hello there you faithful ones, its been a long long time since i posted and im really sad to announce, carmen is really really sick. down with soar throat, flu, cough and a very badly infected eye. haha, dont feel sad for me, just remember to keep me in your prayers:: ) oh well, lets see whats there to update you people on.
oh yes, i have been helping my mum out at the pasar malam, as embarrassing as it may sound, its actually quite fun. i always wanted to get a job but its really tough. cause im strictly trying to keep my fridays, saturdays and sundays free. but its almost impossible cause part time jobs require you to be there on these extremely busy days. so if there is any flexible jobs out there must intro to me yah? haha.
had a really fruitful talk over lunch with hilda and kevin last friday(if im not wrong). well, alot of stuff has been happening and it has been a really tough period. well, its not like its a big issue that happened but just all the minor stuff accumalating. well, carmen is one really sensitive person. i get affected over the smallest things, especially when its things associated with people around me. well, when i was talking to hild and kev, they really challenge me to move on to the next level of loving people and potraying God's love in this world. maybe its because of the past hurts i experienced in past friendships, now i tend to close up to myself, to guard myself against people and i too start to lose trust in people. so sometimes i tend to hold back in friendships, im sorry dear ones. but i learned from kevin that we should open ourselves up, to be vulnerable which means risking ourselves to be hurt by others, that is then that we can potray what true and genuine love means. i said 'but its really tough', and kevin replied 'God's love was never easy' that was a really powderful reply oh. LOL! and so this lunch sets my challenge for the new year; i want to love like its nobody's business.
yesyes, youth camp. it was a tremendous work that God did at the camp itself. although the accomodation and all was, tsktsk, really bad, but God was as good as ever. i was really touched and moved by God at the sessions especailly in the aspect of purity. but most importantly, i have to thank God for his faithfulness cause 8 of my school friends came for camp! WOO-HOO! i cannot help but thank God for his faithfulness. He has been so so good, he never fails to keep His words. a promise he had given to me last year, and now im beginning to see the harvest of His words. and all Glory goes to God! but i believe that there's more to come. i may not see in full what God has in store but im going to run the rest leaning on the fact that God is faithful! this was one testimony from the camp that moved me greatly:
VFC Youth Camp - Beyond 2006

I was a shampoo girl for 3 days cos Felice's fingers were injured. The first day, the bah woo of her hair was so strong. Hahaha

I admit that intially, I went to the camp for the fun and was thinking that after this camp, I shall not have any relationship with God. I kept having this thought that God is not real. But after attending all the services, I was on fire again! Weeeeeeeee! I don't know how to express myself. I shall learn more. I will start reading the bible. I will pray everyday. I believe that God will never forsake me.

The moment I stepped into my house, I was bombarded with the words, "You'd better not accept Christ. Christians are up to not good."

Lord, please remove the hostility that my family has towards You (huiling)
sweet heart, whatever it may be, never let go of God because He never gives up on you. continue to stand firm and i have to say, my dear im really proud of you. put your faith in God and believe that He will make a way alright? cry out to Him in times of need, fret not because your Father in Heaven is watching over you. i'l always be here for you when you need someone to confide in. be keeping you in prayers:: ) must remember to be a good testimony hoh? take care and may God bless you much!

and these goes a thousand miles
my most beloved net members at BOLLYBOLLY, but now theres more than just these:: )












then it was the all girls shot at the SIMPLE BBQ












followed by all of us, the wildest region D'ers












at 180, my most loved'ed BEAUTIFUL EVES.












and then the rest of us, both Adam, Eve and the cheering team












at my graduation night














































































































and so as i have promised, these are some of the pictures of the events that has been happening. oh yah, if you people out there has more of the pictures that i dont have can you please sent them to me. i want it real badly:: ) last but not least, here are some updates of the upcoming event.
im leaving for sunway lagoon in another 7hours time with my auntie and all for our annual neighbourng country trip. thank God its not genting again. LOL(i've been there almost every year). next would be YOUTH CAMP BEYOND! yeah, im so so super excited about it, its my first year as an official camper. im going to have loads of fun and a great experience with God. oh yes, and so many of other other schoolmates are coming. will update you more soon. then it would be Christmas. hello there people. can you feel the 'festive seasons' atmosphere in the air? do come for VFC 'home for Christmas' production. woohoo! its going to be great.
lastly lastly, i would like to congratulate the encounter graduatees especailly felice, darren and justin. do update me about the experiences yah? i really hope to see each one of you grow more and more in the Lord. continue to stay faithful:: ) oh and ivan, dont be disheartened, i understand that the headache stopped you from having the ultimate encounter with God. but i sure hope you would attend the next one. im sure darren and justin would be glad to join you:: ) LOL!
okay, so solong my dearest. miss me much while i am away, cause you know i miss you:: D takecare till then
OHYES! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATHIEU TAN! wooohooooo!

