for a heidi's heart i pray.

when the sun smiles on the green pastures,
or when the grey clouds visits,
when one from the herd goes to hide
or naughty ones decide to bite.

still,
a deep love for the herd,
for a heidi's heart i pray.

when the skies turn gloomy,
let not heavens cry too long.
if You'd catch all my tears,
then let not any bottles be filled.

oh why does it rain, i wonder
i guess i've forgotten,
heidi too gets a heartache often

paint the seven colours across the skies,
pin up the sun; the source of life.
for the strength to walk the herd,
a piece like this i need to see.

heidi too needs daddy's hug.
she needs to hear 'my darling,
everything is gonna be alright.'

You carry me on eagle's wings.

hello there people, its 2 am now and im still up. haha, but fret not i will hit the bed after this post:: ) see, you come first!

well, we had dance practice today followed by a full dress rehearsal. haha, i honestly have to confess, i think we have been bitten by some lazybug (and perhaps snacking bugs too). the moment we reached there, we sat comfortably on the couch and munched away. haha! but of course, we did practice lahh, we arent as lazy as you think okay!

it was funn at futsing, region C was there too:: ) the kids were adorable, the choir was melodious, region C was fabulous and region D was happy! hahahhahaa. we were just laughing throughout and seriously that was the spirit that the team has built through all the thick and thins we braved through together, that touched my heart.

there there dear dancers, its tomorrow that we will take our first step to shine our lights where darkness rule:: ) so lets give it our best, not for us but for Him who watches and for this world's whose eyes are seeking. although its hard to imagine how a dance could reach out to the rest, but let not our little hearts limit what our biggg God can do.

oh yess, and all the best to J-crew (region c) too. honestly i think you guys are amazing. go on, and 'set the place on fire!' wooooooooooots. uhh, they probably wont see this, but still :: DD

and my dearest region, adam and eve is not a seven person thing, its an entire region affair! your prayer and encouragement made us possible. your screams, laggi (even) better! LOL. now lets work work work on making carolling very very goooood toooo:: ) never underestimate this opportunity we have in singing at a RC, you'll never know how God can bless this initiative:: )

alrightey, aunty tham is going to bed now(after she removes her dentures and brings in the potty) and quit nagging at you youngsters; youth now adays uhh..

Isaiah 40: 30, 31 'Even youths become exhausted and young men will give up. But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.'
thanks xiaowei!

eight more days till santa comes and visit

i have finally uploaded some photos that has been left almost forgotten in my phone:: ) and so here i am, to show them to youu!

a night out with my beloved net:: )


granny chua:: D his dentures are falling off!

rebecca, christina, celine, ben, elton:: )



hahah! after a pretty long time, we went out as a net again. although not everyone made it, i would still say i enjoyed myself very much. they have become so much a part of me, i'd feel like they are my own brothers and sisters now:: )

dear Lord, i just pray that You will keep holding them in Your hands, for the every circumstances and trials that they will face. and i pray, that they will keep trusting in You, and that their faith in You will be built. Lord i pray for the day that i will see each and everyone of them rise to be great man and women for You!
but in the meantime, i ask that You will hold my hand as i lead them. teach me to be a shepard unto them, to love them like you do. areas in which i fail, in which im inefficient, Lord i pray you will fill in the gap. give me a heart that will beat for this net. amen.

friday night at ikea, niceee!

yingmin, celine and fishh:: )

we just couldnt leave without taking a final picture.

alright there you have it:: ) half of the photo in my phone. LOL! theres still a bit bit more but i shall not show it all to you. haha, isnt that how i keep you coming? takecare much my faithful people, you are lovedd! isnt that the greatest news of all time? haha. God bless you!

under Your wings i take refuge, under Your shadow i find rest, in Your loving eyes i find the strength to take my every step.

the buzz is back:: )

alrightey, carmen is happy and so happy, she forgot to tell you: the campers are back:: ) haha, its really nice hearing all those screams and shouts again. and after youthcamp, its a double portion of anointing on that, and of course a new and afresh touch from God for all of them! isnt it nice to hear? i have been so blessed by the various testimonies by these loved ones i almost thought that i was there (but definitely not in michelle and bunkmates' room, voted the dirtiest) LOL.

now now, after knowing i've missed out on so so much, i will not and must not miss camp next year, right kahwai? LOL! its such a beautiful sight when you see young people come back transformed, renewed and recharged for God. but i guess whats more important is that whatever work that was done must be sealed and also to be followed up on.

so young and mighty generals, keep the fire in you burning strong and bright not just for a month or two, but let it last for as long as time:: )

for almost all its life, the white candle lived among a group of other candles. though he's friends looked different from him; some were tall, some short, some fatter than the others, they all stood and shone brightly together.
it wasnt for long that the white candle was taken away and seperated from his friends, the tall ones, short ones, fat and skinny ones. he stood all alone in the middle of a dark room and begin to grew a little afraid. although all his life, his wig was litted and left to give forth light he never understood why it was so hard to be like what he used to be. so the white candle held back, afraid to shine. he just wanted to be, like everyone one else.
until a day came and the candle could hold out no more, he itched to see who was beside him and all around him. so he lit his wig shining forth his minimal, just to take a little peep. he saw one candle, two candles, three candles, four...
with him stood those who looked like the friends he knew but they too have held back their glory, just waiting for someone to shine theirs first. and among them were those awaiting for a spark to be birthed, a flame and warmth that could be passed on to them.

if i was a candle, i would want to be one with the wig that is always litted until the day all my wax burns out. but till then, i would spread this flame, one by one, let all the candles be litted; the tall ones, short ones, fat and skinny ones.

thomas edison didnt invented the light bulb for it to be placed in somewhere bright. it was purposed to glow in the dark so that others could see:: ) if a glow is gived off only in the midst of light, then what purpose does it serve?

a lighthouse on hill.

day four; im still missing you

but they will be back tomorrow! wooooooots. after a long wait, its tomorrow that there will be noise again, its tomorrow that im ending my tests:: )) haha, doesnt that give me a reason to flash a big smile? LOL!

i cant wait for the two weeks break, just what i'll need after mugging so much for the common tests. and at the thought of that, im not really confident about my results, booo! but who could i blame, i guess i just havent put in enough effort. oh come on, come on, its time to buck up! but i guess this common test has sort of, well, remind me to pull up my socks. but the greatest fear is that if im underperforming, dad may blame church activities for my grades. and thats not what i want to hear. and i know it isnt true.

and so God i pray, that whatever the results be, You will make a way. and come what may, i'l continue to bless Your name.

tomorrow is another tough tough paper; CIP. no its not your community service thing, its computer information processing? i dont even know what its called. hahaha, and yes, im heading off this very moment to begin this tough battle trying to understand whats hardware, software, information systems, blahhh. LOL!

