sometimes goodbye's the only way

great disappointment yesterday.
o well. thank god you guys were there for me. (:

went for an hour long run yest
and went to do weights too.
*sigh*
came home and really couldn't keep it in anymore
so i cried
mum comforted me and kept telling me that
it was not my strength and to not take it so hard
effort was put in but i wonder where i went wrong.
?

school seems quiet without the sec3s.
but funny enough ,canteen is still as pack as ever
tmr going to esplanade there to listen to poetry.
with the rest of the core lit ppl.
finally smthing to look forward to
o ya. practice later too.

current cravings: gummies, mum's brownies.

i feel like deleting this blog.
not sure whether ppl read these things i type anw.
-sigh
yest was a very stoopid day
had SS CA. i think i screwed it up
i didn't manage to finish the paper
thats the prob with me
study so hard then in the end its not
the facts that i don't get right
its the time management
i was exhausted
i had slept only 4 hrs that night cause i was
studying SS
then the night before i slept only 3hrs cause i was studying a maths
sigh. another *i-don't-feel-so-good-abt* paper.
to make matters worse
i had GAP
so i cldn't go for their match.
(congrats on winnning it btw!) (:
i really wanted to go and give you guys support.

and i received a note from ms S to go see Mdm L.
it was like the bloody cherry on top of everything else i had to deal with
had an enjoyable and memorable talk with amelia before GAP.
we were talking abt the ppl we wanted to keep in touch with even after 10 years
found out things abt ppl i was oblivios to.
all in all, it was great to just relax and talk abt everything under the sun
walked around school aimlessly with her too.
found a slope at the edge of the school which i never knew existed
it was great. (:

what i need now:
-sleep
-doughnuts

and you

i think it was you that i saw
but i might be wrong

today past by veryfast.
first it was a maths with ms L talking abt some tangent line thingy. next it was HMT. and we were in the comp lab searching for some articles. and then it was english. spent the whole lesson reading the newspapers and laughing at those ppl in the papers who thought that osama bin laden and and barrack obama were brothers. (one's a terrorist and the other's a presidential candidate for the US.)

then it was recess. played frisbee with nic and broc.(: i don't think i shld have eaten that spicy noodle before playing. my stomach felt like a washing machine.

next it was physics and we did experiment in the lab.it was quite boring. didnt do much anw. the refractive index that i calculated was 1.60. and the correct one was 1.50. o well.

now its chem and so that explains the free period. today going to go study with nic and ame. most probably at MPL. but not sure though. i am so not ready for the a maths CA this wed. i can't believe we have to memorise all the trigo functions which is so ridiculous. i am so screwed. then i have a maths tuition tonight at 7.30 to 9.30. i better make sure that i cover at least 3/4 of the topics today. *sigh.
i better go get started.


you just have to accept it
and learn to move on.
that's just life

someimes i wonder. were you for real? you said 'it's not what you think'
then what is it? of all ppl, why did it have to be with a 'friend' ?
do you know how i cried myself to sleep the day i found out?
do you know how cheated i feel?

can you pls just leave me alone?

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

now having free period
so this is gonna be a short one

went to play frisbee with oli,cui and broc
haha. oli and cui one team.
me and broc the other team
haha. so tiring. broc's passes very haywire
she throw then kena intercept
then i throw kena intercept.haha
oli just throw one pass to cui then can score one point
haha. nevertheless, it was FUN. (:

next is Amaths.
ms L again.
omg. i don't even get what she talking.
and i sit at the back so it makes it even worst.
o well.
i'm so broke.
paid $17 today.
$9 for physics
$8 for malay.
sigh

o well.
i gtg now.
stooopid bell just rang.

see you soon. (:

i try not to think of you
but it's becoming harder everyday
i wonder what you're doing
and where you are
looking forward to the next time i see you
i know it's not right
but i can't help it.

i remember last night clearly
just like many times before
i almost told you
but i held back
(just like many times before)
i'm not gonna last long
i miss you badly ):

yesterday was my last sec 1 campfire. seems like a long time since my own campfire in sec 1. I've completely lost my voice. so anyone who wants to contact me, don't bother calling cause i won't pick up. trying to round up sec 1s without using my voice is really hard. i really pity teachers with very soft voices.

school's been pretty....crap. first thing teachers said to us was 'THIS YEAR IS A VERY IMPORTANT YEAR FOR ALL OF YOU. YOU ARE GOING TO TAKE YOUR O LEVELS. SO NO MORE PLAYING AND NO MORE HAVING FUN' well. they didnt really say it like that but that's what they implied. so much for a 'WELCOME BACK'. sheesh.

its only the first three days of sec 4 and a few of us are already feeling so stressed out. how long are we gonna last if this keeps going on?

so what's left to look forward to?
okay let me think....

firstly,
coaching tao nan. that'll be fun i hope.

secondly,
the upcoming math CA
ya rite.

thirdly,
having one lesser subject to mug for

lastly,
seeing you
(:

sometimes i can't help but wonder

i can't sleep. my head is hurts. my everywhere hurts. crap. tonight is going to be another sleepless night.just like many nights before, with me lying face up in my bed wide awake.

i'm worried.I know you're pissed off.its not that i planned to lose my voice. it just happened. i've tried all kinds of things. drinking water, eating honey and even not talking. but nothing seems to work. the thing is this wednesday right? i guess you guys have to do it without me.):

but no worries i'll be there to watch. (: