actually frankly speaking, i spent more time with viwawa and dota players more than my friends. come to think of it, i do regret sia. all those fun times with them i really missed. will i be like last time? lol, last time my everyday was so damn packed, from meeting friends to eating dinner with my girl friends.. to all out there, dont change when you have gf/bf. must still go out with friends. sia la, i think i now professor liao lor. anyone have relationships or loveship problems can ask me sia.. well, i cant solve the problem but i dont mind sharing my ears with you.. haha. anyone want a consoler or someone to talk to, please contact me. hahaha 24/7 de leh... lol donthave my number, can just leave me tag.


i wont disappoint you, i'll be there for you (:

actually to all my readers, i dont usually blog everyday and i think not much people will come and view my blog especially de. haha so paiseh. i'll blog whenever i feel like to.

to begin with... this month was a hard one for me.. had so many problems that i couldnt solved. felt so helpless and useless for the first time. maybe i just need someone to by my side to help me? actually, think not many people know what happened to me right? okay, firstly i'd broken up with my girlfriend. didnt say out cause i didnt really expect this to happen. saddening it may seems, but i need to stay happy and go on with my life. i've learnt alot from her, and i think i no longer the small kid everyone used to know. surprising uh? haha, okay la. i admit that im UGLY! hah, but i got a good good heart okay! well, now my goal is to train hard, get muscles! haha, and study hard. trying to improve on my looks. lol w/o doing surgery of course... GNC and GYM TRAINING here i come. (who free can sms me to go training together) actually, i thought to myself... instead of thinking how to patch back.. i should actually think of how to win her back. lol chim uh? for now, we both are happy the way we are right now, being close friends (: but i promised to myself, i will make the both of us more happy then now.. okay laa, enough of crapping. now about school work... whoa! damn stress la. i pon almost every lesson. dontknow why... alot problems just come in lor.. i also dontknow how to handle sia. i think this blog hor, is for me to vent anger or to spill out everything de. its like no posts for a few months then suddenly one long essay for you to read. haha im really very sorry. i'll try to post everyday.. (:


bear with me, and you will know the true me... >o<

HEYHEY! IM BACKKKKK!

sorrysorry! i think i didnt post for a long long time, and people thought my blog was dead. been busy la. not with friends but with games. saddening uh? i didnt know that i spent that much time on games than on friends. i truly regretted. and ya, dont think people will come my blog view. but just a sudden feel to blog, or maybe im too bored? haha. been rather sad and moody recently. i'd lost a great great textmate, listener, shoulder-lender, and someone i can confide to. seems rather sad? dont be please. cause i think i did bad so i dont blame anyone but myself.

1week of holidays had GONEEEE! please save me ah~ my CT coming soon liao. why my friends all enjoying holidays, i need to study?! wtf la. damn NYP! hahaha. and today's FATHER'S DAYYYYY! hahah. need to give my daddy a big nice warm hug! for giving me money when i needed and driving me to places i dont know. AH PA, THANKS SIAH~ :DD eheh, and wenqian.. if you happen to see my blog. THANKS FOR THE CONSOLE ALL THAT! really made me feel better. and you'll always be my childhood XIONGDI man! hahaha. and to all out there.. dont neglect your friends, they play a important role in your life. cherish themmmmm!~ (:

so many things happening around me. good, bad, happy, sad, all kinds! anyway, just a word of reminder, and im not refering to anyone. dont get sensitive please. and everyone's thinking are really different man. childish, matured, over-reacting. i dont wish to say anymore, cause' i just feel that just a simple making of friends could turn out into a war. and love do make people do anything. scary uh? anyway, insulting they may seem, do you think of what you said before? it may also hurt people and you didnt realise. and please. not all are perfect. learn to ACCEPT! (: whoa, i now right, learning to pon classes. LOL! my classmates, especially that bastard, always late one leh. say style hair for 20mins or more. pathetic right? nyp sucks sia, ecce course no use of laptops de. cant online and chat, and cant CS! boring man.

