Going away for a short holiday tomorrow. With my family to a place where we've been going since forever. I can't wait to go for this short break to immerse myself into new old surroundings though I'll miss you like crazy and I wish so badly that you were able to come with us. Who am i kidding? not many people know this, but besides losing someone you love the next worse feeling you can ever feel is to love and want someone that doesn't feel the same way about you. I've experienced the first emotion and am currently, suffering the latter.This holiday means so much to me. Though it may not be somewhere far and 'exotic,' it will be somewhere where I can hopefully get a hold of  myself, and stop the things that are going on inside my head. I hope to be able to focus solely on myself and my family and to laugh, enjoy and live. Cause she's been doing it for so long without me and without any consideration for my happiness. It is enough that almost every happy thought and memory brings me back to her. That when i wake in the morning, the first thing i do is to check my phone for any messages or calls from her. It's enough that when I plan to go out with friends, i think twice about it if she is free on the same day. As cliche as it sounds, I've lived everyday 'for' her. Do I think i deserve better? I don't know. I really don't. But for now, all i ask for is time.Time to heal, time to feel and time to think. 

Open up the book you beat me with again.

Read it off one sentence at a time.

I'm tired of all the lines.

Convictions and your lies.

What right do you have to point at me?

'Breakdown'- Daughtry