chenxiaowei; and this friendship still stays close to my heart. and i will still say that if ever you feel like your world is crumbling down, i'l be here to stand by you. and you thought me, what friends are for. i love you.

so see you folks, and wish me all the best:: ) God bless!

and i will stand, not backing down; desperate to see my generation bow to You.

day two; im missing you.

its a happy day cause i've got no papers today:: ) everyone shout hooray with me! haha, nevertheless i need to get back to my books sooon, cause tomorrow im having evil statistics, boooo!

its been so quiet lately cause all the noisy ones are stranded on the holy island, rompin, having so much funn! haha, yes its day two of youthcamp now:: ) somehow they have become so much a part of me, it just feels weird when they are not around. when they no longer scream at your ears, or make you roll your eyes with a silly comment. when all of a sudden, you think something is wrong with your msn cause its so silent. hahahaha!

dear Lord,
right now i commit all the campers into your hands, i just pray that You will watch over them and You will place Your hands of protection upon them. let the weather over there be good so that they will not miss out on all the fun, provide them with what they need, oh Lord make a way out for them in every circumstances. i also pray that they will experience a fresh new encounter with You there, set their hearts on fire once more, that they will center their lives on You and You alone. most importantly oh God, i pray that Your Holy Spirit will seal every work done in their hearts. be with then till they came back and walk before them along this journey. i thank You and praise You in Jesus' name.
Amen!

"Take the Floor" Outreach, 24nov07


alrightey people, im going back to the books now:: ) takecare much, and all the best to all whos taking papers tooooo! and after which, look forward to the holidays; woohooooo just what i needed. God bless you<3.

cause I'm in love with you, and you're in love with Me, I want to dance with you, won't you draw near to Me.

i can't imagine life without You, without You.

and yes, they are really gone. youthcamp is today! they are probably reaching rompin soon, in another few hours time. and blah blah, all the victims of poly are left suffering here, in the exam halls:: ( oh goodness, im complaining again. aiyahh, but seriously it cant be helped! especially when you know the bestest speaker is sharing, the games are ohh-la-la, and the theme is 'better than desaru'. oh wait, haha its My Generation.

oh well, but i do feel very excited for them:: ) awaiting for their returns with their heavy baggages of testimonies and sharing. wooooots! its probably going to be one of the best youthcamp, just that they lack me:: X oh did i mention that! LOL.

pastor jude, shared at edge and our sunday service as well. and i was utterly blessed by his sharing and God's power and timely word. He spoke about being made in the image of God and how sometimes we fail to see or cannot comprehend how we can be like God because our imaginations and thinking has been distorted by the various images of the world. but now i know that im a beautiful work of His hands:: ) the theory of evolution acts as a veil that covers men's fear and uncertainty about being able to be made in God's likeness, isnt that so?

on sunday, he spoke about the most basic yet powerful message; prayer of faith, prayer of the Spirit. im truly encouraged by his faith, and more so by God's faithfulness in listening and answering prayers, to believe and not doubt.

haha, sounds good eh?

oh well, i shall just be a good girl now and mug hard for my papers and pull through these days without my wacky friends. and when exams are over, i will see all the pretty faces again. dear God, let this week past ultra quickly and let saturday come fast! takecare people, im going to prepare for my papers now; supply demand, law of diminishing, lalalalala!

the greatest love that anyone could ever know. it overcame the cross and grave to find my soul.

HO HO HO, Christmas is near.
MUG MUG MUG, exams are hereeee!

ALAKAZAMM (BOOM!), and then i disappear:: )

listening to the radio playing yesterday's hits.

:: ) im popping by, again!

and yes, hello to you, again. well ask me how i am and i would still be yacking away about being 'busy busy bumble beeee' in schoool and all over the place. its seriously, phew, tiring! why am i not finding the 'chill and relaccc' life in the poly people talk about? and please, dont go on to tell me how year two and three would be like. hahaha! but of course, fret not for im still going on strong:: DD the books and notes and all those scheming projects just have to know that they are no match for me! haha.

the year is coming to an end, and my head is still stuck, somewhere there in june. haha, i just cannot understand how quickly time has gone by. now its not just at the blink of an eye, its like at the twitch of your eyelids, and zooom there goes a year. doesnt it seem? and its always during this time of the year where everyone gets 'emo' and starts reminiscing (or is it just me?). then carmen begins to think of all she has done this year and somehow feel like crying::' ( no no, not because she has been naughty, but because she doesnt like it when good times fly sooo quickly! you know how bad her sstm can be:: X

and heres some special special moment spent with Region Deeee, where all the crazy, lovely, encouraging, wild and funn people meet and go wacky:: D and its where i find lovee, and the family that never fails to support!

haha, arent they simply adorable. and need i still say how much i lovee them? this region has walked me through sooo much. and theres still more to come:: ) and the most fulfilling part of all, is to see how much God has worked in their life as He did in my life.

my dearest, lets all keep walking together, lets all grow old (and toothless) together, grins.

dancers who dance upon injustice

welcome me back! haha, its been ten thousand years since i blogged! i know i know, how stagnant this blog water has been. it probably already bred three generations of mossies! LOL. carmen has been little miss buzzing-all-over-the-place because of school and everything else. or maybe it just all boils down to poor time management. soo, who wants to knock into me to realise that twenty-four hours is not thirty-three hours!

well, just to update you on the biggest hoo-haa recently; adam and eve danced at the outreach this year and yes, we took the floor. but no, it wasnt our groove, nor our strength. definitely not to our glory, but it all belongs to Him. it was truly because we had a mighty God that was backing us up:: ) through this, i've learned so much so much. so much about the heart of worship, so much about leadership, so much about teamwork, so much about the Father that takes pride in us. could i ever speak enough about how faithful our Father was, watching over us. and when we all were panicking and jumpy, how He never fails to remind me to know that He is God. it is also this time of which i was made weak, so that He was strong. made so small so that He was big. so thank God, thank God!

and of course theres a whole lot more of people to thank, for making this team possible. angie lim ai shan, shawn soh wei li, gladys soh bei yi, chen xiaowei. all your inputs made this dance what it is today! and thak you for your guidance and words of affirmation. always letting me know that i can do it, it definitely meant alotl, thank you!
joel leong jia le, our very faithful and anointed, super powerful worship leader:: ) thanks dude for always coming down and leading us in such beautiful times of worship, such times so soo precious, you may not even have seen it. but this, you've led, has brought this team this far. your constant encouragement has kept me going.
for those that always came down to support us! woots, you guys rock rock rock a&e's world. haha! it was exactly what we all needed. joheng, jowong, tuckie, nictan, joanne and some others:: ) now now, this is way moreee than a seven person's dance, it is indeed a region's dance. qigebage, your cheers integrates with the music, so much a part of us!
oh and how can i forget, our very own consultant, auntie michelle! haha, she was such a great great lady, she helped me to go way out in my thinking. well, of course, carmen being carmen is still very conservative in thought but i've loosen up just a little bit! haha.
and i got very very special people to thank, daisy gary and christina! thanks alot for dropping by. it did, it did meant alot:: ) zhiwei and david too and of course for those who intended to come down! its the thought that counts, and im countin your thoughts, thank youuu! carmen is still breathing bacause of your encouragements!

