blessed be Your name, always.

greetings to all you happy saturday-lovers, just like mee. haha, yes, i just came back from edge and im dead beat! it has been a long long day so i decided to miss dinner and come home to rest. a thousand apologys to my dear dear region dee for leaving. but i promise, i'l be there the following week and the following following weeks. you still love me rightt? haha.

but before that, would just like to share about some stuff before i forget (and you know me soo well, dont you?), so dont scold me for coming online though i complained i was tired. LOL!

and as i was saying, it was a long long day. went swimming with dear shar; my sporting partner, at 9. dont belittle us, we swam 8 laps:: ) i feel fit. LOL! then went to vivo for the corporate youth activity and it was great fun! but thanks to darren ho and his so-smart commitee we were made to run high and low, up and down and all over the mall. and everyone else was complaining. but it sure was quite good lah, i did have a great time i have to admit. so a great applaud to region 5/6 for the great planning and executing. and great job to all who were leading and participating, you poor victims of darren's scheming, but oh well, great job in having funn!

group three, a great group to have; ruth, david, darryl, grace, jemyn, joel, caleb.

then, then i went to edge. the bestest part of all:: D worship was good, sermon was awesome. saula preached on letting your lights shine and i guess it really spoke to many, for such a time as this. and i want to share something on this before i go to sleep and my memory gets washed off, haha.

when saula gave the altar call today, i didnt go forward but stood at my seat and really seeked God. and i began to question why do i feel that my fire has gone low, the light in me has dimmed a little. and God revealed the times of which my faith was challenged, times of which i had to stand for my faith which wasnt easy at all. times of which i got laughed and mocked at because of what i believed in. and from time to time like this, slowly and unknowingly i begin to cover up, a little by a little, this light in me. its not that this light isnt glowing anymore, its just that it isnt as before. and God comforted me, that each time as these happens, it is Him who was rejected, not us. so i really urge you, if ever there were times of disappointments and rejections, sweep off the dust from your feet and continue to move on. do not dim the lights, because many still need it to find their way home. and your Daddy looking from above is pleased, very pleased with you. take heart people, because you never shine alone.

the previous time sembawang bbq night; we are the light of the world

and another thing, run on endless supply of fuel. we light our lamps every single night, not just once a month nor do we only light it when christmas is nearing. this is more than just an emotions roller coaster, or a feel-good session. lets remember this day that we have said 'yes' to God and hold on to it through everything:: ) let it shine, let it shine! so paste a post it note on your fridge, or slip a teddybear-print note into your wallet, just so you would could always 'remember who you are'.

alright there people! im going off to catch all the sleep in the world that i lack and that i need:: ) takecare there wonderful beings, you would be missed till i see you again. God bless!

and as we set feet at the altar, no matter the ground of which we are standing upon, choose to bless the Lord, choose to worship Him. then you can smile in the face of goliath and stand in victory, because the God that you serve is way larger then that little elf.

when its just You and me
hello there people, i've got good news! i've finally uploaded the hongkong pictures:: ) thanks to nic sow for the cable. LOL, i shant talk too much and feed you with pictures and a little something from the trip.

day one; waiting for departure at changi airport

featuring beloved aunty dolly:: )

then we checked in at macau's newest hotel, Venetian hotel.

and this fellow cannot keep still and had this camera entertained him

indeed, it was a mini venice:: ) niceeeee

featuring my cousin, tham tuckwah

dearest aunty peggy:: )

unlike the ones in genting, this boats are real and require skills to row. it was really a little test of what venice is like, especially when these boat rowing people sing for their 'passenger', amazing! and i think they do come from venice.

we were walking aroung and then tuckwah got excited over this,

tham tuck wah is an ever faithful man-u fan, oh well.

and i got excited over this, a breathing statue. he works like those 20cents horsey we sit on. everytime people places money near hes feet he moves and does a few grooves, then stops again. requires great skill and alot of patiencee.

and this thing is evil, the casino. it is right smacked in the middle of the hotel and since i wasnt of age we all had to take a big round to get across this evil thing. and guess what, i was left all alone in the room because they all went to visit this monster, including tuckwah. rarr!

on the outside of the hotel, equally amazing sight. okay, just ignore that dwarf posing in the picture, i look retarded!

well, we didnt travel out of the hotel cause it was rather late when we arrived. so we missed all the good almond cookies, sight seeing and biggest regret, the black sand beach:: ( but then again, my aunt said that there was a strike the day we missed it so, thank God for keeping us safe.

my favourite picturee:: )

now, after seeing the outside, now check out our rooom! wooots, suitee.

