Saturday, March 31, 2007

an illustration worth your minutes
We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik in a high chair and noticed everyone was quietly sitting and talking.
Suddenly, Erik squealed with glee and said,"Hi." He pounded his fat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughter and his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggled with merriment.I looked around and saw the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pants were baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-be shoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed. His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was so varicose it looked like a road map. We were too far from him to smell, but I was sure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. "Hi there, baby; Hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster," the man said to Erik.
My husband and I exchanged looks as if to say, "What do we do?"Erik continued to laugh and answer, "Hi." Everyone in the restaurant noticed and looked at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisance with my beautiful baby.Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, "Do ya patty cake? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look, he knows peek-a-boo."Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husband and I were embarrassed.
We ate in silence; all except for Erik, who was running through his repertoire for the admiring skid row bum, who in turn, reciprocated with his cute comments. We finally got through the meal and headed for the door.My husband went to pay the check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old man sat poised between me and the door."Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik," I prayed.
As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him and avoid any air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm, reaching with both arms in a baby's "pick-me-up" position. Before I could stop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man's.
Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their love and kinship. Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head upon the man's ragged shoulder. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneath his lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled my baby's bottom and stroked his back.
No two beings have ever loved so deeply for so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erik in his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, "You take care of this baby."Somehow I managed, "I will," from a throat that contained a stone.He pried Erik from his chest, lovingly and longingly, as though he were in pain.I received my baby, and the man said, "God bless you, ma'am, you've given me my Christmas gift."I said nothing more than a muttered thanks.
With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I was crying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, "My God, my God, forgive me."
I had just witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment; a child who saw a soul, and a mother who saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child who was not. I felt it was God asking, "Are you willing to share your son for a moment?" when He shared His for all eternity.
The ragged old man, unwittingly, had reminded me, "To enter the Kingdom of God, we must become as little children."
God has been so graceful to forgive and accept us as His children when we are so sinful. Then who are we to judge others?<3
-extracted from marcus thng's blog:: )
Let Go, let God<3
my official last day at work today, oh how i dread leaving. heart-warming colleges i've met at my workplace, gracious superiors and friendly agents. of course a great deal of nice clients. a true God-given job:: ) love you all, and will miss you BIG!
had our very own net outing today. hit bowling at Spans and indeed we had great fun. honestly, there isnt a time when this net of mine doesnt have fun yah, LOL! thanks all you netfriends, its you who made net possible, it was never me but you<3. jeremy joined us too, i just have to say he seriously is the 'jeremy' of all trades. good game all you. oh and winner of two games, jared aw, followed by chan kahwai then vivian who was so so close! haha, and me best improved player; from a 19 score to a 83! desmond, jinguo, jinlun, sharmian, felice, celine, benjamin excellent bowlers too, woohoo:: )

as the shepard yearns to bring his sheeps to the best spread of grass for a feast and the ever-quenching lake for a drink over the mountains and through the valleys, his little sheeps often wanders away wanting to get the best the easier way. this sheep lost was the one he loved dearly, so much so he abandoned the ninty-nine to find this little one. away from the shepard's stuff is where the wolf hides waiting to devour. the little sheep thought its was all alone, free from the shepard and the herd. but little did it know that as much as the wolf is waiting for the right time to pounce, the shepard follows closely behind keeping the little sheep in his sight, ready to protect and defend at the expense of his life. wont you recognise his stuff, his robe and come back to him? i learned, let go let God<3

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

good day, good night.
okay, had a great day today. applied for half day leave today to get the CPF form from bishan and daddy ferried me to and fro. talk a little with him and it was good. i tried being open, it was dangerous but overall fruitful. had bubbletea on a weekday, amazing:: ) well, was sent on a job errand to tampines then to raffles and back to toa payoh. it was tiring but i guess its better than being coped in my office doing the usual e-stamping. met jing after work to eat an express dinner, because he has to rush off to meet joel for worship practice. okay, then met felice again and shopped around toa payoh. she spent like alot lah, never imagine how can anyone spend so much in TOA PAYOH. i seriously dont dare to imagine how much she would spend on her usual shopping sprees at orchard or maybe bugis. felice self-control, self-control. but i love you anyway.

oh man, one of the most meaningless post ever. uhh!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

