this family is so big that the camera lens cannot capture the whole picture onto the film.
hey there, once again in a long long time im back. so much has happened within such a short period of time. imagine if we could really see our lives play before us on a screen, i think we'll all see that obvious pattern of the ups and downs. and after my fair share of those goody times, im now going through times i dread but times i know of which moulds and strengthen me:: ) and us i open up that shallow view of mine, i see many dragging through that same season as i am in, im not alone.
honestly i really feel kind of bad towards some people of which i really neglected. i guess i was too caught up with trying to get my own face into that picture that i oversee those that were standing out and far away from the lens, standing within my perimeter of view hoping to catch my attention. to you all, im really sorry. now i've learned. though the lens can never capture all of us i'll make that extra effort to at least keep you be my side and take that second shot so that you surely are remembered by me:: )
the big picture does'nt matter anymore, its you that matters most

cant remember when was the last time i posted, see thats how very long i have last updated and rippled this stagnant blog. yes, i have officially 'graduated' and am done with my diploma on pasar malam sales. LOL! yes, in other words, im done with my tedious job at the pasar malam. FINALLY! i have to say its really really tiring. like having to endure 12 hours in the suffocating tent, forcing a smile just to make that sales. but i have to say i've gain a lot of experience from this job. so i guess thats where the quotation 'no pain no gain' came from. other than gaining that extra bucks, i've learned patience, reliance on God and much forgiveness. ask me, i'll be gald to share. haha.
recently, i have been having these unfamiliar stirring in my heart. honestly i dont know what is it but somehow i feel like God is awakening me up from within. i feel like im beginning to feel again, beginning to move again after some time. i have been struggling with senselessness, previously everything feels numb. but now, i feel again. hopefully this is from God and not due to any other causes. but one thing i know, God has rang my 'alarm' once again after a long long time, though it certainly feels good, i know this is not the right time and i have to put it to snooze till God gives the green light, an everlasting one. i guess this alarm is what rang my senses up inside:: ) clueless on whats going on, nah dont worry, im just being metaphoric.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! haha, im enjoying this festive season, are you? when i think of new year, i think of new clothes which gives me an excuse for going on a great shopping spree, fat angpaos from a great big cute smile or a even fatter one if you would sacrifice and be pinched on the cheeks which is actually worth. hahaha! okay, i was just exaggerating lah. actually, all that im loving is the marvellous family time im having with all my relatives. i really really like it when we all gather as one big family to watch the special programmes on air or bet a little in the game of black jack. such moments only comes once in a year, how i wish there would be more. im already looking forward to the next upcoming new year! well, most importantly, i sure wish that i'll be able to be a testimony to these relatives and to see them come to salvation. in God's divine timing, let it be done! but for now, i shall go enjoy the rest of my family moments together with them before we have to bid goodbye till we meet again the next time in a long long period.
love you people BIG! so i wave goodbye and blow a goodnight kiss*