so You lift me upon Your shoulders
hey there loved ones. its been sometime since i blogged and so much has happened since the last time i posted. its the end of O's. haha, kind of a long time ago thing actually. dont really feel much cause i didnt really studied. so trust God for results:: )
then the next thing was lets see, prom night? yah. it was nice to see everyone dressed up, all the beautiful ladies and charming gentlemen. basically it was fun lah. oh yah, and Furama was not as bad as i thought:: ) hahas. took some photos but im kind of lazy to upload now, so next time lah. keep you anticipated. LOL!
then the next BIG thing was 180! it was totally cool because 'adam and eve' the 2 dance teams from region D won first and second in the competition respectively. so tell me, how cool can we be? WOOHOO! there were many youths that turned up that day and despite already opening up the place, visitors were still standing. that was the response and the great work that God did. but i strongly believe that theres more to be done! so each and everyone, lets pray hard and pray by faith that the harvest would come soon. we shall see the youths of this nation turn to God, and that they would sing and shout, jump and dance with the same liberty that we have in God.
the most recent. well, things hasnt been as good this past 2 days. kind of shaken and all by certain issues. but i guess this is also where i have to learn to lean on God and trust Him. even as i see myself growing in the Lord more and more, i too start to feel that things are getting tougher and tougher. for now, its the decision of pleasing God or entertaining Man. im sure many would say 'please God lah, duh'. that i know, but it is easier said than done isnt it? it is between to stand firm for God and lose your dearest friends or to be laughed at behind your back. so now which would you choose? thats why i said its no longer as easy. at this moment all i really need is encouragement and assurance to know that i did the right thing in choosing to seek ye kingdom first and to put the needs of the kingdom before anything else. Lord i pray You'l carry me through and You'll give me the strength to go through this phase of trial that you set before me.
so thats about it dear folks, the updates about what has been happening. do keep me in prayer my sisters and brothers. you know I LOVE YOU PLENTY!

the Lord is my shepard baa-baa
hello there my faithful people, its been sometime since i updated, kind of lost the mood to blog. unless i know i have some loyal readers, then that will motivate me to blog:: ) LOL! week has been ohsogood because REGION'D rocks the house. haha, all the D'ers nod their heads:: D its just fun fun and more fun to be with these wild kids, kids who love the Lord as well.

oh yes, i want to take the honour of welcoming DARREN and FELICE that just joined us in this bigbig family. congratulations you people for your new life in Christ. continue to keep your faith in God and 'lean not on your own understandings but in all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your path straight' hehe. all i can say is that im really very very happy for the both of you! and im proud to announce you as my brother and sister in Christ! for anything you may come across in your spiritual walk, remember God is with you and He will carry you through, only if you learn to depend on Him. also, you have all of us here to help you along; youre never alone:: ) takecare lots and i really hope to see both of you grow in this house of God! now, thats what i call we're E X P A N D I N G. woohoo, we need more crazy people in this house of God!

Lastly, to all my fellow o'levelers from school and from church, study hard my people, its going to be over in no time. but still, learn to stay stress free yah? you dont want to go blank during your paper. so study real hard and play just hard:: D so when you're having your exam blues, remember carmen loves you, people;; ) tips! i eat chocolate to destress, but becareful not to have an overdose, you dont want to die of shock when you step on that weighing scale:: D

Just Another Day.
im right now in my school's library. suppose to be digging my head in those books but dont really have the mood to. hey people, be proud of me, i finally started studying YESTERDAY! okay, uhm i dont think its something to be happy about. oh no! time check; we are 19 days away from o'levels(thats for me because my paper starts on the first) and i only started studying yesterday? hahas, may God grant me grace. urgh, super depressed because the net leaders training(NLT) that i was so looking forward to was CANCELLED! i was told that there was not enough enrolment and so i have to wait till next year. sigh* aiyah, maybe God has bigger and better plans for me:: )

well, sometimes i really question about how God works. for a moment i was feeling all so charged up, but the very next moment the fire just dies out, situations just happens. it can really get tiring at times but im going to learn to depend on Him for he is much stronger and greater than i am. at times i feel like a spoilt child in God's presence. His presence just makes you want to stay a little longer, his embrace just melts your heart. when God is smiling at you, nothing, nothing can come against you nor dampen your spirit. you just wish things would stay like that. but it doesnt. situations just keep rolling in, things just keep happening. this is not when God no longer loves you, nor has he turn His face away. but he, just like every other parent is teaching you so you may grow, so you may learn. even through your hardest moments, God still stands by you, he has never left. God still loves you as much as before, he has never stopped. God only put you through situations so that your faith will grow, so that you can grow into greater intimacy with Him. now tell me, how great can our God be:: D so if you're going through tough times and everything seems wrong, smile because God is watching over you!

honestly, im enocouraging myself lah. hahas, but if this so happen to apply to you. my dear sister and brother, God is encouraging you:: ) LOLS! so pluck up that courage and face this day, not alone but with your loving Father.