and so you think i forgot, my very very own team mates, dancers and late night survivors! melody, matthew, michelle, felice, jinlun, grace:: DDDD there is just sooo many soo many times i even thought of giving up, thought that i wont be able to pull through, but your constant words of affirmation kept me hanging in there, kept my hope running. the so many times i just feel like walking away, you guys never never fail to give me a pat on my back, reassuring me that we will pull through. you guys mean just so much so much to me. its truly thick and thin that we've pulled through. isnt that so? i love you, every of one of you. for you are precious, so so precious to me. God bless!

and i realised, that the moment i stepped back, i flood this river with a super long anf naggy post. haha! thats what its like when you miss blogging too much:: X hahahhaa! alright, thats about it people, carmen is off to bed! yawwns, wish me sll the best as i continue to slog my guts out in school, phew the battle with the books (or you will call them lecture notes) begins, again!

sing me that nursery rhyme once more

oh my, i just realised how very very long i have yet to update this stagnant blog. yes, so here i am again, on a very long two hour's break to just update you guys an update. haha! the truth is, its been so so long i forgot what you've missed out on:: D

yawns, school has been boring. boohooo! i still prefer my previous semester, because i feel smarter then. haha! microecons, bstats, bcomm, cip, ob:: ( tough, so tough! lets just keep praying that i will be able to do well! and if you happen to be good in any of these, haha please be nice and teach me! hahaha.

i have one very very very bad news, youth camp falls on my common test week and i seriously think thats the bad-est news ever. im still thinking it through, and praying it through, i might appeal to the office to be excused for the common test, big risk though! wisdom, i need. and of course, i have my net to owe to for such great encouragement and they have been giving me the courage to even think of forgoing a 25% weightage test, 'faith' they said.

and doesnt that remind you how God honours a child-like faith. its amazing to hear the prayer of a kid, sometimes it surpasses even that of a fancy-word prayer by a grown up. i guess thats because they live in the trust to know that when they fall back, it would be into the Fathers arms he will land. so as we grow let us also be mindful that there are times of which we need to learn to lean back and just enjoy the warmth of the Father's embrace, just as a child rests in his mother's arms. and there's a kid in me, like there's a kid in you:: D

woots, BAMP! camp begins tomorrow and im pretty excited, haha and since when was i never excited. LOL! but it still doesnt feel like its already the start of november, i think i just blinked and 1 month is gone. blinked twice and (boom!) there goes my holidays! and yes, im not over the fact that holidays are gone, i need more more and more dosage of holidays:: ) greedy, yes i am. hah!

BA society after the BA esporte event

and guess what, saturday is coming again. haha! the only word that never failes to make me anticipate and look forward to. oh yes and before i forget, i have got dedications for people of whom i lovee very very very much; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUCK WAH AND MICHELLE! my two dearest dearest cousins, closest closest to my heart. and can i emphasize it more? you whom i have grown up with, you whom have played a brother and sister in my life. i just pray that God will continue to do a great great work in you both as He already is doing right now. and most importantly, i just want to say thank you and ito say, i loveee you dearest! and how can i forget, colin. happy 21st birthday! haha, thanks for the dinner yesterday it was really nicee! takecare much my brother, and keep hanging there never let loose till you see a breakthrough!

alright people, i shall not blabble on and spare you and your eyes:: ) and you know you're loved faithful ones and keep staying faithful. God bless.

we may walk through countless valleys and roads that are so narrow, but let these mountaintop encounters carry us through.

blessed be Your name, always.

greetings to all you happy saturday-lovers, just like mee. haha, yes, i just came back from edge and im dead beat! it has been a long long day so i decided to miss dinner and come home to rest. a thousand apologys to my dear dear region dee for leaving. but i promise, i'l be there the following week and the following following weeks. you still love me rightt? haha.

but before that, would just like to share about some stuff before i forget (and you know me soo well, dont you?), so dont scold me for coming online though i complained i was tired. LOL!

and as i was saying, it was a long long day. went swimming with dear shar; my sporting partner, at 9. dont belittle us, we swam 8 laps:: ) i feel fit. LOL! then went to vivo for the corporate youth activity and it was great fun! but thanks to darren ho and his so-smart commitee we were made to run high and low, up and down and all over the mall. and everyone else was complaining. but it sure was quite good lah, i did have a great time i have to admit. so a great applaud to region 5/6 for the great planning and executing. and great job to all who were leading and participating, you poor victims of darren's scheming, but oh well, great job in having funn!

group three, a great group to have; ruth, david, darryl, grace, jemyn, joel, caleb.

then, then i went to edge. the bestest part of all:: D worship was good, sermon was awesome. saula preached on letting your lights shine and i guess it really spoke to many, for such a time as this. and i want to share something on this before i go to sleep and my memory gets washed off, haha.

when saula gave the altar call today, i didnt go forward but stood at my seat and really seeked God. and i began to question why do i feel that my fire has gone low, the light in me has dimmed a little. and God revealed the times of which my faith was challenged, times of which i had to stand for my faith which wasnt easy at all. times of which i got laughed and mocked at because of what i believed in. and from time to time like this, slowly and unknowingly i begin to cover up, a little by a little, this light in me. its not that this light isnt glowing anymore, its just that it isnt as before. and God comforted me, that each time as these happens, it is Him who was rejected, not us. so i really urge you, if ever there were times of disappointments and rejections, sweep off the dust from your feet and continue to move on. do not dim the lights, because many still need it to find their way home. and your Daddy looking from above is pleased, very pleased with you. take heart people, because you never shine alone.

the previous time sembawang bbq night; we are the light of the world

and another thing, run on endless supply of fuel. we light our lamps every single night, not just once a month nor do we only light it when christmas is nearing. this is more than just an emotions roller coaster, or a feel-good session. lets remember this day that we have said 'yes' to God and hold on to it through everything:: ) let it shine, let it shine! so paste a post it note on your fridge, or slip a teddybear-print note into your wallet, just so you would could always 'remember who you are'.

alright there people! im going off to catch all the sleep in the world that i lack and that i need:: ) takecare there wonderful beings, you would be missed till i see you again. God bless!

and as we set feet at the altar, no matter the ground of which we are standing upon, choose to bless the Lord, choose to worship Him. then you can smile in the face of goliath and stand in victory, because the God that you serve is way larger then that little elf.

