slipping a note under your cup of coffee
hey there people, it has been sometime. havent found time to blog and even if i had time at hand, i would want to go out. LOL, but not so much of a chance so far.
just had my presentation and it went, well not too bad:: ) and i thank God for that. wisdom, LOL! now im waiting for my next class to begin and so here i am popping by to wave a little 'hi' and hi a little five.
so quickly one month has gone by and im beginning to fit into the 'not-as-slack-as-you-think poly life' now who was the one that told me polyis a place to slack. tsktsk! but i guess the pressure is pushing me, just what i needed. but please dont go past the border, i'l probably suffocate. its never daddy who gives me pressure, it is always me.
common test is just an armlength away, i still cant believe it. but thank God i only have 3 papers to sit for, phew! oh yes, and that means holidays isnt too far away too, woohoo a break from this hectic traffic. chalet, BBQ and more BBQ and outings! haha, book me before im taken. but i do want to spend some time with daddy. so i'l mark out a day or two just for time with dad. hhm, i wonder whats daddy's love language.
daddy how i wish you could see this heart i've hidden, a heart of gratitude
daddy how i wish you could see im trying hard to be your perfect little girl
daddy how i wish you could see it hurts to see you mad
daddy how i wish you could see you mean the world to me
daddy how i wish you could see i would be nothing without you, nothing
daddy how i wish you could see all i want is to hear you say 'im proud of you'
daddy how i wish you could see the tears that flows behind the door
daddy how i wish you could see how i yearn to wrap my arms around you, kiss you goodnight
daddy how i wish you could see i love you, i really do.
oh, and daddy how i wish you could see this blog:: D
my daddy loves me with the cane, but he loves me anyway.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Thursday, May 24, 2007
journey to the place called paradise
okay its been so long and i finally find the time to blog again, phew. well, havent been sleeping much lately due to piles and piles of homework, but no worries im still holding well:: ) common tests are around the corner and i havent really gotten down to study, but i thank God for tutorials, consistent learning.
happenings; well nothing much actually. haha, visited mrs tan and baby sarah yesterday with huling, vivien and david. princess sarah is sure super cute, like totally inheriting her parents chubby cheeks. congratualtions mrs and mr tan!
carmen is loving life and every single bite and taste of it:: )
i used to take the steering on my own
never learnt to decelerate
just drived through life on the PIE/CTE
all i wanted was to get to my destination
used to pick the road; quick and easy
i never bothered to look out the window
just drived through life oblivious to all that was going on
all i wanted was to mind my own business
now as Jesus takes the wheel
He changes the story
takes me through the one way lane; so narrow
but that is where i learn to see
learn to open my eyes to things around
so beautiful, so so beautiful
some times we'd take a stop and wave/give someone a higfive
now driving on the road is more than just me
a marvellous journey God has brought me through
the many that has crossed my lane, passed my car
but without Him this drive would be meaningless
so i thank Him for taking the wheel
choosing the paths, setting my destination
<3.
uh, going to be ramdom but i must say: regiondeedeedeedee, i love you and i love tpy netties too. i love all edgers and all victorious:: D when i stare in the mirror and reflect, i thank God for all the beautiful things he has placed in my life, to have made it so whole; with a heart of gratitude unto You.
oh yah, just to share. pastor has been preaching on the 5 languges of LOVE and i find it really interesting: acts of service, words of affirmation, physical touch, gifts and quality time. it reflects the way one expresses and hopes to receive love. it sure is good to know your language of love.
okay folks, thats all for updates today with carmen<3.
its all about sitting back and letting Him take you on a ride so sweet
okay its been so long and i finally find the time to blog again, phew. well, havent been sleeping much lately due to piles and piles of homework, but no worries im still holding well:: ) common tests are around the corner and i havent really gotten down to study, but i thank God for tutorials, consistent learning.
happenings; well nothing much actually. haha, visited mrs tan and baby sarah yesterday with huling, vivien and david. princess sarah is sure super cute, like totally inheriting her parents chubby cheeks. congratualtions mrs and mr tan!