LYRICS

Above all
Above all powers above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kindgoms above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasure of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified laid behind a stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all

The Cartoon Song by Chris Rice
I was thinking the other day
What if cartoons got saved?
They'd start singing praise
In a whole new way

Yea, I was thinking the other day
What if cartoons got saved?
They'd start singing praise
In a whole new way

Fred and Wilma Flintstone sing
ya-ba-daba-lujah

Scooby-do and Shaggy
scooby-do-be-lujah

And the Jetson's dog named Astro
ra-ra-ru-jah

CHORUS

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
cowabunga-lujah, dude

Then there's Kermit the Frog here,
singing hi-ho-la-lujah

And that little bald guy, Elmer Fudd
hallelujah, uh

CHORUS

Oh that big ol' Moose and his friend Rocky,
ba-ya-ca-bujah

And our favorite bear named Yogi,
hi-a-baa-lujah

And There's all those little blue guys
And they'd sing..
la-la-lalalala-lalala-lujah

Oh, how 'bout Beavis, and that other guy
*beep*

CHORUS

Now there's a point to this looney tune
I'm not an animaniac, but there's a lot of praising to do
And cartoons weren't made for that,
It's our job. Oh, yeah

So let's sing hallelujah (hallelujah)
hallelujah (hallelujah)
hallelujah (hallelujah)

Let's sing hallelujah... (Let's sing hallelujah)
hallelujah (hallelujah)
found this really cool lyrics and i thought i'd share:: )

glory to God

hello there, here to post another post. hey i dont know what happened to my tagboard, it seems like it just vanished into thin air. without my tagboard, i just feel like im the only one reading my own blog. so sad right? okay nevermind, my posts are like so so long and naggy, i doubt any would want to read it too. hahas! okay, i should just stop beating around the bush.
well, right here i just want to give all glory to God. He has been so good to me and has blessed me trememdously. yes, its my results. super unexpectedly and miraculously, i did better than i expected and all glory goes to God. honestly, i did not put in much effort in preparing for prelims this time round(yes, and many refuse to believe me). i just thought i was going to have to prepare for lashing from daddy. but as i retrieve each paper, im just too shocked for words and am overwhelmed with joy. papers that i thought i would fail, came in as a pass. paper which i thought would be a just pass, came in amazingly good:: ) im just left dumbfolded by the goodness of God. not only in terms of results, God has also blessed me in my spiritual walk. it was during this 'prelims preparation' period that God has done a great work in me. He renewed visions that i've lost, revived in me the passion for souls. i guess God chose this time to do His work in me was really a test of faith for me. i had to believe that he would enable me to do well only if i choose to believe. just as he says, if we honour Him, He will honour us. and guess what, God never fails! i know i would have never been able to achieve this much if i do it in my own strength. but 'i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me'. i believe during this 'o level preparations' period, God has more in store for me, and i await anxiously. hey, but dont get me wrong yah? im not saying you just sit there and believe that God will bless you and you dont study AT ALL. nonono! faith without works is nothing. so, you just have to have faith and do your best, God will do the rest, amen!
i hope this would be a testimony for my other brothers and sisters out there who are stressing for major exams, and also an encouragement for the rest:: ) take care all you people. and all the best for the cucial papers!

and i wave goodbye*

would you listen

would you listen?
she had all the riches, all the fame
she had everything everyone wants
she hides behind the latest gadgets,
and branded bags
the hurts of which shes feeling inside

she wears that veil like everyone else
puts on a front to protect herself
when shes alone and brings down that mask
she sees her pretty face, smeared with tears

shes screaming, shes crying
but the world just goes on spinning
shes drowning, shes dying
but the world just keeps on turning

the void in her, shes desperate to fill
with drugs, nicotine, and immorality
everything that this world could give
she would take her chance
but they were never 'everlasting'

she believed in 'once upon a time'
dreamt and wished upon a shooting star
when she met him, the guy next door
she thought he was her Mr Right
until the day he said goodbye
and walked away leaving her bleeding inside

shes screaming, shes crying
but the world just goes on spinning
shes drowning, shes dying
but the world just keeps on turning

why wouldnt anyone stop to listen
why wouldnt anyone care
for this girl whos all broken, so broken inside
why is everyone running
why is everyone busy
why isnt there anyone who would pause to listen?
open your ears to the cries of this world
they are calling, calling out to you
would you listen?

