my IR notes these 2 days.

A little late update, this 19th birthday was an awesome one!
Ms Ho (yes, the one I was hoping doesn't look at my script) secretly, with the help of Vanessa, lined up a dinner celebration. She brought some classmates and I to The American Club at Claymore. It was a very nice place and a really good dinner that's of extremely huge American portion. When the waitress walked in with the cake, I was still staring at her blankly until she placed it in front of me, then it clicked. Thank God for Ms Ho and the classmates.

On Thursday, Joy and Kimmy coordinated a really sweet surprise. Joy put JL's (smelly) jacket over my head and made me walk from Orchard MRT to Paragon. I felt so embarrassed, but Joy felt worst! The big surprise came when I saw half the table occupied by my school friends. We had a good lunch at the super-duper shiok Bakerzin! Triple 'Yay' for that; church friends, school friends, and cakes! The highlights of our lunch:
1. Taking a picture with the Baker of Bakerzin requested by ol'wise JL (just because I love the cakes at Bakerzin so much, I said I would marry the baker.)
2. Received a purple turtleneck - Classic!

Blocked out the night for time with Dad. I totally loved it when he came home with a Polar Hello Kitty Cake. I know, aww, it was the sweetest thing. We headed out to Chinatown to satify my long-time craving for frog leg porridge.

Okay, so it was a very good birthday and I was happy. How could I not be with 17 cakes (big and small) and all the well wishes.

I'm 19. And I'm thankful to God. For 19 years of grace and mercy, for the 19 years He gave me. For the 19 years of friendships and kinships. And an eternity worth of greater and better things to come. I'm grateful, and I'm singing.

It was supposed to be a short post, I wonder what happened.
I think it's because, I'm 19.

Don't Worry, Be Happy

Tell you something really funny. It's been so long since I posted, when I opened my dashboard, my reflex was to lift my hands, to dust the screen. Oh well, must have been all the projects and late nights lah.

Integrated project report is finally done, and I can't be happier! Burnt my Sunday in school with the group and Ms Ho, who was very kind to have came back to help us. We left school at 8pm, and work continued till the following morning for Vanessa and I. So now you understand, why I'm really rejoicing that it's over:) Now I'm really praying that God will come through; teachers have been giving negative reports and it's pretty worrying.

But I shan't, for worrying can do nothing. So rather, I'd put my faith in a God that can do all things. (Matthew 6:25-34)

Perhaps it's only human that we worry when things don't go right, or when things are uncertain yet mean so much to you. There are countless times in my life that I worry, and I'm sure it's the same for you too.

But it just occured to me, how worrying actually means we do not trust God. Then why do we sing of how He never fails, of how He will always make a way when there seems to be no way? Isn't He Jehovah Jireh, The Lord our Provider?

My God's so big, there's nothing that He cannot do, nothing.
No mountains too big that He cannot move,
No skies too high that He cannot reach,
No valleys too deep that He cannot be there,
No oceans too wide that He cannot cross.
Not to say,
No needs too great for that He cannot meet,
No sins too grave that He cannot forgive,
No hearts too hard that He cannot touch,
No persons too sinful that He cannot love.

This is the Big and Mighty God that I serve. Nothing, nothing is too difficult for Him. So why worry?

Lost But Now I'm Found

Titus 3:4-7
"At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another.
But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life."

Tonight as I was sitting at my desk, an overwhelming sense of gratitude began to flood this tiny heart of mine as I recalled what life was without God. I can boldly declare, that I'm nothing like I used to be. And I thank God, for at the right time, He found me and marvellously saved me.

So I've decided tonight, I won't stay silent any longer. I need to testify of what He's done.

All my life, I never knew what is it like to have a family that is whole. Well, mine is broken. My mum left for Japan to work, when I was really young. At that time, I have not learn to talk, nor to walk. When I was 2, dad and mum's relationship soured; they decided to separate. Ever since then, mum left the home and dad had to care for me.

Being the man, daddy had to work and so I had to be babysit by relatives. I was a kid on the go; I was passed from one house to another when they could no longer look after me. Until I finally settled in Auntie Ruby's house (Michelle's mum). Even then, I didn't felt like I belong. After all, my auntie has her own three children to tend to.

All this I guess, led to my strong need for acceptance and also, birthed a deep sense of rejection in my heart. Then, I hated my mum for abandoning me.

In primary 3, I finally saw dad and mum together, side by side. The only memory of them together lies at the back of my mind. That was when they met up to sign the divorce papers. I remember crying in the room, in my grandmother's arms. She just kept repeatedly saying, 'everything is going to be okay, you'll understand when you grow up'. Now that I'm older, yes, I understand.

After 8 years of staying with Auntie Ruby, I finally moved home to live with dad, and hello secondary school life. Daddy didn't stop working so more often than not, I was always alone at home, or maybe out. It was at this stage of my life, I turned very rebellious.

Since secondary one, I started using swear words as my punctuations and exclamations. All sorts of swear words, both in English and in dialect. Got into wrong relationships one after another. Backstabbed my own peers and got backstabbed. Had a great need for attention and sympathy that I did dumb things to get the attention. Was still full of hatred not only towards others but also towards myself. Thought I was a failure and a mistake, I bore thoughts of death. Slammed doors at dad when he made me angry. I was easily influenced by peer pressure, pick up the thrill of shoplifting.

