a teary christmas

'the Christmas party' at VFC. wahahas. anyone who missed it *boohoo! u missed the melodious, beautiful sounding 'd'youths at caroling. LOLS! ok its like last night i totally did not sleep AT ALL! i stayed up and i did last min christmas cards for some of my beloveds. BUT i forgot to bring them out of the house:X WHOOPS! oh yes. my daddy send me and michelle this morning despite having worked through the night. love you upside down paps!!
everything in the production turned out rather fine. we the youths sounded great:D nothing really cropped up except for the sound system during the drama. the greatest thing of all would be the salvations. i dont know why but i felt the desperation to reach out to the unsaved at that moment and i kept praying and praying for the souls. praise God the turnout was well! i know all this would not be possible if God's hands of blessing werent upon us.
the thing that upset me most was that i was expecting my paps to turn up for the production, but he didnt, he overslept. i was so so discouraged. i teared:( but i understand that he has not slept throughout the night and would naturally feel tired eh? i dont blame him at all. i know that God will eventually make a way;)
then i made my way to my mums for their family Christmas gathering. ok. long story short, when we left, i was suppose to go to the nearest MRT and my mum forgot to tell her husband than after that blahblahblah and they started shoutin at each other(they started having disputes at the home already) but the thing that angered me most was that they quarelled in the presense of my lil brother. like can they spare a thought for my bro? do they even care how he feels? i really hurt for keith, i teared, AGAIN!
a tired and weary Christmas. but i still love JESUS! happy birthday Lord!!

HOHOHO says little miss santa;)

merry christmas and a hohoho! hhes. yes! the time of the year that i have been waiting for. yes yes yes! LOLS. silly old me. im like so excited and happy about Christmas YET i have no plans for Christmas. oh except for the production of our church tomorrow morning. and then to mum's place i'l go. yeah! i'l see my darling KEITH. i miss him so:D ' all i want for Christmas is my two front tooth' giggles* oh i met my beloved wei today. hhas. i heard about all the happenings in timor. well, actually not all lah;) yupyup. next year is MY turn. i dont care!! hhes. loves loves. dont forget the real reason why we'r celebrating Christmas is JESUS.

thank God i found them! its time for FTP;)

im all excited about another new year at school! oh, of course not the o'levels stress, i just feel that this is the season for FTPSS. yes! no doubts. all along i know i want to make a difference in this school, but i guess its either i wasnt sensitive to God or its that it wasnt the harvest yet. but at least now i know that the harvest is here. and i have found the right people that shares the same calling with me:) yupyup. i felt that God has placed a plan in me-im going to win FTP for Christ!! hhas. i know i can do it;) if God is with me, then who can be against me?
ehs, but i know it might not be as easy as i said. i know even for a case like this, its going to be hard. to face the persecutions, the opposition of the enemy really brings me down. but i know with God with me, everything is possible, everything:) yeah!! im all jumpy and excited. the harvest is here, GIVE ME FTP!

sing a christmas carol~

ho ho ho merry christmas people! well, actually not here yet lah. but real soon;) and im all excited about it! 8 MORE DAYS!! hooray!- oh yes. and now our youths are busy w carolling. aint that cool? hhas. we did a block reach out via carolling. imagine havin people coming at your doorstep to carol for you. hhas. wednesday we went to melody's house to carol at her block. some were excited to hear us, actually to be exact, minority. others just rejected us, or not open the door when the peep through that tiny door hole. one was even worse- she SLAMMED the door at us!! *OUCH!! but its 'persecution' in a way and my aunt says that it is blessing to be persecuted for God -_-" LOLS!
oh yes. and today, we did carolling at a bishan CC. when we got there and saw the place we were like"please dont let that be the place!" but it was. its like those 7th month 'ge tai' thing hhas. and we were like practising before that like crazy can?- but all in all, we did well *thumbs up people* hhes. so come sing a carol with me;)

discouraged, BUT I WONT GIVE UP!