*to be continued*

have you ever wondered?

having live till this very day, i sometimes tend to think about questions that may seem stupid but there is something significantlly deep about these questions.

have you ever wondered what is your purpose in life?
to drink and make merry? c'mon theres gotta be more than that.
have you ever wondered what life is all about?
nah, its definitely not about you and you alone.
have you ever wondered why things are the way it is?
like why does fishes swim and birds fly.
have you ever wondered why are you who you are?
and not jessica allba or someone else.
have you ever wondered why yu're made to live in this time?
hoho, imagine if you're living in the roman empire era.
have you ever wondered why are your friends or the people around you THEM and not anyone else?
it is something to be thankful for.
have you ever wondered why do things happen the way it does?
gravity causes everything to fall.
have you ever wondered how come youre so perfectly created?
just look at the way your 5 senses work, its already amazing enough, now look at your digestive system and your circulatory system-WOW!
have you ever wondered why are you at a particular spot at a particular time and not elsewhr?
i always ask myself this when im out on the streets alone.
have you ever wondered how did Earth came about?
some believe in the 'big bang' but i believe in 'creation'.
have you ever wondered and thought that there may really be a God?
just look at the above questions you might have already pondered upon, it cant be pure coincidence eh.

finally, have you ever wondered about all the above questions?
it is not plain stupid, it is something realreal deep:: )

love you people; thinkthinkthink!

not so mugging, mugging week,

here is to update you on how my mugging week has been. well, it has been a not much mugging, mugging week. in simpler terms it means that it has been a slacking week. honestly, i have no idea what has gotten into me. i tried to study but am unable to concentrate and absorb, i told myself i have to but i just cant. i am depressed now. i really dont know what am i to do. prelims is just 2 days away and i am totally unprepared for the battle against the papers. i can forsee that this is going to be a 'sure die' warfare, i am going to be so dead. everytime i sit down to study, i get distracted easily, even the trees that i see everyday seems exceptionally amazing the moment i try to study. (well no, its not part of biology) okayokay. i have to get over it, i've got to try again. i can i will i must:: ) yesyes. so my dear friends, wish me all the best and hopefully i am able to pick myself up and once again start battling with the books and my lazybones. ohyes. and also to all having their exams just like me, ALL THE BEST:: )

takecare my oh-so-beloved, till we meet again.
oh and i love region D 7/8! woo-hoo!

happy teachers day

holidays are here my people. wellwell, it is suppose to be a joyful thing. but its mugging week for me. yesyes. and i guess also for those taking their crucial papers when school reopens. by calling this hoilday a 'mugging week' would only mean one thing- im a last minute person. im sure most of you can tell:: ) the TYPICAL CARMEN! hhas. but i know you people still love me(says thickskin-ly) well on wednesday we celebrated teachers' day and it was great. we bounce surprises at them and see their so so touched faces. i just enjoy that:: ) LOLS. im really very grateful that God has placed these mentors in my life to guide me and walk me through this phase of my life. whether are they school teachers or spiritual leaders/mentors, passing on academia knowlegde or guiding me in my spiritual walk, they have been a great blessing to me! to speak the truth, i ever dreamt about being a teacher one day. but it just seem oh so difficult and stressful. but i know that i do have the passion and heart for youths. who knows one day i might really be a teacher. yesyes. do address me as MISS THAM:: ) sounds nice right? aiyah. i shall see what God says:: ) thats the MOST important thing. hhms. i think im like drifting of, think until so far. i havent even decided what course top take and where to go after graduating. silly me!
oh yes, but to teachers' day thing. the day before teachers' day, i was super happy. itching to know why right? okay the day before teachers' day, all of us were like trying to rush out the 'gifts' for our teachers- DnT working on the artefact and FnN working on the cake. so me and some other girls kaypokaypo go peep around lah. in the workshop we see our class students working together as one. the kind of feeling is like.. well nice lah. very heart-warming. then in the kitchen seeing our 'bakers' bake the cake and sniffing the aroma really makes me happy. i just like to see the WHOLE body come together. that feeling is *ahhhhh, you know what i mean:: ) hhas. teachers. it doesnt matter that flaws in the gift that we make or the imperfections that lies in it. it is really all about the effort behind it and the whole process, the thought and all the hardwork. you should have witness it. im sure you'd be moved to tears. anyway, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

ohno long-winded post today. but i've got more to blog about. should i continue?

aiyah. i should just finish it once and for all:: ) talking about loving togetherness, theres this togetherness in region 7/8 as well. i feel so bonded and 'belonged' to this region like never before. maybe it is me that has not been mingling much with them that explains the lack of bonding. but now that i have found it, i wanna stay in!! hhas. i guess in every case of a friendship or even with a group of people, it does take alot of effort to not only bond it but even just to keep it going. i dont believe in an effortless friendship. hhas. so heres to all my friends: there may be times when this friendship of ours may wobble and is prone to breaking. but i just want you to know no matter what it may be, i really thank Go for placing you in my life 'cause you have made a difference. forgive me of times where i have been offensive and neglected your feelings. i really mean no harm. so from this day on, i would do my very best, to give my very best in keeping this friendship of ours. you know i care:: )

along this road of life, our paths crossed. it is more than just coincidence. thankyou!

so much to blog.