carmen is loving life and every single bite and taste of it:: )
i used to take the steering on my own
never learnt to decelerate
just drived through life on the PIE/CTE
all i wanted was to get to my destination
used to pick the road; quick and easy
i never bothered to look out the window
just drived through life oblivious to all that was going on
all i wanted was to mind my own business
now as Jesus takes the wheel
He changes the story
takes me through the one way lane; so narrow
but that is where i learn to see
learn to open my eyes to things around
so beautiful, so so beautiful
some times we'd take a stop and wave/give someone a higfive
now driving on the road is more than just me
a marvellous journey God has brought me through
the many that has crossed my lane, passed my car
but without Him this drive would be meaningless
so i thank Him for taking the wheel
choosing the paths, setting my destination
<3.
uh, going to be ramdom but i must say: regiondeedeedeedee, i love you and i love tpy netties too. i love all edgers and all victorious:: D when i stare in the mirror and reflect, i thank God for all the beautiful things he has placed in my life, to have made it so whole; with a heart of gratitude unto You.
oh yah, just to share. pastor has been preaching on the 5 languges of LOVE and i find it really interesting: acts of service, words of affirmation, physical touch, gifts and quality time. it reflects the way one expresses and hopes to receive love. it sure is good to know your language of love.
okay folks, thats all for updates today with carmen<3.
its all about sitting back and letting Him take you on a ride so sweet
Sunday, May 20, 2007
the beauty of One
youth activity today; MERLION MADNESS! woohoo, i was the station incharge together with joannefu for '1,2,3 woody'. though i wasnt in any of the teams; active and running, i had as much fun just being at the merlion walk and seeing the teams forcing peanut butter bread down their throats, *carmen grins evily* seeing them stuffing the bread into their mouths almost made me puke mine. LOL! but it was great fun teasing them and laughing at all their weird poses when they woody(freeze)
so long since i've been to sentosa and it sure is still a beautiful place to be at. the ambience at the merlion walk was really soothing and romantic, where couples would want to be and where i would want to be for some relaxation:: )
so fun, so so fun. i really did enjoy myself today, a big deal. its fun seeing all the youths come together for a time of fun and bonding, the sight of it is sure heartwarming. and every single week when i come back to church, it is where i know its not a 'one-man relay', its the relay of the siants:: ) you just know you're not shinning alone, not running alone. isnt it great to know that when things dont turn out the way it should and you feel discouraged, you'd get pats on the back and words of encoragement. when things are not going very well for you, there are people upholding you in prayers. that, i guess, is the beauty of being a body, a family of Christ.
so continue to love those of whom are standing in this battle with you. an army of diversity cannot win the war. our back we cannot see so let our brothers stand in guard for us. back to back, shoulders to shoulders we'd forward till we see the enemy's white flag raised.
okayokay, its super late right now and im suppose to be off to lala land. take care aplenty all you beautiful, wonderful people. goodnight everyone and tuck yourself in nice and cosy<3.
when all the rivers flow as one, comes a raging sea that overwhelms.
youth activity today; MERLION MADNESS! woohoo, i was the station incharge together with joannefu for '1,2,3 woody'. though i wasnt in any of the teams; active and running, i had as much fun just being at the merlion walk and seeing the teams forcing peanut butter bread down their throats, *carmen grins evily* seeing them stuffing the bread into their mouths almost made me puke mine. LOL! but it was great fun teasing them and laughing at all their weird poses when they woody(freeze)
so long since i've been to sentosa and it sure is still a beautiful place to be at. the ambience at the merlion walk was really soothing and romantic, where couples would want to be and where i would want to be for some relaxation:: )
so fun, so so fun. i really did enjoy myself today, a big deal. its fun seeing all the youths come together for a time of fun and bonding, the sight of it is sure heartwarming. and every single week when i come back to church, it is where i know its not a 'one-man relay', its the relay of the siants:: ) you just know you're not shinning alone, not running alone. isnt it great to know that when things dont turn out the way it should and you feel discouraged, you'd get pats on the back and words of encoragement. when things are not going very well for you, there are people upholding you in prayers. that, i guess, is the beauty of being a body, a family of Christ.
so continue to love those of whom are standing in this battle with you. an army of diversity cannot win the war. our back we cannot see so let our brothers stand in guard for us. back to back, shoulders to shoulders we'd forward till we see the enemy's white flag raised.
okayokay, its super late right now and im suppose to be off to lala land. take care aplenty all you beautiful, wonderful people. goodnight everyone and tuck yourself in nice and cosy<3.
when all the rivers flow as one, comes a raging sea that overwhelms.