But everything changed when God found me. All He told me was how much He loved me, that I was worth His life. He accepted me for who I was. At that moment, I didn't have to pretend to be someone I wasn't. His Love was overwhelming. I was set free of a lot of bondages; the need for accepted, rejection, hatred etc.

Even as I type down these things of whom I used to be. I'm amazed at how much God has worked in me. I didn't deserve to be saved, but He saved me anyway. Thus, we have really nothing to boast about us. It is by His mercy and grace alone that I am who I am today. I used to be a trash through and through, but now He has made me a jem, precious.

It isn't a glorious past to talk about. But there is nothing to be ashamed of. Because I was blind but now I see, was lost but now I'm found. I believe God has His purposes for allowing things to happen, that I may stand as a witness of His life-transforming power. I'll never be the same.

Don't be held by guilt, shame, condemnation about your past. If God has delivered you and changed you, testify!

Victors

Romans 8:37
"Yet in all these things, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us"

Since the break of Youth Camp, there's an unspeakable joy that has found its rest upon my heart. It's almost like a new excitement, an anticipation of something that's going to take place. It's almost like the season is now, the time has come, for greater things to happen!

It could be one of the many post-youthcamp symptoms which includes campsick, super high level of hype and energy for any and everything, and of course, a whole new wave of excitement about doing great things for God in our generation. How can anyone stay indifferent when we see strongholds come tumbling down and people set free?

My God is just so awesome.

I believe everyone has received a touch from God. Be it a renewal of strength, a reminder of calling, or a fresh new work, God has moved uniquely in every individual heart.

He is still moving in mine. I testify with a gratefulness how God has reminded me of the calling He has placed upon my life. I know my purpose and destiny in this life and in His Kingdom. I know the reason I live. But so often, I let loose and try to take the easier way out. Perhaps at a time or two, think I know better. Not forgetting those moments I thought it was okay to shelf His plans for later.

It's not that difficult to feel all pumped up now and at one go, run a distance at the fastest speed my legs could carry me. I could make a good head start but that doesn't equate to finishing well. I know I'm guilty of many times, making promises and commitments at conference and camp altars that I find myself failing at the end. So often we subconsciously fall into a cycle of hype right after camp and then getting back into routine a few months after that. This also applies to the other little commitments we tell God we'll abide by; stop a habit, break an addiction etc.

But the matter of fact is, God has made us victors, more than conquerors in our situations. Even before we could step unto the battlefield, the battle has already been won. Not by our might, nor by our strength, but only by the death of Jesus that overcame. We were not made to climb out of a pit, rejoice and after a couple of days jump back into the black hole again. It may sound silly but I suppose many of us are guilty of it. I know I am. Sometimes we knowingly approach that very same hole we came out of to test and see, how much further can I go before I fall in. We think we know. We allow distractions and worries of this life subtly put off the passion in our hearts. Then we wonder, why is it we aren't able to totally break free?

A commitment needs discipline to keep, and a calling needs to be guarded, again with discipline. Even when we don't feel like running any longer, we hang on, we press forward. Find a partner to commit to run along side with you. I remember how I dated Michelle out for a jog and if it hadn't been for her, I would have given up after 200m. I'm glad I pressed forward, and I'm glad she ran with me. Holding on to our calling, we need to know that we don't have to be trapped in the cycle of passiveness that follows after. We are more than conquerors, and can break out of this routine with the discipline of a warrior, and the support of an army.

You Deserve The Highest Honour

Howdy, I've finally decided to get the fingers working to update this really stagnant blog.

Really have got to thank God for giving me a 3-weeks break from school. It's what I really need. And the holidays has been awesome so far.

Last Saturday I witness the baptism of so many from our church, and some of these stick really close to my heart:) So often, we view baptism as nothing more than a ritual and miss the significance and the real value behind that symbolic act. Water baptism is definitely more than an activity or an event, it's the birth of a new life with Christ. And so, I did rejoice and celebrate as some of my close friends and younger youths made that decision. Haha, Congratulations, you know who you are!

Youth Camp 2009 - Elevate was a blast! :) :) :) Carmen gives 10 thumbs up for all the super-enthu teams, the extremely diligent fellow games helper, comm members that slog their guts out together, and of course the most important of all; the beautiful presence of God.

I know that everything worked out for games only because God made it possible. It was a learning experience, together with the wonderful comm. Oh, have I mentioned, that everyone of them, faces or behind-the-scenes, at camp or not at camp contributed significantly:) Everyone's a blessing, no more, no less. As for me, I learned really to depend only on God. I failed myself, so many times. But hey, He never never fails. And in fact, He picks me up at points of desperation and turn the tables around. Now, tell me, how great is my God! Great games, weather, everything else credits to God, ultimate games comm head :D

Games aside, I did make it a point to sit and receive in sessions. He reinforce the calling He has for me. Obedience and total surrender are His words for me. Perhaps it wouldn't be exactly the easiest path to ride along, but I've decided that I'm going His way. No doubt there are uncertainties about what's ahead, but I'm certain my God's with me, holding me in His hands. And really, that's all I need to know.

Make Me Your Masterpiece

I came across this video that Charis posted on FB and woah, I really liked the presentation, but more than that, what is spoken in the video. It really spoke to me, and touched my heart. I hope it does the same to you too:)

Most Precious Jewels

Worship

Very quickly, the first week of school flew by; and no, it wasn't too tough afterall. Maybe because priviledged business students don't have tutorials on the first week of school and I think that's a wise decision. Haha, but being year 3 means the school shows you mercy no more. First day of school and we're greeted with integrated projects (of 3 modules), coupled with more 'mini (10%) projects' and jumped straight into substance. No more appetizers before the main course.