when its just You and me
hello there people, i've got good news! i've finally uploaded the hongkong pictures:: ) thanks to nic sow for the cable. LOL, i shant talk too much and feed you with pictures and a little something from the trip.

day one; waiting for departure at changi airport

featuring beloved aunty dolly:: )

then we checked in at macau's newest hotel, Venetian hotel.

and this fellow cannot keep still and had this camera entertained him

indeed, it was a mini venice:: ) niceeeee

featuring my cousin, tham tuckwah

dearest aunty peggy:: )

unlike the ones in genting, this boats are real and require skills to row. it was really a little test of what venice is like, especially when these boat rowing people sing for their 'passenger', amazing! and i think they do come from venice.

we were walking aroung and then tuckwah got excited over this,

tham tuck wah is an ever faithful man-u fan, oh well.

and i got excited over this, a breathing statue. he works like those 20cents horsey we sit on. everytime people places money near hes feet he moves and does a few grooves, then stops again. requires great skill and alot of patiencee.

and this thing is evil, the casino. it is right smacked in the middle of the hotel and since i wasnt of age we all had to take a big round to get across this evil thing. and guess what, i was left all alone in the room because they all went to visit this monster, including tuckwah. rarr!

on the outside of the hotel, equally amazing sight. okay, just ignore that dwarf posing in the picture, i look retarded!

well, we didnt travel out of the hotel cause it was rather late when we arrived. so we missed all the good almond cookies, sight seeing and biggest regret, the black sand beach:: ( but then again, my aunt said that there was a strike the day we missed it so, thank God for keeping us safe.

my favourite picturee:: )

now, after seeing the outside, now check out our rooom! wooots, suitee.

haha, its sooo tiring to upload these photos i've decided to do them in parts:: D haha, at least you know the first half of the story now. maybe tomorrow or the day after the rest of the photos will come up. so take care folks, cause im off to catch some sleep. haha! goood'afternoon' and loveee.

from summer to autum, a change of season. leafs wither and the wind blows stronger. trying, but i will stand strong, not only through autum but also through winter. to see that oh, isnt these seasons as beautiful as well. but still i anticipate for spring to come.

saturday is tomorrow, tomorrow is saturday!

and its my last day of work here in the church office. LOL, and so 'meaningfully' i've decided to blog this half day away. haha, and no im not being naughty. i've finished my job:: ) uh, okay not exactly cause angie tasked me to call some poeple and all these naughty ones are not picking up their phone.

i do have to say, im having fun working here:: ) so much so, i dont want to go back to school. or was it because i dont want to go back to school that i like working here? oh well, no matter how much i grumble and rumble and mumble and make a whole lot of sulky faces, school still has to start:: ( uhhh, big big terror! okay people, i have to clarify; its not that i dont like school or anything along that line. its just that im not prepared to go back into the lecture halls to learn anything, not prepared for tutorials, not prepared for the long long bus rides. haha, and why do i begin to feel that its because i havent got a nicee notebook, havent bought a few good pen and i havent bought my bus concession, ohh ridiculous, carmen!

so quietly, the days crept past me, under my bed and behind my back. i havent even realised and cannot comprehend that two months had past since my end-sem exams. and why do i feel that someone has been meddling with my calendar:: D haha, and why do i feel that i have sooo much to say today. LOL! well, carmen is just being carmen:: )

net tonight, edge tomorrow! im quite excited actually since net tonight is going to be really huge! haha, yes, jinlun is out of town and has entrusted his beloveds to me. wahaha, that means i can do anything i want to them, gives an evil grin* oh yes that fellow, hes left for thailand. and he never even gave me the chance to say byee. okay, at least i think that hes gone already. and i know you'll see this. enjoy your trip brother, you know you're very much missed by us here. its your holiday, so go ahead and let down your hair (though you dont have much to do so:: D). please lah, come back soon okay. take care and God blesss you.

okay people, i've got to runn! time to meet the aunties for lunch:: ) aiyah, i wanted to post something really inspirational and 'chim'. but i dont know why, no juices are flowing through these vessels. another time people, another time!

better is one day in Your house, better is one day in Your courts, better is one day in Your house, than a thousand elsewhere.

come and make my heart Your home

and its been a good week so far, i am enjoying the last week of my holidays:: ( yes, school is going to start! no, im not really looking forward to it though i ought to feel contented with the two full months i've got with just sitting and slacking away. haha! but still i have to face it, a new term, new start with lots and lots of things to plan and hope for.

and for a whole new school term, let it also mark a new paragraph on my life pages:: ) i dont know why, and neither can i explain this feeling of anticipation, as though something real big and good is going to happen! oh well, i'l just wait and see. if not go all out and make something happen, haha! and i think the second option sounds better. let it not only be for me, but for you my brothers and sisters, lets begin to movee and begin to get up to see things happen. for the winter has passed, and a new season is approaching:: )

and the only thing that im missing really bad, is my classmates in the previous semester. although majority of us would remain in the same class, there are also others that have gone to another class, and its a big boohoo! i'l miss the lunch that we have together, the little jokes and after school hours we have together, TB28 i have to mention again; i lovee you and am going to miss you big and bad. keep in contact people, let not this special friendship drift with distance. big hug for girls, and for the guys a punch:: ) study hard and God blesss!

the 'girls rule boys drool' clique. LOL!

i shout a big 'takecare' and 'goodnight', then (silence). you know what happened, dont you? LOL.

i could still see the place where You first found me, the first time i took Your hands, and decided that this was it. am not going to change my mind, not looking back. for this is the story that spells our love, and an never ending story unfolds.

be near oh God, be near.

hello there people, im here again! pardon me for slow updates recently, i've lost the momentum to post regularly. LOL! it must be facebook thats been keeping me busy all day. haha! yes, its a new found joy:: )


great enthusiastic bunch, part of group seven's SC:: )

SC outing was last staurday and i have to say, i had funn! although only a quarter of the group turned up, the small bunch of us did have a really good time bonding and getting to know one another. but i have to admit, running around is sure tiring. i wouldnt have been able to survive but thanks to the great amount of adrenalin rush, it kept me going. haha! i guess i've also learned a great deal through this meeting. alot on leadership, patience and working together. theres more to be done, and im in the process of learning:: ) more, more events and outings please! oh and before i forget, great job and cheers to my beloved SCOs; wenjin and crystal! i know im looved:: X

and a confession to make, carmen was naughty and missed service yesterday morning:: ( must have been really tired out from the sc outing, but i know thats no excuse. i will be a good girl once the new term starts, i will try and you have to remind me. any nice soul wants to be my alarm clock on sunday mornings and my reminder every other day. hahahah! and i have to warn you that it isnt an easy task, especially trying to be my alarm clock. LOL! and can you imagine, carmen needs people to remind her to be a good girl, dear mine!

