i'm sitting in the lib. in front of a comp.( like duh right.) and waiting for fiqah to reply. cause i need to edit the gpp. and i dont even know which of the strategies we're keeping and which one we're dumping. today started off at abt 9 plus. cause i had to come for some moe discussion thing. where we feedback to the ppl how we felt abt our sec school. it was okay but somehow i dint feel very comfortable. maybe cause i didnt really know anyone . today is a very 'my mind's a jumbly wumbly' day. somehow i'm qute efficient today. and very task oriented. something very rare these days.
mid years is in abt 1 month time. and i am absolutely frightened out of my wits. how do they expect us to mug and at the same time do so much outside . like wth. nic ong came to pasir ris yest. but sadly couldnt go see her cause i had some exco meeting. which ended up with just 15 mins of pathetic discussion and the rest was all talk.
i never knew being in exco wld be so tiring. like there's so much to do and teachers keep hounding you for stuff though its not even up to you. what did i get myself into?
somehow amid all these stuff. i feel like i've lost my center. have you ever gotten that feeling? like you get so involved in everything around and there so much work. that in the process , you lose yourself. okay i dont know abt that. but i do feel that way. i need to seek solitude. be alone with myself.
3rd june '09 3:48 pm
though it hurts; trust that its for the best.