Monday, May 14, 2007
my prince charming riding on his white guitar
was at edge last saturday and service was great. during the worship God's presence just became so tangible and it ministered to me. after a long week of heavy work load, being wrapped in God's presence just restores and refreshes my inner being. standing there in His tender loving embrace just makes me whole again.
jeremy preached about facing our failures and i could totally relate. me, one who takes failure as the biggest fear factor in life sure struggle alot in this aspect. every time i face a setback it is almost like i cannot try again, i'l just take it as it is. soon, i become afraid to try because im afraid to fail. what would others think about me, how would others see me; things i became overly-obsessed with. yet this fear would rob me of the big destiny God has for me. so afraid to try, i too have underestimated the power of my BIG God.
so Lord i ask for your forgiveness, forgive me for i have limited You and your possibilites. Lord help me to fully understand and to trust the destiny you have for me in my life. Lord this day i choose to believe that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me:: ) i may not see nor understand what You have in store for me, but teach me to entirely lean on You my BIG Daddy in Heaven for You hold the world in Your hands, of whom shall i be fearful of.
okayokay, i got to run to bed now or im going to be late for school again. haha! take care all you blessed ones. God loves you and so does carmen:: ) *lights out*
so here i stand face-to-face with the lions of which i once fleed from; in the strength of the Lord
was at edge last saturday and service was great. during the worship God's presence just became so tangible and it ministered to me. after a long week of heavy work load, being wrapped in God's presence just restores and refreshes my inner being. standing there in His tender loving embrace just makes me whole again.
jeremy preached about facing our failures and i could totally relate. me, one who takes failure as the biggest fear factor in life sure struggle alot in this aspect. every time i face a setback it is almost like i cannot try again, i'l just take it as it is. soon, i become afraid to try because im afraid to fail. what would others think about me, how would others see me; things i became overly-obsessed with. yet this fear would rob me of the big destiny God has for me. so afraid to try, i too have underestimated the power of my BIG God.
so Lord i ask for your forgiveness, forgive me for i have limited You and your possibilites. Lord help me to fully understand and to trust the destiny you have for me in my life. Lord this day i choose to believe that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me:: ) i may not see nor understand what You have in store for me, but teach me to entirely lean on You my BIG Daddy in Heaven for You hold the world in Your hands, of whom shall i be fearful of.
okayokay, i got to run to bed now or im going to be late for school again. haha! take care all you blessed ones. God loves you and so does carmen:: ) *lights out*
so here i stand face-to-face with the lions of which i once fleed from; in the strength of the Lord
Friday, May 11, 2007
Mr second please pull over.
so much to do yet so little time. haha, this is so in line with my LMS lesson last week. well, i just feel like time is chasing at full speed, it just wouldnt stop. is it just me, but i really feel like days are flying by like real quickly and last week's friday feels like just yesterday. now, tell me im not the only one feeling this way. am beginning to cope better in school i guess. homework is not that stress anymore.
but that isnt the case, homework isnt my life or my everything. i just feel like i have lesser and lesser time to spend with the regiondee youths and i sure miss all you big time. miss the playground madness, miss the undesirable screaming, miss the childhood games that we play, miss the going to jail together. school has started and time has been minimised but love hasnt, my thought for you hasnt. so i pray Lord you expand my time for the youths, those of whom are so close to my heart, those of whom i call my brothers and sisters.
also, i am missing my secondary school friends. so as each of us embark on a new phase in life and take on a new road, let us also remember how our paths once crossed, and how time stopped by for this friendship. haha, i can never forget those two years where we stood side by side always having something up our sleeves. though we werent the best class academically wise, we were the best in unity and joy! you have never ever been forgotten, 4e406'. so Lord i pray you expand my time, that i may purpose to keep this friendship though it isnt going to be easy.
and to some special ones, i know schedule has been tight and time isnt making a way. but i just want you to know that time cannot snatch you away from my thoughts. yea, have been missing you big. please know that i still am thinking of you and am still loving you. yes you special one:: )
so Lord i pray you expand my time so that i will have time to be with these of whom i love so much, so so dearly.