well, at least i made it to evening service yesterday. met a few of them at the jamming studio and watched them butter their breads before we headed down to tampines. and no im not going to give yup halfway on my drummings this time, its time to go all the way for it. actually its more than just an instrument to be learned, but i really want to take it on to teach myself discipline and a great deal on following through. and for all who knows me knows this is something that i must be taught. LOL!

so quickly this precious year is drawing to an end. so much has happened and it all feels like it was just yesterday. like a gush of wind, things come and mercilessly take off. but of course, there are things that are rooted, and has stayed through:: ) and that, is comforting to hear. and i am definitely looking forward for the new year to begin, with great things, i believe God has prepared for our church. and it is just exciting to be involved. God is also beginning to work in my life, im just beginning to see all that desires to do in me and through me, taking me on His wings. but honestly, it isnt easy. just keep me running, and keep me going with lovee and much encouragement. im hanging in there, keeping strong in God's grace, i promise. and you know, you know i will stay still and know that He is God.

for such a time as this, i will choose to bless Your name, to give You all the praises due. all i need to hear, is that You are near and i will stand and trust that You are God.

remove these splinters

hello there people, i know you havent been hearing from me. yes, carmen is back in Singapore; safe and sound and loving Singapore even more. dont ask me why i havent been updating, i guess its pure laziness. you know what im like, dont you? :: D

hongkong was goood, but i still love singapore moree. haha, i visited 4 places in 5 days, quite a rush! arrived in macau, ferried to hongkong the following day, bused to disney land and then trained to shenzhen! haha, soo many places to visit, so little time. so many things to buy, so little cash, big booo! LOL. but its a wrong day to look out for updates on my hongkong trip, haha its only coming in another day.

and talking about that, nic sow and celine is leaving for that place in another 3-4 hours time, for 8 days. tell me thats very loooong! and yes, im going to miss them both but celine moree:: X hah! hey you both, have a great time in hongkong. remember to live by their slogan; eat buy, buy eat. and remember me, here missing you on this tiny island. enjoy much before the school term begins again(phew)! bonvoyage.

and have i grumbled already, well i have to again. im missing edge once moreeee! being deprived of three straight weeks of edge doesnt feel very goood. boohooo! but its okay, next week will come soon, very very sooon! comforting? very. so missing the third week of edge marks the day of the sc outing. and i have to admit im quite excited about it tooo. but i think i need to bring along lots of enthu pills to hype up a big bunch of these, haha let group seven roar! LOL. so wish me all the best and that this bunch will be nice and not bite:: D

the last few nights was spent with wonderful region dee'ers over dinner:
monday - touched down in singapore; tuesday- met chang for a watch-her-eat-dinner session, then prayer meeting plus stay-back session for some jamming, where it sparked my interest for drums; wednesday- catchy up session with sammy and with lucy who just came back, safee!; thursday- dinner with some of them followed by rolling all over the floor at the sky garden, LOL; friday- early dinner at pastamania with 7 others then it was time for net! its a fun week packed to the max with all the dee'ers. sweeeeeet:: )

oh and before i forget, happy belated 18th birthday angeline gohteeyue(30th sept). haha! i loveee you pretty though you can be quite a monster at time:: D hahah, BIG HUG*

angeline gohteeyue, hiding her words of love behind these:: D

and moree. happy belated 17th birthday quek enn, my goody class clique in sec 4! forget me not yes pretty? haha, you are missed. see you in school and you can date me for lunch. loveee

class clique in sec4. 1st photo, clockwise from top: chang, vivien, :: ), birthdaygirl!

alright people, im off to bed. its been a longlong day, and it will be another tomorrow, yawn

in my weakness, be made strong
in my brokeness, be made whole
in the limitations of my humanity, be made the all powerful God
in all this, remind me that you're God, the God over my flock
sweep off the dust of discouragement,
wipe off the dirt of exhaustation
remove the splinters from this heart
for a shepard's heart, i pray

as i enter Your courts, and into the secret place i'l run.

its the mooncake fesival! haha, yes i absolutely know that its suppose to be called the mid-autumn festival, but mooncakes interest me mooooore! and i havent gotten to eat the green tea with snow skin ones, i need some, really! haha.

well, this year's mooncake festival really lack the atmosphere. maybe because im out of secondary school already. yes, i rememeber how our school used to celebrate and it was such fun soaking up the mood of the festival. but this year, other than just seeing bakeries after bakeries selling tonnes and tonnes of mooncake (but without my green tea ones), there wasnt really much else that complimeted the beautiful full moon. did attempt to play lanterns and light candles but still, wasnt sufficient to bring about the mood, oh well. but it was fun at net when we played and created a 'lantern tribe'. its sooo funny! pictures another day:: )

customised and specially made for me; by joey, my primaryschool schoolmate

actually im dead tired now, and i need to sleep. haha, am training myself to go to bed earlier so that i wont have to suffer the following day. haha, but carmen is just being nice like she always is and wave you faithful ones goodbye before she embraces hongkong in another 34hours or so. haha, ask me how im feeling, its quite a dilemma. im quite excited about the trip but at the same time, rather sad to leave! the thing i hate about leaving is missing out on all that is going on right here! i need the edge! and i can forsee that this week's sermon is going to be funn. jinlun, remember what you promised meeee:: ) ahhh, thats the only thing that makes me not sooooo sad! so yess, im bidding my goodbye here, and i know you are going to miss me, arent you? haha.

and once again i must say, i looove you people:: ) haha, and i have learned never once to take for granted the time i have at hand, maybe some day He might say its time to go home, and then i'd return into His loving arms. so my faithful ones, such lovely faces; i thank God for you were the kisses that He blew from heaven, carried with love and lots of warmth!

a jug of love for tpy net; my lovely people.
a mug of love and cheers to the girlfriends; xiaowei, huiling, celine, felice.
a tablespoon of those to my faithful lefthand; and need i mention?
then sprinkle abundant of love on everyone else; doesnt matter if you had hopped, drived, flew, ran, swam, or maybe rolled past my path, you just need to know you really matter to me:: )



okay, so its another loveydovey message to all you loving people:: ) miss me till you see me again will you, and i loveeee you honey and bees! miss me miss me miss me miss me miss me miss meeeee.

i want to stand before You dressed in the finest linen.

faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains

hey there dear folks and all you pretty faces, im here to update again! haha, this update could have came in earlier, but i abandoned my post cause i was on the line with felice yap the other night; a nice nice catching up! oh how i lovee that silly girl:: )

anyway, was about to update on the steamboat i had with another 8warriors at marina south the other night. though it was just a small group of us, it was great fellowship-ing. jinlun, jinguo, nic tan, nic sow, sam heng, colin, celine tay, jiemin were the ones that came and spent a jolly happy night with me, gladly dunking tonnes of meat into the soup and onto the butter-filled pan. haha, and then we headed for the arcade reeking just like those meat that turned brown on the pan. now i want some O2 jamm, haha, gimme gimme if you have! all thanks to this particular machine that stirred up my hunger for some O2 jamm. LOL! ask these warriors, they would know:: D then they headed to the bowling alley for a game. it was a great joy just watching them cheering and jeering, teasing and well, playing.

us at the bowling alley; jiemin is away for an icecream.

there seems to be so much to blog about but i somehow dont know where to begin. oh yess, prayer meeting last week was simply great, the house was filled with God's presence and it was so tangible. i would admit sometimes going to prayer meeting means dragging my foot there, going with a spirit without expectations. however, God never fails to show up at the sanctuary, and heavy burdens are always exchanged with light ones. and so, im beginning to lovee prayer meetings. dee'ers i too encourage you to come, pack the little room with youths hot on heels!

i am still helping out at the church office and well, loving the job :: ) had net last friday as usual with that something special (doesnt this sound familiar?) haha! we played with lanterns and candles. haha, a time of reviving childhood. then we started playing soccer, dont look down on me i think i've got potential! haha, self proclaimed. and i think im the best in pepsi cola-123. oh no, jinlun dont kill me. LOL!

then came saturday, the day i missed edge! uhh, i heard it was very gooooood! oh man oh man. how could i even think of missing it for three weeks, i already feel like dying. haha! okay, exaggerating, LOL! anyway, i had my sc trial on that day instead; well, it wasnt that bad:: ) haha, but i was pangseh-ed by my two sco:: ( booo, but then again, their excuse accepted so i dont blame them, they just owe me one. hahah! so im looking forward to the sc outing on the 6th, alot of calling to make and reporting to my missing scos.

oh, dear mr yuguang fell and hurt his head but his doing alright now, and thank God! a lesson of faith i have learnt:: ) and that of a mustard seed could move mountains! all it matters is he is okay, and that God was faithful in answering prayers.

and finally, today. a mini family gathering on daddy's side; yes you bet i missed morning service, but i felt i just cannot miss this family gathering. and indeed it was a great time of get together. with my aunt back from indonesia. it isnt a common thing that all 6 siblings get to meet up and the cousins get to haha, have some fun! then a few of us, the shopping people, headed to vivo an absolutely lousy place to shop at; unless its for the purpose of window shopping. haha, but it doesnt matter, im heading to hongkong soon! a shopping paradise:: )

its prayer and fasting next week and i really want to be with the church as they fast! i just feel that God is going to do His great and mighty work at this season in time. and carmen is anticipating; almost falling off the chair! hahaha

alright people, im calling it a day cause my eyelids are getting heavier. so goodnight world, i loove all the pretty faces; red and yellow black and white.

He said; you would find Me if you seeked. and i said; i serve a faithful God.

You are more than enough, more than enough for me.

hello there people, carmen is here again:: ) a small miracle happened today; i watched a Evan Almighty. haha, isnt it such a rare thing. LOL, was out at town with felice and angeline today. a great get together after a long long time. haha, those FOC days:: D yes, and i have missed that angelinegohteeyue quite abit minus her pinchings and slapping! poor felice got slapped on her sunburnt shoulders quite alot of times, how i pity that girl. LOL!

angelinegoh teeyue & feliceyap

Evan Almighty is an absolutly great show! i really like the little things mentioned in the show and it really speaks about God and His loving nature. and on a particular scene what 'god' told joan (the wife) really caught me. he said: if people prayed for patience, would God give them patience or an opportunity to be patient? if people prayed for courage, would God give them courage or a chance to be courageous?
Evan Baxter kept questioning 'god' on why did he choose to use him to build the ark and i guess the only reason why 'god' chose Evan is because of his desire to change the world:: ) Evan felt that what 'god' wanted him to do was ridiculous and was reluctant to; doesnt it speaks about how it is like to be a fool for God. people may make laugh and say you're nuts, but God knows what He is doing:: ) and this man the world labelled a fool has indeed change the world; by having one at a time perform an Act of Random Kindness (ARK).

uhh, its just an amazing show and please agree with me, it makes more sense than Bruce Almighty. LOL! i had so much things to do today, if i had a to-do-list it would probably be filled on a full page! hhm, maybe its really time i had one to-do-notebook to make up for my bad memory. hah! but somehow i need one that will really work, any suggestions?

im sad, absolutely sad to the max! (okay that was quite a quick change in emotions) i will be missing from the edge for 3 saturdays. its a consecutive straight 3 saturdays and carmen isnt happy about it:: ( im going to miss all the good stuff at edge, rarr! this series that jeremy is touching on is a must-not-miss, yet i breached that 'must not'! boohoo, not a good thing at all. i simply need my weekly dosage of edge; the playground after dinner, the smiles of the many familiar faces, jeremy's jokes and the edge band awesome worship! oh where oh where do i find those except at the edge:: (
yes, on the first and third saturday i'l be in school for BA society's sc gathering. well, im quite excited about it but i sure hope and pray veryvery hard that i can leave early for edge! yes, you bet the thing starts at 10am and ends at 7pm! haha, when my sc hears the timing they all gave me the same expression; what?! hahaha, yes dear ones and i have a times two cause of the trial, bahh! oh, and on the second saturday, i would be in macau/hongkong. haha, on a family trip with aunty, aunty, another aunty and cousin. its quite sad because all the secondary kids have school so the other cousin and another cousin could not tag along. i didnt know why i actually agreed to go. and you must be thinking im insane to even think twice. well, im just not someone who travels or like travelling or thought of travelling much:: D maybe i just like being in Singapore, its just homely and i feel safer here. LOL, but who knows i might just change my mind after this trip:: ) but still, i will miss the charkwayteow, the hainanese chicken rice, the.. oh my, i think im thinking a little too far. carmen, its just five days! hahahaha.