oh dear. so much to blog yet so little time
straight to the point. week has been pretty good and relaxing(which shouldnt be the case for a graduating student!) ohyes, and for those who are still clueless, i lost my phone. so yes, if you are trying to contact me, use telepathy, i will get back at you as soon as i can:: ) had our dance performance at service today. i was late and jinguo was late-er. so the rest of the members got jumpy. sound crew did not coordinate, stage too small, movements were unsynchronised; everything was so so wrong. but that was only for the prepartions. the actual thing-awesome! applause to jinguo, melody, gladys, xiaowei, and shawn, our hard work paid off so so well:: ) then, we and some other youths headed for bugis to eat which was the only intention initially, and walk, talk and play 'i never'. i simply cannot figure out why was it that we were willing to get so so super hot under the sun just for the silly game(somebody, if you undestood, please enlighten me) but i do not deny i had a greatgreatgreat time with our youths. you people are the best kind of hangouts. d' youths; we bring the house down!
honestly i still have more to talk about, like the "fruits of our labour" i.e. the last minute making of our most beautiful costume. hhas. well just admit it, its nice;; ) but i guess, too much to blog yet too little time. so byebye to all, stay tune for more of ME!


"Fix your eyes upon the Lord, for circumstances and people may fail you, but the Lord never does."

Happy Birthday Singapore

hey people. guess what? i was at the national day parade yesterday, live (yep, no advertisements)! hhes. so are you envious or what:: ) just one word describes it all-SPECTACULAR! the whole was really fun and nice. from the mass display to the fireworks display, it was awesome and eye catching:: ) except for the scorching sun at the start of the parade and the BIG BIG crowd! but thank God for the great weather and goody goody scenery. okay, chopchop i got to make this quick:: ) the following are some pictures that speaks a thousand words:

we paint the stadium red with loyal and enthusiastic citizens

God bless the day with a great weather and fascinating scenery. its more than just the parade

the super superb marching parade

xiaowei and i, loyal citizens of this nation:: )

a new life for Christ

yeah. 5th of aug 06' was the big day for me. i was water baptised! so so happy! okay for those that are cluless with this term, it is basically a symbolic act in which it is used to witness to the world that you are a christian. something around this line. i dont know why im so excited. probably because this is a mark of which i have a new life in Christ. yep. personally, i made this baptism for me, a commitment and pledge that i am going to take my christian walk serious; you know, as in i mean business now. till this day, im still excited about it. i just want to thank those that made an effort down to witness my baptism(angie, hilda, huiling) i really appreciate it:: ) thanks!

what is this world coming to?

yup, second post for the day. aiyah. cant be blamed huh. i blog only once a week or so. recently some shocking news has alarmed my school quite a bit. its not that i only know about this incident lately, i knew the day it happened through the spreading of words. i felt that it was a great diosappointment for me. honestly, i feel very ashamed to be in this school. okay i forgot to mention what the incident was- the brawling of two school girls. it was film by some other guys that just stood by for the 'show' and it was circulated through handphones and the web. when madam aini was addressing the issue, i totally feel so disgraced, especially when i still see some other student still having the cheek to laugh and tease about it. what exactly is this world coming to? and exactly on the same day there was a violent confrontation among some students in the canteen. i was left speechless. at that moment, anger as well as sympathy stirred in my heart. i simply do not understand. and the worst thing was i could see that these people who should be feeling remorseful and be repentant , rejoice over their wrong doings and take pride in the wrong kind of attention that they receive. even spectators have a part to play, they should be responsible huh?
what exactly is called cool? what exactly is called glory? what exactly is called acceptable in our society's context today? what has been taboo in the past is now seen as something only the
brave would do, something only the cool and the hip would do. and also something everyone wnats to do. yes, and all glory goes to these people. if you were to ask me, it is all totally ridiculous. has bad triumph over good? has righteousness been trampled by evil? what is this world coming to? is there no one out there who is willing to step out and speak up for the defenseless and weak? should we continue to let this 'culture' prevail in our society?
lord, i pray that you be judge and may you take control of all situations. lord, i pray may you intercede in the lives of those that hungers for a purpose in life. may you be the answer. lord i just thank you for your grace and mercy, your loving kindness and great forgiveness. and all this i life unto your name, amen!

the rain of salvation

heyhey. it was the asian superstar last saturday. well as expected, many didnt turn up at the last moment. but im really very thankful for those that came.
after weeks of late night practices and rehearsals. the day finally approached; theASIANSUPERSTAR. everything from the sound, lighthing and acting crew, it all turned out pretty fine:: ) throughout the whole day i had high adrenalin rush, i was excited screaming all the way at the backstage. just before it was my turn to take that stage, i was utterly utterly frightened, an audience of 8000 people. i was jumping in the backstage just to ease the uptightness. hhas! but the amazing thing was when i was on stage, the fear just fled. i guess it was afraid of the audience. hoho! anyway all was well. the moment i finished i just wanted to run out and see the respond for the altar call. but to my disappointment, none of those that i brought stepped out. was it pride, a lack of courage or they just didnt feel like. basically, the main purpose i wanted them to come was not to watch me, i dont do it for my glory, but for God's glory. i just wanted them to be opened to the word. although they didnt respond to the word, i believe some where deep in their spirits, God has done his works and hopefully they'd realise. for the rest of the saved souls, i thank God for his mercy and great forgiveness! oh yes. and i thank daddy for turning up:: ) i was so touched! love you dad!
yup. one last word to all my friends and relatives for turning up: thanks alot for showing up. you were a great encouragement to me. you may not realise that but its true:: ) well hopefully there is still some other chances that i may see you again in some of my other church events. thanks alot once again. love ya!

