people have told me that thinking too much is bad for you.
those are wise words.
everytime i think about it,
my mind just can't arrive at a decision.
both choices have their own dire consequences.
and its tearing my mind apart just from thinking abt it.
people also have told me that if i want something,
i have to go all out for it.
to forget the past failure and focus on the goal.
but what people don't understand is that its difficult.
past failures are suppose to motivate you
to improve and do better and hopefully achieve your goal.
but what if that failure just further discourages you from doing that exact same thing?
overcoming that barrier between success and failure is the first step.
after doing so, the rest of the journey gets easier.
cos your heart and soul are working together to achieve that ultimate goal.
but after all that's been said , that is the most difficult part.

now taking a break from mugging chem. only at chp 2. and i have like 6 more chps to cover. sheesh. so sian. and i haven't even started on physics yet. shit.

school last week was boring. nothing happpened. at least none that i know of lah. been burying myself in school work and books. i only have like abt one month. to prepare for mid-years. i am so screwed for maths. surprisingly the a maths CA was okay compared to the maths CA. kinda weird cos all this time, i've been struggling with a maths but not with maths. but maybe it had to do with the fact that i revised for the a maths CA but not for the maths CA. but anw. i have no idea why but i'm always feeling super sleepy in class. take the a maths lesson as an example. it was the last period last thursday . mrs loy was gg through some modulus thing. and i felt really REALLY sleepy. like i cldn't even open my eyes. jac saw me and she was laughing cos i had to literally hold on to my eyelids so that they'll stay open. its weird cos i slept like at 9 the nite before. sigh.

hmm...i'm feeling kinda hungry. i finished my gummies, apple, honey stars and 3 lollipops while doing only 2 chapters of chem. i really should go and stock up on snacks before continuing mugging.
.poor thing. the life of a mugger. tsk. tsk.