But thankfully, its been a breeze adjusting back to school life, definitely alot better than those days at attachments. The only thing that's lacking now, is the company. Lunch tables seem to have grown bigger, and emptier. Breaks are now less noisy, not exactly a likeable silence. 'Cause I'm definitely missing the clique. Actually, a little too big to call clique:D But of course, Clarene, Vanny and Ivan has been excellent HR companions;) Right, classmates, I can't wait for Monday celebrations!

I was contemplating real hard about going to the prayer conference all the way at Tampines last Thurs. After IS class, the weather's real hot and my eyelids can barely hold itself. 5pm in the late afternoon sounds like a good napping time to me. Honestly, I was complaining and whining all the way till I met Joy at Tampines, 6pm. But I am glad the obligation to turn up for our date brought me to the conference. It was there, God really spoke to me.

All in all, a good week spent:) And if you're wondering why this post is only up now (27/04/09). Maybe it's because its another one of those incomplete posts, I suddenly thought off when I visit my old dusty blog. Heh.

Good Friday, Good News

I have been doing lots of exciting things lately, but have yet the time to update. Too happening already lah:D

Yesterday, was the first night of the GOOD NEWS SINGAPORE (GNS) crusade at the Singapore Indoor Stadium! The three nights of what the whole of VFC has been waiting for has finally begun. And I'm really believing for it to get better each night.

GNS is a healing rally put together by our church. And this is definitely the time and season people are hungry to hear the truth, to find the answer. The entire Indoor Stadium was packed, even up to the balcony, with people; young and old, sick and well. And I believe, nothing beats having God showed up when He heard the desperate cries of His people. They're seeking for answers and God's seeking for the lost.

Rev. Reinhard Bonkke shared a very powerful message, of how we are drowning in a water of sin; alcoholism, fear, sexual temptations. And as we struggle to keep afloat, Jesus is already standing with arms wide open, ready to jump to our rescue. All He needs to know, is that you acknowledging, you need Him to come to Your rescue. Nobody can be kidnapped to Heaven, they only receive voluteers (Quoted from Bonkke).

So thankful for Good Friday. Jesus didn't just die so that you could have a long weekend. He died because He loves you, He loves you, He loves you. The kind of you-centered, sacrificial, giving love. Not just cheap words, but He displayed it on that Cross on Calvary. That is how much you mean to Him, that He paid the price for your life with His precious blood.

There's no, no greater Love than this; than a Man to lay down His life for His friends.

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I Serve an Awesome, Awesome God

It's past 12, and if you'r wondering why am I not in bed, I'm wondering the same thing too. It's been a really long time since I had a late night. Practically ever since attachments started. Seems like I haven't learnt my lesson after being late so many times and, yes breakouts' another reason.

Thoughts in fragment is keeping me awake. A little bit of this and that, is almost flooding this tiny mind of mine. Yes, I don't really have a big storage drive. Haha, it's not anything bad, just random thoughts. When times on your hand and you get to sit down and start thinking, this happens. At least, to me.

Yes thoughts, good or bad, they all point to one fact, and the one fact only, that I serve a good God, an awesome God. There's no greater truth than this. Though the Earth may shake, and everything else falls apart; though people fail, though things happen out of our limited control, the God I serve never changes, the God I serve remains faithful and awesome to the end of times.

I suppose you should already know by now. Uncle Ronnie, the best greeter I've ever met in VFC went home to be with the Lord today. Even his very last words gave God glory and honour as he testified of God's miracle at prayer meeting:) Amazing, faithful man of God. He ran the race and finished well, very well. Never ceasing to give God praise, never cease to love God's people. Perhaps that explains why God would want Uncle Ronnie home with Him. Whatever happens, everything happens within our awesome God's plans. Thank God for Uncle Ronnie, for the example he's been, and thank God for being so so good.

I Scream: "Party!"

Net outreach is sooo going to be a blast this coming Friday:):) Come on Toa Payoh Net, we're going to make this awesome, together!

Haha, first short and sweeeet post huh? Haha, that's only because my nest is calling me, way past bedtime! Tick tock, tick tock, clock is ticking.

"There is not greater calling
No greater honour
Than to bow and kneel before Your Throne
I'm amazed at Your glory
Embraced by Your mercy
Oh Lord, I live to worship You"

God is amazing, isn't He?
How He chose us, unworthy and underserving.
Yet He came, leaving behind His place of honour,
His majestic crown of glory
To die a shameful death
mocked at,
scoffed at by those of whom He had come for
Innocent as a Lamb,
But was made to die the death of a sinful man
Nailed on the cross,
That I, a sinner, undeserving
could be forgiven
could be set free
could be loved
So amazing, isn't He?

And today I count it an honour, a priviledge to be able to serve You
It's more than an act of duty, or a routine
More than an obligation, or a show
It's my joy, and my honour that I may worship You
So I'm giving You me, nothing less
My hopes and heart desires,
My past and failures,
My dreams and everything that I have left
God, I'm Yours and Yours alone
Because no one else loves me the way You do:)
Now, give me eyes for only You.