last but not least Lord, i pray that you expand my time for You. Lord i pray as time snatches 'happy hours' away, let it not rob me of quiet time with You. Lord, i stand upon Your grace and love which is new each day. but as each day pass like a flash, help me to be mindful and sensitive to your presence and spirit. Lord, thank You for Your undying love. teach me to love You just as deeply. and all this i pray in Jesus' mighty name; amen.
back into Your embrace is where i want to be, my source of strength and hope.
so much to do yet so little time. haha, this is so in line with my LMS lesson last week. well, i just feel like time is chasing at full speed, it just wouldnt stop. is it just me, but i really feel like days are flying by like real quickly and last week's friday feels like just yesterday. now, tell me im not the only one feeling this way. am beginning to cope better in school i guess. homework is not that stress anymore.
but that isnt the case, homework isnt my life or my everything. i just feel like i have lesser and lesser time to spend with the regiondee youths and i sure miss all you big time. miss the playground madness, miss the undesirable screaming, miss the childhood games that we play, miss the going to jail together. school has started and time has been minimised but love hasnt, my thought for you hasnt. so i pray Lord you expand my time for the youths, those of whom are so close to my heart, those of whom i call my brothers and sisters.
also, i am missing my secondary school friends. so as each of us embark on a new phase in life and take on a new road, let us also remember how our paths once crossed, and how time stopped by for this friendship. haha, i can never forget those two years where we stood side by side always having something up our sleeves. though we werent the best class academically wise, we were the best in unity and joy! you have never ever been forgotten, 4e406'. so Lord i pray you expand my time, that i may purpose to keep this friendship though it isnt going to be easy.
and to some special ones, i know schedule has been tight and time isnt making a way. but i just want you to know that time cannot snatch you away from my thoughts. yea, have been missing you big. please know that i still am thinking of you and am still loving you. yes you special one:: )
so Lord i pray you expand my time so that i will have time to be with these of whom i love so much, so so dearly.
last but not least Lord, i pray that you expand my time for You. Lord i pray as time snatches 'happy hours' away, let it not rob me of quiet time with You. Lord, i stand upon Your grace and love which is new each day. but as each day pass like a flash, help me to be mindful and sensitive to your presence and spirit. Lord, thank You for Your undying love. teach me to love You just as deeply. and all this i pray in Jesus' mighty name; amen.
back into Your embrace is where i want to be, my source of strength and hope.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
to set my sights on You
ask why is a dead dead zombie blogging at this hour. well, its simply because im missing you folks! okay, im real dead tired out by those merciless homework and assignments. why doesnt it ever seem to be done, rawr! is it the assignments or is it just me having poor time management. i need more excuse to come home early to get started, i need that urgency factor need to tear down my chase for perfection, i need to get things done. oh no, i need help. so afraid i am not able to cope, life isnt as easy in poly as people defines. well, i'l guess i'l just have to keep trying, keep pushing and also keep praying.
Lord i pray that You would help me to stay focused, and to continue to fix my eyes upon Your Throne. hold my hand and lead me to where You want me to go, i will follow. Jesus, i just pray that admist the bustling crowd i would not lose grip nor lose sight of You. help me not to suffocate under the pressures but return to Your embrace where i find peace and strength to kick off a new day. drained i run to You, You restoe my soul. broken i come to You, You make me whole. for Your mercy and grace flows like a river that never runs dry, Your unconditional love it overwhlems; its more than enough. Lord this day i thank You for all You've given to me, who am i without You and Your love. so Lord, this day i profess of Your great love that the world may know and that they may see. Jesus, i love You because You first loved me. Amen!
let not one day pass without You by my side. Father, teach me your ways.
ask why is a dead dead zombie blogging at this hour. well, its simply because im missing you folks! okay, im real dead tired out by those merciless homework and assignments. why doesnt it ever seem to be done, rawr! is it the assignments or is it just me having poor time management. i need more excuse to come home early to get started, i need that urgency factor need to tear down my chase for perfection, i need to get things done. oh no, i need help. so afraid i am not able to cope, life isnt as easy in poly as people defines. well, i'l guess i'l just have to keep trying, keep pushing and also keep praying.