MISS THAM :: )
i am back from medical leave and say you've missed me BIG! well, thank you for those that have been keeping me in prayers, and thank God that im all kicking and active again! woohoo<3.
today i woke up with the strong stronger strongest desire to pursue my dream to be a TEACHER! its like all of a sudden i just have this strong passion to be a teacher and to so so love my students. im specific, i desire to teach in a secondary school (if i could choose, a neighbourhood school i'd like). i mean i love young kids and toddlers, i serve in the nursery ministry and you dont see me pulling off their hair lah, so that shows that i seriously love them. they always make me smile on mrt, buses and on the streets:: ) primary school kids, i guess they're easy and fun to teach but God has birthed in me such a great love for the youths, youngsters, punks, babes, dudes and dudettes (whatever you call them) in Singapore, i just have to teach secondary school students!
honestly, i have thought of being a thousand and one thing before. when i was young i wanted to be a singer. aiyah i know lah i just cant make it *sulks* anyway then i thought of being a tailor and follow paps footsteps. i tried glueing pieces of cloth together to make barbies' dresses, but it didnt work. now you know, im actually quite ambitious. recently some side-tracked ambitions are property agent or maybe a nurse. hahahahahaha! but i guess i've kind of set my heart to being a teacher but its okay to have a little wild thoughts now and then right? hahaha.
honestly the thought of piles and piles of homework stacked before you or having to deal with the little monkeys and chimpanzees in class is indeed the least exciting. but its love that has given me the hope and determination to make it.
doubt me and say i cant make, i'l strive to prove you wrong<3 (in other words, im holding you accountable to keep me on the right track!)

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

on medical leave
hey there you people i am officially taking a day's off from blogging. i'm not really feeling very well, i think im running a fever. everyone say 'oohh~' but nevertheless, i still love you:: ) keep me in your prayers alright? *draws a distance* i sure hope my viruses doesnt get a hold of you. goodnight!
the four letter word
hey there, it is much of a miracle for you since im blogging on two consecutive days right? LOL! i just came home from caregroup and it was all-so-good. honestly i just love caregroup at grace's house. nice ambience and great snacks:: ) more essentially, a great time of sharing and get together. you also get to get up close with the leaders and see the work and the much love and sacrifice that goes behind the screens!
well, things has been good and not so good all together. poeple whom i love so dearly, i seem to have lost channel with them. i just no longer seem to understand their language. i guess its all together those that i place real close to my heart that i start to loose grip of. but ultimately, im still going to believe that love conqueres all.
the one great lesson that i learned from my leaders, love doesnt always need to stand in the lime light and get seen all the time. sometimes love just hides behind that curtain and stay in the background to work, but surely enough it is the ultimate thing that gets the show started and going. and love was also the very element that brought Jesus through His harsh and painful journey to that cross to die for us, isnt that so? that; the extreme love, undying love.
angie quoted this that struck me hard and left me thinking 'i love you enough to be that bad guy' i guess unconditional love truly conqueres all<3

Thursday, March 15, 2007

choosing the cross

hello there people, guess what, after a long long long time, i finally have internet at HOME! haha, so to faithful readers who gets frustrated over my slow moving blog, congratulations! but somehow i still dont think my blog is going to remain still, but not stagnant of course. haha. oh yes, i've gotten into ngee ann poly and im glad! but do keep me in prayer, somehow somewhere i just feel like its not going to be easy and its going to be a great test of faith for me. well, we never know what happens lah. but im still looking forward to the great things God has in store for me in this new phase in life, though the thought of not knowing what to wear to school every morning really scares me! LOL.
well, i took much leave the last week and now i so totally dont feel like going back to work. haha. yes, i was at the encounter with celine, kah wai and desmond last sunday and monday. i was glad to see how much God has moved in celine's life. haha when i asked her what did God did for her at the encounter she said this to me 'He made me cry a lot loh' well, it has to be more than the tears and emotions but the healing He has brought to her and the love God has filled her with. its simply great to see your friends being set free from bondages and hurts.
celine, i just have to say im so so happy for you. seeing you grow in the Lord and being faithfully found in services really excites me. as i see you moving closer and closer to the Lord, im just assured that God is doing a great work in you. continue to hang in there sweet heart. He is a God who never never fails. i love you dear!
kahwai and desmond, im just really glad that you both came for the encounter, in fact i was about to give up the thought that you guys'd join us this time round when you both walked in. i truly am grateful that you took time off to come and i sure hope that God has done a great work in you as well. both of you have great potential to do much for God or even in life, but its all about setting your hearts right. takecare both my brothers, great man of God to be!
and the next thing that i took off for was the SYNERGIZ CONFERENCE 07! my-oh-my, God was indeed moving big at the tampines building. oh yes, thanks JOELLEONG and FELICEYAP for 'influencing' me to sign up! it was truly a divine appointment that God has made with me, i was set free from bondages, and revitalized by the fire to win to win souls. ah, just what i needed. haha. thank you jesus, for you are amazing worthy of all praise!

and so this day, I CHOOSE THE CROSS!