So, it's really been sometime since I updated and you probably know the reason- Carmen is having attachments on Boon Lay Island, not anywhere near the civilization you live in. Every morning I have to take a bus to the ferry terminal, a ferry to the airport and then a plane, followed by a cab. Haha, don't ask me if that's true, I'll knock your head and flood your email inbox by tagging you on facebook. Okay, that was really random! Haha.

It's lunch time now, and I've decided to stay back in the office. No lah, I'm not as diligent as you think. I stayed back because I'm starting my thrift lifestyle as of today, munching on biscuits:) And please, definitely not on a diet. Biscuits are high in calories too!

Besides attachment, net outreaches, meetups and services are still happening. It's a must have in my life, or else you could then call me 'no life':D And as always, services and nets are way awesome. :D Just on 27th Feb, it was better than awesome:) All the youth nets across this island had net outreach. TPY net wasn't an exception. Joy did an extremely good job in not just sharing but bringing! We had Wii and XBox 360 going on at Ben's house. There, I played Wii for the first time, so youthful right! HAHAH

It was really an awesome time that the net had together, accompanied by 10 other visitors. Screaming, laughing and trying to grab the controller from Ben Chua. Haha, never play Mario Cart with him around, he hogs it like its a bus:D Okay, lah, I meant it as a joke, don't take it personal! Although we didnt have any salvations, but I still believe in His faithfulness. As Jo said, the seed has been planted:) We just have to trust and pray, and let Him be the One that brings forth the fruit.

To the beloved Region QiGeBaGe nets, all of you did an awesome job:) God has given us the talent to be 'bringers' and we've witness it with our eyes. But my encouragement to you today, is to not stop, worst still bury the talent underground. But instead, draw strength from Him; our eternal well and keep bringing! I still believe we'd be able to fill 2 buses and 1 sector. We just had to take that extra effort, and yay, watch how God can bless you, willing vessels:)

Tell The World

Attachment starts tomorrow. And that begins my long, painful 7-weeks of travelling to Boon Lay everyday routine! Sorry, I know how this is no good to start a post on a negative note. But, I just had to let it out.

In case you haven't heard, I will be heading all the way back to Kwong Min Road (sounds like Malaysia huh?) for attachments this holidays. Not that it's anything bad. Let me clarify, I have nothing against the company, it's awesome:) Great working environment with office-full of wonderful colleagues. The only thing I'm whinning about, is that I'm having no holidays. Now, that's surely something worth the whine right?

Okay, I need to get over this. Haha! I know it isn't going to be that bad. But aiyah, it's something every intern will do when they come face-to-face with attachments. You can't deny it, attachments carry very high opportunity cost.

Just yesterday, the youth team took off for East Timor, Dili. I'm sure many wished they were still around, but at the same time we're all excited that they have gone to claim Timor Leste for God:) I'm sure God will use the 3, Brendan, Gladys and Joanna, to touch an entire generation in that nation. Can't wait for them to return with their testimonies:)

God is great back home, but even greater in the fields. Leaving the comfort of your home and living in a foreign land magnifies God, as it minimizes us and what we can do. It's definitely a phase of living on the edge. More importantly, God meant for none to perish, but for all to have eternal life. And we that have heard, need to go and speak, or else how would they know?

Use me to tell Your story, of Your love and saving grace.
I will go, if You say go; to the Ends of the Earth, to every face.

Love is.

Love is Patient, Love is Kind.
It does not Envy, It does not Boast, It is not Proud.
It is not Rude, it is not Self-Seeking, It is not Easily-Angered.
It keeps no records of Wrongs.
Love does not Delight in Evil but Rejoices with the Truth.
It always Protects, always Trust, always Hopes, always Perservere.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Living on The Edge

Once again, one of my many breaks after what seems like long hours of revision. Blogging is my best solutions to get away from those books. I'll rattle a little like an old woman, let off some heated stress from within and then, I promise, I'll be back to my books again.

Well, it's multiplication big time for this youth ministry. And now, we're moving from plans and plain talking, to solid action, sweeping everyone off their feets. Well, this phrase's almost literal; evident at caregroup on Tuesday. I can totally relate to those worried faces and jumpy anxiety rush. The exact same thing shot through my blood stream when I finally grasp the idea.

Yes, hectic but nonetheless, e-x-c-i-t-i-n-g! When you're in this ministry and work under our awesome youth pastor, you know there's no such things as empty talks. He does almost everything he says. So you understand, 300 net leaders will not be raised up unless we start multiplying our nets, and multiplying quick:)

I've too learn in this process that we're all on the job learning, all possible with a heavy dosage of faith and a high dependency on the Master of all plans, Him. Honestly, I am incompetent when it comes to overseeing and planning for big things like this. Haha, I'm more of a person that sees details. But I know, this ultimately is not, and never about me. It's His plans, His purposes. I'm existent merely as His hands and feets.

So let's recognise together that afterall, it's not about us or how well we can execute the plans. It's about God and His big plans for our generation:) And all this is for His glory, and His glory alone. Therefore fellow 'runners' in this race, don't give up but press on to see this vision of 300 nets come to past. Be on the edge of things, in the frontiers of this region. Challenge your own faith and ask God for eyes to see the possibilities of not what we are capable of, but what He's capable of. This faith-filled ministry is going to spice up your life;) (U-hem, definitely spicier than Life4Dead)

Till My Heart Overflows

It's been 2 days since I touched my laptop. Haha, all because I've been trying really hard to stay focused so that I could study. After 2 days of 'dieting' from my Fujitsu, I'm back, blogging. Totally feel like chopping my head off, but can't bring myself to do it. Any takers? Okay, I was just kidding!

It was a long day out today, and so you bet, I accomplished nuts in my revision. I think I really need a hard knock on the head. Someone needs to shake me up of those sleepy, lazy dust and force some focus down my throat. It's never been like this before:( Yes, I'm super upset with myself. It's one of those times you keep telling yourself I'll catch up tomorrow with what I didn't cover today, but each day, the list gets longer. It seems almost impossible to get back on track. Please, I need momemtum and to sense the urgency of the hour.

Okay, so I'm not going to procrastinate anymore. I shall burn the midnight oil and make sure I'm back on track. Bye now, I'm going to fight the lazy bug and its evil army!

God, be my strength and my guide, I pray. Guard my heart with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Help me to stay focused, grant me the discipline and focus that I need dear Lord. Holy Spirit, lead me through.

Only You Can Make Me Whole

Happy Valentine's Day dearest. This special day does call for a post. Not because I have an exciting date to tell you about. Well, even if I said I had a date, no one believes me.

You see, I tried really hard to look convincing, then tried mentioning I have a date, the youths will roll their eyes saying "whatever Carmen" or "yah, with God right". So you see, I'm really deem a nun, ready to be left on the shelf and I'll probably marry no one but Jesus.

Okay wait, not that I'm sad or anything. There's nothing wrong with being single, in fact it's awesome being single. So all the singles out there, don't worry yes, you're the most attractive thing ever. God can be your valentine, cause He was mine today:)

Beside it being a special day for lovers, it is Joy Leong's Tweenteenth Birthday. Before I move on, I'll clarify, I didn't fail my spelling test. Joy just loves it this way. Haha, she wants to defend her status of a teen-ager. It was really funny how my net sang a simple happy birthday for joy with a half eaten pandan cake! Sorry Joy, nothing extravagant but you know the net and I love you:) Happy birthday dear.

And of course, Franklin, I haven't forgotten. Happy Birthday faithful one:) Stay tough!

On sadder note, Alicia flew to Melbourne today to start her 6 years medicine course in Monash. And I'm going to miss her and her yummy cakes. Although she wasn't very close the youths, I sure grew to love this girl while she was with us in net. She's really one sweet lady:) My biggest regret as I watch her leave today, was that I didn't spend enough time with her; getting to know her and encouraging her. So my prayer is that God will send someone alongside her, even where she is, to guide her in the His ways. Yes, that she will come to love Him more each day. God, be with her, draw her near to You.

I'm Singing

I'm human, Stretched thin, stressed out
I'm human, With limited time and unlimited things to do
I'm human, With strength disappearing and weaknesses revealed
I'm human, As Discouragement barges in too
In a fit of impulse, wished I could drop the ball
Turn over the plate, now I'm raising my white flag
Cause I'm only Human, But that's when You are God

When I am weak,
That's when You're God and You are strong
When I can't go on anymore
That's when You're God and You carry me on
When I need a place to hide
That's when You're God and You offer Your wings of refuge
When I need a word of comfort
That's when You're God and You sing a love song over me

It's only human, that I will meet the valley
I'm only human, and far from perfect
But that doesn't cease my praises to my King
Because I believe in Your faithfulness,
Your lovingkindness and Your greatness
I will cling on to You, trust in You
even in the darkest moment, I'm still singing.

Not trying to hide anymore
Not doing this on my own again
For You search my heart
And You know my every moment
Undone I come before Your throne of Mercy
Confess that I'm nothing, nothing without You
Jesus won't You take this imperfect vessel
And use it as You will
Because today till forever more, I'm singing and still will be singing
Of Your wonders, promises and steadfast love

Create in Me A Clean Heart

Howdy! I'm now having my 2 week study break but I haven't started looking at the books, nor planned out my revision even though I've been telling myself everyday, I need to do up my revision timetable by 'tomorrow'. And somehow, this tomorrow never comes.

So you ask, what have I been doing then? On the contrary to studying, I have been out partying! No alcohol, wild dancing nor blasting techno. Just the companionship of some really awesome people:) Who says party has to be naughty? Haha, I had great fun, no hangovers the next morning, just sweet memories swimming in a clear mind.

Sushi Can Fly was awesome! Credits to Sharmian, Wong and gang. We spend Monday afternoon at Marina Barrage, soaking up the sun. Tuck and Jo Fu rented a car and we get to be driven around. It was fun, having a 7-seater packed with 9 youths. Their driving skills was, phew, literally breath-taking. So scary, it takes your breath away at every turn and brake:S

We had a sushi picnic, and some awesome kite-flying experience. Yes, I flew the first kite in my life:D You bet, I was happy. Although my kite didnt stay afloat for very long, it did fly! Seriously, it's not as easy as it seems. But all the more fulfilling when you finally see the kite ride on the wind. I'm already thinking about flying a kite again! Perhaps, I could bring keith when he's exams are over. (And I forgot to mention, I love Marina Barrage!)

Okay, then today. Yay, I went to watch movie with Kimmy and Claud, The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons:) I know what's your reaction now okay; 'Wah, Carmen watching movie seh.' Yes, I watched a movie that even I myself couldn't see myself watching, and it was super niceee:) I'm so tempted to tell the story, but those who haven't watched forbids! Haha.