ASIANSUPERSTAR

ASIANSUPERSTARS;; rain the rain of salvations and blessings:: )
yes folks, asiansuperstar is drawing so so close. and that excitement in me seems too much to contain. can you feel it too? i know joanna and gladdys can;; ) hoho. now that i've got the set of new brochures, im going to give it to as many schoolmates as i can. even if i don't know them. let this be the great harvest. it is a big big production of VFC and you should not miss it! make your way down to expo hall 3, 4pm on the 15th of july (this coming saturday) LOLS sounds like some advertisement.
okay. this whole thing is actually a drama and it is not a very christian based thing, more of a worldly thing. our special guest of honour is jasmine trias (aloha!) yep. whoever that reminds you of. hhas. the only thing im excited about is the many salvations. URGH! excitedexcitedexcited! jumpjumpjump with excitement. okayokay i have to go for POWER NIGHT! hooh. someones coming. yeah! take care.update again:: )

FIRE!

heyhey people. im super recharged now. was set on fire at the 'fire conference' on fri and sat. i have that zeal burning in me now:: ) im glad i made an effort to go down. i really thank God for all that he has done. the presence of God was so great in that place. oh, and we had a HOT preacher. hohoho. an evagelist who won 100 millions of soul to Christ. imagine that! the whole indoor stadium was filled. just looking at the many people that got recharged, im sure the harvest in singapore is here! yeay. and so off we go, all the laborers of the fields to claim what is the Lord's :: ) may the devil sit alone in hell and all the people, to heaven we go!

footprints

One night I dreamed a dream,
I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that
during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord, that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that
during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"My child, I love you and will never leave you.
The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you"

this story moved me deeply, i hope it did the same to you:: )

holidays!

heyhey. its in the midst of the June holidays and all the students say 'hooray'! but all the graduating students cry 'BOOHOO'! it may be the holidays, but for us it is equivalent to none. supposedly 4 weeks of holidays is now reduce to only 1 week. classes after classes; it is all so tiring! but i guess this is our only way out if we dont want to be crying when receiving our o's results.
oh yes, this reminds me of something earlier on this year when the previous batch of graduating classes came back to school. mrs tan wanted the whole class to turn up that day to witness the 'ceremony'. but as usual, only minority showed up. anyway, there was alot of cheering going on at the start when the principal was announcing the overall results; we made a great improvement! but the thing that caught me by surprise was when the students took their results individually, many started crying. i just dont get it. i thought we did well? then how come so many are still caught in despair? sounds rather terrifying, isnt it so?
therefore, the morale of the story is: we've got to study doublely hard to get satisfying results! (okay, i know, ridiculous morale)
giddi-up peeps! time to arm yourself with textbooks, lots of revision notes and assesment books and burn that midnight oil!

happy birthday to darren!

special dedication* HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARREN!!! wee-hoo!
hhas. okayokay jus in case you didnt know, today is darrens birthday *clap-clap* okay his already sixteen but still possess a mentality of a young boy. somewhat those of Mr Bean:: D WHOOPS:: / i bet his dying to kill me now.
actually, i dont really know what to blog about. but i know i just have to to avoid 'mosquito breeding'. away with dengue and malaria! oh mama. i understand how lame that was:: / okayokay. i think i shall talk about the death of mr cliques. it is actually this drama at the edge to end of the whole series on friendship that jeremy has been preaching about. it was totally hilarious, and CREEPY!~ the very first time we host a funeral at edge. it was totally.. speechless! can u imagine, they actaully brought in a real coffin; it was totally hair-standing! hhas. nana was even worst, she started screaming as though she saw some kinda bedroom monster. LOLS! but it was also veh funny lah. alvin's version of amazing grace, sheena and jinguo's weird rap of dont cha. hhas. yup! marvellous job, drama crew:: D
actually during all this series on friendship, i really feel that God is dealing with the innermost me, something that i myself never realised; failed friendships.
along this journey of life, many times i got entangled in failed freindships. it was hard, really hard to breakaway from these chains. and even if i managed to get loose and move on with this journey, the hurts and scars that was left behind from all the struggles i had to break loose hadnt healed. morever, i developed a phobia, i shun every rope that i encounter, not wanting to get tangled up again. i pray may God deliver me from my phobia and heal all these hurts and pains:: ) and i know He will. amen!