Lord i pray that You would help me to stay focused, and to continue to fix my eyes upon Your Throne. hold my hand and lead me to where You want me to go, i will follow. Jesus, i just pray that admist the bustling crowd i would not lose grip nor lose sight of You. help me not to suffocate under the pressures but return to Your embrace where i find peace and strength to kick off a new day. drained i run to You, You restoe my soul. broken i come to You, You make me whole. for Your mercy and grace flows like a river that never runs dry, Your unconditional love it overwhlems; its more than enough. Lord this day i thank You for all You've given to me, who am i without You and Your love. so Lord, this day i profess of Your great love that the world may know and that they may see. Jesus, i love You because You first loved me. Amen!
let not one day pass without You by my side. Father, teach me your ways.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
hey there folks, am here to post again. well, sad to announce but sickly IBM still hasnt come home to mama. i sure kind of miss my little baby though it isnt like the best lappy anyone can ever have. school has been busy lately and the unending trains of assignments and projects just keeps approaching. ask me if im coping, im still trying hard to keep up with the pace to stay in the race.
oh my goodness, people label year one as the 'honey moon' year and im like already feeling the stress in the third week, how to survive the next three years. so God i pray You give carmen grace, wisdom, peace and time management:: ) who am i without You<3.
okay as i promised will make angeline honoured, ANGELINEGOHTEEYUE, LOOK HERE! CARMEN LOVES YOU BIG, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
i will upload the lovely picture the GLs did for us another day but i just really really want to express my heart felt thanks to them three for loving Agraone. you guys are awesome<3.
-to angelinegohteeyue; hey sweetheart, its been like a great great joy knowing you and even getting to know you better. other than you have real nice cheeks to pinch, you really are commited to us i would say. so i love you for loving me:: D
-to funchekwye; hahaha! mister missing in action. finally joined the agra'ers for movies, finally. haha. i know you busy lah, dont blame you. well, your a great guy, very expressive and so i see your great love for this group you call your babies. take care much my brother, and all the best for performance at hopnite! <3.
-to lohchanweiromeo; naughtybigfatpig! LOL, thanks for being such a fun GL though sometimes your unpredictable(and all agra'ers nod their heads). but we sure do love you just as much. well, have more faith in yourself alright, your going to do just fine in the competition tomorrow, woohoo! all the best brother, take care and GET WELL SOON!
-to all the agraones; what would agraone be without you sweets! yes, funloving and crazy, thats the way to do it:: ) keep this friendship going alright. carmen loves you people like nuts, and i mean it. take care you all and God bless you big!
haha, okay thats a bit of like thanksgiving ceremony. LOL, and how could i forget, shidd! thanks for like always pushing me to do my assignments though sometimes i dont want to. but its discipline. stay funny cause you'l make the day of others. get well soon!
oh my goodness, people label year one as the 'honey moon' year and im like already feeling the stress in the third week, how to survive the next three years. so God i pray You give carmen grace, wisdom, peace and time management:: ) who am i without You<3.
okay as i promised will make angeline honoured, ANGELINEGOHTEEYUE, LOOK HERE! CARMEN LOVES YOU BIG, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
i will upload the lovely picture the GLs did for us another day but i just really really want to express my heart felt thanks to them three for loving Agraone. you guys are awesome<3.
-to angelinegohteeyue; hey sweetheart, its been like a great great joy knowing you and even getting to know you better. other than you have real nice cheeks to pinch, you really are commited to us i would say. so i love you for loving me:: D
-to funchekwye; hahaha! mister missing in action. finally joined the agra'ers for movies, finally. haha. i know you busy lah, dont blame you. well, your a great guy, very expressive and so i see your great love for this group you call your babies. take care much my brother, and all the best for performance at hopnite! <3.
-to lohchanweiromeo; naughtybigfatpig! LOL, thanks for being such a fun GL though sometimes your unpredictable(and all agra'ers nod their heads). but we sure do love you just as much. well, have more faith in yourself alright, your going to do just fine in the competition tomorrow, woohoo! all the best brother, take care and GET WELL SOON!
-to all the agraones; what would agraone be without you sweets! yes, funloving and crazy, thats the way to do it:: ) keep this friendship going alright. carmen loves you people like nuts, and i mean it. take care you all and God bless you big!
haha, okay thats a bit of like thanksgiving ceremony. LOL, and how could i forget, shidd! thanks for like always pushing me to do my assignments though sometimes i dont want to. but its discipline. stay funny cause you'l make the day of others. get well soon!
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