would you listen

would you listen?
she had all the riches, all the fame
she had everything everyone wants
she hides behind the latest gadgets,
and branded bags
the hurts of which shes feeling inside

she wears that veil like everyone else
puts on a front to protect herself
when shes alone and brings down that mask
she sees her pretty face, smeared with tears

shes screaming, shes crying
but the world just goes on spinning
shes drowning, shes dying
but the world just keeps on turning

the void in her, shes desperate to fill
with drugs, nicotine, and immorality
everything that this world could give
she would take her chance
but they were never 'everlasting'

she believed in 'once upon a time'
dreamt and wished upon a shooting star
when she met him, the guy next door
she thought he was her Mr Right
until the day he said goodbye
and walked away leaving her bleeding inside

shes screaming, shes crying
but the world just goes on spinning
shes drowning, shes dying
but the world just keeps on turning

why wouldnt anyone stop to listen
why wouldnt anyone care
for this girl whos all broken, so broken inside
why is everyone running
why is everyone busy
why isnt there anyone who would pause to listen?
open your ears to the cries of this world
they are calling, calling out to you
would you listen?

*to be continued*

have you ever wondered?

having live till this very day, i sometimes tend to think about questions that may seem stupid but there is something significantlly deep about these questions.

have you ever wondered what is your purpose in life?
to drink and make merry? c'mon theres gotta be more than that.
have you ever wondered what life is all about?
nah, its definitely not about you and you alone.
have you ever wondered why things are the way it is?
like why does fishes swim and birds fly.
have you ever wondered why are you who you are?
and not jessica allba or someone else.
have you ever wondered why yu're made to live in this time?
hoho, imagine if you're living in the roman empire era.
have you ever wondered why are your friends or the people around you THEM and not anyone else?
it is something to be thankful for.
have you ever wondered why do things happen the way it does?
gravity causes everything to fall.
have you ever wondered how come youre so perfectly created?
just look at the way your 5 senses work, its already amazing enough, now look at your digestive system and your circulatory system-WOW!
have you ever wondered why are you at a particular spot at a particular time and not elsewhr?
i always ask myself this when im out on the streets alone.
have you ever wondered how did Earth came about?
some believe in the 'big bang' but i believe in 'creation'.
have you ever wondered and thought that there may really be a God?
just look at the above questions you might have already pondered upon, it cant be pure coincidence eh.

finally, have you ever wondered about all the above questions?
it is not plain stupid, it is something realreal deep:: )

love you people; thinkthinkthink!

not so mugging, mugging week,

here is to update you on how my mugging week has been. well, it has been a not much mugging, mugging week. in simpler terms it means that it has been a slacking week. honestly, i have no idea what has gotten into me. i tried to study but am unable to concentrate and absorb, i told myself i have to but i just cant. i am depressed now. i really dont know what am i to do. prelims is just 2 days away and i am totally unprepared for the battle against the papers. i can forsee that this is going to be a 'sure die' warfare, i am going to be so dead. everytime i sit down to study, i get distracted easily, even the trees that i see everyday seems exceptionally amazing the moment i try to study. (well no, its not part of biology) okayokay. i have to get over it, i've got to try again. i can i will i must:: ) yesyes. so my dear friends, wish me all the best and hopefully i am able to pick myself up and once again start battling with the books and my lazybones. ohyes. and also to all having their exams just like me, ALL THE BEST:: )

takecare my oh-so-beloved, till we meet again.
oh and i love region D 7/8! woo-hoo!

happy teachers day

holidays are here my people. wellwell, it is suppose to be a joyful thing. but its mugging week for me. yesyes. and i guess also for those taking their crucial papers when school reopens. by calling this hoilday a 'mugging week' would only mean one thing- im a last minute person. im sure most of you can tell:: ) the TYPICAL CARMEN! hhas. but i know you people still love me(says thickskin-ly) well on wednesday we celebrated teachers' day and it was great. we bounce surprises at them and see their so so touched faces. i just enjoy that:: ) LOLS. im really very grateful that God has placed these mentors in my life to guide me and walk me through this phase of my life. whether are they school teachers or spiritual leaders/mentors, passing on academia knowlegde or guiding me in my spiritual walk, they have been a great blessing to me! to speak the truth, i ever dreamt about being a teacher one day. but it just seem oh so difficult and stressful. but i know that i do have the passion and heart for youths. who knows one day i might really be a teacher. yesyes. do address me as MISS THAM:: ) sounds nice right? aiyah. i shall see what God says:: ) thats the MOST important thing. hhms. i think im like drifting of, think until so far. i havent even decided what course top take and where to go after graduating. silly me!
oh yes, but to teachers' day thing. the day before teachers' day, i was super happy. itching to know why right? okay the day before teachers' day, all of us were like trying to rush out the 'gifts' for our teachers- DnT working on the artefact and FnN working on the cake. so me and some other girls kaypokaypo go peep around lah. in the workshop we see our class students working together as one. the kind of feeling is like.. well nice lah. very heart-warming. then in the kitchen seeing our 'bakers' bake the cake and sniffing the aroma really makes me happy. i just like to see the WHOLE body come together. that feeling is *ahhhhh, you know what i mean:: ) hhas. teachers. it doesnt matter that flaws in the gift that we make or the imperfections that lies in it. it is really all about the effort behind it and the whole process, the thought and all the hardwork. you should have witness it. im sure you'd be moved to tears. anyway, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

ohno long-winded post today. but i've got more to blog about. should i continue?

aiyah. i should just finish it once and for all:: ) talking about loving togetherness, theres this togetherness in region 7/8 as well. i feel so bonded and 'belonged' to this region like never before. maybe it is me that has not been mingling much with them that explains the lack of bonding. but now that i have found it, i wanna stay in!! hhas. i guess in every case of a friendship or even with a group of people, it does take alot of effort to not only bond it but even just to keep it going. i dont believe in an effortless friendship. hhas. so heres to all my friends: there may be times when this friendship of ours may wobble and is prone to breaking. but i just want you to know no matter what it may be, i really thank Go for placing you in my life 'cause you have made a difference. forgive me of times where i have been offensive and neglected your feelings. i really mean no harm. so from this day on, i would do my very best, to give my very best in keeping this friendship of ours. you know i care:: )

along this road of life, our paths crossed. it is more than just coincidence. thankyou!