im looking forward to the upcoming encounter, really looking forward to it. i've been to it already. its just the thought of winning my 5 to encounter that gets me jumping in excitement. i know i'll be able to do it. but that was in the start, really. now im so toatally discouraged and disappointed. im being turned down, even for that one soul that really gets me looking forward to- yihong. i actually broke to tears when she told me she couldnt make it and to take her out from the signup list or mark her as absent on the day itself. can anyone understand how i feel inside? i simply feel that all my hopes are dashed! yet i dont know who to talk to now that hilda is not here. even for weijian, he says he has to work and says that he doubts he will be able to make it. huiling rejected me hard enough. i just dont know. but thankfully junsheng has agreed to go. i know im happy even if it was just a soul.
even that im in the midst of all this discouragments, i know im going to stand firm. i know i will be able to do it! with God, all things are possible. im not going to take any of them off my list. im going to pay for it and pray that they will come. i know if i keep praying, i will see a breakthrough. i will defeat all spirits of discouragement. amen!

holidays are soon gone in a wink of the eye!

heyhey people! how is holidays going so far? for me, it has been rather boring except for the works God has done in my life:) YUPYUP! that im super excited about. LOLS! 'let it shine let it shine let it shine' hhas. oh yah i went out with cheryl on wednesday. if you'r wondering who she is, shes my pri school best sister! 9 years of friendship, its hard to keep;) but we did it!! oh yeah. we went orchard together, and my cous tagged along too. that was a super tiring day because early in the morning we had to send the timor team off.
oh yes! the timor team. they'v left for east timor already. sobsob* that morning all of us suppose to be there at 820am to see them off yet enghow, michelle, felice, me havent even left bishan at 840am!! arrgh! then we still took a bus down thinking it would be faster but it was otherwise:( stopid rongjie called me halfway saying that it was last call already. im like'WHAT?!' and i almost broke to tears. but of course, we managed to catch them in the end. thank God! i knew he would answer my prayer;)
people do pray for the timor team. i dont know why, i have a feeling that it is a difficult trip. but i know they'r gonna accomplish great works for His kingdom. its all in the spiritual whelm. we've gotta pray, pray, pray!!
p.s aww, i miss the timor team. espeacially xiaowei and hilda!!

hunger for the lost

remember i told you guys about how god has mould me through the weeks? yep! now i realise that god has planted a desire for the lost in this nation in me. i dont have to go abroad just to touch lives. there are many here who is living in desperation, and what they need is God. his LOVE, MERCY and GRACE! yet, time is running short, so short. our prince of peace will be back so soon. by then, it will be too late for the lost souls. please, my fellow sister and brother in christ, there are still so many souls that has yet to experience the amazing love of our marvellous king! we cannot just sit around and do nothing. we need to go out and share this good news that we have experience for ourselves.

youngsters in our nation, living in this influential society are taking their own lives, turning to drugs, cigarette, relationships, gangs, etc. to fill the vacuum within them. yet never did they know that these are all temporary fillings. they hold anger, rage, unforgiveness, past hurts in their heart because there was none to teach them how to let go. hearin the cry of this nation, can we still sit around and do nothing? its our responsibility to go out and share the word, be a friend to them. exchange their all and all for god's joy and peace. if you'r not going to move it, then who wil? who will? please respond to the cry of this generation, they need to be touched, they need to be touched! all of them deserve a chance. they really do.