After movies and a short time of chilling with them, we walked over to Dhoby Ghaut where I hopped over to join the youths. You see, Lucien is leaving next Thurs for Aus, so it was a mini get-together. Though there was only a handful of us, Tau Huay and the companionship was enjoyable.

It was a good 2 days break for me, now studying starts tomorrow!

Pig, Is My Middle Name

I was looking forward to a no-school-day today, since there was no IEF lecture and I brought forward my presentation and finished it yesterday. But, projects had me coming back to school, and IEF special lecture. The class was extended the invitation for her lecture, how can we say no.

I have been feeling really lethargic of recent, like I said, I messed up my body clock. Not that I have been working hard staying up late. But just that I have been procrastinating so much. It is really saddening to stay up late into the night and realise, I didn't actually accomplished much. Ah! I need disicpline pills, any prescriptions?

I can't believe its only Tuesday today, the week is passing by so slowly. Maybe it's because I have been counting time by the minute. You know how that works. I want weekends to come cause I have no holidays to look forward to. Only, attachments.

Dear, I sound so negative:S Haha! No lah, I'm not having any depression, stress (perhaps only a little bit of that) or whatsoever. Just one of those dry days, where you wished you were snuggling in bed, resting:) That sounds, so nice!

Heh, okay lah, I won't deny any longer. I will confess it, I am pure lazy. Pig is my middle name:)

Use Me Lord, To Shine Your Light

It was Grandfather's birthday yesterday and my maternal family dined at the International Seafood Restaurant and Marketplace. I think I past by there on trips to east coast many times, but never took notice of that place. Until yesterday, until I set foot into the restaurant:)

The restaurant has an interesting concept. The first thing you see as you enter the place is a seafood marketplace. They have tanks full of live seafood and push-carts. Where we dine is further in, and its a really pretty place too. And the food is really good.

Grandfather's really looking very weak now. (Oh yes, that's my India Grandfather). Mum says he isn't old but is getting weaker by the day. Yesterday as I watched him move about slowly, I wished I could have time for him. I really wish to play a part as a granddaughter. But somehow, there seem to be a barrier to communications and we aren't close to start with.

I'm tuitioning Keith, my younger brother. It's not just about the money, but I'm glad I took the job because I'm seeing myself spending more time with him:) As a sister, you sure bet it is my desire to have an input in his life, and definitely watch him grow up. And pray, He'll learn the ways of God.

Well, God has been really faithful to me, I know He never fails. This is a new year, with new beginnings and many new things. Breakthroughs, challenges and victories. Definitely a year of harvest, I can smell the coming:) Anticipate people, be on the edge!

Hold My Hands in Yours

Bury my head between my knees,
Close my eyes and begin to pray.

'Dear God, I know you hear me,
I know you listen as I pray.
You see my needs, and my every desire
even before I lift them up to You.

You know my every struggle,
You rejoice with my every breakthrough.
You catch the tears that fall,
You lift me through every obstacle.
This time is no exception, I know You're still here.

You'll give me strength when I am weak,
You'll carry me when I grow weary.
You'll light my way when darkness falls
You're my hope at the end of the tunnel.

I'm going against the current,
I'm taking the narrow way of Yours.
Uncertainty may fog out my vision,
Weariness may slow me down,
But I'm not about to lose this hope,
Instead, I'll cling on even tighter
to the Author and Finisher of my faith.

Cling on to all Your promises oh Lord,
Your faithfulness, love and goodness.

And when I feel all alone in this journey to eternity,
Lift my eyes to see Your expression of love on that boundless sky,
Orchestrate the oceans to sing a love song.
Turn my head to see Your faithful footsteps beside mine,
Remind me, You've kept my hand in Yours

You Told Me Who I Am

Last Wednesday, I met up with my secondary school dance gfs for dinner and a real good catch up over dinner. Met at Vivo, and girls being girls, were all late (except Yilei who was exceptionally early). We gave up the idea of having another steamboat after those we had from CNY, and settled for Mussel Guys instead. The food was not mouth watering, just average. But the few hours seated in there, talking about everything under the sun (more of them and their boyfriends :S) made the night enjoyable. Although we haven't met in a long while, but we talked and laughed like graduation was not too long ago. The phototaking at the playground was the highlight of the night, we laughed, played, and snapped memories for safekeeping.

I remember how we all looked silly together dressed in loud costumes and powdered in heavy makeup last time. How we screamed during stretchings and warm-ups, not forgetting how hard we all laughed when Felice accidentally threw her socks at our instructress. Haha, now I kind of miss those dance days. Yes, Chinese dance is so, cheena. But it was who you danced with that makes the difference. Plus, it wasn't all that bad okay! So another girly, 'cheena' meetup soon please:)

You Loved A People Undeserving

Yay, I haven't officially wished you yet, have I? Happy Chinese New Year:) I'm super growing fat and lazy from this festive season can! Haha, I think I fell asleep at all my relatives' place:S It's like an auto body clock that switches off during the holidays. Quick to switch off, hard to recover!

So, I'm sure CNY has been good to you, since its been extremely good to me. Heh, I had my fill of bahkwas and all the (yummy) goodies:) Thank God, I haven't fallen sick, it's only by God's grace. I always enjoy the once in a year meet-ups and treasure those times. I'm already looking forward to this season next year. Haha!

There's been a lot of work to do lately and it's been keeping me occupied. Haha, more often then not, when I'm overloaded with work, I don't really know where to start:S Often ends me up in hot soup because at the end of the day, I'll get nothing done and stress out and break out. I wished I had a personal assistant. Haha, anyone?