haha, its sooo tiring to upload these photos i've decided to do them in parts:: D haha, at least you know the first half of the story now. maybe tomorrow or the day after the rest of the photos will come up. so take care folks, cause im off to catch some sleep. haha! goood'afternoon' and loveee.

from summer to autum, a change of season. leafs wither and the wind blows stronger. trying, but i will stand strong, not only through autum but also through winter. to see that oh, isnt these seasons as beautiful as well. but still i anticipate for spring to come.

saturday is tomorrow, tomorrow is saturday!

and its my last day of work here in the church office. LOL, and so 'meaningfully' i've decided to blog this half day away. haha, and no im not being naughty. i've finished my job:: ) uh, okay not exactly cause angie tasked me to call some poeple and all these naughty ones are not picking up their phone.

i do have to say, im having fun working here:: ) so much so, i dont want to go back to school. or was it because i dont want to go back to school that i like working here? oh well, no matter how much i grumble and rumble and mumble and make a whole lot of sulky faces, school still has to start:: ( uhhh, big big terror! okay people, i have to clarify; its not that i dont like school or anything along that line. its just that im not prepared to go back into the lecture halls to learn anything, not prepared for tutorials, not prepared for the long long bus rides. haha, and why do i begin to feel that its because i havent got a nicee notebook, havent bought a few good pen and i havent bought my bus concession, ohh ridiculous, carmen!

so quietly, the days crept past me, under my bed and behind my back. i havent even realised and cannot comprehend that two months had past since my end-sem exams. and why do i feel that someone has been meddling with my calendar:: D haha, and why do i feel that i have sooo much to say today. LOL! well, carmen is just being carmen:: )

net tonight, edge tomorrow! im quite excited actually since net tonight is going to be really huge! haha, yes, jinlun is out of town and has entrusted his beloveds to me. wahaha, that means i can do anything i want to them, gives an evil grin* oh yes that fellow, hes left for thailand. and he never even gave me the chance to say byee. okay, at least i think that hes gone already. and i know you'll see this. enjoy your trip brother, you know you're very much missed by us here. its your holiday, so go ahead and let down your hair (though you dont have much to do so:: D). please lah, come back soon okay. take care and God blesss you.

okay people, i've got to runn! time to meet the aunties for lunch:: ) aiyah, i wanted to post something really inspirational and 'chim'. but i dont know why, no juices are flowing through these vessels. another time people, another time!

better is one day in Your house, better is one day in Your courts, better is one day in Your house, than a thousand elsewhere.

come and make my heart Your home

and its been a good week so far, i am enjoying the last week of my holidays:: ( yes, school is going to start! no, im not really looking forward to it though i ought to feel contented with the two full months i've got with just sitting and slacking away. haha! but still i have to face it, a new term, new start with lots and lots of things to plan and hope for.

and for a whole new school term, let it also mark a new paragraph on my life pages:: ) i dont know why, and neither can i explain this feeling of anticipation, as though something real big and good is going to happen! oh well, i'l just wait and see. if not go all out and make something happen, haha! and i think the second option sounds better. let it not only be for me, but for you my brothers and sisters, lets begin to movee and begin to get up to see things happen. for the winter has passed, and a new season is approaching:: )

and the only thing that im missing really bad, is my classmates in the previous semester. although majority of us would remain in the same class, there are also others that have gone to another class, and its a big boohoo! i'l miss the lunch that we have together, the little jokes and after school hours we have together, TB28 i have to mention again; i lovee you and am going to miss you big and bad. keep in contact people, let not this special friendship drift with distance. big hug for girls, and for the guys a punch:: ) study hard and God blesss!

the 'girls rule boys drool' clique. LOL!

i shout a big 'takecare' and 'goodnight', then (silence). you know what happened, dont you? LOL.

i could still see the place where You first found me, the first time i took Your hands, and decided that this was it. am not going to change my mind, not looking back. for this is the story that spells our love, and an never ending story unfolds.

be near oh God, be near.

hello there people, im here again! pardon me for slow updates recently, i've lost the momentum to post regularly. LOL! it must be facebook thats been keeping me busy all day. haha! yes, its a new found joy:: )


great enthusiastic bunch, part of group seven's SC:: )