and so, i'll try to start blogging yeah? so please start viewing more and more. hahahah, and that bastard rocks, know why? that bastard made my day everyday. poly life so high siol. wahahha xp

couldnt find time to post but here i am! through thin and thick, i realised that its time to let go. carrying all those worries and burdens inside me just made me worst. letting go of all the burden now. from others i may look emo and bored person but they just dont realised i've more to worry than them. all those reasons made me realised, realise im a complete fool.

anyway, 2weeks of poly life. omg! damn tired la. need rush here and there. and lucky i got my ec0809 peeps with me! everyday was fun but whats even fun was getting to know each other. till now i may not know their flaws but im beginning to get the hang of it. as usual im one of those jokers in the class. ^^ hahah. my class comes from all types. including dancers, model, jap-siao guy, army guy, and alot more! xp i'll try to update my blog everyday if possible.

and one more thing....


sometimes you make someone beside you worried and sad, and till now you will never know. cause they never mind about it. so dont make them more worried and sad please. (:




hurting someone; unknowingly ..

yesterday was fun! haha. nyp orientation day! woke up at 6am in the morning, prepared and went to meet patrick. haha. went to school together and saw tons of people crowding at the auditorium. hahaha! wooo, what a rare scene. i saw all types of people including tall, short, fat, skinny. emopunk, nerdy, pretty, handsome kinds. hahaha! okay i admit i toot luh but i seldom see so many people in nyp. haha! anyway my orientation was like crap at first. need go auditorium hall to listen bullshit briefing. and i SLEPT throughout. haha! pathetic uh?! you can say that. lol! ;D then i follow this group of people out. and surprisingly this was my year1 classmates. i looked at all of them. wow! to my surprise, my class actually got pretty ladies around. hahaha! somemore got myanmar, china, indonesia peeps around. haha! cool right?! anyway, we toured around the school with our OGLs which also known as orientation group leaders. haha! our OGLs ziyu and simon were damn funny. hahah! they see us tired thn asked if we wanted to rest. next minute, we were at koufu sitting down talking and having refreshments. lol! after that we went to our classroom, and saw our PEM! hahaha! was dreaming of a hot form teacher but in the end he was a HOT old uncle. AWW~ ahaha. after his introduction to us, we went to the sportshall as a class to play games! it was like boring cum funny cum interesting. hahah! contradicting eh? lol. in the end met up with tanjiayi, lokekitchun, patrick then went home myself. oh forget to say that my class code is same as my birthday! what a coincidence! wahahaha. EC0809! rock on~


Shy at start & crazy in the end. amazed me -

today was a boring day for me! argh! i spent my whole saturday waiting for her smses. had to blame myself cause' i stayed up late at kitchun house and ton-ed along with elson and edmond. though we had fun but it all still comes to an end. haha. we walked home and edmond went to sleep. elson was preparing to go out with hejiayi, weesan and tanjiayi. then i stayed at home. i didnt went along cause' i was overly exhausted and didnt have the strength to even walk to toilet.and you think i got the strength to walk and carry bags? haha. so i tried sms-ing her as i soon bian lied on my bed. so i planned to find her at night, but the bed too TEMPTING LAA! my eyes was going to close and i tried to hang on. until 9pm+, i cant tahan then fell asleep unknowingly. hejiayi called/sms-ed me but i didnt notice. aww! sadded. missed my chance. and i woke up at around 2am when it was alr SUNDAY! i had numerous nightmares and i couldnt sleep well. maybe is because i missed her badly. hahah. i woke up running to my laptop in the living room which i forgot to off. i saw weesan and elson online. i thought she went out with them. hahah. so i asked them for her whereabouts. but they told me that she might have reached home or something. or i tried sms-ing and calling her. but no avail! the longer the time passes, the more i get worried.. please get home early and let me know you're safe. t.t


family do leave you, be strong & live on your own.