A thousand and one thing has been on my mind. Haha, sometimes it feels very much of a whirlpool. I have a head heavy with thoughts; don't worry it's not bad just that sometimes, I can't really straigthen them out. Then I'll get all forgetful, that's why I have a handphone calendar, desktop calendar and a physical planner.

So much has been going on, in this little mind of mine. How I wish for a getaway, on my own. Spend all my time waiting on God and sorting out the things that has been going on. That'd be perfect. I'm not asking for long, 2 days will be fine:) No work, no calls, no outside world. Just me, and my King.

Life Dance

When life's melody plays
I'll rise to take the stage
With a double spin and a leap
I'll indulge in the limelight
Swollen with pride and glory
The risen platform was mine to call

With unguided steps
These feet will take me in every direction
I could swirl and twirl as I wished
An un-choreographed dance could be
Honestly, quite a mess

Until you set foot onto this stage
Offered a gentle hand
And asked for the honour to lead me in this song
When I graced you this dance
I know I'm in better hands now

I'll follow suit Your every move
2 steps forward, 1 step back
Twirl as You lead and sway according to Your beat
Take a leap when You say so
Then fall back into Your steady arms

I know I'm quit dancing alone
Ever since You took my hand and led me through
This is no longer my stage nor song to call
My life is now for You and Your glory.

We could dance the night away,
Just me and You.
No audience, no applause,
No limelight, no stage
Just You, and I in my Life Dance

Unto You

I missed my morning lecture yet again:S This is really no good, I'll probably need 3 more alarm clock to do the job. Or the cheaper alternative, an increase dosage of discipline. It's really how a sleepy mind can deceive you into taking a mere 3 minutes nap. But of cause your right mind knows, the next thing that happens, you've already missed your lesson. Here, evidence of a evil mind.

Yesterday was a really long day out. Took photo at Raffles in the morning with Clement and Marcus for our project. Seriously it was really difficult to be discreet taking a photo. You'll just keep thinking that you got exposed. Honestly I was really bad at it lah.

After which me and marc headed for town to meet the rest, Shar, Silas, Sam Heng:) I was an uninvited guest. But since I was waiting for Michelle to knock off from work, mind as well, haha! Haven't really gone shopping with these before and I must say, it was, to be honest, quite fun:) Okay, so after Michelle got to town, I left the rest and acompanied her to shop! She spent almost all her pay just upon receiving it. But it was quite a lot of stuff she got there, so it was still a good buy.

To Mich; Although I was complaining about how tiring it was to shop with you, having carry all your barangs and all the endless waits while you modelled in the fitting room, nonetheless I still enjoyed myself. I really valued the few hours spent together and how we could just be ourselves. After 8 years of being under one roof, I guess there's really no more emotions left to hide. So yes, though my back and legs were breaking (so were yours) after that shopping spree, I would still love the honour of going out with you again! :) Love you.

Did You Rise The Sun For Me, Paint a Million Stars That I May Know Your Majesty?

For once, school has been pretty merciful to me:) Most of my modules are drawing to an end so I don't have to go to school for some lessons. Yay, more time for me:) On the other hand, it means that exams are drawing near. On the other, other hand, I'm going to start attachments soon. Oh man, there goes my 2 months break:( And say hello to sniffing the far west Boon Lay's (aka Malaysia) air. Ah, where's my well-deserved holidays!

Eee, okay I sound like a lemonade, time to change the tone. Not very edifying uh.

We had our very first all girls leaders meeting yesterday at the well-loved Jo Wong's house:D I love it, where high pitches hit the ceiling and the sound of giggles are heard once in a while. Yay, girls rule, totally! I believe through this whole new structure and system, God is going to move in a whole new dimension. Excited, I am:) New things will no doubt excite everyone. But let's move beyond that and cling tight to God's promises not just in the good/high times, but even when it gets rough. Tenacity, JL calls it.

Oh oh, Happy birthday to 3 real man:D
Happy Birthday Johnson, turned 18 on the 19th
Happy Bithday Ron, turned his BIG 21 on the 20th
And Happy Birthday Koo Zhiwei, turned 18 on the 21st
:) May the good Lord bless you above and beyond all you can ask for or imagine!

Okay, then I lunched with Clarene today before Marketing class. Haha, she's really super duper funny uh. Have you seen those that don't have to try to be funny but they naturally are? Yeah, she's like that. I'm sure the class girls will agree with me! And so I had a happy lunch with her and Joeline that joined us for bubble tea.
Sidenote: Joe, the almond taste is seriously super strong. I can still smell it here. Haha, okay, maybe not. :S

And since I'm here talking about the class girls. A side sidenote: Kimmy, you haven't tell me, what you wanted to say! Haha.