SC outing was last staurday and i have to say, i had funn! although only a quarter of the group turned up, the small bunch of us did have a really good time bonding and getting to know one another. but i have to admit, running around is sure tiring. i wouldnt have been able to survive but thanks to the great amount of adrenalin rush, it kept me going. haha! i guess i've also learned a great deal through this meeting. alot on leadership, patience and working together. theres more to be done, and im in the process of learning:: ) more, more events and outings please! oh and before i forget, great job and cheers to my beloved SCOs; wenjin and crystal! i know im looved:: X

and a confession to make, carmen was naughty and missed service yesterday morning:: ( must have been really tired out from the sc outing, but i know thats no excuse. i will be a good girl once the new term starts, i will try and you have to remind me. any nice soul wants to be my alarm clock on sunday mornings and my reminder every other day. hahahah! and i have to warn you that it isnt an easy task, especially trying to be my alarm clock. LOL! and can you imagine, carmen needs people to remind her to be a good girl, dear mine!

well, at least i made it to evening service yesterday. met a few of them at the jamming studio and watched them butter their breads before we headed down to tampines. and no im not going to give yup halfway on my drummings this time, its time to go all the way for it. actually its more than just an instrument to be learned, but i really want to take it on to teach myself discipline and a great deal on following through. and for all who knows me knows this is something that i must be taught. LOL!

so quickly this precious year is drawing to an end. so much has happened and it all feels like it was just yesterday. like a gush of wind, things come and mercilessly take off. but of course, there are things that are rooted, and has stayed through:: ) and that, is comforting to hear. and i am definitely looking forward for the new year to begin, with great things, i believe God has prepared for our church. and it is just exciting to be involved. God is also beginning to work in my life, im just beginning to see all that desires to do in me and through me, taking me on His wings. but honestly, it isnt easy. just keep me running, and keep me going with lovee and much encouragement. im hanging in there, keeping strong in God's grace, i promise. and you know, you know i will stay still and know that He is God.

for such a time as this, i will choose to bless Your name, to give You all the praises due. all i need to hear, is that You are near and i will stand and trust that You are God.

remove these splinters

hello there people, i know you havent been hearing from me. yes, carmen is back in Singapore; safe and sound and loving Singapore even more. dont ask me why i havent been updating, i guess its pure laziness. you know what im like, dont you? :: D

hongkong was goood, but i still love singapore moree. haha, i visited 4 places in 5 days, quite a rush! arrived in macau, ferried to hongkong the following day, bused to disney land and then trained to shenzhen! haha, soo many places to visit, so little time. so many things to buy, so little cash, big booo! LOL. but its a wrong day to look out for updates on my hongkong trip, haha its only coming in another day.

and talking about that, nic sow and celine is leaving for that place in another 3-4 hours time, for 8 days. tell me thats very loooong! and yes, im going to miss them both but celine moree:: X hah! hey you both, have a great time in hongkong. remember to live by their slogan; eat buy, buy eat. and remember me, here missing you on this tiny island. enjoy much before the school term begins again(phew)! bonvoyage.

and have i grumbled already, well i have to again. im missing edge once moreeee! being deprived of three straight weeks of edge doesnt feel very goood. boohooo! but its okay, next week will come soon, very very sooon! comforting? very. so missing the third week of edge marks the day of the sc outing. and i have to admit im quite excited about it tooo. but i think i need to bring along lots of enthu pills to hype up a big bunch of these, haha let group seven roar! LOL. so wish me all the best and that this bunch will be nice and not bite:: D

the last few nights was spent with wonderful region dee'ers over dinner:
monday - touched down in singapore; tuesday- met chang for a watch-her-eat-dinner session, then prayer meeting plus stay-back session for some jamming, where it sparked my interest for drums; wednesday- catchy up session with sammy and with lucy who just came back, safee!; thursday- dinner with some of them followed by rolling all over the floor at the sky garden, LOL; friday- early dinner at pastamania with 7 others then it was time for net! its a fun week packed to the max with all the dee'ers. sweeeeeet:: )

oh and before i forget, happy belated 18th birthday angeline gohteeyue(30th sept). haha! i loveee you pretty though you can be quite a monster at time:: D hahah, BIG HUG*

angeline gohteeyue, hiding her words of love behind these:: D

and moree. happy belated 17th birthday quek enn, my goody class clique in sec 4! forget me not yes pretty? haha, you are missed. see you in school and you can date me for lunch. loveee

class clique in sec4. 1st photo, clockwise from top: chang, vivien, :: ), birthdaygirl!

alright people, im off to bed. its been a longlong day, and it will be another tomorrow, yawn

in my weakness, be made strong
in my brokeness, be made whole
in the limitations of my humanity, be made the all powerful God
in all this, remind me that you're God, the God over my flock
sweep off the dust of discouragement,
wipe off the dirt of exhaustation
remove the splinters from this heart
for a shepard's heart, i pray