let me take a back seat. cause there's nothing left. i'm delirious, in a state of undress. my mind's rewining. reliving the past.

open up the doors.we're moving fast.

when you have nothing nice to say, just shut up.

so you trying to show that you're the only one who can have moodswings? you're the only one who has the right to snap at someone else and make someone feel so bad abt herself that she can't even look herself in the eye when she looks in the mirror? i don't know what to do. cause i'm confused. what kind of friend makes you feel so 'low'? i've been taking it all in. and i've been silent.but under all this , i'm gonna break.

last saturday accompanied my mum cause her students were performing at the malay heritage centre (i think so) so woke up pretty early at abt 6.30am and was out of the house by 6.45. took the mrt and stopped at bugis. had breakfast at coffeebean. ordered a mocha ice blended.it was damn good. then walked to the place. we reached there at abt 8 plus and the performances was suppose to start at 10am but there was already ppl 'chopping' sits. kiasu mann. went into the auditorium to meet the students who were still getting ready and putting on make up. the place smelt strongly of hairspray. both primary schools and secondary schools were taking part. sat around while waiting for them to get ready. felt slightly down when watching them get ready. its just that , the atmosphere there was different. i watched some of the older dancers helping out the junior dancers despite not knowing them. there was a kind of 'kampung' spirit. so different. it was definitely kinda eye opening.then went out for a while to get some breakfast for the students. and got some battery for my camera. and finally it was time to watch the performances.


















they're nice people. (:

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

so today went to the beach with broc. the day started early at 7 am. much earlier for broc though. cause we met at pasir ris mrt at abt 7.30. went over to my house first to place her bags then slowly made our way there by foot.

it was quiet and peaceful there. imagine the sunrise, the sea breeze, the waves and the coconut trees. we walked and talked and finally found a suitable place to sit.

then we flew the kite! haha. ok no. corrections. broc flew the kite. i kinda just watched her do it. then when the kite was up in the air. she passed it to me. turns out i'm actually a pro at kite-flying cause i made it go higher! (:

then since the tide was low, we went down to the seashore. beautiful scenery mann. but it stinked cause we were near a huge drain thingy. but o well. nevertheless, it was great!

actually, most of the time was spent just talking and slacking. i enjoyed myself and it gave me a chance to forget everything else. it was fun

pics will be uploaded soon.

even though i love you
I CAN HELP THINKING BOUT IF I'LL BE BETTER WITHOUT YOU
if we stay together
IT COULD GET WORSE THEN AGAIN MAYBE IT COULD GET BETTER

something's wrong we both know
that you and i still got a long way to go

we're working on it (:

so yest went to knc with chanel and sarah. took a really long time to decide where to go for lunch. parkway or kallang leisure park? so there we were at the canteen there, deciding. which was for a really really long time. but in the end we decided to go to kallang. ok then we got on the bus.

sarah: you sure this bus goes there?
me: i don't know this is my first time gg
chanel: ya this bus goes (*very confidently)
.. (10 secs later.)
chanel: i think

haha.i kind of expected it. anw. we eventually got there. they wanted to eat jap food and i was like no no way. so i ended up packet-ing kfc to the jap restaurant. the place was nice. but according to chanel as quoted ' this is the worse jap food i've ever eaten' i felt kinda bad cause there i was eating my delicious badito pockett. haha. then went off to find broc, had this long talk with her. i think we'll make it through. (:

ok then after that went to watch tjc vs mjc match.tjc won! (: tjc is good mann! i really hope i make it there

so that's basically wat happened yest. later gg to whites sands to meet sis and then probably just walk around and stuff.