now its just me and my TRUE PRINCE

really thank God for evrything he's done in me so recently. i realise God loves to use my holidays to mould me:) hhas. for the past few weeks in november, pastor miguell and family has been a blessing to me:) i guess God really worked through him. im going to SHINE and SHINE for God!yep yep! my fellow bros and sis in christ please keep me going, i dont want to stop burning for Christ! even during the sessions at the youth camp or i can say the sessions with the miguells, god revealed to me alot of things that are really kept and locked inside me. though i never realise them, they have been hindering my walk with God. and now that i've realise them, i am going to surrender it all to God.
i really dont know how to express the good works that God has done for me. really. nor can i express how much i love Him. its like, nothing matters to me now. all i want is God, all i want is to live my life around Him i really do. after reading this, many will probably think that im a God-maniac. maybe i really am but im jus so on fire for God and i never want this fire to go off- never! i believe im going to acomplish great works for God. i know i can i will and i must! hhes. and i also believe God has so much more to work in me and also for the rest of u:)

happy birthday, my beloved

it was xiaowei's birthday just 2 days ago and we gave her a big big surprise. i speacially BOOKED a night time slot with her on her birthday, because i was afraid if i didnt book a time slot in advance with her, she might not be free on her speacial day:) hhas.

this is the thing- i met up with her alone and she was rather disappointed, thinking the rest of the youths at church has forgotten her birthday. cheeky hilda and weijian did not even wish her when she called them. she was really upset:( but everything was already planned:P then i brought her to fork and spoon for a drihnk where weijian POP out, followed by yihui. hhes. the bigger surprise was awaiting her at the 40 storey building. the rest or maybe some of the yoouths were there ready to give her a surprise. it was a little chaotic due to miscommunication:X but in the end they still manged to surprise her. YEAH!

yup yup. happy happy birthday my dear girl. i sure hope u had a great time and enjoyed urself at the sky garden;) yummy CHEESECAKE! hhes. takkaire darl and i wish you all the best in the upcoming year. may God's blessing be poured upon u abundantly. love ya!

Jehovah Jireh, the Lord my provider

people, let me share with you a testimony, its real. u'll find it amazing. it wouldnt be possible without god. hhas. this happened last sunday, when i was at church. at the end of the service when the offering bags was passed around, i actaully put in everything i had in my wallet and that leaves me broke for the rest of the day. i tought i'd have to starve for the day. but that wasn't the case. God blessed me with what was more than enough. the thing was that after service, my aunty actually asked me to join her for lunch, and so she paid for my meal. then, i went for this party which my mum insisted that i go to. so i went. and there i had part 2 of my lunch. woah! but that not all. later in the evening, i was worrying how am i going to survive for dinner. then i received a message from my girlfriend asking me to with her to her friend's house which is holding an open house for dinner. and i was like'woah'! it must be God. when i was on my way there, my dad suddenly ringed me up and asked if i wanted to have dinner with him. see what more can i ask for? hhas.

really thank god for that day, for this testimony. he really blessed me and He is real, so true in my life:)

a splashy great time with 3e4'logists

it has come to the end of the year, the end of 3e4. sobsob. yeah, enough of those emotional stuff. hhas. well well, 3e4 had our very own poolside party! woah- doesnt that sound amazing? erms, actually all that means is that we had barbeque by the poolside hhas. the 'poolside party' was just to make it sound nice and tempting to go to. lols. anyway, it was held on the 11th of november at diane's condo. yup. its a very beautiful place with a very nice pool( to push people into) mwhahas! evil me:D

we did a BBQ cum potluck thing. majority of the class turned up.. except mizam, hafis, jahafar, nazira, henki, abram, ben... cant really recall who else. but mrs tan and mr leong(form and co-form) came. the REAL 3e4 gathering. ok, the mouth-watering part. we had goody food. jammy marinated the chicken wings, i didnt try but who tried went for more, hhms.. tempting? we had very very good satay. aiyah! all in all we had super duper good food. a pity for those that didnt turn up. hhas.

