woke up at like 12noon. then had to bathe and rush out of e house to fairuz's house. My knees were like aching damn badly. shit lah. anw. syaf was there with fairuz. so we went up to her room. then surfed the net for a while , looked at some ppl's friendster too. haha. i won't say whose. we were planning to watching vcds together but ended up playing truth or dare. lol. i got to know more abt some stuff. mann. i didn't know these kind of stuff were going on. am i that oblivious?? haha. anw. i asked fairuz one question and she till now still haven't reply. i'm so sad cos syaf and shah know except me . like wth? she said that if she told me the answer then it will lead to smthing bad. haha. if i know then smthing bad will happen is it? wat logic is that? lol. i know this post is kinda short but it would have been much longer if i would have typed all the stuff that i got to know today. but too bad. we had to kind of swore that the stuff would have to be kept secret. we played for a little while longer, then after that we had to leave. cos she was going out.

so we left her house, and me and shah decided to walk to the interchange instead of waiting for a bus. so on the way there, i tried to get the answer out of her. but no matter how much i pestered her. she won't say a thing. ): sigh. i really want to know leh.

anw. i just got to know last night that i have to be running 4 by 400m relay and 400m on sports day. mann. I can't run for nuts. I really hope i can get ppl to take over me. cos i am SO not planning on running. damn lah. i'm also real nervous for school. cos i dun want to get back my results. cos i know i've flunked each and everyone of my subjects. i'm not even confident of any of my subjects. especially my english. i am so screwed for my eng compre.

btw. i'm real sorry to syaf and fairuz. cos i still haven't get you guys your presents yet. will get it soon though. anw. i think i shall just stop here . i shall go and eat my dinner.

trying to make yourself more distant from me
is doing more damage than good.
it kills me to see the way we are.
now everytime we talk.
you seem as though like you're uncomfortable.
and it seems as though like you were holding back
your thoughts and your opinions.

i'm still the same though.
the same person you were with at obs.
the same dumbo that constantly likes to irritate you.
shit lah.
i hate this.
I want things to be the way it was before.
Before all this.
before that girl told me that 'thing'
rest assured. i don't believe her.
I never did.

FINALLY. its over. the suckiest week is over and done with. one week of intense studying made me exhausted. its like my brain juices are all soaked up. if i have to do this every term. I tell you... i will die. haha.

today had chinese new year celebrations. it was damn boring. cos maybe of the fact that i cldn't sit with my frens but instead had to go and sit with the prefects. don't get me wrong. its not that i don't like them its just that i prefer to be with my frens instead. lol.

after school had to rush off cause had to buy that SOMEONE a belated valentine's day present. but too bad it was out of stock. so i called her and told her the bad news and she then started to tell me a string of other things that i cld get for her. lol. like wth?! adidas this. adidas that. haha. she really is obsessed with adidas.

yay. this 4 days are going to rock. i can feel it in my bones. haha. no more keeping up late doing last minute revision. no more gg downstairs to photocopy notes. no more freaking out when i realised that i had left my txtbk in school. its just gg to be me and my non-sensical ideas. hahaha.

maybe having a get together this weekend. just us slacking and watching vcds. so guys if you ppl are free , call me k? then can organise smthing. btw. to that someone, thanks for the present. i love it.

AH MOO. WHERE R U? I MISS YOU.

FINALLY. its over. the suckiest week is over and done with. one week of intense studying made me exhausted. its like my brain juices are all soaked up. if i have to do this every term. I tell you... i will die. haha.

today had chinese new year celebrations. it was damn boring. cos maybe of the fact that i cldn't sit with my frens but instead had to go and sit with the prefects. don't get me wrong. its not that i don't like them its just that i prefer to be with my frens instead. lol.

after school had to rush off cause had to buy that SOMEONE a belated valentine's day present. but too bad it was out of stock. so i called her and told her the bad news and she then started to tell me a string of other things that i cld get for her. lol. like wth?! adidas this. adidas that. haha. she really is obsessed with adidas.

yay. this 4 days are going to rock. i can feel it in my bones. haha. no more keeping up late doing last minute revision. no more gg downstairs to photocopy notes. no more freaking out when i realised that i had left my txtbk in school. its just gg to be me and my non-sensical ideas. hahaha.

maybe having a get together this weekend. just us slacking and watching vcds. so guys if you ppl are free , call me k? then can organise smthing. btw. to that someone, thanks for the present. i love it.

AH MOO. WHERE R U? I MISS YOU.

i'm feeling quite shitty rite now. I shldn't have started that conversation with her yest. i din noe why but i just had to clear it up with her as soon as possible. but just as i started telling her abt it . she got quite emotional. it made me feel guilty and wrong. but .. somehow i felt somewhat better and more relieved. even though i 've told her abt it. i haven told her abt the thing where i got freaked out. i dun wished to tell her and i dun want her to know too.

ohh..right now, im at fairuz's house and im feeling kinda weird right now. i dunoe why....somehow...i dunoe....actually i dun feel like talking to her..but somehow, we need to just get past this thing and get it over with. blah blah blah. i dun feel like talking about this shitty thing anymore.