i believe because of this

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you ask me why do i believe Jesus id the Son of God, and this is why i do: )
maybe some may say that Jesus lied. but, look at this, if it was you, would you die for a lie? He was given many chances to turn back, to confess if he really is not the Son of God. however, he still chose to take those lashings and the crucifixion. isnt this too much of a price to pay for a lie? even to his very last breath, Jesus stood firm and never did he waver once!
then you ask me, could Jesus be crazy. well i say maybe. but think again. the sermons that he preached, the wisdom that he shared with man, could he possibly be lunatic? the definition of lunatic is a person who is suffering from an illness of the mind. by nature, a person who is crazy would reflect it in his actions or his speech. however, noone can argue and deny on the wisdom that he preaches in his words. then how can a lunatic man possibly speak with such wisdoms? by claiming that he is God, there are often tough questions that are thrown at him, yet he always manage to answer incredibly!
so, my one and only conclusion is, indeed Jesus is the Son of man! he came down to this world, to take the sufferings to set you and i free from sins. yeahyeah! isnt this a great news that it should be shared with the world? yeahyeah. and this is why i believe!
the above information is taken from "Beneath that Smile"

breaking the Da Vinci Code

the content of the following post may be considered sensitive to some. therefore, pleases note that whatever follows up is read on the individual's on account.
yeah. im here to blog about the latest uproar on the Da Vinci Code that will be releasing next week. i know plenty are excited and are awaiting the showcasting of this movie. well, it is a great suspense movie, however bear in mind that this is a FICTION movie/novel. even Dan Brown says so. the historical reliability and accuracy of purported facts is very low. some facts in the Da Vinci; the movie the Da Vinci is named after Leonardo Da Vinci who drew the'Mono Lisa drawing' and there is a claim that he left clues of Jesus' romantic links with Mary Magdelene in the painting. the words found on the painting is 'so dark the con of man' the truth is, the sources of which Dan Brown obtained these information is from the gnostic gospels which lacks any grounds to take it too seriously. the gnostic gospels are were written by author who uses the name of the apostles to gain credibility.
the next claim in the Da Vinci Code is the'secret gospels'. it says that the bible is a book that was collated by constantine, a Roman Emperor and this Emperor on purpose suppressed the gnostic gospels that contained jesus' human traits to hide the real identity of jesus for political reasons. however, it is not true! the gnostic gospels were not included because the only books and letters that were associated with an apostle or associate were considered acceptable in the bible. the gnostic gospels were also branded heretic by other highly regarded church leaders and not constantine.
i surely hope this is a form of enlightment to those that have blindly believed whatever that you have read. many people tend to get taken in by whatever they see or read. however be that minority that gives an intellegent critique of the movie/novel. after watching the friction, look up the fact!
the above information is obtained from "Beneath that Smile"

mid years blues!

'oww. boring' many would complain for the mid years is here again! : P
for most of us, i guess we'd be drowning in overwhelming stress right now. i am also in the mids of my mid year but not exactly experiencing that amount of stress: ) day and night, i still think about fun, fun and more fun. WHOOPS: / see that guilty face of mine!! hhas. i think thats the reason why i really screwed up most of my papers lah. i have to pay the price for my laziness; cant be helped!
but to those out there putting on weight due to stress, try to take it easy. it may not be a good idea to tense yourself all up before the papers, you might just go BLANK! uhoh! but of course, you cant be so relax like i am. this, you are already blank even before the papers!
so, to all those that are still in the mids of your 'stress days' all the best! exams will be over in no time; )

a craving to Blog

just recently, i have this great craving to blog: ) i just dont know why *and so i wonder*
hhms. but i do have something to thank God for; for two dear souls. these two has willingly accepted the invitation to the Edge for the past 3weeks. i really enjoyed their presence and even more, being able to see them at church. im just so thankful and grateful for them: ) i believe God has worked in their lives in a way or two and that they have received something as well. friendship, something very practical and applicable was preached. i had good responses from them and i was over the moon. woo-hoo!~ but that was kinda the jovial part of the story but i guess i should be more than contented for it.
just when hopes are high, something just crashed me hard on solid grounds. they wont be visiting with us anymore. i was totally devastated when i heard that. i was lost, dint know what to do. and for such a 'cry-baby me', it was a natural instinct that i begin crying. hhas. i know you would laugh and say what a 'weakling' i am. but the fact is, it meant alot to me. it may be ridiculous for you, yet it is something big for me. i have been facing discouragements after discouragements, i just dont seem to be able to pull myself apart from it. God, why is this so? sometimes, i cant help but feel like a failure. probably now is yet to be the harvest, i truly hope these souls would be reaped when the harvest is right.
so cheers! like i said, i am contented for the past few weeks, it is indeed more than enough: ) but i shant give up. i believe and pray for a breakthrough. AMEN!

mosquitoes breeding!