our class is actually a very divided class, thus i tried to make use of this opportunity to draw them closer. whether or not it was successful i dare not say anything yet. but me, huiling, quek en and vivien put in alot of effort to bridge the class together, espeacially those quieter ones that are always in the worlds of their own. ok now to the climax, when everyone was there we started the BBQ. i didnt do much. hhas too crowded many of them were just too enthusiastic in helping. hhas. then when the skies start to darken, this is where te naughty part begins. the naughty part always starts with the naughty people- benjamin and gang; opps. i mean nerds( thats the way they want to be called) hhas. splash! and u know what that means- people being pushed into the pool. yeah! my favourite part! the first to go down was our very own alvin. wahahas. then the whole gang in a way or another went splashing into the pool too. then they started eyeing others. celine was the next togo. hhas the most dramatic one- as u know, our dear celine and alfred is together. so naturally when benja and the rest attempted to push her down, her hero would come and try to save her. but he failed. but no worries, they'r still with their happy ending;) keep it up! oh yes and al the United 5 dropped in. all for one and one for all. hhas. other that plus shaiful, the rest was spared because of the "kind" security guard. rrggh! no more 'shows'for me to watch hhas.

overall i really enjoyed myself. enjoyed the food, the friends the mrs tan time and the splashing show. wahahaha! yups! love u, 3e4!

-choas

after so long. finally!

opps:X havn't been updating my blog for... lemme see, 5 months. its rotting with that two boring posts. anyway, i have not been updating my blog because i hardly come on line and i actually forgot my password and username. lols. how forgetful can i be :/ yups. so heres another interesting entry. hhas.

lets start from results. guess what- i actually did better than i expected, thank God! i know i wouldnt have made it if it wont for Him. hhes. well, my end year results really motivates me to do even better next year. hhes. i can, i will, and i must! its the end of the school term already. how sad. the end of my beloved 3E4:( but, its also the start of a brand new 4e4, cool! i seriously hope there'd be improvements in the way we are. let us be known not for our mischievous'ness but for our guai'ness. hhes. well well, next year is gonna be a busy year for all 4e4'logist- so step up people! hhas. not to take things as lightly as before. oh man! mrs tan will not be our form teacher next year. sobs:'( what is 4e4 gonna do without her? its hard to survive u know. seriously, the thing i like best about 3e4 is our AUNTY JOANN! i hope we gave her the most unforgettable teachers' day surprise. aiyah! she was just slightly away from dropping those tears of gratitude. oh what a pity! :Xopps.
*a message for my dear aunty joann: hey teacher, just to let you know that i really thank God for blessing me with a teacher cum sister-in-Christ like you:) hhas. i know it has been a blessing for you to meet me to:/ opps! hhms. anyway, really wanna thank you for all you've done for the class. you have made a difference and left deep footprints when trespassing through my life:D i'd never forget you! aiyah! our two souls- huiling and benjamin. they'v both kinda backslid but its kinda expected lah. nevermind, i still have a year to pull them back. u must also lend a hand;) hhas. all in all i just wanna thank you for everything and im gonna miss you!
with great gratitude,
carmen

hhas. sorry for the long post since i hardly come on line. its understandable if u give up reading after awhile. lols. shall end here. update you the next time when i come online again (which i dunnoe in how many months. CHAOS!

uncompleted

oh dear! lots and lots of uncompleted homework. not in the mood to do any of it. huiling and ben came to my house, suppose to complete our maths homework. but we ended up more attratcted to the television than to the dull worksheets. huiiling did tried tackling some of the questions. what a hardworking girl. hhas. yup! not a bad day. the only pity was that i did not make it to edge. oohh~ sorry sam, jo and nic. lols. ask u guys there but wasnt there myself. so sorry.
jus so filled with the Holy Spirit after the encounter retreat. i'm simply all crazy for god. praise him for everything! hhas. im made anew, thank God. yep. derek's birthday today. happy birthday daddy! hhas. my dearest dearest daddy. your daughter loves you! mwahas! its late, i've gotta rest early. early service tomorrow. going to surprise nic and sam. gd night!

Launching of blog!

*clap claps. The launching of my ever first blog. Congratulations to me. Hopefully this blog will enable me to share with others of what the Lord has done in my life. Sometimes its just difficult to hold back about what the Lord has done in me and for me. I just can't wait to share this joy that is within me. Yup! Do be a loyal supporter on the series of my blog. hhas.