More than Enough


okay people, i have to fly now; as in dive into bed:: D back into church office tomorrow morning and i have to wake up early! haha. early does sound quite foreign to me now. oh well!

i will dance, i will sing, to be mad for my King nothing Lord is hindering this passion in my soul. teach me what it means to be a fool for You:: )

You saw me when You took the crown of thorns

was suppose to be off to sleep already but then i decided to do a post before i go off:: ) it has been a long long time since i have seen the sun. haha, not literally but in a way that i havent been out shopping for awhile. yes, was out today together with joanne and angie for a 'special' purpose. haha! all those walking can be quite a killer.

its funny how me and joanne went with a particular purpose to find a specific thing yet we kept sidetrack-ing. LOL, mooncakes on sales and all the other irrelevant shops drew our focus away. was a really nice day spending time with these big sisters. but of course, the effort and walking all paid off, we found just what we wanted!

just yesterday, i fell in love with the most amazing thing; pez! just in case you're wondering, no its not some hunky big guy but a toy accompanied by sweets:: ) haha! its really random how i saw them on the net and then got so crazy over them. now im planning to start a collection. such a wonderful thing. but the truth is, im more attracted to the colours cause they really do make me happy!

pictures of pez on the internet, no they are not mine:: D

just like how i saw a bunch of colourful watches at town today and i started getting really excited. you'd probably label me childish but i just cannot explain how my happy feet work up when my eye catches colours. haha! and yes, i am going to get one watch each time i pass that little shop. and i wont guarantee i wouldnt delibrately walk past there. LOL!

and im borrowing space here for a little word to some dear ones:

to huiling; i hope you are feeling better now. please see a doctor if you still dont feel well today okay. get well sooooon pretty, then you can date me out for jogging again:: ) or maybe a lunch will do. and please try to sleep well, get yourself really tired in the day then probably its easier to sleep at night. take care loved one, i miss you.

to celine tay; hey girl, i hope work has been good. haha, you need to update me sooooon. and tpy net will miss you when your not with us tomorrow. i will see you on saturday then:: ) thank you for this great friendship you have given to me, its much treasured and loved, you silly little girl.

to felice yap; haha, your occasional madness and crazy talks keep me loving you. and i just want to say im really very encouraged by you and by the little little things that you do. haha, have fun at work and yes, all the best for results that are out tomorrow! loveeee.

to chen xiaowei; pretty girl, saturday is coming soon and it means meeting you again. well, just want to use this chance to say that you are so missed. haha, until your promos are over i would date you out and have our little catch up over tea, so much to tell you about! so mug hard pretty girl and yes, i love you:: )

oh i almost forgot to mention, results will be released tomorrow. just at the thought of this runs anxiety down my blood vessels. phew, a final moment of truth. oh please let it be gooood! and so i'l use this final chance to wish my beloved tb28 all the best, we'll make it together! haha, and that reminds me, our gathering next thursday. after soooo long, finally we're meeting again. going to get high on their nonsense and silly little jokes. i loooooove this classss, to the max:: )

thats it people, im still learning and trying to wake up early, so im off to bed now. be nice and try waking me up. haha, which i think is really quite tough LOL!

and my song shall ever be; how wonderful, how marvellous is my Saviour's love for me.

keep me going

hey there people and yes it has been sometime since i updated. haha, its such a funny thing when it comes to blogging. you either urge alot to blog or sometimes you just simply dont feel like blogging. haha, yes i have alot of time at hand but somehow i just dont feel like blogging:: D

had caregroup yesterday and its been a long long time:: ) poor grace has exams to study for and hence been very busy. but it was nice to be gathering back at her place yesterday, just a really homely thing to do where all the sisters and brothers come together. and this means there is net this coming friday, oh yes! will see my beloved net-goers again and so it has been some time as well.

oh, and how could i forget. special birthday dedication to my most beloved youth minister; GRACE CHONG! actually i doubt you would read this, but still;
happy XXth birthday grace! haha, its such a blessing that you have been to this region. we all know how it isnt easy handling youths and us in particular but still i would say great job my leader. your heart that goes all out for us have been felt and most importantly, inspiring me to be a greater leader. we may not see all the heartaches and secret things you do for us but you are greatly appreciated! i loveeeee you grace, thank you for everything, thank you my beloved YM!

and this all teaches me how love doesnt need to speak aloud, how it doesnt need to boast but love serves with a humble heart.love does not stand in the limelight, nor heed applause but its serves in the background and make sure that all is possible. and such great love i've found, it comes from above, it comes from the Father.

All for Love-hillsongs


saturday will come sooon and im looking forward to meet all the edge-goers. and it seems like such a long long time. to all mugging for o'levels, a'levels, promos and all other major exams study real hard and bring honour to His name, yes? and for those happy holidaying, continue to enjoy this great break and in the meantime do great and mighty things for His glory!

Ecclesiastes 12:6-7
yes, remember your Creator now while you are young, before the silver cord of life snaps and the golden bowl is broken. don't wait until the water jar is smashed at the spring and the pulley is broken at the well. for then the dust will return to the earth and the spirit will return to God who gave it.

so little ones, lets go hand in hand to strive for the best for God. for it is at this point in time that we are standing on mountains, isnt it so. lets not sit and wait for things to happen but go forth and be a history maker as God has called us to:: ) let not your youth swift past like its just another stage in life, but let this be the generation that would make a difference! it is easy to extinguish a little flame. but put all our lights together and let this passion burn stronger and stronger. we were made a body for a reason.

oh dear, didnt i say i wasnt in the mood to blog. how did i arrive here. LOL! well, i shant nag further and continue sitting infront of this com. its time to get down to do something, which i havent figured out what would it be:: D takecare my dear readers, you are loveeeeeed.

continue to wind this musical box and keep the music playing, keep the ballerina twirling or the merry-go-round going. give this crytal ball a little shake, keep the snow falkes falling and the little match girl smiling.

He maketh me lie down in pastures green
the clockhand will soon tell 3am and im still up here tapping away. i have absolutely no idea, what has gotten into me. i have been sleeping late and waking up, even later! bahh, carmen needs something to do.

heres what happened today; region dee had our get together bbq at reens condo. well, i felt that it was okay and i guess the most important part of it all was the food. oh no, i meant the bonding. haha! it has been really quite a long long time since this region came together and the feeling is overall, good:: ) and gladys, great job with the games. we made it happen, and we made it good! to my dear region, you are the greatest gameplayers ever, just work a little on the listening part. LOL!

oh yes, justin chia is back! while hilda chia has left:: ( but thank God its only for a short 2months. it will pass, really really soon! hilda watched me grow up spiritually and i surely thank God for her; a great discipler she is. so much she has walked me through and so much she has taught me. who am i if He hadnt placed both her and angie in my life, both my discipler and mentor, <3. now that i have become one myself, i pray for a shepard's heart. a heart that will love and desire to lead my sheeps His way. ah, i need some books on leadership and lots of anointing. LOL, it surely isnt an easy task, but the fruits of the labour makes the effort and heartaches all worthwhile:: ) well, im not quite there yet but still, im working on it; with the stuff that He has placed in my hands. at least i know im not alone.

eve and wondrous project; amazing break dancing group:: )

well, i guess thats about all there is for today, and now its time for me to kiss this Earth goodnight! tomorrow, its bbq again at jeremy seaward's house warming. fooooood, thats the way i like it.

my source of strength, my source of hope, is in You alone. for You are more than enough for me.