OHNO! mosquitoes are breeding in this blog because its STAGNANT! hhes. alright alright. a quick review on things that has been happening:
sports day-i totally enjoyed myself that day and the thing which i loved the most; 4e4's class spirit. thats the way to do it! 4e4 'you're the man'! hhes

youth net rally- well. this is like the most embarassing thing. i mean, have you ever heard of anyone dancing at church? well, guess what? we have it here in our creative minstry at VFC. exclusively region 7and8. hhes. oh dear. and we like have to do it again at the edge this saturday! last friday was enough to make me shake. This sat? im sure to go all wobbly! wish me all the best: ) hhas.
God's work in my life- i think its all part of last week. i never realise that God was trying to reveal to me something initially. but of course, i realise it afterwards. just last week, God showed me a few fellow sis and bros that are struggling, i guess, in their spiritual walk with God. well, i dont deny that i am one myself. but it really makes me ponder, and definitely tears me apart. many of them have became 'weekend' christians. i know its not for me to judge. i admit, the things of this world is appealing to follow and its hard not to oblige. you'l be seen as the 'outcast'. isnt that so? sometimes i really feel like im the only one left standing, that makes me wna fall like the rest have. but hilda said to me, "God is standing here with you, you're never alone!" and so, im never gna give up because God is here with me!

be that GATEKEEPER

heyheyhey! okay i know my blog is super stagnant so here i am to add a glow ;) hhes. remember i siad i was very dry spiritually the last post? now, im better. but not as much. well, i guess thats better than nothing. hhes. hhms. i really wanna thank God for this weekend. he has revealed himself so real and he is doing things in my inner being. its like i havnt really been 'an angel' lately, holding grudges against someone. and its like i feel so BETRAYED. for that, i shant go into detail: D but anyhow, today i had class after morning service and the teacher somehow was adressing to something of this issue which surprisingly was not in the notes. and 'amen' to what he said! -the amount of hurt a person does to u can never be compared to the amount of hurt Christ beared for us. like totally!~ that word convicted my spirit so badly!! it must have been God! and i thank Him for it: ) then also at edge last nighjt. God too convicted me on another issue. okay, jeremy is preaching on a series of 'gates' and ytd he is talking about standing up for our generation. then recently i have been lukewarm(something angie mentioned during discipline) hot on weekends and cold on weekdays; i totally hate this! aiyah. then its like i felt so convicted last night cus i am like watching my generation destruct themselves yet im not doing anything!! how could i? i have found the answer to true life yet i am not sharing this joy!! Lord please forgive me!! ressurect me at the gates, let me stand again: D be that GATEKEEPER!

i know you miss me:)

heyhey people! its been soooo long since i last blogged. wellwell, thats like eversince school started. hhms, 3 weeks or more? hhas. cant blame a person who is computer-less:D yup. now its in the midst of CHINESE NEW YEAR. and i know all the chineses kids out there are enjoying themselves with the money rolling into their pockets;) well, im one of them as well- but becareful not to lose them all at the 'black jack table' LOLS!
okayokay. time for some updates for the things that had happened. school has been busy. well actually not really but i realise i have been making myself busy with nothing. feeling veryvery dissappointed in myself. its like eversince school started my spiritual life totally went downhill. i dont want this to happen, but it just did. well, all i know is that i never want to go away from god, never again. its like life will totally take a 180degrees turn. sometimes you'd feel like 'woah im very happy, happy the way i am'- but that is just superficial. but the fact is everything is going wrong within yourself. aiyaa! its hard to explain:/ all i know is im trying hard to cling on, cling on to this vertical cliff. its hard, im tired, not knowing if i'll make it to the top. but i know, i'l never never let go of the rope. Lord i pray that this rope will not snap either.

oh my! tomorrow!

oh people please! can you imagine?! schools reopening TOMORROW!! so so fast. 'like totally-'(hhas. nictan!) i so totally dont want to go back. i want my holidays! simply cannot imagine that im already sec4. im like 'me? sec4? u gotta be kiddin me!' LOLS. yah. a whole new year at school. im awaiting the days ahead. i mean, im excited to know what does the future holds. i want to know like what will happen the next day and stuff like that? hhas. wont it be interesting? okay. i understand that is something only God knows. hhas. jus bringing it up for fun. WHEE!- yup. love you people!

give thanks:)

heyhey. happy new year everyone! regionD had a thanksgiving party on the 30th last month. it was really good. i mean it was well-organised. oh yes, appaulse for jireh and jacinth. marvellous job done! hhes. we had like really fun games and stuff. food was GREAT!! basically thanksgiving party is a time for us to give thanks. hhms. im speaking the OBVIOUS?- lols.
yahlohyahloh. so here i am and i really want to thank God for alot alot of things. okay. its like when i really look back at 2005, i realise that God has did so much in my life. i have grown tremendously ever since the start of the year. whether it was spirtually or mentally. there is so much i have to thank God for. but most importantly i really want to thank God for His countless blessings upon my life. God has really blessed me with friends that are so dear to me and even a father who dotes on me. He has strengthen my relationship with my dad and im so glad!! really want to give all my praises and glory unto Him. thank God for making me who i am today:) dont forget to thank God for everything he has done for you;)