Wah, I meant for it to be a short post. Aunty Naggy Carmen just got too carried away:S Boo, I need to wake up early to take pictures of image makers and breakers in Raffles tomorrow. Christian friends, please pray that God's favour be with my team:S Don't want to get caught especially by Image Breakers :S

http://crosscards.com/v/efe87fb5-7aa5-4719.aspx; Thanks Christina, you're really a sweetheart:)

Pour Afresh on Me

I window-shopped with Yihong today. After a really long time, I've finally met up with this recess gf. It was really fun, just the 2 of us, hopping into shops, browsing through and walk out empty handed. That's just what I do best:D Although I only bought 1 cardi', it feels like I bought a lot, and Carmen is satisfied. It was the time spent that counts. So thanks girl, I had an enjoyable night:)

This wasn't my first sec school meet-up. Just last week I met up with Huiling, for what else, but dinner! Haha, yay, the 3 of us makes recess extraordinary special:D Eh, I miss those days; school bell rings, students scream while the 3 of us stroll downstairs and laugh at all the kiasu sec1s chiong to the canteen. Yay, I love those days, love the 3 of us being together:D

Amidst the busy schedule, I really thank God for expanding my time, to have a little catch up with the both of them:) Yay, more chill-out sessions, this time with all 3 on a table yeah? :D Perhaps we could sneak into FTP for some chicken noodles!

Also last week, Version (ol school's dance clique) went shopping for Huixuan's present. Although only Celine, Eileen, Yilei and I turned up for the gift shopping, it was all-smiles:D They laugh at the slightest thing, remember all the silly things that happened in the past and then, laugh again! Haha, definitely a bunch of people you need to be around on a bad day:) I'm alr looking forward to the next full Version date.

Surely, all the ol sch meetups have been making my day. In fact, I love all the chill out sessions with the gfs. And surely God has been good, I see how He's expanded my time. Yes there's still piles of unfinished assignment, but yay, I still find time for myself. He's just so, so good:)

Guard Your Heart Abv All Else

Chinese New Year is just one more week away, which means I'm going to have a good 2 days break. Looking forward to oily and yummy food accompanied by mindless chats with relatives you pretty much only see once a year. But nonetheless, I love these gatherings:) How I also wish, besides CNY, there'd be many other opportunities to buy new clothes, yay!

I've done my CNY shopping, but I'm craving for more:D Girls just never get enough huh. I didn't exactly got all that I need, like bottoms and shoes are still lacking. Let's hope money will fall from the sky and then (haha!) all the pretty apparels are mine to call!

Eh, I'm totally not what you think okay, I'm so not a shopaholic, nor a spendthrift. I need 1001 excuses to convince myself before I actually get down to buying something. I need reasons to shop, or else, I'l only bring home the dust from Orchard road when I do my window shopping. In fact, I think I need shopping classes, of how to be ruthless in buying. Like women does it; buy first, worry later. Okay fine, it'll probably take me another millenia to get there.

It's a whole new season and time facing the youth ministry, the region and even for me personally. I foresee how this is going to be a real challenging and busy year, but nonetheless, a real wonderful one. Riding on God is always an adventure, seeing things you've never seen, experiencing things like no other:) Although a bumpy road lies ahead, a greater God walks beside you and I, Amen?

I'm really challenged to push out into the deep, to take a bigger step of faith. And you should too; to begin believing God for the impossible. And I guess we'll be amazed how our faith can really move mountains. Let's fight the good fight of faith and when year end comes, with the same zeal and spirit we hold today, proclaim that we've finished it well and accomplished much, and all Glory is His to claim;)

As Gold, and Precious Silver.

I've been happy ever since my IEF project's over:D No more staying up feeling frustrated over problematic Russia and her assertiveness. Yay, be gone Russia and reap my group good results!

Beautiful year 2 is drawing to an end, and I really can't bear to part with it:( This semester past almost as swiftly as the wind! Unbelievable but true, we're all growing up quicker than we think. And well as I always say it, I have no regrets being placed in a class of awesome friends:D Seriously, don't argue, TB22 rocks your socks! Evidence; good times always fly by quickly.

Just today, we celebrated Marcus' belated birthday.
Happy 19th Birthday (Old) dude! Haha, I can't really laugh at you since I'll get there really soon:S I've pretty much watched you grow, from Salvation to who you are today; a young man touched by God. It's seriously, an amazing process, and there's no doubt, we serve a great God, amen? I'm sure He's going to see you through great things, as you avail and humble yourself to be used. Remember, if God coulod use anyone, He could use you! Keep your fire burning for Him, and keep your eyes on Him, not based on emotions/feelings, but based solely on faith! Keep serving Him, man of God:)

Not forgetting Ces' Birthday too, who turned 18 on the 11th:) I won't forget you dear, because you started the 'Aunty Tham' thing! See your influence Ces, half the world calls me Aunty now (the other half, don't try!) Haha. Nonetheless dearest Ces, you know Aunty Tham loves you very very much! I've always looked upon your enthusiasm in pioneering YCK net and in the things of God. You have such a sweet spirit that draws people to you. Thank you for all your encouragement and edification, it went a long way:) Hope you had fun this birthday! Love.

Aside the birthdays, something even more exciting happened last Saturday. Edge attendance saw a breakthrough; we broke through the 300 barrier and attedance was at 321. Praise God! I believe, we all believe that this is but the beginning of what God is going to do in the midst of this Youth Ministry. Pretty soon, attendance will go as high as 500 and even more, following the rising up of 300 youth leaders. Indeed, this is an exciting year for the youths. Glory to God for its not us, but Him who enables:)

I give, I give this life into Your Hands
Clothe me in purity, righteousness, and with all that is Yours
I'll run, I'll run and kneel before Your Throne
Where grace flows like an unending rushing river
I lift, I lift my hands in surrender
Confessing I'm nothing, nothing without You
I'll sing, I'll sing unto You, a new song of praise
For Your love, for Your faithfulness, for Your grace.