when the drums stop beating


no giraff, elephant, zebra, tiger, polar bear or ahmeng. just the loud beatings of the rain dancing against the windows:: ( yes, my initial plan of going to the zoo with keith and mum was cancelled. its like a thousand booooos, cause i end up doing nothing at mums place and well, being puffed at by three huge tar ape. the only good thing, i still after all got to spend some time with my little brother and my mum. and made a interesting discovery, mum's generation of aunty and uncle has super drama-mama background. haha!

and yes, this coming thursday is little brother keith's birthday and im still wondering what to get for him. bahh! guys present are hard to get. okay, maybe not a kid's. LOL! so this thursday im down at tampines macdonald's to share this special moment with him, <3.


there is this thing i need you to know. i have been keeping this post in my draft for two days and my calender now actually shows the fifth. haha! just so you know and dont think i predict the future. LOL! it was mahjong session at tuck's place today. and with the many people in the house, of course it was more than mahjong but also winning eleven, piano, computer and just lying around doing nothing. well, i had fun today. its been such a long time since this region really had such times together. and im expecting way more this friday; bbq at reens condo! i just cant sit still when i think of the many things that we will be doing; games, eating, cooking, eating and yes more eating! oh region dee, oh region dee, <3.


yes, so there you are people. a post delayed for two days:: ) haha! takecare and more updates will come soooooooon. i love you, and stay with me.

celine tay and me at banquet


so You put a start, followed by a stop in lives. teach me its all about how i've loved them in the course when the game is running.

and i just had to 'testify to love'

oh no, i missed morning service again:: ( i think i caught the jinguo's disease of not being able to wake up. or maybe its just purely being super drained from the dance. from all the late nights and all the early wakings. but still im glad we made it good!

to all my eve-lings: well done all you pretty. we made it and we made it good! for all the late night practices, bad floorings, bruises and blisters, fighting for dancing grounds with illegal soccer guys, and all the sweat and muscle aches i just have to say, im sooooo proud of you pretties; each and everyone of you because you made eve possible! go on and celebrate for we had given our best and pulled through, <3

and special dedications to you;

melissa chan- thank you for agreeing on doing the dance though you have your many other things to do. you did great and all the best for music exams!
sharmian tan- i saw your anxiety and the knots in your heart, in fact i felt them too. bahh, but pretty i think you did amzingly well:: ) thumbs up for you pretty girl!

michelle tham- my beloved, im sorry for times i tend to get impatient with you at practices but you know i love you yes. and pretty, you learn real fast!

lee yihui- thank you for taking time out to join us again. i know how it isnt easy to have to study and dance at the same time. but i have to say, your a great dancer. stunning, gorgeous!

joanna wong- for all the times we have used your place, thank you for playing a great host. and thank you for stepping up for times im not there, a real potential. good grooves!

felice yapyapyap- my pretty, i thank you for your desire to dance and definitely, dancing despite all your cuts and bruises and viruses too. you are amazing!

and how could i forget, to all eve supporters- wooohoooo, thank you for like playing your support, cause your every scream and rahrah brought that perfect smile to our faces:: ) just what we needed! i love, all of you.

more than just this dance and some moves, i have learned and caught a slight glimpse of what a heart of worship is. because when you are dancing for His glory, things no longer stay the same. and so this day i pray, that God will use me as an instrument of praise, to bring glory and honour to His throne, amen.

whoosh, its time i go get prepared for evening service, not prepared to miss it:: ) so take care dear ones, and God bless you, <3

help me to keep this border distinct and clear, for i will stand for You and Your righteousness. keep me oh Lord, this i pray.

in Your presence, we find strength to face the day
just came home from banquet a couple of hours ago and it was really good:: ) alot better than the reports from the previous year's banquet. so, a great applaud for those that helped put this together! thumbs up. i guess the nicest part of it all was to see all the lovely ones doll up, now let this picture tell you more:: )

RegionDee's 17aboves in their fullest glory, <3.

haha, lovable arent they. well, this is just a little of it. we shall wait till the rest uploads the photos:: ) and uhem, i sure hope its soooooon! there were soooo many camera snapping away, so its hard to determine who my photo-debtors are. haha, come out come out, wherever you are. carmen wants photos of all the pretty faces! and haha, i smell the need for my own camera too. LOL, more like a want:: /

today was a super busy day that endured a sleepless night. yes, im still surviving on the previous night's rest and i wonder how. went back to ftp today for teachers' day celebration and saw the many familiar faces. aha, it feels nice to be going back as a senior but dont ask me why, i dont know either. watched the concert and enjoyed my junior's performance (doesnt it sound nice) i didnt have much chance to meet up and talk to the teachers cause i had to rush of for dance practice.

we are progressing and tomorrow is going to be out last practice and our performance. yesyes, all the great wishes and encouragements are heartfelt:: ) although we are sort of redoing this dance, however this is surely a new lesson and challenge to be taken on. it is beyond just the steps but there are so much more to be dealt with for me personally. i still thank God for this stepping stone, which surely isnt easy to climb on. and of course, for angie that is always there to guide me, <3.

uhh okay, carmen shant nag further. too many people calling me aunty already, please im not that old(just a little naggy i admit)! bahhh. so, this is me, checking out. i hope this sounds young;; )

and i look and set my sights afar, this road still winds a long long way. step by step, wont you take me, mould me, use me, walk beside me.

for You, i will.
with the swirls and the twirls, flips and jumps. and yes, you must have guessed it. i just came home from dance practice when the clock spelled 1040 or so, and i'd say we still have a long long way to go when performance is on saturday. bahh! costumes not ready, dance steps half way through, dancers almost there. dear me, we need abundance grace and a perfect smile:: D LOL! so if you see any of the eve-lings, wish us all the best. your encouragement is really what we need now, <3.

its the annual youth banquet this friday, and im looking forward to it:: ) seeing all the pretty faces in pretty dresses. haha, and how can anyone miss this; JL emcee-ing. please, everyone bring extra sweater and shawl cause he is going to freeze ohlio with all his cold jokes! LOL, and even if you dont find his jokes funny, laugh:: D haha, but of course i know he is going to do a great job lah. and so, JL heres a cheers to you, way to go brother! and remember to switch off the lights on saturday (insiders utmost confidential plan) ;; )

oh yes, and im paying ftp a visit on friday cause its teacher's day celebration. like after so so long, finally. and i just realise, my last visit was just national day:: X over exaggerating, bahh! to see the many familiar faces and of course, nice teachers. haha! oh yes, juniors are dancing too. thats the other super big thing to look forward to, <3.

okay people, im going to end here. i still have half the dance the brainstorm on and my cousin is chasing me out sooon, boo to evil cousins! and the little nice girl, that is me of course always have to give way. where, oh where is justice.

let me be Your arms that reaches, Your feet that goes all out. these lips to sing of Your praises, all the days of my life.